you see the boy at high school you send wispers all around tearing him up inside. he say nothing as you just push him around. every day he is scilent and never even makes a sound. that loaner is me. i just watch the world go bye. i dont have any thing to say expet i am going down the road of life solatuid shunning away people. that boy you watch every day he grows moe quiet but has a weapon of his choice. his words that shoots like bullets hitting tarkets with kinds solam words that lighten the impact. that boy who alawys walked home alone every day. he has no words exept (his big blue)eyes that make the statmenst that keept him sane.

your love is like a wild fire uncontrollable to dangerous to play with. the danger you put me threw only leaves me with wounds not even a skilled surgen can fix. you leave me broken with no voice to say any words. you left my heart broken twisting withering it till is has no beat. i gave you my love i gave you my trust. but you turned on me pushing me to the ground in your pride. i grow cold as you lie to me every thing you put me threw just leaves fade thick white  scares out in the open. not even enough booz or pain killers could erase you from my life you sic twisted *****. my life has now become a mess a twisted mess i can't escape when you the one who is responsible for it.  every day i try to find the answers answered that could possibly save me from this burning hell I'm in. you used me you took my soul from me now I'm dead inside cold withered no life left inside of me. i gave you my trust i gave you my love and affection but instead of loving and caring for me you ran off cutting me apart our wedding was just a mistake you sick tadistic ****.  my love you played with but you forgot i am a wild fire that will spread uncontrollably burning anything it my path killing and leaving the earth scorched. you played with my weakness but what will happen to your sic games you play will come back and tear your soul apart to show you the pain you put me threw then i can close my last faded **** memories about you you sic sadistic *****

the darkness begains to spread like sickness i have never wanted to see. people turning in to savage animals when the riots begain fire breaks out so dose blood shed. the one peace full small sleepy town has became the place where you cant hide anywhere. the ones who are traped is me ad my life. this madness grows bigger and bigger. swat teams start to come from every direction hellicopters heavey armered vhicles even tanks. what was once a place for peace has broken out in to blood shed with no escape. all you hear is guns  and screaming all around. me and tho oness who have hidden deep in the shadows of the buildings just watch as the anger spreads. who even knowes if any of your parents have even survived. what was once started cant be stop'd by force alone. no matter what shows is only blood pools lining the street. only 2 nights there were no blood shed but just watching threw your hide aways you just see the people who was taken to violence ending something so corrupt that it will only take the ons who follow in the shadows to take down the danger of threat. what was once a simple sleepy place now is complete ruins. theres no place safe to step out in to the light exept for us to follow the plan to fight with no violence but psychological taking down each part slowly. even if it means if e grow anger? but thats how the sickness spreads slowly turning people in to vishious animals. what me and my friends who hid in shadows the image is to grusim ****** dead bodies lay all around .

this sickness spreads when you turn anger in anger corrupts and the darkness begains to take its place in its down fall. th only darkness in me is when i dont know what to do expet turn evil in for revenge


the darkness turned in to and epidemic taing my nerves. i may be a show creature but  i know when darkness corrupys and spreads like a wild fire
such as riots bring out violence!


what was once a small place has been destroyed by a corrupt rummer.


DARKNESS IS THE IGNITION ANGER IS THE BACE AND U JUST HAVE TO LIGHT IT TO SPREAD IN TO CORRUPY BLOOD SHED WHERE NO ONE SURVIVES!!!!!

only the ones who escapt and working to take down the spread to make peace again

i walk threw the night with my Russian blue eyes the night lights up when the full moon glears. the world is turning as my life turns. every night my blue eyes light up like safiers and fire flys. the delicat nature holds my mind as the wild call out for the first time.
my heart skips a beat when the tables turn same as the demonic elements that linger around my safe haven. the night sky is like a canvas that i can aline the stars above to lead my path to survive.
no candel lights aloud nor fire cause my blue eyes glow like a safire lit up in the mist of the moon  light.

every night i follow new paths but when day breaks i'm vanished from sight. the night sky has so many tricks only the beauty never breaks the cold weather comes around but my blue eyes will never freez or lose the dreams of my life.

when my blue eyes glow i can call to the wild my calls to the wolfs bring happiness deep down with exitment and freeom.

i cant be held back for im nor threat only the wind and moon light can passes my soul.

when winter is hear so do i my blue eyes light the way to my next place of joy

i finally have escaped the werched and divine but my voice will never be heard untill summer and spring arrive.

my russian blue eyes can lead me to love hope and the freedom to fly but the night sky calls my blue eyes traping me drawing me life bye

Every day or night my mind grows more curious of the dangerous ways I go. Every day I cheat death even tho his whispers draw me closers to mistakes that can't be reversed. Let's play a game of insanity?
Every rule we break we mend a new insane way of our tricks. A lie brings misfortune as showing you have no boundaries.

My secret I scream is the dead silence on the sleepy hollow cemetery.
  My pain inside my bipolarmind is running wild with energy I could have saved to save my self from the deadly things that grab you.

My nightmares  become a stories that play with me like a horror film that was just shot.

How fast can scream.
Do u want to play with your own darkness or spread the sickening like a wild fire.


I have no heart beat only when life breathes into my lungs.



Dose evil bring good fortune or dose it spill blood like savagely brut let killing a person.



How far do we open up our minds to open ideas for evil or good.

Do u want to play with my mind to full blown destruction that we can't put out.


My pain inside my bipolarmind  is like a lighter starting a spark adding Fulton the fire setting my path of pure blinding aggression.


My pain inside my bipolarmind  is a trap I can't escape only way out is a fight till Insanity  kills me.


Clostrabobic  small room I can't breath I have no place to free any thought leaving me with my demons who have otherwise plans in mind.


Are u insain or can you break the lone and escape your twisted mind.



Let's play a game of mine can you escape and set your self free or will you be traded for inturnity weak and powerless of hope and lost of life.


Are u insain or can you handle your own pain

i still have the letters and flowers you have sent but at the end of every day you just leave me with with empty promises. no point to keep on hoping the day you will appear when my heart has no more room for hope the love you gave me was just lies. the tears i have will fall leaving a river of every thing you said to me all your hugs all your kisses were just fake. your love has broke me down growing me from under neath the river i leave behind. your love is al i need but you can show me the truth you keep playing me like its just a game. i have saved everything you give me all the pictures you sent just doesn't feel real any more. the lies you hide from me the things you hide only turn to scars all over my body. but i think the day our wedding comes the truth will show you the light bring us nothing but the joy and happiness. my love you are my dreams the wings of a thousand angels will carry me and you to the heavens above leaving nothing but memories that will tell our stories for what we leave behind the pain you left with me was never saying goodbye when you dissapeard every day i have searched for you me and you were meant to be to gather we are supost to be together forever i every day i drown everyday you get further and further away love sinks and hope floats

my days are long. but i dont trust trust the words of the con man.
my eyes glow red when i have been lied to by a friend. i told him he digging his grave. the further you play your tricks the deeper you will go.
every lie you said made your own wish to be roting internal hell.
every lie is your life sentence  for how long you want to be draged down to hell. you wont even know what to say cause im an the devil. the deeper you dig is the harder the punishment you put on your self.

no one trust you any more no one knows why you try to talk when people have found your ***** book of lies you wrote down every day to save or get out of what means to your own world.

every lie you said has people becomeing angery for you the biggest mistaky you have became your not real your just the lies you put on your self.

every one els is living we but you have dug your self deeper deeper in to hell. with nothing to even save your self.

i have found a pond in the tree line. its filled with life that has the natrual beauty that sweeps me away. thres a cat that just sits an the pedistool watching the colorfull fish swim around. his is so patiance just watching the fish swim around with just ceriousity and no attempt  to break its posture. the water rippes when the wind passes threw the majestic trees. to me this is a safe haven to me where i can  escape the ******* in life that only want to make me go insane. this place i have found has a pond and a warm hot spring that is wonder full to just ley your mind empty from all the negitvity that swollows you hole. my insanity clears away when i just close my eyes and take in this beauryfull place. its my safehaven to escape so im never going to tell any one cause its only place i can have my mind be cleaned.

rain is  when the sky pours. my tears can be noticed when even when im  breaking down in side the cold rain drops show the cover that can hide the most noticeable scares when it rains. i dont feel scared free to speak my mind against the corrupt   the bad the evil i let my demons run whiled when my anger shows the 3 side of me. i lay awake with long thoughts. long days of thinking about mistakes that could be made before it makes the wrong turn the rain that falls  the same thing my like works along rain is my cover that hies the pain the scares and anger and the hurt and tears even if we are only macheines

theres nothing left
just dakness
only scilence
long empty thoughts
speachless
hurt
tears running down my face
every one is gone
the wrold is bleak
there are only lies
who am i
who are you
am i a mistake
how many days have came and gone
what even left to say
what is even left to say
the world is ending
when warfare breakes lose
am i going crazy
or am i losing you
how long have i survivied
is there more pain
or do we all dissaper
long days
speachless thoughts
memories fade
from the faces
who playd lies
will we even dare to step out of line
when we are all broken lies
what do se see
our own shadow or the evil in our eyes
nothing makes sence
its all a hoox
is a voice real
or is it just our imagination
do i really sound like that
endless roads
endless memories
what about our past
it scares me with a cold chill
can any one hear me
my screams to pull me out
scary monsters
play out
the moon never leaves
all the stars glow brighter
lighting a candle is no better
what am i to you or you to me
this is all scarey to me
how far cani touch the stars
is there a new path we are
what is the world coming to
is the warfare over
or do we have to take cover so no one can harm the pretty flowers
love

we follow all your rules. if we disobay our punishment grows stronger as we go.
every thing is slowly ****** up my the corrupt ******* at the end of the day.
we have secrets wispered threw code. every one is rebeling the system. wuith all there might and force.
the riots grow but the death toll stays lower.
i am the one who you should follow to find all the peaces that the bastareds ripped to shreds. i stand my ground with life in my mind and ****** ******* hate flowing threw my vains.

i hade enough of your foolish games i dont want this world to suffer like i want to make you cry for your own life as my small army grows and grows till you get the point. we don't kindly take over powering jack ***** who over throw society.
we don't stand for killing the week and powerless.

so ill show you a riot that will make you turn in to hell.

no more pain. we stand to gather our ground to show the point we will make all around this world that corupts

Ever step I take will set in motion innovative ideas. It will be easy to dissapear from what scares me the most. What words would you even considering saying when every door room or fallen millitary bunker.  No threat only walking into a wear house discovering pools of blood with hacked up dead some decapitated so luster choking on there blood.
Why walk when you could run the miles to stop the master of desciz.


Nothing seems to be a possible when you you use urban mind as a deadly weapon.

We aren't machines we are human not a Droid.


No we dont weapons we just have to create havik. No blood she'd only mental ideas that will pull the plug of the demons eyes

Every day i want to scream my lungs out every person i face just leaves there darkness on me like taking a sharpie and drawing lins on your skin words will fade so will the scares but the pain they left you in feels like your not strong enought. The one i loved hqve left and abandoned me as time seems to lose all i can say if im tired i have no more strength to listen to words that have no meaning

The shallow feeling every breath i take every step i take i have to time to break intime making my life collide no matter how far i go nomatter how hard i push my self all i do is keep breaking myself over and over whats left is the tears i want to cry bc noone knows how fare you can push your self till you break leaving nothing but misery and pain so what if scares form that only tells you you reaching your critical breaking point even if people tellyou lies when you are finally broken what is lefft for you

i have let go of my grips my life is open to those who have the wrong ideas.

my free fall has let go all my stress and fears or what a mistake u have made when i let go when your try'ed to pull me to freedom  when the ****** games when they become a danger to this life. i have taken to this world a thrill of my own free falling like following your mind. my free fall is nothing you can stop i'm insane and filled with the energy to bounce off the walls. thrill seeking danger's have made my life so exiting that feels like this world has no fair game to catch me. follow me and ill show you a world of thrills and shakes so watch this take you phone and video tape me in the act of insanity. this world is so unfair but living life with no limits is what we have to fight for to follow our true dreams. your bullets may fly but your words only leave marks and lies all over your mouth. i have fallen the wrong way but your own things have catch'ed me in the nets of hell .

this world i walk is a free fall but i live in this insanity with life with no limits. dont let people prove you wrong. risks have the memories. only the chills you get when you see people who are pulling danger. but i'm just stuck in day dream shutting out all the society's voices out of line.

life with out thrill or danger is not fair to live life only if you live in the pitch dark not knowing what this world has to show you.


i'm not crazy but i'm kinda insane psychotic and i have no fear what choice will come at me


but i live a life with no boundr's or limits. cause im not going to let things stop me till i make my path to reach sky high.


im not going to let any thing stop me no untile i do all my ideas to prove them all wrong.

this world is so nasty with people who think they can prove you wrong.

i will rip people's souls out along my ride but i have my idea to prove this ******* world wrong. even if it takes me to set a blaze of unknown ideas that will wipe out the ones who just hold the world down treating ideas like a threat but i still have ideas to change this worlds prospective. cause my ideas are bullet proof to all your words and hate you spread..


so if you want to know well take my hand and lets run threw the night making mistrife   till we just let go and let out all our fears. untile you have cleaned our all your darkest regrets out. so follow me and will finally have the free free fall to end all the regrets behind and let out all your anger then you just have to let your life most disires drive your fears unleash.

just follow me cause life with no limits the laws of psychics is when you have your free falling when you get the magical feeling of death defying chills.

i live with no fear or hills but my ideas have played the game of what i truly have acheeved.


free fallen is my life of insane **** that will end all rules of lies i will prove this world wrong of every thing

free falling is a choice so it wont break gental but it will make life even more fun to explor your own limits.

Point by point regrets will be the one who tryes. A girl looked at me stuck in a loop of love. Every try I try I want the real voice. I want to know what the daze is out. She told me I have a gaze of devious secrets.


Only time has shown my time if the truth has failed just keep going even if it kills you

a warm sunny day filled with life seems not normal> my paranoya grew heavyer.
i heard my millitary sccanner  go off. i listen what they said
they were going to exterminat our little society town. i grab my girlfriend we both ran to tell eny one who could take this threat well. i knew the timing of when the bombs would drop. i knew every one vary well but it will all be lost. it was 2:00 am. the bombs were going to drop right be for night fall to get every thing ready. night was scares for me and her to prepar for the worst. we gave people another warning with the air rade syron blaring. we both bunkkered down varry vary deep to be untouched by the misles blow
on a saturday evning i started to gather family pets and any one els.

i started to set the clock for the final note. at 2:00 in the afternoon all our equipment and beds and supilze were accounted.

5:00 we had the final moments to hold out. the small timer reached 10/ 9/ 8/ 7/ 6/ 5/ 4/ 3/ 2/ 1 we held echother close.


the time ran out and all we heard was a vary loud ringing sound. we held out and survived. but the rest of society was wiped out. i new my parinoid side had came right on time. only my entire family pets and my girlfriends started venchering out.

all we saw was a ****** horor  show peoples bodyes vaperized all shops were gone

we survied the unknown from the trsty side of peranoya that was right.

we have to find what has happened we found out this was a plane that was only aimed at us since this small society had people who was a hush hush dont tell


every one is gone all gone.

The screams I hear of dead soldiers trying to escap ther toumb of the deep knocking and distance explosions of the echoes of the past the fire of hell was droped thousands of lives lost into a  distant scream voices heard help help as crews raced to free the souls of the dead tears will start to slowly overflow when you know the fight will never end the dead scream and cry for there loves as time sealed them into a watery grave the last few mins was the prayer of our loard and savior to lift there souls to heaven the dead scream in distance years as you look at the us  Arizona

i feel this time to say i have a gift to disappear threw the elements of change this plac is filled with a beautiful painting the will make you hide away all the tears you couldn't cry that you held inside for to long. this day by day fight left just marks scares that make your personality broken with no point of showing a smile but faking a smile and ******* it up and facing the thing we hate to say reality. the water  fall heals the wounds with the scares of your own vanity or what you have to have the strength to speak out what you really want to feel. behind the water is a place to let the voodoo doctor take care of all your anger turning into what you needed to be strong every witch way this ******* ****** up society that will let you scream. you may be broken wounded scared but come with me ill show you this place of mine the water fall of the healing memories leaving just enough to fake a smile and go threw the day with out falling apart with out shutting down hiding deep inside you hoodie or mind.

My mind has the words but my heart is to hurt to speak the words.
Later nights ***** or wine my pen pencil is still stuck on the deepest thoughts in my mind.

Mother I fearing you'll never know I love you.
Every time I write. my life seems to fall deep into the darkest shadows you'll never be able to catch me.



My emotions run wild like the Cristal tears I shead breaking down.

I see now easy way to chase the words I could of said before you slammed the door and left me.


I always said I loved you but now it's like trying to chase a dragon with no intention of being found.


I feel the burning singing pain from the ashes of my own heart breaking down. Just sinking away only wanting to say .

I LOVE YOU HOPING YOUR LOVE ME BACK KNOWING I'LL NEVER LET YOU BE SCARED IN THE NIGHTMARES YOU RUN FROM.



I CAN'T KEEP CHASING MY DREAMS EVEN IF IT'S LONLEY.

I HAVE TRIED TO CHASE YOU MY LOVE BUT THE WORD HAS NO MEANING NO MORE.



THERE WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH TO TIME FOR MY MIND TO TELL MY HEART IT'S TIME TO SPEAK TO THE WORLD EVEN THOUGH THE PAIN AND SCARED HAVE A MIND OF THERE OWN TO HEAL WITH EVERY BREATH YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO WRITE DOWN OR CHASE.


I AM BROKEN MY MIND HAS THE WORDS BUT MY HEART IS THE ONLY THING THAT WILL MAKE MY VOICE SPEAK REACHING THE TRUTH.


I LOVE YOU

Honey your all i have
My love your all i have
Honey i trully love you so vary much
My love i trully love you so much
Honey you messed up everything
My love why are you screaming at me
Honey im angry at you
My love why are you angry at me
Honey bc you didnt open up to me about your day
My love how can i open up if you just yell and scream at me
Honey you need to open up to me
My love i always will open up
Honey im sorry i screamed at you
My love its okay
Honey are you sure
My love yes
My love no its not you made me cry deeply
Honey
Hone
Honey
Honey
My love what honey you made me cry
Honey
My love ye
Honey im just frustrated about you not telling me whats bothering you
My love you never let me speak you jump to conclusions before i can tell you
My love you my life your my wife i trully love you i will always forgive you
Honey i will not yell at you any more pls forgive me
My love i forgive you

what have i done i k new that i have trusted you but maybe to day i hate what i have become cause every dream i have hate what has been wo did i **** in my own silence. i have the feeling when i remembered something and one day t was to late to say sorry for something i didnt even knew what has happpened
i miss have you as my best friend
i hate how we have gone our own ways
i hated why i needd you the most
i wish i couldent stop my tear
i wish our lives coldnt be this way
i hated how me and you fought over what secrets have been said


my ******* day has became the fear on me getting forced to speak on the stage with fear that im choking up already

i remeber all the gifts and love we are all to gathere but my last day ended threw the sun turning blue

the day is turning in to a misty blue shadow that only begain to folow around me since im not strong enought to follow my lungs fill with fear as my lungs deflate

i hate we could both break the scilence to be to gather

if our self cant what ever

i might be crazy for picking a chance of danger.
i need thrill to get that high.
i love the danger  that forms the perfect desription of me on the head lines of the new paper.
im insane with no limits that can go blind. i live life on the side of the cliff.
im going crazy. you tell me to stop.
why not you try what i have to show.
i live life with danger on one side of my brain.
this world would be a  dark place with out thrilling danger screaming my name.
i love the thrill of new things to try to explore . are you videio taping me .
i love this world with the wind going threw my hair.
i see no fear trying new things that are messed up so just give it to ill take it to a new level you dont think it could possibly go.
im not araid of what would happen cause i practice every time i go insane for the new thrill.
so put my name on the list so i can show all of you  lifes littel risks are worth it all weather its one hundred veiws or million veiwes .

you cant stop me cause its more fun to go insanely ******* crazy.

i dare you all to follow in my foot steps in life cause its more fun to get out of your dark thoughts and live life like me .

I live on the edge of danger every steep I take is a risk like playing a game of poker and Russian roulette every day I seek the fast track the speed I seek is the danger of going down into a firery BLaze welcome to madness this is you last chance of seeking the dangerous exitment or it game over the faster I go lightning crashes everthing burns to ashes the faster I go the more I know how to push my self to the limits if I go down I'll climb the heights I'll jump off cliffs to feed my addiction the life of a thrill seeking death addick

I hear the expression a glass full or half empty.


I feel my heart only pumps the red wine we drink to fill in the darkness of our soul


I'm insane but I might just be drunk from all the dark rainy days that will stained all the wite clothing you see your self as a reflection of death showing your life has no hope.


What kinda blood pumps your heart white wine or red.

What kinda stains run your life.

Do you pick your life delicious or do your wine that flows threw vanes chose all you wants and needs.


Are we both crazy are we deranged are we all insane or are we just riding the free ride of drinking our hopes away or are we stronger that we might feel or be.

im tired of people wasting my time.
im tired of getting my hopes up for no reseon.
im tired of this world fighing over greedy ****.
im tiredof every one thinking there are better than ******* themselfs

I live in this world that shows only spiting ******* you spread all over with your phones. all the favorite memories of hanging with friends make us never lose being young. memories that sting burning a hole threw my heart. i'm running out of strength to keep the world around me from collapsing killing me. i had to say my time of even caring will blow this world from  my life in a *******. trap'd with no life left. i walk this world lost in my own destruction of what i will show you all. words will be sprayed all over . like every text message you sent to people  i told you i hate them all. why should people follow me when  turning my cards flipping them winning every poker game . i hide my eyes so no one will lose there own soul that i own now *****.



this world leaves nothing but scares that are all over my body turning me into a freak show. lies from words run like knives being thrown at a simple target of lies . don't wast your time cause i'm to broken to even give a **** about any thing else to say

peace out you have told the stories making peoples life hell taking every thing  away from them.


you told me to keep positive but you have reached and pulled out my bad side

every night i lay awake with no more energy to keep up with the demands. society is is just a joke. chapeters of lied that spread like wild fire killing every thing in its path of fire and death. i might lose it leaving what kind words i could possably care to even say. i am running low threw fumes of hell. im traped pinned down suffocating from all the **** that drowns me till all the air simmers. playing a game of hide in seek will end all of society away from society. lost in inturnal thoughts leaving a trail of horor with no way or **** to turn back to run threw the past of mine.

im sitting quietly when all u say is just watch what they have to offer when i look around the big class roomi feel traped scared and wanting to tryto escape alll the silence has stoped i cant get up on the spot like.

i feel scared i dont know where to go. all this feeling of shakness brings the emotions.

i feel traped cornnered like a scared animal.
i have anger that screams out



get away from me
leave me alone
i cant run when theres no place to feel safe

all your eyes all looking threw me
i feel like i want to strangel the **** out of all of you
i feel all the anger building up rady to strike .

dont traped me i dont know how talk when i got nothing nice to say

all the heat isall on me when i cant even turn around. ever cornjeror door or ally way i just see all your eyes all on me.

i feel like my anxiety grows when my anger showes with tears

i went to listen to the but i gave you my silence but you turned on me so i cant trust society any  more


anger hate i dont know what the ******* want from me any more

dont look at me i didnt cause your life to be come a ******* hopless lie

no more anxiety
dont trap me like a animal
that has the treat
no more anxiety


so give space to reguvinat let me leavy my anxiety back at home
dont take advantage to trap me in the loop that has no ending

until the end i will play my way to show you that if we all parish or survivers we dont have to worry. cause untile the end i wont let harm take away my life and people i can about. i see no fear when the time strikes and we either can riot or just survive hidden deep in the shadows just watching people **** echother.
theres nothing to harm otheres only to defend what ground you stand on.
i might be crazy but im not going to dye by riots i want to use my mind to creat big ideas that scare poeple in its path way

i have been up all night losing my grip.
all i have felt is my mind playing tricks on me making me want to lose every thing and trash the place till i burn alive.
it only 12 am i haven't even let my heart rest all these words i cant get out of my mouth.
you haven't made up your mind to let me or tell me i'm losing my mind in to insanity that wont let me scream my lungs out till i puke my guts out leaving me insane and dead.
all night there is a code i have saw pass the back of my head. all my sharpies have dyed or ran out for my despise. i feel like i want to tear this place down like the house of cards i have assembled. all the symbioses i have written all over my body that will make you scream at me for being nothing but a ****** path that can never be silenced even never ever stop'd. up all night just wanting to scream till i can make a point   of i'm still hear. up all night i have so much built up inside when all my loved ones just fight taking out all there violence they have to use.  i know some times life is rough. up all night i have so many things that built up in me. up all night i ponder that i have lost my mind to insanity and the free fall of what i have been on each and every day. up all night i just want to let out all my darkest demons to try to make a smile. up all night i might leave sneaking out at 12:06 am just leaving to escape to vent my life's misery. up all night i just want to try to sleep but what will i do cause music has calmed me till i fell asleep. up all night i grow more crazy just fighting this worlds ******* that hits me from every way.

up all night i have so much to write even if i grow more insanely crazy up all night i just want answers that will tell me the real truth.


if i'm up all night just letting you know in the morning i will have writings all over my body.

Every day i day dream of life with no fear no danger no war! my visions see the good in people that show there intreste to fight away the (EVILS) that temp the ones who cant be trusted. what if our world had no war no riots just a place where no good dies but the only thing to fear the only thing to fear is the little white lies you tell your self so no one can know that your not okay. the only thing that corrupts us is the things we see that can destroy the ones who have gave us a place to be free!

visions can become true if u can take the idea to make a new page like writing a short stories that is the visions of what you want to make the change to put in societies way

when you feel like your never going to give in but what will show threw your self image.

your mind lets it rain and bend the rules.
your only fried who has never left your side is your shadow witch ha be came a single  identity of it's own.

what do you want to do when you had enough?  what i do is would riot against.

what road do i take the road of my own life falling into satians gates.
how far is the fight to make my ground and my point

WOULD you dare to step in my shoes if i were willing to step in your shoes! i would walk 1000 miles in our shoes writing a page of how your darkness is same as mine! would u walk a thousand miles in mine

Society has take it fair share weakening me tormenting me till i could barely even stand up to fight back. what will happen to me every single day that the force is unknown the force that just seems to be blinding me till i have my down fall. this day could get better or the day could beat me till i fall and start to bleed. dose this fight have to make me realize that i'm stronger that the real identity i refuse to be or just being part of reality. life is showing the test of weakening me till i fall or rise to the challenges that ill arrive every trial in my life every step of my life.  do i have to show my true identity or do i have the choice of my hidden identity of of a ghost that will spread life till i feel like showing me self. i have the only thing to show is my voice and presents but i will not show my presents only my voice that will leave misery and wonder.

what am i i look like just a scare
what am i to you in this world
every night i uncover my scares that cover every inch  of my body
i feel like a scarey monster every morning
my body is tourn ripped slashed and scared
i dont know if i should look at my reflection
i cant hide for ever run from fear
people cant even look at my face with out just looking at my slashes down my face
i know i am here but i have fear of what will happen to me
im not afraid to show my self out in public
but i have my own doubts of whats next aft my silence turns violent
what do need to say to you when you just looked at me
you spead lies of hate.
you were my friend who turned on me
i walk alone with my headphones turned all the way up
i know you never ment to hurt me so
im leaving you to start over to start new
my voice maybe quiet but i have big heart who could never hurt any one
even if you burgt me behind my back
maybe its just time for me and you to separat till
till the day ends
then we could brake the silence you have mad along your dream ill never be mad
accident and trust issues happen

what am going to o when all i do is ponder. this world filled with silence danger. how to hid when all we are just batteling all of our own fear. im not afraid to speak my mind even if it takes my own soul. nothing is my life only head on fear that never ends alone.

i know i can hide from societys games so i rather fun threw hell to flip up this world of lies
no changes could be made when i just have long empty pondering thoughts how. can i let my words out when i have nothing to say my every mistake has reflected on me to run threw hel and back

its been along time but all i have is watching your life crumble   like a building with pretty marble.  
what do you want me to say. if i don't have any thing to say to your face at all.
these walls fill the room with big glising shadows that just leave a perment scare on the wall.

what do you want me to say to you if all you are nothing but lies to the world.

are you calling me insane or crazy?

cause thats whati have to say to people and all of yu.

what if the day growls long in the hot summer sun. what if that beauty leaves and never comes back. what if life turns dark and we grow cold from the solum sun that reflects warming us deep down. what if tomarrow dosnt come and we start dying off.

HAVE you felt that magical feeling deep down. (LOVE) is a dangerous thing to play with. just like fire! whats the point of love when (LOVE) is nothing but a word that lies. having that feeling you will have the chance to find the one. even tho u will end getting burned for that mistake u made! (LOVE) has no meaning when this world we live in is nothing but corrupt ******* that stab you in the back with no regret!  don't let (LOVE) take your freedom to (HATE)! revenge shows your week side come out. blood shot eyes looking at you from your dark side. (LOVE) is a mistake that puts putrid taste rotting anger. in this corrupt world you cant trust any one who has burnt you in the past![ANGER] solves nothing but your self image and who u really are! dont be the mistake that ends up burning you in the end.every steady day keep moving.  and show this ****** up world that you wont let any of this mother ******* **** ruin your life. be who u want to be kept saying to your self you are the important one even tho anger has burned you ahead of time! never leave or lose your self. (FIGHT) to keep u safe roses will be placed on the ones who were hurt!

we first meet under the pink cheery blossom tree your beauty has stolen my own mind controlling me like your hypnotizing ways. your looks have made me go blind but it turns out i really wasn't love just your manipulative eyes. i have lost my soul because of you i'm now losing my mind in insanity that will make me crash down like a plane diving out of the highest part of the earths suffocating lies. i had a feeling this wasn't meant to be. this feels like a dream but is it real or all just a ******* up lie. is there any way to find to escape or is this life going to explode with war and fire fight that will never end. how did it come down like this when we meet i thought you were just a normal girl but my fear has taken it all out. i don't know how  to look away cause your eyes have locked on and controls my brain blinded by a fake image that will never fade. this love has brought all my fear up for you to play on me. i might lose my mind you took my life and tour it up till i lose it into psychotically insanity.. i wish i could have made that mistake and kept flowing  down the road so i wouldn't have this happen to me at all. i wish i could grab the change to really believe that you weren't to good to be true. you are the biggest mistake you have taken my blind identity that i just want to scream at all of you *** hols. your lies have taken all my breath and drowned  me to death.


that hot cool summer day i thought this was going to be true but what i wasn't able to do was tell you that i will bring all the ******* down on your lies.


i knew it wasn't meant to be but i let my guard slip. so theirs nothing anything more to say when i have to bring this house down stopping your beauty that tricks people into love when its all your mind games. it was never meant to bee.


this was the mistake of a fake identity that blinds the ones who fall in your trap.

i knew it was never meant to be just a suffocating mistake no one could ever escape from.

when will be it okay for me just to let out every thing that hits me all over my body leaving the words and every thing like a fishing net holding it all on me. i am stronger that i know i can show but don't know when to show you my Russian deep blue eyes leaving me out in the middle of a war zone with people just dying.
i really don't know how to tell you when my tears will start to flow when you make me lay on you lap.  i thought true love would n ever leave an impression on you.
you make my lay my head on your lap telling me every thing that went wrong will become true with no tears left to fall. you make my world turn upside down with no more fear or pain left to feel.

I lay awake all night watching the ceiling fan spinning around lost deep in my thoughts. my music is playing as i i lose my self in words i can't really know how to say. walking threw the day i have no way of knowing what might hit me next.  this world is unknown that i really don't know what to say. my fan spines around every night but i lay away just thinking what will happen the next day to prepare for the attack that will never be kn own of . summer is hot but i have so many hopes a dreams i needed to get.  social  and society has there fair share. but life has many things i just can't understand with out being scared. normal people scare me I don't know why. but i will never quit trying to stand my ground to speak my mind  when this world should listen to me for a change.
I might be odd or weird or insane or psychotic? but i just want this world to listen to me so i can maybe make a change to society making it easy'er to let the ones  who have been hidden in the shadows to let there voices be herd. all day i ether sleep or meditate with my thoughts of the black magic voodoo i will play on your life flipping your mind out of controls. I lose my hope but that doesn't mean i'm crazy. but my one side is a voodoo black magic. practice. i have power to flip this world up side down. i cover my self in protection with the darkness i can play or lay releasing out all my demons reeking  hayrick on all my enemies who have cross my path. every night i lay awake with my girlfriend cuddling  till we both fall asleep. my love has never forgotten. But i have been dead with dreams that will never show up when all hopes break away.

The only thing of really point is i have a girl in my life that we will set the world with new ****** ideas that people are so scared of like innovative to change the world from what has been already been tested.

All hopes will die when i have already tourn apart broken with so many trust.

I might be out of my mind but i want the world to listen to my voice to change the places that will end to fall

i have take my time just to make u feel loved. but you have turned your back on me betraying all the information i have slipped beside both of us. i spent my time making sure no one would hurt you. but i don't think i'm emotionally strong enough to keep going. i have gave you my trust but all you have said is words of ******* that only leaves the gashes deep into my skin. i made your life free but i feel like i cant look at my self when my tears start to flow down my tormented mind set. this is what will be a choice that will erase you from my mind and my society that only makes the truth bleed when u stabbed me in the hand with a rose. my tears have never been seen but i think this time is and acceptation we all have to live with. but i'm about to lose my mind when i just need to start to run so i can escape your words that have just made life a game. this life is crazy but i will make my new identity that will make a master of despise. no one will ever know when i take my **** and just disappear on the run. no more tears no more fear of lies that will turn my personal life psychotically insane no one could escape your not even worth my time any more so good bye

where do i stand
i stand my ground
i stand to speak my mind
i stand alone watching the hurt
i stand to keep the people i know and love safe
i stand when theres nothing but terror
i stand inthe deepest shadows
i stand when theres nothing even lft fighting for
i stand to lift and picking up when your not strong nought any more
i stand when your fight dsnt have a reson to keep going
i stand tobe there when the end of the world happens


your not alone
cause i have your back
im the one who will take every thing that hurts you
im the one to listen to pick you up to keep you safe

WHERE do you stand
do you stand beside me
or do you let te corrupt society rip you apart

where do i stand i stand with no regrets nor fear i stand strong for any one who need me ill take all the hurt pain weakness you cant hold


(WHERE) do you stand

Why do people say my heart will write all my thoughts out like  the addicted drugs flowing threw my Bains.


Why do we bring beauty prospective in dead heat of summer when everything dues of water.

Why do people say to me my russian blue eyes match a vary stormy m9nth of the rain storms.


WHyde be in hand of a angel that will make your wrists bleed.



Why summer than cold weather with rain.


I feel like I'm not going insane when I can spread my wings and write all my stories to my life experiences.


Why should we look at summer when cold and rainy weather brings new life into  equinox.


My left hand might be my weapon but violence shouldn't be risk when your only escape is being bathed into the cold rain filling up all your cuts broken bones brussis.


The rain will save us from rushing into danger with out fear.


Let me rain so I can bring my next generation back

My love for you smelled like early cherry blossoms in early spring. Everything I said came from the turn broken shattered side of my heart. Will you kiss me heal all my wounds. When I tell you I love you I wanted to cling to you. The warm beauty that softly reflects of the shimmer of water on the pond. You are all I have  losing you I knew I lost.

I saw you your beauty left me wondering what happened to me. Your voice has hipnotized me leaving me in your spell. I have no control only you have control of me your voice has paralized me making my heart explosed a million red roses im losing my mind when you lour me into your arms deep into a whole day of lustic *** with the night full of mistery and lust i dont know what to say the feeling of her every touch and her voice leave me breathless till I can't breath every sensation when she kisses me im completly losing my mind



The women of my dreams has put me in her spell paralized by her suductive love im  not going to try to escape when i have already escaped into pure love *** lust im finally set free of my demons when i was a falling angel saved by my guardian angel