She thought she knew
everything they didn't.

For so long
And especially this year, I've been forcing laughter.
Faking smiles.
But then you came along and changed everything.
When our eyes lock I get butterflies in my tummy.
When your name lights up my phone I swear my smile could light up the night sky.
I can't even control it,
It just overflows.
You know how in the movies there's always that one girl?
You know the one smiling like an idiot walking by herself through the halls?
You've turned me into that idiot girl.
And the scary part is,
*I'm beginning to like it

One of the worst things
is wanting someone in your life
but the both of you
are too different
that it's just impossible
to keep them in it.

Its sad I'm not able to tell you everything
Everything about what's going on
How sad I've been lately
How I feel every night
How much I want to cry
The reason why I want to be alone
Or the opposite
And always want someone by my side
Its sad that we're best friends and I'm still not able to exactly tell you how I feel.
Its really sad.
-te