My mind is broke my heart screams with tears in can't cry out. My regrets follow me pouring nothing but a dreary rain cloud  pouring Frigid rain soaking me down to the bone till I go insain.  I wish I could of told you inside I'm slowly wasting away just like a graveyard filled with rotting rusty  machines.
I wish I could of told my mom is really needed her when I had the darkest days where I felt like I was suffocating.

Every ******* ******* thing I nevery told or should of said enstead  of  holding and hiding my life mistakes.

My every wound seems to fall deeper and my heart feels so heavey with all my battles I problem killed to breath.

My regrets just keeps me from stopping I rather run.
My 25 regret it wish I was able to keep strong but I feel like I rather not necessarily there for  my famly.

Butmy biggest regret is my fear of losing my mom or dad in the night if they pass away threw there sleep I'll let be broken sending me to pack a back and leave my fear is I'm bipolar and I'm scared or losing them. My every word doesn't seem to matter only my creative thoughts do.



I am filled with wounds scares all from my every single regret that is like the darkness or the smoke from cigarettes.


I am broken to the point I'm unfixable.
So I just drag myself and long taking blow by blow making me weaker ad time goes on .
I  know you have to tell your life stories bit shut the **** up if you see or I tell you my life story  you'll problem drown your self in your own tears if you look at me you'll not bear able to but stair so don't tell Meveryone our ******* story  look at my broken mind body tell me if you can fix the years of the he'll that consumed me killing me hashing my voice where I couldn't scream or breath I was traded into ****** silent only that funny side I was torched till my lungs burned with hate

So don't tell my your Bulls **** life stories just look at me and try not to drown your self in your tears just listen and know I'm note strong enough to to be fixed

My biggest regret is I'm scared to lose my mom and dad I don't know if my last Batley ids strong enough to  hold I might just shut down and fall apart

I am broken and unfortunately unfixable

I am just slowly rusting away like the Russian submarines left rote loaded with horrors that bring ecological havoc. I lose all feeling emotion I feel none functional.

I was a top well oiled top of the line machine but time took its own path enstead of being decommissioned properly I was set off to expose toxins.

I have no energy or any feeling to give a ****.


I have no control over my emotions or just simply to not give a crappie what any one says anymore.


I have been holding and pulling along the weight of the world with no time to have a break I was used to hold on everyone's problem and there ****.

No I have been set off to rotate and rust with a arsenal or mass destruction and toxic chemicals  that will destroy  the economy systems



Only if I was decommissioned properly I would still be pulling the weight of the world flawlessly

Every day or night my mind grows more curious of the dangerous ways I go. Every day I cheat death even tho his whispers draw me closers to mistakes that can't be reversed. Let's play a game of insanity?
Every rule we break we mend a new insane way of our tricks. A lie brings misfortune as showing you have no boundaries.

My secret I scream is the dead silence on the sleepy hollow cemetery.
  My pain inside my bipolarmind is running wild with energy I could have saved to save my self from the deadly things that grab you.

My nightmares  become a stories that play with me like a horror film that was just shot.

How fast can scream.
Do u want to play with your own darkness or spread the sickening like a wild fire.


I have no heart beat only when life breathes into my lungs.



Dose evil bring good fortune or dose it spill blood like savagely brut let killing a person.



How far do we open up our minds to open ideas for evil or good.

Do u want to play with my mind to full blown destruction that we can't put out.


My pain inside my bipolarmind  is like a lighter starting a spark adding Fulton the fire setting my path of pure blinding aggression.


My pain inside my bipolarmind  is a trap I can't escape only way out is a fight till Insanity  kills me.


Clostrabobic  small room I can't breath I have no place to free any thought leaving me with my demons who have otherwise plans in mind.


Are u insain or can you break the lone and escape your twisted mind.



Let's play a game of mine can you escape and set your self free or will you be traded for inturnity weak and powerless of hope and lost of life.


Are u insain or can you handle your own pain

My mind has the words but my heart is to hurt to speak the words.
Later nights ***** or wine my pen pencil is still stuck on the deepest thoughts in my mind.

Mother I fearing you'll never know I love you.
Every time I write. my life seems to fall deep into the darkest shadows you'll never be able to catch me.



My emotions run wild like the Cristal tears I shead breaking down.

I see now easy way to chase the words I could of said before you slammed the door and left me.


I always said I loved you but now it's like trying to chase a dragon with no intention of being found.


I feel the burning singing pain from the ashes of my own heart breaking down. Just sinking away only wanting to say .

I LOVE YOU HOPING YOUR LOVE ME BACK KNOWING I'LL NEVER LET YOU BE SCARED IN THE NIGHTMARES YOU RUN FROM.



I CAN'T KEEP CHASING MY DREAMS EVEN IF IT'S LONLEY.

I HAVE TRIED TO CHASE YOU MY LOVE BUT THE WORD HAS NO MEANING NO MORE.



THERE WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH TO TIME FOR MY MIND TO TELL MY HEART IT'S TIME TO SPEAK TO THE WORLD EVEN THOUGH THE PAIN AND SCARED HAVE A MIND OF THERE OWN TO HEAL WITH EVERY BREATH YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO WRITE DOWN OR CHASE.


I AM BROKEN MY MIND HAS THE WORDS BUT MY HEART IS THE ONLY THING THAT WILL MAKE MY VOICE SPEAK REACHING THE TRUTH.


I LOVE YOU

I'm insane  no your not I have no way to go. Every day I can't runn or haveroom to breath threw.


Every breath seems like knives cutting threw me.


I haven't been sleeping.

Just looking out my eyes make me want to scream till I pass out.


I'm out on the streets with insane ideas that may make people scream running for all intensity.

I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING INSANE. GETTING ****** AROUND LIKE A PUPPET THAT HAS NO WAY OR PATH.

I lay awake with nothing but scatter minded thoughts. I feel like I don't know where to go with no sence of direction.

It's 2 am and I'm still not asleep my mind had full controll as I just get dragged along.

I feel like screaming but I will only makescape people think I'm a psychotic bipolar monster.


I have no way out trapedal in a glass prisom that is unbreakable suffocating with no sleep just going loopy.


I lost my fear with abusing energy drinks.


I'm not insaine I'm not insaine I'm not insaine.


Every thought every word I'm lost with now direction.


Only knowing I'm going to loseither control and crash and burn.

I'm lost scatter minded and I'm bipolar and I can't escape being feeling like a puppet  being played by the evil sensation

Of bipolar disorder scatter minded

My loving aunt has passed away in peaceful arms.  Her voice soft and warm. Her heart had all strong intentions even when bad things seemed to run loose. Her character was like a dragon  with bold ideas.

She was strong and  never let go but years went by and she grew more loving ing wise  he peacefully passed away in her sleep with no pain or fear.



My aunt was a sovont always trying to improve the lives she had intentions for positive change.




RIP MY AUNT BETSI

I sleep at night with fear my dreams will be come real. I have endless ideas but no leads to run.


I feel alone lost in a place of know to be dark and freaky.


My friend I have is a puppy who is sort and warm.


Walking this abounded  world survived chemical warfare  and nucluer fall out.


Scary sights long night's hidden and lost and forgotten.


Abandoned is the new road I am making to pay words to change the dead who were wiped out.



Alone but not my voice my little friend is alaways loveing to hear my pondering thoughts

We are surrounded by societies mistakes.

You are the only one who can turn the tables before the next one gets ****** into being a puppet.
.
I see the road to run.



The doll house is being controlled by a puppettear being moved around with no control.


Once I have been enslaved by a puppettear  I'll be a slave like everyone in society

Dresssthe  same be the same as the ****** lies you can't screams.


Rather speed the speed of sound rather than being in no control of anything  no way to escape or speak.


Society screams agony of the ones who don't have enough to speak the mind.


Better feel free or gift all if ideas to beat the comon down fall of being enslaved to your worst night mar where your voice won't be able to make a sound.


The doll house effect should be run from so no screams will be silenced from the gifted creative minds that make society run smoooth like a chain on a bike smooth with nothing rough

Blind truth ****** knuckles the last smile I though was just is horsing around.

Why dose things seem to end with a fight at the end of the day.


Not enough pain killers of booz  will change the feeling of insanity in. The room .


Why don't we just play nice.


But knowing me the false leading became my fist hearing the deal out of all your bill **** fake lies.

I walk the road I chose to follow.
Playing ***** screamed your shot is wacked? How to escape the truth you don't want to show your real self.


Like a shadow your self image lies like spray painting a broken angery mind that won't admit weight from wrong.





Insanity  or guilty of all your mistakes you ran instead of writing the new storie you justchews to cras an burn.

No creative ways to redeam your self.



The house if truth will make the light as bright if you speak the truth or just keep lying.



Being fake may just smash all your teeth out being fake fit you is ditch
Now it's your grave.



Being true speaking your mind making the road turn to pathes to all crazy opportunist .


Be true your own willl write society's  next move.


A posey is just a flower but
A rose is the truth about your life.
A rose is a reward for guiding the broken weak lost to the next game.

I have to much energy senosing me in endless circles. I feel like I'm driving. Mad when I have to much things I can't win or drown in projects that seem to suffocating me.

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 all day and night the pure krystal bottle of ***** brings down the stress and anger

I have to much energy senosing me in endless circles. I feel like I'm driving. Mad when I have to much things I can't win or drown in projects that seem to suffocating me.

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 all day and night the pure krystal bottle of ***** brings down the stress and anger

I lay in tears of seeing thoughts of losing my goals and dreams. I feel insane when I can't fall asleep seeing the darkest shadow following me. I don't even have enough in me to shed a tear. I feel like a old wooden grandfather clock ticling time away.

My heart has no sound no rhythm. I am tormented by every thought that will never leave me alone.
Brown twisted saying your name every 2 min so quiet calling your insanity till you break and set off a big explosive rage.


I'm insane or the thoughts that ripped your every voice you hade left to say.

I lay in rain feeling the cold fill my lungs with every mistake I make knowing that death is a grip around my neck slowly feeling like death has his buring lies.



I don't fear death but with his cold dead lying eyes I can't beat that his truth knowing all my thoughts feed his energy .

Feeling his hand touch my back make u see ****** rain threw the eyes of pain  my eyes now see deaths pain for every life he has to take

awak all night with shallow minded thoughts. awak all night with nothing to say except the rejection you have been to lost and shattered dreams. tears have shed but no point to even care when you have nothing to hold on to when u feel abandoned like every try u made to make a new friend. my heart will sing to it own rythem. but my voice will never be heardd ever again from societys ****. fallen angel what regrets when you feel hollow and weak with thoughts and regrets. loved or not loved nothing to keep up just fall deep into a path that will break apart making you spin into darkness you cant lift.

No time to cry .
Just a straight line I have to play to obey the crimes that were told so our minds could have some devious self control
All the blood from all the evidence sick ***** that make u want to self destruct waste your last break before every mocking lie you run from that you must stay to finish what your evil devious plan.

Evil or not mocking lies make your mind turn cold blooded killer like a government sleeper age to when activated unstoppable force.


No where to run let's just play till the end of the ***** truth is revealed

Nothing there just the color blue

Seeing deep in my eyes you won't know how to realize I am dead inside hollowed out. I am traded in  glass prism. I look like every thing was hit and beat.
I cant think when fire ran wild turning my tears into shards of glass


My eyes are cold and dead but so is my heart


I lay broken with the pure tears making the world fall apart



I see out my eyes nothing but blood she'd only the sick and twisted of society's games.



My reflection brings all the darkness and plays it out my krystal eyes



Dead or alive you never would know what dark and twisted it to look in my eyes

I feel lost in the feel of grass.
I think I can't stay alive
I lay cold my heart with out a heat
I feel cold to the touch.
My love has just fear
I feel like the cold peice of metal
Taking the night I lay awake
Why why why


Is my insanity tearing me apart



I see my self  looking for the voice that picked me up when time was running around




Number will tell you push chose for you


Just don't hide when you run chasing the dragon that will be your fate
  My reflection screams

From what mistake you made me



I'm broken from the  true love that ruined my voice even trying

Why do we we try into darkness
Why dose our lives seem so prepretty and deaselt.

Why dose darkness seem better than light

How far do we go when time goes out

Why do we have to suffer lies we make up

I see nothing but broken glass with a ****** hand with broken clocks.


How long am I going to survive.


Why should II've with fear

Why date why try why care why even keep going


When broken glass and broken clocks

I feel the buzz in my mind and soul the feeling you want to chase the shooting stars with. Again and again.

I feel fine
I feel weak
I feel like ****
I feel like the worst hang over
I feel sick like a drug addik
I feel dizzy at 3 am
I feel like puking my  guts outhe.

I feel like I can't stop my sick addiction even though I have tried to get clean but relapse  has stopped me dead as can be.


I wonder what it feels like to be clean from the energy drinks that runs your life heroine.



Over and over I wonder how sick I look.


12 days 56 days with diswraling getting clean.


My money has been going good fast for my fix but in reality I'm a mess.


Why have a relationship when u can hide it any more.


Why try when you only do things to get your addiction to berry you alive .



No escape no wondering get what's it like to be clean from this wrecked curse you can't leave .


Am I insane or just lost

My heart has shattered from the relation **** u and me are in. We fight all night but deep down in me I try and try to hold back the teats I never knew I had. Looking up in the sky just want to know if I'm just a dream I couldn't escape. My emotions feel unreal when all I show is your lies that break me tear me apart.


Shattered from your hope destroying my life

I lay awake it's 1:30 feeling lIke I'm just stuck. I see only havingredients a broken heart and soul. My emotions run wild like the wild Mustang horses that roam free from danger.

Stuck in deep thought that could try to be used.


I novation seems like a joke when you are just running out of mental steam.


I feel like my reflection that screams at me in the mirror never musing all my flaws I am.


I just see the darkness beauty of what society has thrown at me.


Iso my life just a dream or reality beat my soul apart leaving me no tears to cry.

Darkness beauty make the world more fun when you can see what you could describe.



I don't know why I couldn't wake up can I see my image as a traitor like my shadow that seems to leave me when my shadow make me feel less alone.



My heart is strong but broken and shallow from time we all lend up with scares to remember where you were at the time .



Don't waste you time just run free from the stupidity society will bring down on your reflective

I hear the expression a glass full or half empty.


I feel my heart only pumps the red wine we drink to fill in the darkness of our soul


I'm insane but I might just be drunk from all the dark rainy days that will stained all the wite clothing you see your self as a reflection of death showing your life has no hope.


What kinda blood pumps your heart white wine or red.

What kinda stains run your life.

Do you pick your life delicious or do your wine that flows threw vanes chose all you wants and needs.


Are we both crazy are we deranged are we all insane or are we just riding the free ride of drinking our hopes away or are we stronger that we might feel or be.

My heart feels every thing all around me. All eyes that look straight down a pond me will tie a ribbin marking the way home.


All my nerves feel nothing less of the atmospheric pressure making all my deepest thoughts turn all the tricks into magic that would of saved me.


Laying stuck in a daze losing reality all on me.

People all around will change the rules of how thought will one day bring the brightness alive with breathes and emotions that turn the tables up side down.





My thoughts and me wake the sky cry with all my tears I could never cry.


Cause in reality all my eyes see is a manche in we are we run on gasoline.




I lay stuck in my head just thinking why the human society can be so malevolent and evil with not emotion.



Darkness will set as we all turn our anger .




For my mind I only can do is face all reality  walk the darkness feeling the cold rhythm of all the machines that run society.



My heart runs faster than my breath making every thing twist




I'm not a machine I can feel all pain all your pain I have a heart that can fill with sadness joy love hope light or dark I can escape the danger of your stupidity .



I have thoughts that will change society . I have a heart that will change all the rules  of what humanity will show.

I have emotions that can make the sky cry
I have emotions that can destroy the Beauty of a lier.


I feel all your pain misery teats I can feel the rhythmic beat of your soul knowing what has destroyed your hopes and dreams.



Imy not a machine I am flesh and blood with a sense of deeply caring and respect that can under stand things no one knows




My heart is hope and my mind is reality that will change society's miss leading.



I feel all your pain I can read your mind taking what destroyed you giving you my heart to run with open minds


Than we aren't machines but we are just thoughts that can set all of our dreams to become what we really need

Why do people say my heart will write all my thoughts out like  the addicted drugs flowing threw my Bains.


Why do we bring beauty prospective in dead heat of summer when everything dues of water.

Why do people say to me my russian blue eyes match a vary stormy m9nth of the rain storms.


WHyde be in hand of a angel that will make your wrists bleed.



Why summer than cold weather with rain.


I feel like I'm not going insane when I can spread my wings and write all my stories to my life experiences.


Why should we look at summer when cold and rainy weather brings new life into  equinox.


My left hand might be my weapon but violence shouldn't be risk when your only escape is being bathed into the cold rain filling up all your cuts broken bones brussis.


The rain will save us from rushing into danger with out fear.


Let me rain so I can bring my next generation back

Pure energy long lasting. The pure high I drift into and drift out. Trying to chase that feeling I'll never know for the time we have to mature and grow.

I'm not insaine. Buy I am a psychotic machine chasing something you will never be able to feel the same.


I am my own malevolent addiction to stupid **** I'll never win back.


I will chase the feeling of my highs and lows. But I will never end up strong if I'm weak as hell

I just want to know if my life is just a dream or reality breaking me in front of you.  

How can I escape when all I want to do is cry in your arms.

No  one knows what it feels like not to shed a tear when you can't feel the warm arms that makes you feel nor hated.

The girl of my dreams keep yelling at me.

Figating only stopped my heart from beating .

I feel like I can't start a new path cause I only felt safe when every thing went wrong.


But since you left I haven't slept waiting to be safe in your warm arms.


Broken as can be im falling from societies games.


I haven't she'd a tear knowing the truth u will never come back so I can love you.

I feel there won't be a reason to love. When u have broke my heart. Now I know the truth I'll just keep moving.


If I stop and site on the ground I'll never get back up but if I keep going maybe I will make new tales and stories ahead of me.


I am just a mess cause you broke my heart that will never beat again when it's the truth agent love.

Ever step I take will set in motion innovative ideas. It will be easy to dissapear from what scares me the most. What words would you even considering saying when every door room or fallen millitary bunker.  No threat only walking into a wear house discovering pools of blood with hacked up dead some decapitated so luster choking on there blood.
Why walk when you could run the miles to stop the master of desciz.


Nothing seems to be a possible when you you use urban mind as a deadly weapon.

We aren't machines we are human not a Droid.


No we dont weapons we just have to create havik. No blood she'd only mental ideas that will pull the plug of the demons eyes

Humans aren't machines we don't have attachable weapons. What kind sick coperations turn people into deadly shape shooters.

No one knows what we really are.

Every day is different not the same.
We aren't made to **** our own.
We only **** to provide food for our young so they can grow and send another wave of generations.

Humans aren't made to ****.

But only one thing that can unleash ****** he'll is when we see one person take or kills someone.

We only **** to take the target that you saw KI'll.



Me
I'm not a Droid
I'm not a machine
I'm not a cold blooded slasher
I'm not aggressive to get payback
I can only set in motion a wave of thoughts that will stop and freeze the ****** battle field.


I'm not a Millitary machin.

But I am a 007 agent  with tricks with a mind that is a steel trap.

I'm not a pure aggressive killer.

I am my own 007 that has a mind of ideas that can change society from the cold industrial bleAK fear.

I am my own supper soldier. Not a aggressive scared cornered animal.

Humans only **** when some one kills a  person who is your friend.

We have our road we set in motion.

We set innovative ideas making the world functional.


We could be brained washed into a cold blooded weapon. Or we could set in motion  wave that will end all the ****** pure agression death that blood covers our hands

I feel like I am a evil demon I walked the path and I never got to the other side when truth has hit me harder that killing. Life fame not me I live in he'll watching the world collapsed. I know I'm completely insane but I don't have a stories my only thing I am is a force of nature that will end your pathetic Lillie game.

You told my life to expose the truth well I'm insane and a force of your worst nightmares

I see the thrill in my mind a 007 agent in pure blindness. I have heard your voice sounding like wind chIms blowing around in a rain storm.

Your love was so strong that I felt like darkness will play taking away lives.

I couldn't sleep only me laying on your chest hearing your heart beat. I see nothing but a 007 agent picking up insanity

I have nothing to feel or love I'm as dead as a door nail the peirced my lungs away. I lay dead with no sound or breath? You told me love will cure a broken heart stomping me till all my guts spilling out. Dead as he'll no breath or heart beat.  I have no voice just the quiet summer night. Layin my head on your lap looking at you knowing you will keep me safe you are my star you are my girl I have  fallen on the battle field not making it to you.  Dead as a door nail quiet as canbe love bites down when I run to you

I lay threw a field of flowers stuck in a inreversable daze watching the world turn from night to day. Rain may come violent storms pass threw watching my younger self fade away threw the existance of being high no pain no fear nor anxiety no panic. Just relaxed in the worlds words seeing life play down as lifes like a card game. Or just watching the world turn and evolve


The smoke in my lungs fill my mind with lose thoughts no regrets no pain just the feeling of comfortable

I am your soul and your mind no evil will rise In your heart of love I will never let darkness destroy your beauty when I'm the your conscious who will make the fight to survive.societies games. You wounds will heal with loving care but your aggression will test you if you move away into a dark smile. Pure evill will trap every tear I have held back.


I am your thoughts
I am your safety
I am your emotions
I am the thing that will change you from drowning inside away fromthe light.


I'll be the one who will keep you. Above so no pain will **** you <3

People say my blue eyes look like a kristal ocean. Sadness seems to make people wonder if I am crying or just down In the ditch. Every one looks and glances deep in my blue eyes hoping not to cry.

I hide my blue eyes so no one will know I'm not crying but I'm just a kinda person with the affect on people. When they notice my vary vary blue shinny sparkly reflective eyes.
  

Sadness invite eyes leave a message on the world saying its okay nothing could try to beat the rules.


They say my Russian blue eyes scare society and people when they get traped steering at my eyes
.

Seems like I have taken there souls with out a breath to freedom



I'm Russian with blue eyes.

My eyes will look sad but that jut how they look blinding people with unforgettable love

Day will only leave knife marks. Can I breath can I survive? Am I alive or am I dead inside to angery to ****** to ******* made at what lifes **** will change. I have a danger inside. Me that will turn the full moon into a ****** war that only leaves scares you will never escape from the grips.


Deep down I have the scream building in me T night dressing my wounds I endure every sun rise.


My voice is soft with kind but my reflection I see in every mior all I see is a mess who. Can't and never want to see his own self.


I am vary quiet but that's just my life until I snape turning every thing In my world upside down with nothing left to survive



I can't. Take risk of seeing
My eyes when they turn glowing red with the crimson red I shed in my battles of he'll


I know I amm insane but breathing in every ones white and pure black lies is like smoking a vary addictive drug you can't escape that suffocate you.

I see no fear I am the enemy 24/7 when you turn your back I'll escape from the anger you traped me in. I am pure evil a demonic entity that will grave rob you pretty little minds.

I see know fear cause I face death being thrown off trying to breath.

Holding to gather by a white **** and bandanas till I can feel alive. You might call me a psychopath. Cause I can't feel your pain!


Set me free with all your dark wishes all dance with death to make sure you wont lose your fight.


Make me your deadly weapon of surprise leaving all your anger as my fule.


Harness me to make your anger saddness pain go away doing the ***** work to society.



I dance with death making a trail you wish to follow. Breath in the smoke of the contract you sign selling your life into a demonic vicious cycle.

They tell you you will lose your anger sends he'll and nightmare you will never escape screaming.



I'll give you my love shielding you in my demonic angel wings.




Unleash the cycle all


Take you to dance with death giving you immunity and you becoming karma that bits u in the ******* *** !



I am a force to be wrecken with.
Danger unstable to tame?


Can you summon me the demonic force that dances with death to be set into destruction.



Death will chose if you can handle the truth of what will show your life.



Love isn't allways fair choose love or dark love setting your aggression on every one of them who hurts you.



Dance with death and me of live with pure anger you can't escape from



I am your ticket to live or never finding me.


Choose what kinda options you want


I'll be waiting till the end of tine making you immortal.


Chose or lose


Either way im a dangerious dark entity who is a psychotic psychopath

I have no way of escape my clostraphobie. Slowly suffocates me till there Isnt any air left for me to breath. This big vast world will never seem to surprise me or tell me I'm insane. My emotions play every wild card till it drains my energy even if I try and try to keep my cool. My heart is as big as it could be for every tear I try to hide. I feel powerless while you stabed me in the back. Society plays tricks opening my mind up with lost. Hope regrets. My energy drins I just died. Rapid emotions runs with full speed taking me on the verg of losing my mind. Rapid emotions have taken my life making it a never ending nightmar you can't just get up an move on

Rapid emotions **** as you slowly go insane till there's nothing left to catch you from the dead

Point by point regrets will be the one who tryes. A girl looked at me stuck in a loop of love. Every try I try I want the real voice. I want to know what the daze is out. She told me I have a gaze of devious secrets.


Only time has shown my time if the truth has failed just keep going even if it kills you

I walk threw thick or thin but I drown in the **** that hits hard. They said I was weak but I walk with a lite fuse like a hand grenaide! You fight blood shed breaking into riots bullets fly society will **** you as you try the hardest to prove them all wrong with the back staging ******* behind you. No escape just gut wrenching nails digging into your mind stoping a new way to iprove but society will not wast words only a gun to your head with no last words just BANG your Dead.



Deep in me my aggression grows as I wait to pull my pin exstingwishing every ****** who stands before me


Society kills but the twist a new enemy as I will tear the ******* who made inovative ideas turn nasty torching what is left


Society kills but there's nothing left for them to **** if I start a wave of riots.


I am the enemy of a demonic mind


No one will die cause I'm seeping out of line setting my road even if it mean getting chastise

No hope
No time leaving the warmth of her arms. No light no voices no time cold trapped in darkness forever. Forgotten never remembered why you could feel the warm breeze in the air dead. Silence has taken away the lies people killthem self over. What you can't feel is the emotions deep in you when Im just hollow for taking blow by blow chasing the girl of my life.. I would take my life to let her survive. Being dead cold wondering why people try to care. They say the truth won't hurt but being thrown down kills slowly no escape just lies that rip threw my skin like knives.  

Nothing left to care nothing left to keep moving.



       DEAD OR ALIVE you wi never escape what awaits you down your path


Lies or slowly  dying

Won't
Matter no screams or cries just dead silence that bleeds



DEAD OR ALIVE you won't survive

Anger anger tearing me apart losing my controll seeking nothing but revenge. Split ends leave ****** horror that leaves nothing but destruction. Words will set a blaze in it's path. I'm tired of lies you  put down. Blinding the path we follow to breath.  I am a riot I am a war I am a leathel weapon I am your enemy I am your worst night mar I am the reson you can't function I am the reason you will never unleash the beast inside you I am your biggest fear
. I have self control only time to put away is anger threw my ****** shed ways to escape your grips.



I show no resistance but aggression if I can't hold self control only me making your life a living fear and a living he'll

my years of high school have been so fast. but the truth is the ****** people who take away that loving time remembering the good. we have felt  a strong bond. i have sunk into a dark haze when all of the life stories we share. my 4 years of high school were only possible from miss lee as a guardian that never let go.  i feel like every thing is a joke.

Miss Lee has been taken away the most greatest part the light you need to keep up with your self conflicting. reflection.

half of the lie taken away her job cause the district can't afford to keep or pay to stay.






my graduation is jun 4 but i have been flexible and i can put up a lot but now i have no reason to even try to be nice.


the chain has been broke  my heart sank below the titanic of lost emotions.


if she goes ill just go to plan b im tired of being nice.


i know we will keep in-touch .


but the budget cant afford miss lee so theirs not any thing to say except that the high school is a joke.


you broke my chain now ill be the most ****** ******* i could be. Misses lee made my life in high school possible to function.  time will talk but my words will take to the top of the list that the school  can offord the help of misses lee the social worker who helps and keeps us in line she should stay but the ****** play with there money firering .

I feel like i'm swaying back and fourth with motion I cant stop. All my energy has been shot threw the wind. My hands wont let go from what has trapped me under. Just falling to the depths of fear sadness and hope that something can free me of the burden. I graduate from high school June 6 but the burden even tho the cold spring comes the regrets of missing or trying to ignore it all to gather its self.

never mind following my path you wont find any more for thus I have dissappered into thin air in bread fog

I have set a like of black and white no color. I have shunned away societies ******* over and over. I have been stranded in a vortex that play's your life's mistakes like a minor with a ****** fist from anger in the pure eyes of the devil of your own misery.
Eyes and ears but all I have to say to that is blah blah what ever. I have no wish except that my voice would of been heard cause life would be more innovated.
My last dying wish is to see society not be such copy cats of one another. Making me feel like shunning away made a good decison.

losing time as summer hangs into long summer days. i have just picked up my stuff and just walked away disappearing from blind anger.  my foot prints leave only a trail that goes dead cold. not feeling trap'd. but for how far away i was received a letter but the way it seems to hear is like a dear john e letter but this one has said that society has fallen apart with out me when i just walked away from things like fake people no truth just lyres that for the building s trucker like building that touch the tip of the sky.

i walked away following my heart from the letters i fear they all sound like the dramatic dear john letter. only leaving misery behind.my disappearance meant escape from things that are lies only pure aggression will territories the lives if i would have meant to be friends. and i  walked way so i wouldn't be suffocated by the drama  that just stabbed you.


life is society's lies they teach you to make you pretty little way you will tear apart

all night laying awake only knowing what life would be like to understand. my mind see;s lies but my heart doesn't know weather to cry or just run away so i won't have to face the people the next day. i lay next t my girlfriend. the road feels like the empty hollow feeling. no place to hear or want to speak. been clean  from self harming for 2 and a half months. every thing i wanted to say i rather just let my road pay out dissipating drooping off the face of the earth knowing ill bee leaving my love asleep in the nigh. nothing has any thing to make any scene to it. just lost in deep deep deep thoughts just trying to get by. only losing track just keep going to my self

you lie awake seeing nothing but the fan spin all around. the truth is real your life is a lie. if i take the pain away what will be my next role speaking the line you were told to survive. today is as what yesterday was. how long is the the path to run away. the feeling of being high brings me peace but what will it come to me. falling to the floor seeing the room spin with no grip to life up. every night i grow more open minded to what life would be life to have some one grab my be for i slip off the cliff into insanity. my reflection looks at me and says love isn't real when you are high. every night growing more skid dish not able to face reality. i am my own mid night stuck in a trans of endless mind lies. losing every thing you loved before will be your next score. i'm a mess when i just can't find my grip. i'm growing more  ****** up as time takes its toll on my life away from people who loved me.



theirs no place to hide or run away only inanity will play your life's roll. away till mid night locking your self away from from society till 48 hours have been passed starving the crave for you next score. i hear to force my self into reality. my grip is slipping looking down to the  huge rail road bridge plunging to my endless road where angels will erase every thing that made me the mess i have to realize life is free from night and day is the real reason why i only come out at night no i won't be seen.


being the mess my reflection keeps telling me i'm not crazy or insane but lost in a world where society scares the **** out of me taking the mess i have become

love is what reality will make your life open to ideas that will make you love finding some one who will always have a open heart to cry on

i have beat my addiction when i have fallen in love erasing my messed up self into a life that facing reality.


my night mar went away when a girl found me in the world.


i have the ease no more cold hearten twist or never awake.

just do it one more time

There is just a steep ledge that hangs threw the eyes of thrill seeking death. Deathes hand play's like knives cutting the pictures of every mistake you have made. Looking threw the blue eyes of the insanity of what you never wanted to see. She looks at me but deep down i'm never going to be set free of what I have done. Psychotically insane only the rain that falls that falls catches my skin leaving burn's. Only scares become clear when nights you just lay awake for nights watching the ceiling fan spin around. This earth you will suround the enemies you have made. I see no reason to make a sound. The cliff you jump in the water of regrets will take away the weight you suffocate in.