I see my self in the meioir but i see just a dark image that looks like lies to the human eye. this is life with no way to even want to try. that final day i will let lose my broke memories. i have no point that love is real. love is just a stupid pathetic notion every body said to me. i have been broken but when i see you all this ******* will bring me up and then throw me down hard till i grow my  own weakness. i have nothing nice to say but when i find away just run never stop ever look back behind your back. your own childesh games have made me dead in side.  on the out side i have a fake smile but in me i will find you track every move you make planing to take back my soul that was torn apart from me. this time its my dead souls who will get revenge on your sorry all you scream

losing time as summer hangs into long summer days. i have just picked up my stuff and just walked away disappearing from blind anger.  my foot prints leave only a trail that goes dead cold. not feeling trap'd. but for how far away i was received a letter but the way it seems to hear is like a dear john e letter but this one has said that society has fallen apart with out me when i just walked away from things like fake people no truth just lyres that for the building s trucker like building that touch the tip of the sky.

i walked away following my heart from the letters i fear they all sound like the dramatic dear john letter. only leaving misery behind.my disappearance meant escape from things that are lies only pure aggression will territories the lives if i would have meant to be friends. and i  walked way so i wouldn't be suffocated by the drama  that just stabbed you.


life is society's lies they teach you to make you pretty little way you will tear apart

I'm stronger than twisted mother ***** who have no clear idea who they want to be.
What limits do I should show. My evil side of me has a mind of its own.
My anger turns your vision into blindness.
My evil side has no heart only twisted lies scars wounds that never singe.


My evil side plays games like a oijia board gone horribly wrong.
Your ideas become twisted games  turning dangerous with no way to turn back and run.


My evil  side is stronger when you manipulate  break take every thing of me. My evil side feeds on your misfortunes it feeds off your own stupidity it feeds on all your horrible remarks insults lies. My evil side only grows stringer from your twisted bul **** and your stupidest ucks

Nothing there just the color blue

Seeing deep in my eyes you won't know how to realize I am dead inside hollowed out. I am traded in  glass prism. I look like every thing was hit and beat.
I cant think when fire ran wild turning my tears into shards of glass


My eyes are cold and dead but so is my heart


I lay broken with the pure tears making the world fall apart



I see out my eyes nothing but blood she'd only the sick and twisted of society's games.



My reflection brings all the darkness and plays it out my krystal eyes



Dead or alive you never would know what dark and twisted it to look in my eyes

i take my time to ask all my insane questions. walking threw the cemetery in winter brings the most beauty out with the glistening of the tomb stones. whit snow turning red from the roses i break turning blood staining.  my foot prints left in the snow turn me into a ghost that never left a real true mark on those who have slipped tripping over there mistakes. you might call me crazy but i lay the final day. have you compared the natural beauty that lays silent making it more clear to under stand. i have found a cemetery that has miss guided truth. when night falls my eyes glow pure blue like the wolfs i have been taken till i lost it.  i love to find new cemeteries  to explore where these nothing that can hurt you. only if it was true that the living dead was a real thing. no fear only the blind beauty makes the forgotten Gothic graves  pretty. this world more pretty when it kinda dark but with light with the snow with a black rose with a red ribbon left on my savior who has protected me from every thing that i couldn't fight. now its my Friday nights to finish this stories we haven't finished. now its my time to finish the book so this world can move on to follow in my  writings.

Every day I feel like just same old story. Same routine same game. Nomatter how hard I end up trying ill never win. Why do tears thoughts race threw my mind. When I feel so mentally drained dead inside! Music is the only way for me to fall apart without anyone knowing the fear that lies ahead. Dreams hopes just become lies that never come true? Over and over I try not to let my feelings show. So many thoughts race threw my head i feel like this world and me have no place

i have a hidden tallent of my life a singer or the voice that can touch your hearts.
my mind thinks up a storm that comes to a plan on a friday afternoon.
my voice can only be heard if your heart has the courrage to follow what you want the most.
my voice is what my stories come to life.
cause my true love came and gave me hope to write this line.
my mind thinks first for what salllom words i could think to say to you to touch your heart deep.
i know i will proable be alone with my thoughts.
but ever word ever said threw my voice i hope it made you go mad with crazy love.
night and day come and go but i will never let my smooth gental words leave me.
that all i got when i feel abandoned.

my hidden voice can make your anger go leaving your life with peace.


my hidden talent with my voice can make words stories poems love notes and creat or life memories.

my hidden voice can only be heard for the traped broken lies.
my hidden voice can lift you off your feet when thinks start getting bad.

my hidden voice can heal your soul if your willing to listen to me while i start to write my entire life stories.

you will never be alon if your voice meets me down the slop.


my hidden voice can do many things but will never be harsh or angery just a loving kind blank page you should start writing to fin  me and you with our true love stories

Chasing the dreams of all my past memories plays hypnotic song threw the mind of my soul that runs wild like the mustangs of the open  bad lands. True love seems to be hanging heavily in my heart Makin me feel so mentally drained when all I want is to live in harmony with the people I love as my heart beats alone. I feel like I'm living a dream with no ending the storie keeps going like endless fairy tales that just feel like they can't be real only when reality hits you you feel my love! The hypnotic endless energy of love kindness and compassion can be stronger than freight train speeding down the rails. Only then when love fails we all begin to derail. Love is such hypnotic mystery were all lucky to experience the ride threw the Frontline.

I have set a like of black and white no color. I have shunned away societies ******* over and over. I have been stranded in a vortex that play's your life's mistakes like a minor with a ****** fist from anger in the pure eyes of the devil of your own misery.
Eyes and ears but all I have to say to that is blah blah what ever. I have no wish except that my voice would of been heard cause life would be more innovated.
My last dying wish is to see society not be such copy cats of one another. Making me feel like shunning away made a good decison.

My mind is broke my heart screams with tears in can't cry out. My regrets follow me pouring nothing but a dreary rain cloud  pouring Frigid rain soaking me down to the bone till I go insain.  I wish I could of told you inside I'm slowly wasting away just like a graveyard filled with rotting rusty  machines.
I wish I could of told my mom is really needed her when I had the darkest days where I felt like I was suffocating.

Every ******* ******* thing I nevery told or should of said enstead  of  holding and hiding my life mistakes.

My every wound seems to fall deeper and my heart feels so heavey with all my battles I problem killed to breath.

My regrets just keeps me from stopping I rather run.
My 25 regret it wish I was able to keep strong but I feel like I rather not necessarily there for  my famly.

Butmy biggest regret is my fear of losing my mom or dad in the night if they pass away threw there sleep I'll let be broken sending me to pack a back and leave my fear is I'm bipolar and I'm scared or losing them. My every word doesn't seem to matter only my creative thoughts do.



I am filled with wounds scares all from my every single regret that is like the darkness or the smoke from cigarettes.


I am broken to the point I'm unfixable.
So I just drag myself and long taking blow by blow making me weaker ad time goes on .
I  know you have to tell your life stories bit shut the **** up if you see or I tell you my life story  you'll problem drown your self in your own tears if you look at me you'll not bear able to but stair so don't tell Meveryone our ******* story  look at my broken mind body tell me if you can fix the years of the he'll that consumed me killing me hashing my voice where I couldn't scream or breath I was traded into ****** silent only that funny side I was torched till my lungs burned with hate

So don't tell my your Bulls **** life stories just look at me and try not to drown your self in your tears just listen and know I'm note strong enough to to be fixed

My biggest regret is I'm scared to lose my mom and dad I don't know if my last Batley ids strong enough to  hold I might just shut down and fall apart

I am broken and unfortunately unfixable

my limits have no fear
cause under my skin i scream
what do i do when some one took my only hope
all i can do is scream is when my own life flashes
is there any thing i can do
expet ponder for half and hour
will i be alon to fight this world alone
how many days o silence do i have to take
where do i stand when i feel like im drowning threw my or stereo
whats next exept the memories of shadows horriblal
life has limits of silence

i dont know here i stand since all i can do is scream ponder for hours of something great.

am i alone

I sleep at night with fear my dreams will be come real. I have endless ideas but no leads to run.


I feel alone lost in a place of know to be dark and freaky.


My friend I have is a puppy who is sort and warm.


Walking this abounded  world survived chemical warfare  and nucluer fall out.


Scary sights long night's hidden and lost and forgotten.


Abandoned is the new road I am making to pay words to change the dead who were wiped out.



Alone but not my voice my little friend is alaways loveing to hear my pondering thoughts

the rain pours down leaving this earth bringing beauty. my self shows just fear. my eyes close as i take to my path undetectable to my safe haven of feeling free of society's grip of death. i cant find a way to leave the grips of peoples lies. no matter where i run or how fast  or  try to fight it back. ill never have a place to be alone to recover alone with no people to get to my head. every ones words make you feel dead with nothing but weight crushing you till you lose it and go psychotic on the peoples who just weigh you down slowing you stopping you to making a different to make the world a better place

the path is dark my light is gone the shadows jump start the way to the water.

my lost shining star has been out like a burt out light bulb.
the path is steep and sketchy but my confides is strong .
i have no voice but a hig heart and strong mind to follow my dreams.
my lost shining star was the light to fin the way out if the internal heavy mist that creeps threw the cracks of time.

you have been gone for to long and my shining stare was my good luck to find my safe haven to escape from the grips of society that brain washes your life with drama and stupide lies

i cant keep up with all theses faces in my eyes. i cant keep up when all i want to rip my hair out and scream my lungs out.
all the papers in life you might as well just signe  your soul away with out reading the following dangers. what would i say when i have finally snaped and went crazy.
my life is quiet and tranquill. but my mind is screaming in hell like i plane that has lost contole and is spiralling out of control.
i dont show any emotion but my mind is screaming from the new waves of hell that has unleashed a dark enity over me that will sufficat any one in its path..

every exam in my way makes me want to go insane and lose controll just being low means you cant rise but i cant keep up with the pase but theres nothing tat lies a head just a black obiss that never ends of hell.


my mind is breaking and all i want to is to tear apart any one whoe will slow me down.

i know i am crazy insane psychotic and thrill seeking.

all i kn0w is my mind is screaming with no regret so **** the rest im going to set this world on fire even if my mind is screming to make the point of your own demize.

Inside me there is a evil that grows when my anger grows i lose contol and go insaine.

Lets play a game a game of ******* up peoples minds

The demons will play so will i agame you will never beable to survive


On my body my mind will scream for how may weeks i havent slept


Night go by awake all night with nothing but the engery of life


Your regrets are real its time let the demons escape into reality letting the ugly side of you terrize the life you chose to live



My pure heart is what has kept me alive no evil could break my pure heart the leads and guides me threw the gates of living hell




Lets play a game a game of twisted minds will you dare to play the game of twistdd minds unleashing your evils ugly side out



I thing you should you will purify your own self and let your wounds heal


Will you like to play my game and see what will arrive

I feel like I am a evil demon I walked the path and I never got to the other side when truth has hit me harder that killing. Life fame not me I live in he'll watching the world collapsed. I know I'm completely insane but I don't have a stories my only thing I am is a force of nature that will end your pathetic Lillie game.

You told my life to expose the truth well I'm insane and a force of your worst nightmares

this world has no chance to hold me back. all there is left is war blood shed leaving screams of the dead that makes this world turn all around. spending the friday nights alone making setting this place a blaze watching this life turn down till insanity killes us all making this world glow with neon smoke.

This world i have grown up in my own battles that only leave my anger behind burning down my destruction of ashes. my mind is always is searching for new things and many answer's that i wont to finish the quest. i don't follow society's rules when i am stronger that this world that i face every day. my eyes only see what hell is even left in flames. i'm to crazy to care enough to understand your ways. i feel like a relations ships are nothing to me. I don't thing i could breath every time i make my hellish ways to be tricked into dating or wasting my mind on day dreams that will never become real i truly believe. The good looks  you try to show make my mind relapse of trap'd mixed minds just like this world filled with nothing except your own pain you will have to endure on the next  ride when you take my hand. Life is short but i'm still alive. i'm my own crazy psychotic self all over my time every one. every rose i have picked all the blood that *****'s my hands bleeding all over just like when you stab'd me in the back at night with your own white rose making it match with my  ****** red rose that screams out its ****** covered beauty. in the lake house with the sun roofs i see the pretty crimson red i remember seeing you that day i lost you to suicide. my own hellish ways make me me i refuse to follow the crowd but i rather revert and make my ground dis all the rules society has played to me like my own ways i will never let go my ways expect when you have the power or the guts to stop me down my road of of ripping out this world leaving every thing in a pile of glass and ashes.

I will no regret my hellish ways that's my nature even being Russian i'm just me a really insane mental cray person ill never change who i really am.

Not now not ever

i live in a sufficatin hell seeing every one **** up.
there is only pure anger for what we have be came
we are only macheins that have rules to be slaved by the government.
we dye we cry we suffer our lives end with just a single button

I live in darkness with no light.
I live in this hell seeing society become a threat.
i live in  hell seeing innecent people dye from people who attck there life.
i just watch the world turn seeing nothing but insent blood shed that has lost the most import people who can heal the mistakes

i live in my own hell seeing every day blood shed taking familys to death.


i have words to say but seeing your own friend get taken out by warfare (WHAT THE ****) i live in my own hell seeing just **** rip apart people


i live in this world that has no boundries no limits no nothing. just blood shed with no regert

i live in this world  full of danger i always have to keep my sences up to be awaerar of the next move


i live in a world of hell where there is nothing to stop by boundries just blood shed

my own living hell is everyday trying just to survive as time goes on

i walk with no regrets. with my headphones playing with my head looking down. im not alone my shadow starts to cast and walk along side of me with a new form every time. he is silent with no words just the shadow that watches over. the shadow comes and goes when day goes. when it was a full moon he came and watched om my own mind. my shadow dosnt fear it just watches the world turn round.  when i walk along my friend showes walking along side of me. even if we have to talk in silence. he is always there when im alone. he is neither evil or dangerious. he is a companion that wakes in your foot steps that can tell the storie of your days work

my own words i want people to hear my words. i want the world to hear my poetry heal the ones who need it. i want people to know my words need to be heard
every poem or sentence means the world to be heard.
i dont do good with socializing much. but i would rather show you a world where you can scream the world. i hope to show you a world o free to go ******* insaine what ever you want. take the pen or brush and paint your words make people read what your heart desiers.  make your own room smash the table smach the chair threw the windos

playing every little game getting your hoodie pulled up. messing around. playing ***** pranks tourching me. when i try running she is allways in  the corner following you day and night. im lossing my mind i cant escape her claws that dig slowly deeper as she poles me down to the empty grave.im losing my mind i might be going insaine to the biggest part of the deepest hell. what is left there aint no where to run or hid cause she always knows where my next location is. this psych ***** has taken my life in to her own paranoya game she smuthered me till i can scream no more. every road i cant take cause shell drag with my claws dragging behind. this ****** ***** is making me go insaine with lossing control tearing up the floor. theres no escape from her grasp i think this is the day i know she will end my life

im going to snap from the claw marks that left ripps down my back!!


how many times have i ran idk cause this ******* crap has no road to meaning. i am running from a ****** ***** who cant get her little crush off me.


no place ti hide no place to speak

**** **** **** i cant escap from my ****** ex girl
but there is allways light at the end of the tunnel with a chance to survive




her mom told me her wall is covered in pictures of me in her closet more and more pictures she took with her phone. i dont know how to escape to the next town cause she is a shadow with a messed up twist she has t shirts and pants and every thing with my picture and name on it.

when she is at school she hands out patitions to get us back to gather.

im gone mad less every thing is she cant let go of me cause she is only attrakted to the freaky **** of me  theres no escape AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

What i see is my self nothing special nothing crazy.  Nothing but a weak smile and scares all over my entire body looking deep into my eyes you can touch my soul. The only thing to see is my humble heart i would hide from you. Music flowes threw my body sending the vibrations threw my mind and heart. Hearing the rythem drown out of me seem to bleed when my scares rip apart.

I walk alone week by week with long thoughts. It feels like the worst kind of pain i known. Nomatter how long i go nomatter how far i walk. Ill never know what a life with out pain is like. Day by day these road are less traveld.  But my heart is weak and broken. The love i lost leaves the scares of my past where i have been abandoned and miss treated at alast. Your word **** me slashing and buring in my skin deep anguish. My mind is nothing but long fill shattered dreams. I have to fight or risk my life trying to fall in love with my happiness that seems ro be running away from me. Every scare you leave on my seems to tell a new begain and end were theres no heroic end. Week by week day by day be hind every bend there is a broken mind you played with. In time you will  hear my voice my mind will scream my withered heart will start to beat once more till you decide to push me away and abonded me agin. Week by week day by day all i see if pur love slipping in to my dreams i had. But my road i travel has many doors every path or door has a beginning but never a end. I try to find pure happinnes when im alone but its just seems to flate line like you left my broken heart you have broke with your tristed lies. Day by day week by week min by min second by second i walk alone with all my scares you left. Bc the love you left wasnt worth it bc of you left your cost behind it

Alone i walk with nothing but a endless fading last breath.

I feel the buzz in my mind and soul the feeling you want to chase the shooting stars with. Again and again.

I feel fine
I feel weak
I feel like ****
I feel like the worst hang over
I feel sick like a drug addik
I feel dizzy at 3 am
I feel like puking my  guts outhe.

I feel like I can't stop my sick addiction even though I have tried to get clean but relapse  has stopped me dead as can be.


I wonder what it feels like to be clean from the energy drinks that runs your life heroine.



Over and over I wonder how sick I look.


12 days 56 days with diswraling getting clean.


My money has been going good fast for my fix but in reality I'm a mess.


Why have a relationship when u can hide it any more.


Why try when you only do things to get your addiction to berry you alive .



No escape no wondering get what's it like to be clean from this wrecked curse you can't leave .


Am I insane or just lost

i speak with a light slalom tone with not threat nor fear. when i speak i only hear the heart of caring that will set free all the trap'd souls that have walked restlessly not able to feel free. when i talk my soft tone voice heals the broken  ****** ones. no one should fear me when theirs nothing to be angry  about. this world i have nothing to fear i am just hear for one reason that can pick up the fallen till i can run till the riots become less over run that will stop the death. i use my soft tone voice to heal to make my own statements known to the public. you can take my and ruin my life.  i'm not a threat to public life i'm more a raid of normal people and society itself. i now that my down fall will destroy every thing comes crashing down with no survivors even allowed to escape. my down fall will be like a nuclear melt down. nothing in my path will  be left. my soft tone voice will leave a mark on this world before i will let go and fall releasing every thing losing what the point of trying on reality. i may be broken destroyed hurt life less even soul less but i will never let go till i make my mark and impression on society even tho i'm scared as hell to be with big crowds  and people normal people scare me when i don't trust what things will happen to me in the end .

i never could hate
that word is terrifying to me
i can never hurt or leave you behind
i only love
i will never be mean
ill always forgive you even if it was a huge mistake
im the kinda guy who never hates or hurts i couldent be harsh
i will always forgive
i will be ******* you if you be come a threat to me
but ill never be mean hate hurt you
i will always listen to you

i cant be mean cause where dose that get you

all around me i see the crowd moving like lighting. i start to spin with my eyes gathering information.
my eyes fill the storie i wrote on a blank page.
my world is suronded  by change every where i go.
i don't think i could shut my eyes to blink cause every this is exploding thriving with exitment.
down the street a new house is being build by my othere side a mountain side has been colapsing.

my entire suroundings have been changing.
my mind cant keep up when my heart starts pounding.
where true love comes right in front of me.

my surondings have been exploding with hange
i don't think i can keep up but i might just go madely crazy

I feel lost in the feel of grass.
I think I can't stay alive
I lay cold my heart with out a heat
I feel cold to the touch.
My love has just fear
I feel like the cold peice of metal
Taking the night I lay awake
Why why why


Is my insanity tearing me apart



I see my self  looking for the voice that picked me up when time was running around




Number will tell you push chose for you


Just don't hide when you run chasing the dragon that will be your fate
  My reflection screams

From what mistake you made me



I'm broken from the  true love that ruined my voice even trying

On this earth I walk alone hoping to escape this burning hell that has taken every thing from me. You an take every thing from me even my loved ones but you cant break me I wont go let my grip go. This life is filled with fear and blood shed but you can take my hopes and **** them with all your forces that brings **** joys as well, but every time I try new ways I have to move threw the obstacles that I have to move threw.
I have ideas that hopes for life to change, but this is only the start of your hellish ways. there is nothing I have left to say, but I know my next move. I'll flip the script and open a door way to hell and push you deep into the endless ******* life brings. i'm  tired of being silenced all you have done was trap me down in a prism of suffocation. your words have scared like boiling water the scolded the skin.  i could a empty soul witch has been true. i might be dead inside but i still have a heart beat. i might swear when i escape your power that you have taken over the world will end with your voice be silenced when i take the chance to make a present that will take down your over turn of this world opening up the doors letting the souls free.
this war now will be come just down to me and you. i have nothing left to fear i am not afraid to die when i have already have died. i have nothing left to lose hen your war has taken it all ready. i don't have any smile to show when you have drained my life away with all my life including my pure soul. you have left my life shattered in burning piles of dread. you can take away every thing but i wont let this go on any longer. you only bring death and destruction leaving nothing left. but i wont be trap'd for ever when i end this path of stubborn childish ****. only one shot it takes to end this game . i have a plane to end the book of hell when u only gain your power by demonic hate.
i have the power to end this even if it mean ending your life so there wont be any screaming souls left to be heard.

nothing left to hold me down my time to rise up and fight threw all your childish games. no more suffocating no more pain or hate i had enough listening i'm going to spread infection that will end the (rain of terror)

i cant be silence once you let go of your grip.  until then i hope you like a pool of your own drain mind i hope you like the feeling of burning pain.

you didn't just taped me you have no idea i have groups of malicious that have the power to set this world a blaze.

i can't take seeing your power take lives that tried changing to save this world of corrupt ******* like your own kind. just wait till you know what your death will end like like Lego's falling down when you kick them down. this world inst big enough for me or you but suffocating silence wont stand any more no more i have saved this life.

My heart has shattered from the relation **** u and me are in. We fight all night but deep down in me I try and try to hold back the teats I never knew I had. Looking up in the sky just want to know if I'm just a dream I couldn't escape. My emotions feel unreal when all I show is your lies that break me tear me apart.


Shattered from your hope destroying my life

Every day I wake up I wake up in the arms of the most beautiful woman in my life stearing deep Into her eyes sets my heart a blaze our own love is like 50 shades of grey keratin kisses feel warm like a warm summer's night as I grow she nurtures me our love is so strong my wife is like a mother to me since I was adopted from st Petersburg Russia love is like pure energy she breathes happiness radiating my heart and soul making love like Angel's from above this happiness feels like I'm just floating and drifting into a love storie I cant even describe I'm lost in a trasnlusant state hipnotysed by her lust I'm so in love with my wife

i'm perfect the way my scares rundown my face and my arms. for every think i put up for every on these years. every new flaws i have make me who i am. noone could take my burns and scares all over my body. i have survied every way you threw at me.
im kinda crazy i'm kinda ***** to in my own little way. all my life i make new flaws every time it keeps out of reach out of control .

im not perfect but all my flaws will prove you wrong i have scars and slashes down my face. but that who i am and im not a shamed orwhat people have to say. i don't care what you say about me. but i don't care if you cant look at me in the eyes but i just want to tell you i accept all my flaws and tht who i love being

do i know what life to survive. is like

all it takes is. this

DONT COMPLAIN OR EVEN SAY A THING

never give in  or give out

i cant think of any thing i dont have my music playing.
i even writ in my note book but i still my mind has been blocked i cant think of what i wanted to say.  i just want to scream cause i have so much to say but i cant cause i dont know how to let it out free.

sleepless night with all i have is the tears that drown me. NEVER take the words of the wrong group that only leads to your own problems! every day new scares become deeper and deeper when you have trust issues that just takes your own life flipping it up side down.  ** can you trust when every one you meet is in the wrong group. WOULD you be the follower or the LEADER of the group. just sitting threw the long classes during the day having the fear every one is coldly looking at you. making a mistake  u can take back makes the dark thoughts grow stronger as you walk like your dead. being home alone has the temp of falling apart ** when u get home from high school your only true friend is the scares they put on. when your reflection starts to tell you that your not WORTH IT what friends do u have. that final  day comes. every night you lock your self away every night laying in deeps thoughts for how to deal. EVERY NEW BLADE paints new picture of what grows{SCARES} is the chapter that tells your entire life storie

awak all night with shallow minded thoughts. awak all night with nothing to say except the rejection you have been to lost and shattered dreams. tears have shed but no point to even care when you have nothing to hold on to when u feel abandoned like every try u made to make a new friend. my heart will sing to it own rythem. but my voice will never be heardd ever again from societys ****. fallen angel what regrets when you feel hollow and weak with thoughts and regrets. loved or not loved nothing to keep up just fall deep into a path that will break apart making you spin into darkness you cant lift.

i see you ******* sloly walk pretending to text or talk
every picture you have taken of me. will be the last mistake you will ever bee
my faces has sever scares from burns. every photo u have took of me i hope you rote i n hell. every flash or photo you have taken. i hope you know your going to pay the price you cant aford to be. i dont take selfies or any thing of me i live a life with out showing my face. cause people cant stop looking at my scared running down my face!!!!!

i want you to look streright in my eyes. and slowly sufficat with tears.


every photo taken of me will be the most biggist mistake you will be the rest of your life

i dont take picture of me i dont let family of any kind or friends take photos

every flash or silent click of me will make me vary angey.


you can torment me bea the crap out of me tear my life apart.

but dont ever take picture of me with out consent or ill se you in hell or court


dont take a flash or a silent click ill be waiting in hell for your mistake



dont ever take pictures of me i just want to get threw life with out being the center of attention.

In  this world you have all these fun and games. The one we find to fall in love making crazy stupid love stories that only make part of our dreams.  Memories will be made.
what is the line you fall on to stop this madness that takes away all the trust you make threw new people you make.  Have life endured the lies it only brings.  All this world brings is broken trust.

The angel can lay asleep but watch the world for a while then tell me the truth of what do you really see.

You can spend all you life time making memories but you have no idea what mass attack will rip you and your life all apart.

This world is so unforgiving but I have the key to take every blow.


You could take my and just destroy me every thing! but you know I wont fight back.


My secret weapon is my words and my observations.


Every one has the choice to not fear the reality but what is the truth

Blood shed fighting and die.


I'm not letting any one cage me in . I have been in  the shadows hiding till I could say my report and not be the one who stepped up in the counsel of choice,


but I have nothing to lose or fear any any more. The only thing I fear is losing the ones I love dearly.



For any one I love I would take my life to shield you from  braze of bullets...


You can take every thing away from me but the truth will always stand tall,

but you can take my life away or every thing but I don't have any thing to lose.

This world has no time to think no place to rest. you only run just run so reality and society can't **** you. this world has no forgiveness only lies that leave scares all over you body. your wrist may bleed from the chains constricting you till you cry a tear of red waiting for the day you tried to escape. this life leaves you feeling dead inside. this feeling is you the real you has been dead drained of life and all the colors of the world suffocating you into misaery. your friends all have smiles but all you have to do is put on the biggest face smile and build up the energy for the night you go out. you want to snap and tell the ******* public the are nothing but a wast of time and space. in you you are all hollowed out. your reason why your hollow is you kept strong longer holding up with the game. day night day night wondering away like a zombie. you know you have the strength to keep going..


i was told when i was little if sit down on the side of the road and cry you will never get back up.



i have the gift of love and compassion. i will take my life to save the ones i love and i will let my self relax cause i don't have any more ***** to even care any more .



i have to say ill never give in but ill never stop just keep going. life shows you how dead society drains you mentally psych-ally . you really don't have a place to escape or no place to run from society's *******.


no matter how bad it gets ill never get pushed down ill just keep going till the end.


to all my loved ones i hope you know ill never let any one hurt you ill be the shield that will protects you from threat even if it mean death.

i have no regret that hangs over my head.
all the mistakes i made is like music in my head.
i don't regret any thing i do cause that's i i move on in life.
i may make mistakes but i wont let it **** with the rest of my life.
i know i did make stupid mistakes but that's how we learn in life.
i know you think i'm  crazy or ******* insane.
but that's just how i am.
all the regrets i had left made me angry that i could fix.
i learn new things when holding regrets only weigh you down to your grave
i'm not insane but i am kinda ***** crazy in my own way.
that's why i don't have regret to carry around when i just have life to live freely.

the days grow faster as time seems to just play on a loop like your iPod playing that song on repeat i see how long i could keep my head up before i snap and lose control till every one in front of me will wonder where to run to i will never let my tear break me showing you my opening weakness. the days seems to never end with only one demonic smile taking your mind losing your own chance to gain power and destroy what i has said to be. i show no fear for the note book of evil. i might  just let lose my own creations when you get to me with my tears but nothing couldn't ever leave a scare on me when i am nothing but a scare. i am broken but i'm not afraid to fight back to show you i mean what darkness i can harness till i can rip your heart apart spilling my demons i warned you about. i may be shattered broken but my tears will never break me or tear me apart.

I have to much energy senosing me in endless circles. I feel like I'm driving. Mad when I have to much things I can't win or drown in projects that seem to suffocating me.

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 all day and night the pure krystal bottle of ***** brings down the stress and anger

all the feelings of night wasting away from parting and waking up the next morning with some one who you don't actually remember what the **** happened.

you memorie is erases so you cant even find out what happen last night.

all your friends lok like **** even your life is filled with regrets.
doing things making the night glow and grow more intense with insanity with no limits.

no one wants to say any thing when one of us has to speak with the person who took our souls along with us.

every night being away parting lifting spirets away with good times and giggels that haunt us forever.


there isnt any were to turn exept trying t know what actually happened to me.

life is full of mistory and questions of what the **** happened to all of us no memorie of what happened no idea who the hell where i have ended up

When you me were together. My heart was beating faster! But you lies got me addicted to curtain kinda sadness. When love stoped my world grew colder than ice. When I was abandoned I felt it was to late to relapse. Heart keeps going on with fight just to survive the pain you left me in. Time goes bye with tears streaming down my face as I drink away the pain your left me in. Maybe it never to late to run away! Or maybe I should just keep walking till the end of road begins to sink dragging me down into the grave. Was your words real? Or simply just lies you couldn't keep playing my heart with. Who should I rely on when im alone in this empty world. With just the poetry I get my heart to speak pain I never expected to feel from your cold lies. I hope ill be able to make threw your abuse as my own voice becomes silent

Her love is so intoxicating she paralyzes with her venom. The toxins are kicking in. She medicates my brain leaving the emotions painless. Agin and again i feel like half awake or in acoma where im not alone. She is my angel my god my vissions i see in my head and my dreams. She spins a web where we lay where she lays me down to rest.  Alone i stand in this life a wisper and a scream. This can be real im going to go insain blowing my mind away. What is left only dilusions of the girl i love. The pain come crashing in with the knife you stabed me twisting till the blood stains your blade. I stand in the rain gettting wet. The tears start to bleed crimison red like when you put crimson red lipstick you kiss me all over with. These games the dreams the vissions you left me with give me the strenght to keep walking threw hell i am traped threw. 3 am you are sitting on the couch you drinking red wine or have you finally trapped your next victim and ****** all his blood out of his vains to show you are my true love. Your love is so strong my night mars never seem to exist when you have me tighlt in your arms. Everyday i see buring firery hell i see people suffer for all there sins they have left scares all over. I will walk threw the vall of death just to be with my wife with her intoxicating aroma she suduces me with. Temtation will only bring me missery. My prince i love you i will catch all the threats in my web making sure your safe. No harm will come when you follow me threw the heavens and hells. She has bit me showing me a life with painless begainaings and endings. My life has been nothing but full of darkness pain and endless battles. My wife is like a black widdow her venom sinks in to my vains like needles setting all my pain go away she sets my fear and endless terros away. She promised me i will not die one breath at a time. She picked me up off the floor when i was to weak to keep going. Everyday my dreams change all i see is her right in front of me her venom gave be the visions of a millions dreams. The thunder storme breakes my silence when the fear is to much to bear. I drift in to my own grave awake or asleep. Feeling like im floating motionless in the ocean where the wakes ******* me down to a wattery grave. Before i get taken she grabes my wrist and pulles me to safty where i will not be dead. I feel like the rain sends my soul away dancing in the rain. Playing with fire is what i like to do she is my little widle fire i love to play with. Her long blond hair leaves me speechless. Everything seems to go crazy into my endless fight i face every day. Every battle i face she always stand by my side and fights all of the darkeast demons that torment me every night and day. Leaving my mind a damgerious thing to play with. My night mar becomes real when i start seeing the demons who have been chasing me threw this endless hell i shall rise to the heavens. I will cast my own shadow to play a psychotic game i like to do when your heart burst with all your emotions at once till your hollow inside.  In the middle of the night i sit up with fear and tears screaming my wifes name even tho she is right next to me. Its 4am nights i see with no sleep upp all night thinking all my thoughts. What is real what is true what is fake. Its time to embrace all the pain you feel and anger you go into. My soul is yours to take her fangs i feel it under my skin feeling like im being burned alive. Her love is all i need to to stay alive her love is what makes my life painless. But she suduces me then gives me her venom leaving me paralyzed into her love and powers of love lust and suductions its our own 50shades of grey with our love we have every day night .

With out her i will slowly drift into madness i will slowly go insain losing everything i hade slowly dying one breath at a time.

walk miles then you'l see what things you have did. life will rob u of every thing.
don't follow the crowed or follow the society that will play tricks on what you really want to follow. society is jokes same as every word you bet your own time playing games that have no limits. they say you have lose every thing even your own mind that will bring down the city. you have lose every thing your bets your own family your own life. this world society. this world traps the people who can't escape temptation or escape reality. like being high all the time for your scares you have endured. life is nothing but a joke facing reality is scary. life shows nothing but traps that will bring your mind to free the traps you got locked into. your own mistakes make who you who you all  are. playing lies is losing your own self catching threw the temptation of society that just lies with no reason to even follow.

Humans aren't machines we don't have attachable weapons. What kind sick coperations turn people into deadly shape shooters.

No one knows what we really are.

Every day is different not the same.
We aren't made to **** our own.
We only **** to provide food for our young so they can grow and send another wave of generations.

Humans aren't made to ****.

But only one thing that can unleash ****** he'll is when we see one person take or kills someone.

We only **** to take the target that you saw KI'll.



Me
I'm not a Droid
I'm not a machine
I'm not a cold blooded slasher
I'm not aggressive to get payback
I can only set in motion a wave of thoughts that will stop and freeze the ****** battle field.


I'm not a Millitary machin.

But I am a 007 agent  with tricks with a mind that is a steel trap.

I'm not a pure aggressive killer.

I am my own 007 that has a mind of ideas that can change society from the cold industrial bleAK fear.

I am my own supper soldier. Not a aggressive scared cornered animal.

Humans only **** when some one kills a  person who is your friend.

We have our road we set in motion.

We set innovative ideas making the world functional.


We could be brained washed into a cold blooded weapon. Or we could set in motion  wave that will end all the ****** pure agression death that blood covers our hands

every day is new but my anger grows. when it turns into night my psychoticness grows stronger. one of thes days im going to snap and go psychotic on thos who wasted my time.

but anger is one thing but ill never go insane  on any one who dont **** me off
good day