when i first met you
i was scared of your warm skin
that touched my frozen hands.
your voice melted into my ears,
and make your "hey" sounded so
beautiful in every way.
we talked about everything since then.
i still remember how your voice sang
about her.
your voice were screaming into my ears
hoping, begging me to help you.
"I want her to stay" you said.
"I want you to stay" i whispered.
odd.
i never actually told you
how much i wanted you
to stay.
how much it hurts me
to listen to your songs.
today,
i told you the truth
"but i don't care.. i still love you" i said
i don't.
because you told me
that you will always love her
and that you'll hate yourself
for that.
"I understand" i said. "I hate you"
I don't.
this is pretty complicated for me to write this.
i love you, i do, i do. i think.