I have no way of escape my clostraphobie. Slowly suffocates me till there Isnt any air left for me to breath. This big vast world will never seem to surprise me or tell me I'm insane. My emotions play every wild card till it drains my energy even if I try and try to keep my cool. My heart is as big as it could be for every tear I try to hide. I feel powerless while you stabed me in the back. Society plays tricks opening my mind up with lost. Hope regrets. My energy drins I just died. Rapid emotions runs with full speed taking me on the verg of losing my mind. Rapid emotions have taken my life making it a never ending nightmar you can't just get up an move on

Rapid emotions **** as you slowly go insane till there's nothing left to catch you from the dead

I see threw my eye eyes and every ****** up mistake i have made. life is what makes the truth appear. even every fake identity to hide.  people say to you when your next mistake will cost your own life. i rather be alone so i don't have to think about ever mistakes that make your own self. this world is like a cloud of regrets. theirs no possible to redeem your self to prove this world wrong. society is a regret i feel has no limits only mistakes that plan before hand.

lies on regrets lies all plane lies your own mistakes make you more experianced for the next generations shine

have you ever had that feeling where you just need to let your mind explore.
that powere you have deep down.
that feeling of what you really want to follow threw.
have you ever just want to run just to get the runners high.
i have ran thew the woods with the rain pouring threw the tree canapy.
all you have feeling is how to channel all your emotions so you wont be dead.
have you ever wanted that magical feeling where only the rain gives the perfext sun light with the mist spraying on you body.
i have ran miles threw the woods but i have beengiven wisdom as time pases me.
i feel like i can truly spready my wings and just ruffel them up.
i hav people follow in my own impression.
are you crazy or insane.
my angel wwings have gotten bigger and stronger cause i have just ran freely threw the woods.
nothing can get in my path cause your making a risky mistake.
dont tr to stop me or get to close to me cause you not mak it out alive.
when i run threw the woods i take my paint brush and paint how i see this world.
thers no time for fear when u can just be freely alive and not dye.
ill be bye your syde when you need nurturing around you.
ill keep you safe with my dark angel wings witch can hold off dangers of what so sciety has to offer.
i cant be traped or mind dead cause i havent been ****** up in this silly games.
i have the entire world of woods and tropical forsests to roam around freely with no frear so set me free.
if your want a place to run free with naturses beauty?
then follow your mind letting it free.
so follow what your heart says to be free to let your angel wing spread open up entirely finding new hope for you to be  free.

People say my blue eyes look like a kristal ocean. Sadness seems to make people wonder if I am crying or just down In the ditch. Every one looks and glances deep in my blue eyes hoping not to cry.

I hide my blue eyes so no one will know I'm not crying but I'm just a kinda person with the affect on people. When they notice my vary vary blue shinny sparkly reflective eyes.
  

Sadness invite eyes leave a message on the world saying its okay nothing could try to beat the rules.


They say my Russian blue eyes scare society and people when they get traped steering at my eyes
.

Seems like I have taken there souls with out a breath to freedom



I'm Russian with blue eyes.

My eyes will look sad but that jut how they look blinding people with unforgettable love

Your love is rought nothing you have done will every be good your words your love is buring scares onto my flesh when you hid from me. Word will never be enought to show you the pain i suffer nothing will ever be able to show you the world i live in. Hell is where i live like blads sliceing your souls away. Your love is like a gun you pulled the trigger shooting me in the heart. Theres nothing left there nothing even worth saving when im gone. When i walk this earth i will whow you my world i live and see. But there now point of showing you bc you will never understand me till the day we split away from the truth of you killing me

I have no way to tell you how much waging wares I have to fright.

I have no way out to set free my mind.
I can't find love cause you will whisper to me you hate me screaming every. Mistake you made chasing me away.

I will never beloved even tho my heart is screaming in fear hoping to never be alone.  


I wish I could scream my hearts content telling you how much I don't hate you even if you leave me behind.


Even tho my sad heart is going to be lost I will be hoping for someone to know what Linley Ness and sadness feels like.


My heart screms with hope and lost thoughts that drift away.

i lay softly asleep with no fear. my dreams have the escape to bring hell and anger. my anger grows as i sufficate from what your pathetic lies you put on your show.  my lungs take in air an breath out dark smoke slowly leaving. i scream in my dreams from you posining me while i sleep. your ****** lies tea m life apart. all i can feel is strangleing you to shut the **** up u have traped me under my skin and i cant scream cause i will expole with pain. not even the most stronges pain killers could take the stuberness under my own skin

n o one can hear the screams cause if u do u wont know what will hit you off your feet

Anger anger tearing me apart losing my controll seeking nothing but revenge. Split ends leave ****** horror that leaves nothing but destruction. Words will set a blaze in it's path. I'm tired of lies you  put down. Blinding the path we follow to breath.  I am a riot I am a war I am a leathel weapon I am your enemy I am your worst night mar I am the reson you can't function I am the reason you will never unleash the beast inside you I am your biggest fear
. I have self control only time to put away is anger threw my ****** shed ways to escape your grips.



I show no resistance but aggression if I can't hold self control only me making your life a living fear and a living he'll

im tired of being traped like a animal in a cadge. let me out to take to the streets.
let me roam around exploring what i need to see. nothing cant hold back when you hold my anger back. you push back me ill attack you slashing you apart. set me free to go insaine let me o free in this world of mistery. let me free so my viloence  wont be come like my long claws scaching down the chalk board. set me free to learn how every lifes misterys. set me free to enjoy the littel things .let me free cause im not a animal that is tame. im a animal witth dangerous claws that can slash you apart. set me free to take off  running. set mee free so i dont **** you when you lock me away

your words has just went around saying your life away.  just say nothing cause when the ******* have taken every thing? all that left was my trust of your. your life is nothing but worthless lies that only make my anger stair right threw you.
your lies are just shatter'd lies

your voice is sollum by your voice says nothing but your own truth you dig your own grave.


i have been told lies have only took lives to there own death.


my friend you have tryed to guid me well but the ******* lies when you leave this town.


i thought you could trust but i have vanished into the deepest part of the shadows.


your words have only hurt me but my voice says i have healed and i dont have to care.

Every day is filled with nothing but empty promises all the hopes and dreams just shattered broken emotions that feel so heavey it leaves a trail hurt but moving on is for the better falling in love is nothing but a dangerous path when you love your partner so much when they dont even love you all they do is manipulate and pull your strings to get everything from you leaving nothing but a trail of destruction love will sink but hope will always float bringing a new day with endless possibilities to take on even if it leaves your heart soul body and mind with no more energy just follow your heart it will lead you to your meaning you are her on the earth for

Day will only leave knife marks. Can I breath can I survive? Am I alive or am I dead inside to angery to ****** to ******* made at what lifes **** will change. I have a danger inside. Me that will turn the full moon into a ****** war that only leaves scares you will never escape from the grips.


Deep down I have the scream building in me T night dressing my wounds I endure every sun rise.


My voice is soft with kind but my reflection I see in every mior all I see is a mess who. Can't and never want to see his own self.


I am vary quiet but that's just my life until I snape turning every thing In my world upside down with nothing left to survive



I can't. Take risk of seeing
My eyes when they turn glowing red with the crimson red I shed in my battles of he'll


I know I amm insane but breathing in every ones white and pure black lies is like smoking a vary addictive drug you can't escape that suffocate you.

night falls
but i dont
all night awak
with nothing to do
with nothing dut thoughts
sun rises up
i look out
my mind is crazy
so am i said
my own counsious
breaking
sleep
going slowly insaine
scared ashamed of what a perfect mistake
being what you were made
finding out what you are
seeing the freak in your own eyes
society screws and kills
my eyes are blood shot
more less sleep makes me want to scream but i need to know my store
scares fill my face making you look like a train wreck that cause the scares

who are u do i know you
are you the threat of me
shouldi just keep going crazy
no answeres have been made
your all alon in the big wide world
normal people scare me when i freak out when they come near me

no sleep turning me in to a scary monster at 3:00 am just like when u see ascary monster i am the scary monster

poepl look at me i might be kinda paranoid since every ones silence
i dont know who i am expent my every mistake.
i splacsh water in my face
but that dosnt change a thing
this wold has no boundryies
i see the reflection of my self in ther meior
i puch the mior shattering glass in my fist
anger grows deep
when society is just a mistake you make

i go insaine do i follow or decay

i feel like every breath i take when i am angry fill with smoke that takes my soul away.
every mistake i have made brings me and you closer. i want answer's that will tell me the truth.  why do i have a demonic life with smoke that fills my lungs! how angry do you have to make me till i lose control and go on a rampage. how long before i can get my own soul back.i am a demonic being that will take a life and rote it to death. i stand alone with anger that spits all your ******* lies out. im going to lose control and show this world what life with out a soul will be like when all you breath smoke in your lungs that destroy you life roting your mind away wiht only

ANGER
HATRED
DISPISE

smoke filling my lungs with only anger and *******.
i dont stand along with the crowd i stand alone away from societys ***** triks.

my demonic life has nothing but darkness that writes my life storie of what its like to be in hell.



smoke fills my lungs cause thats whats going to happen when you trade your soul for what ever greed needs

so trace my foot steps ill dissapear like the sun dose every day.

smoke fills my lungs cause i'm just a broken soul that has no where to go exept rain hell onto those whoe made my life misrable enstead

I lay threw a field of flowers stuck in a inreversable daze watching the world turn from night to day. Rain may come violent storms pass threw watching my younger self fade away threw the existance of being high no pain no fear nor anxiety no panic. Just relaxed in the worlds words seeing life play down as lifes like a card game. Or just watching the world turn and evolve


The smoke in my lungs fill my mind with lose thoughts no regrets no pain just the feeling of comfortable

I walk threw thick or thin but I drown in the **** that hits hard. They said I was weak but I walk with a lite fuse like a hand grenaide! You fight blood shed breaking into riots bullets fly society will **** you as you try the hardest to prove them all wrong with the back staging ******* behind you. No escape just gut wrenching nails digging into your mind stoping a new way to iprove but society will not wast words only a gun to your head with no last words just BANG your Dead.



Deep in me my aggression grows as I wait to pull my pin exstingwishing every ****** who stands before me


Society kills but the twist a new enemy as I will tear the ******* who made inovative ideas turn nasty torching what is left


Society kills but there's nothing left for them to **** if I start a wave of riots.


I am the enemy of a demonic mind


No one will die cause I'm seeping out of line setting my road even if it mean getting chastise

no trust just lies that burn holes in my mind why should i say i actually want to be apart of society. i don't want to be held down the weight of what they say will make me want to strangle all of those who ****** me off. i don't agree to follow social media. theirs nothing healthy of society just you will end up screaming your lungs out like being trap'ed in a box or room wheres theirs no place to get out or any air to breath.
what do you breath is society's lies that will make you want to **** every one of them.

i rebel i don't agree with society i don't want to be forced to live in the land of **** face people who i don't give to ****'es about.


society is nothing but madness and sadness i ******* hate. suffer in silence they say! but isn't that what we all do every day in this world. no forgiveness just broken traders who have no point to try. **** filled rooms you end up having to learn in.

people in your way only leave you angry cause they can't even ******* walk.

i don't agree what society is suppose to give. but what it makes you have is a bad taste in your mouth you have to put up with this **** .

yes no OK yeah promise yeah right society is nothing but air you choke on when i stair right down at you. all your ****** mistakes make you a better person hell no you only suffocat on the ******* that you wait for to make time go faster.

i am venting apon what i have to do all day **** this this theirs only words i can't even wait to say

i'm done listening to the problems that are the same as every one elses.


say something new that's worth listening to

society is scared of peopls big ideas.  they all have small wispers saying they cant change the ideas of the ones put in place !
this world should be afraid of me cause i have ideas that could free the ones who had nothing wrong they did.
this world should be afraid of me cause my ideas are strong and officiant and will throw the leader out of his game.

im not crazy or insane. but i will lead one idea till the coruptness ends and no more lives get taken away.

if you want me to go insane on you try me cause i wont let people suffer cause peope ith ideas have ideas that can change the torture and blood shed.


ill go complet ****** on all  of your ***'s till you take the ideas of chang for a better way of life

holding in theses words of anger holding the words of false hope. i ponder what could be said if i were to talk. but i just sit back and watch all your ******* lies dig you deeper. when my silence is strong is the promises you broke. you told me every thing will be okay when it will all be over. look at your self you dig your ditcch deeper like a grave for every ******* lie you said. some time i just want to grab you by the throught screaming down you lungs. words that come out leave the ones stunned. you  stole from me and broke the trust that only end ur last storie.

some times my silence is violent ******* you all off from what you have said.

my silence will grow heavyer as your ******* lies destroy your pathetic life

some times my silence is explosive so watch what ******* ****** up words you say!!!!!!!!
my silence only makes you mader for every ****** up thing you ******* over on

my silence is violenct when i have nothing to tell you you ******* my silence is my defence key to protect my mind from you hurting me.  


silence is the best card to play cause its better to let a time to go ap **** on them

i speak my poetry with no regrets all my words that deep down is the spoken truth of what i think of you. i lay awake all night with no thoughts. you cross my mind but this world isnt strong enought to keep us to gather even if its tommarow. i feel my mind racing with my heart raccing to gather. i could run but what would that do. i dont want to hide i want peace or if not we will bring the riot to **** all of you. the powerfull needs to be taken out. the ones who need to speak are the oneswho you prisioned in the shadows. the un heard voices will come out and flood the stage. we wont back down all the voices now will be heard with force and not pain or misery you shut off..

for every voice every word will create a river of what the strong and the fearless the fear will rain terrior on your grave we stand to gather in the rain and tell the world our storie bring colors in to the dead society

i can paint every color if i dont like it i know if i dont like it.

i can spray the pain over the imperfections that.
what would i do i this world can be my canvious.
i might be be stupide but i am running free. all the paint i have spprayed over you has covered up on our voice you lied

you push me on to the stage
with all those bright lights
shining on me my fear of what words being wispered
i start to choke up feeling anxiety that starys making me shake
all the people just looking threw me
all i can do is  feeling my heart racing with my mind following behind
my hands start to shake when i feel like i m going to puke
i feel like i cant breath when every ones face turned blank
i feel like im going to pass out even if push me to far
the mike is listening as the day turned round
all that you havee done is turn my life upside down when
i couldnt speak
look at the entire crowed just making you fear for what they think you want to say

all i feel i can do is feel my heart and mind racing behind
you took my confidence away from me you took my breath my tears away that lead nothing

you broke me and tour me apart.

theres nothing exept my trust that u broke


all i can hear is my spoken poetry that hides deep in side me


scared my anxiety is out of control i want to to puke on the floor i feel shaky and cant talk im frozen in my spot

my trust be gain to freez  

my anxiety diggs it claws threw the back save me cause the stage fright is making me a wreak  alive


stage fright has taken my life to hollow me out

I lay awake at night hoping for the cold chill of night to leave my breath visible to your eyes . I see last divin threw the night sky at time ripped a hole threw my mind. When I lay away think about you my spine has chills running down leaving me feel cold god take the erath as wind blows the chims creating sound of bliss and hope for all man kind . I feel paralyzed when yoy run you hands down my back leaching me wanting more of your touch as we both strive deep into echother blue eyes

worn out like rag doll. being thrown all around from the little kid who has been your entire life.

being in so many adventures i hope my stuffed arms hold for the breath taking rides we will endure. my heart has watched u all of u grow up.

years and years of love made me want to say i know life gets hard but that's not a reasone to give up or love your dreams.


when i have looked in your eyes i knew that you were going to do and become along the way.

but i'm always hear if u just need me to hold something soft to cuddle when u'r ready to cry im just your stuffed doggy you have been given to you.

life will get harder but ill still be here when u need to hold to feel better about the problem in life shows  


remember :) im the rage doll u loved

society is a huge scary place. but we have the choices to follow or creat your own path?i know that stress sufficates our own minds. the whole world is made of mistery and questions. have you just felt like you can make that step to finally come out from the shadows. your never going to be alone? cause if you take that step you can tell me your able to make the right disision. society is a big scarey place to be

BUT WHEN YOU BREAK THE FEAR YOU CAN UNLEASH YOUR INNER DEMONS!!!  YOU CAN TAKE YO*UR OWN PATH !

YOU CAN BE FREE TO FIGHT EXPRESS YOUR MIND?

have ever just wanted to become the new society with out all (THIS ******* THAT SUFFICATS US)

WHAT DO U WANT TO CHANG::::::::::::::::::::))))))))))))))

What if i told u that i have lost someone vary dear to me!
every day has no ending its a chapter book with endless endings that keep going. this world has so much danger how long can i keep going when war and corruptness spreads like a disease. wild fire that spreads taking the lives of people who cant fight any more! every day has a new change every trust is a simple whit lie so no one suspects the dangers coming a head>>>! what if war broke out would you fight for what the gavernment wont show. surviving any threat is the way friend ships stays. evan if you cant trust the friends who burnt you and ******* you up taking your only thing dear to you.


I ask you what would you do even if it involves fighting death and war and riots all alone


for every person whos lives were lose i place a red rose on the dead for the nature (RIP) what would u do is you had nothing left to even live for. i wouldnt let go i would keep writing my storie in the chapter book that never ends the pen on paper never stops

you lie awake seeing nothing but the fan spin all around. the truth is real your life is a lie. if i take the pain away what will be my next role speaking the line you were told to survive. today is as what yesterday was. how long is the the path to run away. the feeling of being high brings me peace but what will it come to me. falling to the floor seeing the room spin with no grip to life up. every night i grow more open minded to what life would be life to have some one grab my be for i slip off the cliff into insanity. my reflection looks at me and says love isn't real when you are high. every night growing more skid dish not able to face reality. i am my own mid night stuck in a trans of endless mind lies. losing every thing you loved before will be your next score. i'm a mess when i just can't find my grip. i'm growing more  ****** up as time takes its toll on my life away from people who loved me.



theirs no place to hide or run away only inanity will play your life's roll. away till mid night locking your self away from from society till 48 hours have been passed starving the crave for you next score. i hear to force my self into reality. my grip is slipping looking down to the  huge rail road bridge plunging to my endless road where angels will erase every thing that made me the mess i have to realize life is free from night and day is the real reason why i only come out at night no i won't be seen.


being the mess my reflection keeps telling me i'm not crazy or insane but lost in a world where society scares the **** out of me taking the mess i have become

love is what reality will make your life open to ideas that will make you love finding some one who will always have a open heart to cry on

i have beat my addiction when i have fallen in love erasing my messed up self into a life that facing reality.


my night mar went away when a girl found me in the world.


i have the ease no more cold hearten twist or never awake.

just do it one more time

Take me by the hand I'll show you a world you've never seen before a life of running free where our love is pure we will light the flam for our romance dont be afraid my love this world is filled with evils and darkness so take me by the hand I'll show you a world a autopia where there no darkness no evil we will run away spread our love chasing all the evils away we will change the darkness into light our love is so pure nomore bloodshed will happen anymore

I'll show you a world where there nothing but pure love that we can change the world with

laying wake every night with long never ending thoughts. of the one person who has been your sworn savior that has kept you safe has came stumbling in the door ritteled with bullet hols. holding him with his blood streaming down your arms to the ground. tears start to fall hearing his last words say you are safe now u dont have to keep running. seeing his dark shad of blue eyes slowly fad away that kristal sparkle fade his words slowly say u will be okay? i said how will it bee along with out u? he sai youl see me some day again. never forget i loved you. this world has nothing but danger that hangs over. my tears stream down my face as the rain starts to fall no one can see them! digging a grave to put my savior to rest with just silence that fills my head. nothing matteres any more. my family an every one lost the fight to protect me the shadow creature. now i dont have any one to be with? his last words fell steep and slowly in to silence nothing changes when u can never stop crying

I drift around like sail boat sailing the open ocean where ever the wind blows my soul drift that direction tears fall down my face from all the hurt you put me threw with all your lies 💔 I thought we would be together forever you made my soul drift away the music of my heart once had a rhythmic beat song now silent from your destruction you may know my name my life story after you betrayed me love goes dark there no light you truth only smoke minors you portay of evil that lies in your heart You leave me in fight for survival

when you have had it all all you want to do is escape from what grips may pull you down to your own memories you want to erase out of your mind. when it rains it washes off the words that sticks deep down in you. but what ideas that have saved your life in the past calming you down.

but when i walk this earth in the rain all the punches and blows only leave bruses but that won't let me speak my mind whit my calm soft spoken words.

my voice is soft in a tone nor threat. but when your word lie i may lose control but the cold rain cools off my paciants.

the cold rain drops make steam off my skin when  i have no idea.


but in this worl my one friend is rain cause it makes life all around us live breath.

i have one walking path to make my path to show every one who needs to find away to survive. even if it mean running threw hell taking the chance to stand up and run till we have found all of our own safe haven.

i have no fear wit what comes next cause its just how this unforgiving world that it shows from its darkest secrets. but what should bee said only when your pushed away from society that you have betrayed from.


your shadows grow long when your eyes turn pure red as evil consums your telling you theres nothing to feel hurt my societ'es sufficating grips that has no end to..


but i have ran threw all the stages and here i have is me writing my own stories of my life that passes by with hope no regrets.


nothing can hold me back or catch me to imprison me.

Baby tell me I'm yours tell me you love me as I lay her with my head on your chest listening to your heart beating tell me I'm loved kiss me take my breath away run your hands up and down my back make me get goosebumps with your soft kisses tell me you will never let anything hurt me baby I love you you are my life my everything your my angel from above

when you saw me all alone. have you realized that i am like a loaded gun that will fire with out a saft'y. have you seen the world behind me. have you realized my life has set the world in a slow spirle. do you know who i really am.

i am a dangerious elemental that can reek havicke that will rip souls out in its path.
u dont want me cause im a dangerious force that will **** you all if you try to harness my demonic power.

what you have seen is what your own mind has seen for you. do you want to see my gift or do u just want to watch me set my ideas lead this world in to flames.

do you want to know me or do u just want to follow my path of hell.

my leaded ideas have set this world free of hell and fire and a world of unleashed demons.


my life is a demonic power .

this world has been set on fire threw the eyes of a dictator.

do you want to see what i have hiden the plane to take down the corrupt ******* that have stabed me in  the back left me to live in the dark but my life has set the plan to unleash my creations to destroy and set the evils of them all..


every one who has been taken and never see again will be seen.

but my idea is to free the souls who have suffered the hand of hell.

your questions ask me well but in this world this world earth should  be afraid of me cause i have a heavy force that is armed and deadly. so people who need the hand to free them will bee saved from the heavl'y armed force working and planing to destroy  
all your fuckking corrupt ******* that has made a huge mistakes.

i see your following but am i now even ensane for you..


my identity has hidden my surprize for all you ******* **'s

cause my secret identity is going to say this bold state ment (IM A PSYCHOTIC RUSSIAN SO ILL RIP YOUR LIES YOU SPRED)

i have these feelings when every one around you is trying to hard. but how can you say thank you when you just want to cry your eyes out. how do you say thank your when its to lat and your tears lready start to fall. that heavey hollow feeling deep inside just makes you cry more&more.; how do u even know what to say? people do things out of kindness. but how do feel when you  just are vary hop full and charresing what you have recived.but if you cry its not bad but it shows what i kind hearted you are.

that one night where we both hung over. from that unforgetable night when it was only me and you.
i have the feeling like i just need to start running on the beach with the waves crashing behind me. i cant stop laughing when i read your text you sent me.
every night i get waked out  on the energy drinks i cant live with out.
i set a huge fire spelling your name out pouring gasoline all over it.
every othere day i wach the world go bye.  i lay on the beach looing up at the blue sky day wondering will i have to live alone in this world. no matter ill just walk the nigh sky following every shooting star that fly's by. that one night we both had so much fun that i wish i could have again. i never knew you moved where i lived in this quiet sleepy littel town.

i listen the the wases crashing down making littel pools drown the small ***** that scurry to not posible drown.
the wet sand feels soft and makes my mind run lose with not fear of what will come to me next.

i never slept with out seeing the night sky with all the pondering memories that drive me crazy.
day or night the beach makes my heart skip abeat seeing every one frolik with energy  that never last with out a couples date.

i run every night i adopted a fluffy husky names shelby. every night the sky plays a great light show.
i set the fire on the ****** with drinks and my  guitar. every not i played touched your heart when you were finally moved in.

the song i wrote played out for any one to run out my heart.
i take my lighter and light the lantern that shows the way back to our small cozy house.
my dog has a big heart with no lilits to swimm across the oceans with me if i was stranded getting swept out the see.

that one night i finally feel asleep with sweet dreams making my frown turn in to a smile not a plaster fake.
i sprung up in the morning my phone started ringing out.
the caller id i read out was your name.
the day grew long with the most pretties sun set with red pink skys.
every fire i make in the night i set the fires to show no hate.

i went out at night with my husky shelby taking off running threw the crashing waves the water is cold but its all worth it.
i thought i saw you checking me out.
i dont think im going crazy.
my dog and me wresting.
i started looking right in your big kristsl clear safire blue eyes light my heart on fire.
when we meet again after years apart.you moved in with me and we started our lives to gather.

i gathered my bag with my guitar my pen and note book. with my mind open with thoughts.


i looked up and saw the dark side of the moon.

ill never walk this deslet world along.

evey night me you and our dog shelby light a fire and undress in to our comfei clothes.
we drink the night away dancing away threw the night.
with the full night sky with every star shining.
the night light show we run and dance till we both feel sick and fall down.
i had a feeling deep down ill be with you again some day when i saw you name id on my cell phonee.

that night where i was just wresting around with my husky i  never thought i would live life with out your warm heart exitment.

that night your text i read out loud has brought both our worlds to gather

i never knew when you told me you were searching for me.
now we are happily to gather till time runs out

i never knew that we both cross echotere  that bright starty night with shooting stars.

i never knew i would ever see you agin to be crazy.

i knew my future would be this amazing with tears of love.

i never knew we would pass echoter on a beach with waves crashing all over the shore line

i never knew if i would ever see you again

i live life with exitement .

i will break the limits to have fun weather were all wacked out on somthing

i never knew my wish i made on the shooting stars would make that night crossing us by

I have no fear what in in me. nothing but pure ****** force. closing my eyes hoping to escape from what was really me at once. i don't know that one side of me. i have pure mind i have sides of me that only come out when there is a threat to me. i might be holding all my identities that will be hidden til anger fear threat will reach to me. I roam threw the dark threw the night where theirs no lights or mirrors for me to look at. there is sides of me i hopes i wouldn't let out. I don't know how many sides life shows. but looking   till the sun dies. so dose my heart.

As I walk this earth the blinding flashes come burning threw my skin this world has been eniolated buy  evil nowhere to hide but fight your way threw hell I survive in the old shell of a hospital when out the broken window the entire city has been burned down to the ground


You can run your can hide but the bang the shockwave you will experience will steal your soul turing you evil


Blinding flashes no place to hide time to survive and fight to the end of time

Nothing seems to matter when she took my hands and told me to follow her into the night we laughed we played we hugged we kissed my heart is burning  with passion and her firery lust she hits me like a train with I feel her skin agents mine every day disappears litle by little when my every hope and my every dream and my every day dream become reality am i going insaine or am i finally happy where i wanted to be

I ran from my life I tryed to escape time the love I had was so reall it only left pain deep down inside my heart I was running from my life and was hit by a car the sound of tires screeching the sound of the glass shattering as I lay on the ground what do I choice to escap from my crazy life or to just spend my life with people who only make it a living hell

I seek the thrill  of danger leading me to live on the edge if fall I will rise tall with my life filled with adventure and risk I cant escap time but I can live strong threw everything

There is just a steep ledge that hangs threw the eyes of thrill seeking death. Deathes hand play's like knives cutting the pictures of every mistake you have made. Looking threw the blue eyes of the insanity of what you never wanted to see. She looks at me but deep down i'm never going to be set free of what I have done. Psychotically insane only the rain that falls that falls catches my skin leaving burn's. Only scares become clear when nights you just lay awake for nights watching the ceiling fan spin around. This earth you will suround the enemies you have made. I see no reason to make a sound. The cliff you jump in the water of regrets will take away the weight you suffocate in.

We are surrounded by societies mistakes.

You are the only one who can turn the tables before the next one gets ****** into being a puppet.
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I see the road to run.



The doll house is being controlled by a puppettear being moved around with no control.


Once I have been enslaved by a puppettear  I'll be a slave like everyone in society

Dresssthe  same be the same as the ****** lies you can't screams.


Rather speed the speed of sound rather than being in no control of anything  no way to escape or speak.


Society screams agony of the ones who don't have enough to speak the mind.


Better feel free or gift all if ideas to beat the comon down fall of being enslaved to your worst night mar where your voice won't be able to make a sound.


The doll house effect should be run from so no screams will be silenced from the gifted creative minds that make society run smoooth like a chain on a bike smooth with nothing rough

Pure energy long lasting. The pure high I drift into and drift out. Trying to chase that feeling I'll never know for the time we have to mature and grow.

I'm not insaine. Buy I am a psychotic machine chasing something you will never be able to feel the same.


I am my own malevolent addiction to stupid **** I'll never win back.


I will chase the feeling of my highs and lows. But I will never end up strong if I'm weak as hell

Every day is new sunrises so do you. even if you feel like you have nothing to say nice.
day by day new challenges fly bye hitting you with out warning. when it rains i rather walk  in the rain so no one can see my eyes . have the time of your life. but it only last only a few min light when your high. when night comes the only thing to escape reality.
the music you listens to carry you along the way with all the wounds that riddle your body.
every thought you think twice but your own ideas have the weight like a ton. your friends have been there for you and so you both have each others backs no matter what.
even if your tired and have little patients all you have to say is ill just keep walking.
the emotions you drown in with every thing the day dreads and loses you in the mix.

but dad by day you have to face your fears even if it means passing you own boundries.

love that emotion is just a ord love is just something that means nothing.

for me i was told when i was little you should never sit down and cry cause youl never have the strong image in you.
emotions walk behind you but your shadow is the thing that has to fight your own evil side to push the demonic eyes away.

life is filled with lies and pathetic people that wast your time.

emotions are the whole thing that human society has to stand therer ground.

day night is the same except that's the way it is night people currl up and let the dreams slumber.

but night is a nother when people only come out when theres no light to hit them.


the thins you said the night before what do u really know what happened to your promises and trust.


my life i walk this earth trying to show my ideas to this world. but this world is afraid of ideas that will change society and every ones time to the good of it.


the emotions have so many things that will bring out in your words.


but i have no regrets or fear what happens to me. cause people fear me and are scared of me for my smarts. but i have nothing negitive to express in my words.


but the sun rises bring the sweet calm breez that flowls threw my long hair but what do u really hear when you listen close. just the music you have never heard of the beauty that will make tears stream down your face.

in my own words you cant fix every thing or every ones problems. all you can be is ears for listening and to suport them untille the end.


i have a life that is full of trapes and surprizes.

im not scared or threaten  by people but why do my ideas scare and threaten society.

but night falls my music plays sun rise comes and my music is still playing but thats the only way for me to deal with life and all its (****)

i walk this world creating my ideas writing away that will spell your name telling you im always listening.

but in this world i can only escape from societys gripps with my music playing loud and drowning people out so i can feel things. in my life as we keep going along.

my life is full of words but my voice will never be heard cause im tired of trying to talk over your voies.


have any emotions like your own appearance ******* you down ******* your strength away wearing you down.

have you just felt your life is and endless ride that leaves burns and blood stains.

my voice has the calming tone's that bring peace to your life.

in my life there's no such thing is war only the rules i have if you show any threat or threaten me i will do the same to you.


every emotion i have been able to control by using my music to drown out every one blaring it away tuning any scream or voice in my way that is only sufficating.


in my own words i have no fears /regrets but i walk this barren world just living and surving any thing hits or breakes me.


but in life/society/emotions. we wont be human if we didn't have any emotions that we have to live with.


i you want folow me  cause youl never have to be alone i am listening to our voice ill say just follow your foot steps and dont let go

i have that feeling when i feel scarred but i go where i want to but what do i even stand for. what the day dose to you is just hollows you out with that worried sad scared for the person sitting next to you. i d'ont know but i feel like i just want to run. when it starts to rain i feel like i'm free and being washed away from all the weight and regrets for every disions you have made durring the day.. all the scares rips tears that linger all over your body. you can keep your games up but ill never stop feeling worried about you that's the truth i have to say to you. but all your games tourching me making my los my mind. when we fight i dont mean it but when we are finally setteled down i feel  that hollow feeling in side me. what all the words i said makes me want toknow if your okay and not any where in danger.

your not carefull he looks right threw you with razor sharp claws. his eyes hipnoties you to draw you closer making you want to know the world of hell's secrests. the book you gaze apon takes your soul and gives you his word. no evil can take my mind only if i chant for him to arrive. his tricks are good but so are you all. you have your mental side to let loose on hell selling peoples minds to vishious creaters that only want blood lust to live. dont let your mind and eyes follow in the hands of him self cause theres no escape when you want to go back

this world i walk alone i have no fear but people in society see the chance to rip into the skin of a person s mind and fills it with lies you cant get away from.

this world is filled with the fire in the eyes of a lire that knows the tricks and card games played write but the eyes filled with fire are the lies they have choses to hide there own identity. behind.  
but the eyes of a lire have no inisents but the grave they started to dig.

i hide my eyes behind a deep blue sea full of mistery and vanished questions my blue eyes are the image of you reflectin back on me .

my eyes have no lies only the cold steair down your spin.

my blue eyes are the cold feids of snow that has no face to be herd..

my russian blue eyes tell a storie of how i have servied. but my russian blue eyeshave never ran with a identity that become a lie on it own.

i might be crazy but in this life i have goals to set me free

As i sit on my knees its vary clear the pain will never leave the sadness willl keep playing with your heart your life will flash in front of your own existence. The cold chills that run down your spine. The love you lost leaving you numb and deeply hurt and broken. Addiction you fill the emptiness deep inside your soul. You tired there no point of careing when everything you creat gets destroyed by people during the day. The money you make seems to slip away when you fall inlove. Control overe you with now escape you want to be loved and held tightly cuddled. But dose love really even exists dose it even have meaning dose it have any real feeling. I have dreams i seek nomatter how hard i work everything around me just crubbles im left to clean up all the broken peices




I want to be loved i want to feel what real but this world is just filled with artificial life

i cant see any thing in front me. i dont understand cause nobody could find me.
deep down on a mountain range. i dont know how far to keep runing cause the weather keeps change every time i let my mind run free. im not afraid of what will run into me on the rest of my mind down memorie lane.  the foggy mist getting thicker heavy'r forming rain clouds. now is going to rainon me cause this terain seems to get more steep as we go. i think im lost with no direction to go. my writers block has came and now its gone .this weather is old i want to make it rain with a sun shine threw the trees. i have lost my track of where my life has gone. i need to let my mind losen its grip of my hearts content to write a love note to you telling you im alive and insane.

there is no point to let go of your own fear that keeps you safe.

I feel like i'm swaying back and fourth with motion I cant stop. All my energy has been shot threw the wind. My hands wont let go from what has trapped me under. Just falling to the depths of fear sadness and hope that something can free me of the burden. I graduate from high school June 6 but the burden even tho the cold spring comes the regrets of missing or trying to ignore it all to gather its self.

never mind following my path you wont find any more for thus I have dissappered into thin air in bread fog

i have crashed in to the middel of the desert. i have lost hope since theres nothing out here to save my words to write my fear of dying. i feel like im spinning in my own memories that fade away. i keep seeing the same patch of rocks. i dont know but i need the cool shad befor i fall over. i could keep walking but theres no chance of sivilization so maybe ill scream and go crazy.  i keep walking the sand rocks. but its just the circles that trapme in my own insaine liitle game. the wild greens i ate have mad me additted to rhe barries witch bring a high.  the heat grows stronger. i even wonder who i am since theres no name to even know me. the san feels nice on my feet but the sun blisters my patciants its own self.  i feel like i am going in cicles  when i dont know who the **** i am. my madness has grew and my addition to the barries made time stop.