walking threw the night holding the love of your life hand. the cold grew seeing our breathes. feeling the thought that you'l never lose your mind. I write my name on the wall . falling into a haze feeling like the earth has told you to just let go. night will fall but every night i lay awake next to you watch over you.  i stay awake watching you as your guardian angel. we love and will never let go losing each other in a way of the mistake you will love.

you and i trusted friendship that lasted till my insanity will drive you into your own madness. every night and day laughing till we cant breath. I'm so bad cause i will tear this world apart to find the place to hide down into safety when this world will drown you.  look at me society is scared of me. every new idea i make all i know is that friend ships will be dead to me. your time is just something i will never have enough to follow by its own lie.

i have no fear of any thing any more.  but i will tear this world apart till i make the message clear that big ideas will make innovative ideas to make this world change will over power the ones who can't realize what right means to people.



i will never let my ideas leave till i make my point making this world know change will come but. so lock you doors or join making life easy to survive for any kinda people who can't keep there heave above the surface.

dragging me down fighting for people i care.  my body is hit with millions of bullets that have  taken away my last breath. my lungs fill with darkness but ill hold my friends lives in the balance of my own demise all my own answers will never have to show but take my hand stay close ill be the shield for you to escape. my life will never die even every bullet that hits ill never let you go. don't go or ill lose my own fights.

This world has no time to think no place to rest. you only run just run so reality and society can't **** you. this world has no forgiveness only lies that leave scares all over you body. your wrist may bleed from the chains constricting you till you cry a tear of red waiting for the day you tried to escape. this life leaves you feeling dead inside. this feeling is you the real you has been dead drained of life and all the colors of the world suffocating you into misaery. your friends all have smiles but all you have to do is put on the biggest face smile and build up the energy for the night you go out. you want to snap and tell the ******* public the are nothing but a wast of time and space. in you you are all hollowed out. your reason why your hollow is you kept strong longer holding up with the game. day night day night wondering away like a zombie. you know you have the strength to keep going..


i was told when i was little if sit down on the side of the road and cry you will never get back up.



i have the gift of love and compassion. i will take my life to save the ones i love and i will let my self relax cause i don't have any more ***** to even care any more .



i have to say ill never give in but ill never stop just keep going. life shows you how dead society drains you mentally psych-ally . you really don't have a place to escape or no place to run from society's *******.


no matter how bad it gets ill never get pushed down ill just keep going till the end.


to all my loved ones i hope you know ill never let any one hurt you ill be the shield that will protects you from threat even if it mean death.

the rain pours down leaving this earth bringing beauty. my self shows just fear. my eyes close as i take to my path undetectable to my safe haven of feeling free of society's grip of death. i cant find a way to leave the grips of peoples lies. no matter where i run or how fast  or  try to fight it back. ill never have a place to be alone to recover alone with no people to get to my head. every ones words make you feel dead with nothing but weight crushing you till you lose it and go psychotic on the peoples who just weigh you down slowing you stopping you to making a different to make the world a better place

I live in this world that shows only spiting ******* you spread all over with your phones. all the favorite memories of hanging with friends make us never lose being young. memories that sting burning a hole threw my heart. i'm running out of strength to keep the world around me from collapsing killing me. i had to say my time of even caring will blow this world from  my life in a *******. trap'd with no life left. i walk this world lost in my own destruction of what i will show you all. words will be sprayed all over . like every text message you sent to people  i told you i hate them all. why should people follow me when  turning my cards flipping them winning every poker game . i hide my eyes so no one will lose there own soul that i own now *****.



this world leaves nothing but scares that are all over my body turning me into a freak show. lies from words run like knives being thrown at a simple target of lies . don't wast your time cause i'm to broken to even give a **** about any thing else to say

peace out you have told the stories making peoples life hell taking every thing  away from them.


you told me to keep positive but you have reached and pulled out my bad side

every night i lay awake with no more energy to keep up with the demands. society is is just a joke. chapeters of lied that spread like wild fire killing every thing in its path of fire and death. i might lose it leaving what kind words i could possably care to even say. i am running low threw fumes of hell. im traped pinned down suffocating from all the **** that drowns me till all the air simmers. playing a game of hide in seek will end all of society away from society. lost in inturnal thoughts leaving a trail of horor with no way or **** to turn back to run threw the past of mine.

lay awake with nothing to hold you away from the keys in the ignitions cursing  letting all of your night mars let lose free. i see no chance to go fast.  every curve around the windy mountain roads.  driving fast letting the wind flow threw picking up your own soul  . flying threw shifting every feeling that high daze. letting my stereo play louder not paying my own attention flooring the gas peddle. nothing is a daze cause i have no limits i can't break. driving fast threw the night with nothing to hide as i turn up my music blasting all the vibrations shattering all the windows in my spider gt. no stopping letting lose all your demons lose before you get trap'd into life that you have to settle down. this feels like i can't escape but i rather drive faster that i would realize before my own dream that brings me back to reality. when life is so ******* ******. my daze  shows my thrill of anger with no regrets. just like i am following my dead heart.

this world has nothing but blind ends. no one knows what real emotions mean. life shows no breath of remorse. the truth will be spilled out soon when the wrong turn has consumed what you really should admire. this world leads nothing but lost empathy that has no feeling. love is just a word you say. But do you really know or feel what real emotions feel like. every thing is fake stupid blind with know direction no path to follow. being the last one who is quiet watching society fall apart from what lies fill your heart. industrial love will just bring you down taking every thing form you away. love isn't real. just these words that we say to be nice.

this world has no chance to hold me back. all there is left is war blood shed leaving screams of the dead that makes this world turn all around. spending the friday nights alone making setting this place a blaze watching this life turn down till insanity killes us all making this world glow with neon smoke.

I see threw my eye eyes and every ****** up mistake i have made. life is what makes the truth appear. even every fake identity to hide.  people say to you when your next mistake will cost your own life. i rather be alone so i don't have to think about ever mistakes that make your own self. this world is like a cloud of regrets. theirs no possible to redeem your self to prove this world wrong. society is a regret i feel has no limits only mistakes that plan before hand.

lies on regrets lies all plane lies your own mistakes make you more experianced for the next generations shine

walk miles then you'l see what things you have did. life will rob u of every thing.
don't follow the crowed or follow the society that will play tricks on what you really want to follow. society is jokes same as every word you bet your own time playing games that have no limits. they say you have lose every thing even your own mind that will bring down the city. you have lose every thing your bets your own family your own life. this world society. this world traps the people who can't escape temptation or escape reality. like being high all the time for your scares you have endured. life is nothing but a joke facing reality is scary. life shows nothing but traps that will bring your mind to free the traps you got locked into. your own mistakes make who you who you all  are. playing lies is losing your own self catching threw the temptation of society that just lies with no reason to even follow.

Life is like a misery that leads fast till you collapse. life throws yow all around till you lose tour balance. Fear is what life breathes on. I might be insane crazy but fear is how the world revolves on till time ends. I see no fear what danger's will be awaiting me down my path. MY only fear is living life with out music to keep my life like a streetlight lighting up all of our roads.  The only fear will show me what will make me want to tear down the multiple waves of hell this world can keep throwing at me. Life is what fear breathes off of . This time i will never get pushed or torn apart . all of life's insecurities show this world. I have nothing left to fear of cause i have tried and pulled off every thing that fear could possibly bring down this place. Fear is the earth that hold so much potential. Fear is what life is.

I have no fear what in in me. nothing but pure ****** force. closing my eyes hoping to escape from what was really me at once. i don't know that one side of me. i have pure mind i have sides of me that only come out when there is a threat to me. i might be holding all my identities that will be hidden til anger fear threat will reach to me. I roam threw the dark threw the night where theirs no lights or mirrors for me to look at. there is sides of me i hopes i wouldn't let out. I don't know how many sides life shows. but looking   till the sun dies. so dose my heart.

I lay awake all night watching the ceiling fan spinning around lost deep in my thoughts. my music is playing as i i lose my self in words i can't really know how to say. walking threw the day i have no way of knowing what might hit me next.  this world is unknown that i really don't know what to say. my fan spines around every night but i lay away just thinking what will happen the next day to prepare for the attack that will never be kn own of . summer is hot but i have so many hopes a dreams i needed to get.  social  and society has there fair share. but life has many things i just can't understand with out being scared. normal people scare me I don't know why. but i will never quit trying to stand my ground to speak my mind  when this world should listen to me for a change.
I might be odd or weird or insane or psychotic? but i just want this world to listen to me so i can maybe make a change to society making it easy'er to let the ones  who have been hidden in the shadows to let there voices be herd. all day i ether sleep or meditate with my thoughts of the black magic voodoo i will play on your life flipping your mind out of controls. I lose my hope but that doesn't mean i'm crazy. but my one side is a voodoo black magic. practice. i have power to flip this world up side down. i cover my self in protection with the darkness i can play or lay releasing out all my demons reeking  hayrick on all my enemies who have cross my path. every night i lay awake with my girlfriend cuddling  till we both fall asleep. my love has never forgotten. But i have been dead with dreams that will never show up when all hopes break away.

The only thing of really point is i have a girl in my life that we will set the world with new ****** ideas that people are so scared of like innovative to change the world from what has been already been tested.

All hopes will die when i have already tourn apart broken with so many trust.

I might be out of my mind but i want the world to listen to my voice to change the places that will end to fall

i take my time to ask all my insane questions. walking threw the cemetery in winter brings the most beauty out with the glistening of the tomb stones. whit snow turning red from the roses i break turning blood staining.  my foot prints left in the snow turn me into a ghost that never left a real true mark on those who have slipped tripping over there mistakes. you might call me crazy but i lay the final day. have you compared the natural beauty that lays silent making it more clear to under stand. i have found a cemetery that has miss guided truth. when night falls my eyes glow pure blue like the wolfs i have been taken till i lost it.  i love to find new cemeteries  to explore where these nothing that can hurt you. only if it was true that the living dead was a real thing. no fear only the blind beauty makes the forgotten Gothic graves  pretty. this world more pretty when it kinda dark but with light with the snow with a black rose with a red ribbon left on my savior who has protected me from every thing that i couldn't fight. now its my Friday nights to finish this stories we haven't finished. now its my time to finish the book so this world can move on to follow in my  writings.

no trust just lies that burn holes in my mind why should i say i actually want to be apart of society. i don't want to be held down the weight of what they say will make me want to strangle all of those who ****** me off. i don't agree to follow social media. theirs nothing healthy of society just you will end up screaming your lungs out like being trap'ed in a box or room wheres theirs no place to get out or any air to breath.
what do you breath is society's lies that will make you want to **** every one of them.

i rebel i don't agree with society i don't want to be forced to live in the land of **** face people who i don't give to ****'es about.


society is nothing but madness and sadness i ******* hate. suffer in silence they say! but isn't that what we all do every day in this world. no forgiveness just broken traders who have no point to try. **** filled rooms you end up having to learn in.

people in your way only leave you angry cause they can't even ******* walk.

i don't agree what society is suppose to give. but what it makes you have is a bad taste in your mouth you have to put up with this **** .

yes no OK yeah promise yeah right society is nothing but air you choke on when i stair right down at you. all your ****** mistakes make you a better person hell no you only suffocat on the ******* that you wait for to make time go faster.

i am venting apon what i have to do all day **** this this theirs only words i can't even wait to say

i'm done listening to the problems that are the same as every one elses.


say something new that's worth listening to

i am a shadow that slips away when light creeps up illuminating for life to live. i leave my foot prints but will never lead you any where. i am a shadow that hiding in the brightest day where there only is shadows that dance around the fire lifting the unrest-ed souls that cant lift up to the sky.  ever mark i have made will only lead you to a false lead. i am a dark demonic entity that should be left alone. if a fire is lit i will show my shadow dancing around what should have never ever been found.  my shadow leaves imprints but no tract of what you actually have been trying to find. you want answers you will never know the danger you seek. me i can touch to ****. this world wants to see and capture a demon that will appear. you wont know the dangers you will risk your life to be taken. i hide threw the darkest shadows hiding from the society. people want to see what i really look like but i can't be captured even with your flash lights and cameras that will never show my pure glowing blue eyes.  you seek me but im a dangerous elemental that should never be wreck en with.

you find your self falling in love with a demonic force you can't ever let go. even when  you lose your mind and end up getting imprisoned in the psych ward where no one will listen to your screams or even notice your voice.


you have found me the dark shadow who appears in-front of you i stand with my one word of demand you can't harness me or capture me when i am a danger. i have let you find me when every one has said you have been mentally insanity but i know your mind your seek ins. i leave you a image so you won't let this world take your voice away. like me ill be your angel of insanity you will never feel scared to let go to escape this game people take on you. i won't let the words of a and angel who has been locked away.  


you have seen me where i have been said to hide. i have let you seek me when you are the angel with the broken wings. you have see me away from society.


this is where i linger hide be tucked away watching society collapse with only death.

you have found me when your were called and dragged away in to your own voice that said the truth not any more..

your insanity has brought you to me a demonic entity.  you have found me now its my turn to teach you to escape out of society's  lies that only leave wounds.  

insanity is my place i hide away the ones who seek dark entity's will never find the leads prints to discover it. the ones who lead to the psych ward will find me to show you i'm real your visions weren't fake or your visions.

where you are now in the mental hospital is where i show me presents and take you along a way your not crazy. you will be heard when i show you the way out of your own insanity ways you sufficient on constantly. i will let you be with me but i will he harm'd by the light you can call apon me when you can't keep the fight up to survive.

you have found my trail but you will never find society so nice when yuo say you have found the dark entity

the days grow faster as time seems to just play on a loop like your iPod playing that song on repeat i see how long i could keep my head up before i snap and lose control till every one in front of me will wonder where to run to i will never let my tear break me showing you my opening weakness. the days seems to never end with only one demonic smile taking your mind losing your own chance to gain power and destroy what i has said to be. i show no fear for the note book of evil. i might  just let lose my own creations when you get to me with my tears but nothing couldn't ever leave a scare on me when i am nothing but a scare. i am broken but i'm not afraid to fight back to show you i mean what darkness i can harness till i can rip your heart apart spilling my demons i warned you about. i may be shattered broken but my tears will never break me or tear me apart.

Society has take it fair share weakening me tormenting me till i could barely even stand up to fight back. what will happen to me every single day that the force is unknown the force that just seems to be blinding me till i have my down fall. this day could get better or the day could beat me till i fall and start to bleed. dose this fight have to make me realize that i'm stronger that the real identity i refuse to be or just being part of reality. life is showing the test of weakening me till i fall or rise to the challenges that ill arrive every trial in my life every step of my life.  do i have to show my true identity or do i have the choice of my hidden identity of of a ghost that will spread life till i feel like showing me self. i have the only thing to show is my voice and presents but i will not show my presents only my voice that will leave misery and wonder.

i feel this time to say i have a gift to disappear threw the elements of change this plac is filled with a beautiful painting the will make you hide away all the tears you couldn't cry that you held inside for to long. this day by day fight left just marks scares that make your personality broken with no point of showing a smile but faking a smile and ******* it up and facing the thing we hate to say reality. the water  fall heals the wounds with the scares of your own vanity or what you have to have the strength to speak out what you really want to feel. behind the water is a place to let the voodoo doctor take care of all your anger turning into what you needed to be strong every witch way this ******* ****** up society that will let you scream. you may be broken wounded scared but come with me ill show you this place of mine the water fall of the healing memories leaving just enough to fake a smile and go threw the day with out falling apart with out shutting down hiding deep inside you hoodie or mind.

you just want to let go out all your demons you have to fight the first thing ever day. your phone is vibrating you caller id is your ex GF who is psychotically crazy and will never under stand i will never pick up your ******* calls cause you just smoother me in your lies you spill all over social media ruining every one fun times to be alone to escape this ******* world. this time my life has been crazy all my ex's have tried to **** me. i wish i knew what could be free but every call made every text is unstoppable making you want to go on a rampage killing knocking destroying every thing in your path leaving nothing but a pile of glass and ashes behind. i have escaped reality drinking monster but what ever happened i don't remember why or where or what happened.

you text and voice mail you leave on my phone i will never understand why you will never let it go why i left you.

when will be it okay for me just to let out every thing that hits me all over my body leaving the words and every thing like a fishing net holding it all on me. i am stronger that i know i can show but don't know when to show you my Russian deep blue eyes leaving me out in the middle of a war zone with people just dying.
i really don't know how to tell you when my tears will start to flow when you make me lay on you lap.  i thought true love would n ever leave an impression on you.
you make my lay my head on your lap telling me every thing that went wrong will become true with no tears left to fall. you make my world turn upside down with no more fear or pain left to feel.

i speak with a light slalom tone with not threat nor fear. when i speak i only hear the heart of caring that will set free all the trap'd souls that have walked restlessly not able to feel free. when i talk my soft tone voice heals the broken  ****** ones. no one should fear me when theirs nothing to be angry  about. this world i have nothing to fear i am just hear for one reason that can pick up the fallen till i can run till the riots become less over run that will stop the death. i use my soft tone voice to heal to make my own statements known to the public. you can take my and ruin my life.  i'm not a threat to public life i'm more a raid of normal people and society itself. i now that my down fall will destroy every thing comes crashing down with no survivors even allowed to escape. my down fall will be like a nuclear melt down. nothing in my path will  be left. my soft tone voice will leave a mark on this world before i will let go and fall releasing every thing losing what the point of trying on reality. i may be broken destroyed hurt life less even soul less but i will never let go till i make my mark and impression on society even tho i'm scared as hell to be with big crowds  and people normal people scare me when i don't trust what things will happen to me in the end .

This world i have grown up in my own battles that only leave my anger behind burning down my destruction of ashes. my mind is always is searching for new things and many answer's that i wont to finish the quest. i don't follow society's rules when i am stronger that this world that i face every day. my eyes only see what hell is even left in flames. i'm to crazy to care enough to understand your ways. i feel like a relations ships are nothing to me. I don't thing i could breath every time i make my hellish ways to be tricked into dating or wasting my mind on day dreams that will never become real i truly believe. The good looks  you try to show make my mind relapse of trap'd mixed minds just like this world filled with nothing except your own pain you will have to endure on the next  ride when you take my hand. Life is short but i'm still alive. i'm my own crazy psychotic self all over my time every one. every rose i have picked all the blood that *****'s my hands bleeding all over just like when you stab'd me in the back at night with your own white rose making it match with my  ****** red rose that screams out its ****** covered beauty. in the lake house with the sun roofs i see the pretty crimson red i remember seeing you that day i lost you to suicide. my own hellish ways make me me i refuse to follow the crowd but i rather revert and make my ground dis all the rules society has played to me like my own ways i will never let go my ways expect when you have the power or the guts to stop me down my road of of ripping out this world leaving every thing in a pile of glass and ashes.

I will no regret my hellish ways that's my nature even being Russian i'm just me a really insane mental cray person ill never change who i really am.

Not now not ever

I see my self in the meioir but i see just a dark image that looks like lies to the human eye. this is life with no way to even want to try. that final day i will let lose my broke memories. i have no point that love is real. love is just a stupid pathetic notion every body said to me. i have been broken but when i see you all this ******* will bring me up and then throw me down hard till i grow my  own weakness. i have nothing nice to say but when i find away just run never stop ever look back behind your back. your own childesh games have made me dead in side.  on the out side i have a fake smile but in me i will find you track every move you make planing to take back my soul that was torn apart from me. this time its my dead souls who will get revenge on your sorry all you scream

no were to escape only taking on bullets and heavy artillery that explodes killing every one in it's path. no one wants to feel scared but there is a truth to war no one escape only blood shed will stain the white cloth you try saving your best friend who was shot hit all over with fragments of metal making the truth more fear full. theirs nothing such of a war that won't leave bodies piling up. except the cold war that had a tactical scare but not blood shed.  the eye of the heart will say we all break our rules even if our identity's
break that we create to hide  our true self's making it harder and harder to be detected from your really self.. it is clever when the truth of war becomes the truth of your death that will rain on your planes.  i know the to things about war the casualties then your mind making you lose your self then going in a steep slow way threw your own crazy insanity. there's nothing good that you think war is all cool your death will drag you down till your lose it. i'm not scared or feel fear bullets will fly but i know the secret planes how to stay alive .

i have been up all night losing my grip.
all i have felt is my mind playing tricks on me making me want to lose every thing and trash the place till i burn alive.
it only 12 am i haven't even let my heart rest all these words i cant get out of my mouth.
you haven't made up your mind to let me or tell me i'm losing my mind in to insanity that wont let me scream my lungs out till i puke my guts out leaving me insane and dead.
all night there is a code i have saw pass the back of my head. all my sharpies have dyed or ran out for my despise. i feel like i want to tear this place down like the house of cards i have assembled. all the symbioses i have written all over my body that will make you scream at me for being nothing but a ****** path that can never be silenced even never ever stop'd. up all night just wanting to scream till i can make a point   of i'm still hear. up all night i have so much built up inside when all my loved ones just fight taking out all there violence they have to use.  i know some times life is rough. up all night i have so many things that built up in me. up all night i ponder that i have lost my mind to insanity and the free fall of what i have been on each and every day. up all night i just want to let out all my darkest demons to try to make a smile. up all night i might leave sneaking out at 12:06 am just leaving to escape to vent my life's misery. up all night i just want to try to sleep but what will i do cause music has calmed me till i fell asleep. up all night i grow more crazy just fighting this worlds ******* that hits me from every way.

up all night i have so much to write even if i grow more insanely crazy up all night i just want answers that will tell me the real truth.


if i'm up all night just letting you know in the morning i will have writings all over my body.

i never smile cause i'm Russian the cold weather i form into. i see no fear i'm a harden till that net time we meet. you have your weapons so do i. you don't need bullets to win only what we have to spill. i plan my attack when you men march threw the snow cover brush. you have no idea what will be coming to you when u step into my winter trap.
your bullets will fly but your never going to hit me only the surprise that will blow you across this battle field.  have you ever meet me the insane Russian full of mysteries. you cant escape what kinda war ill play.  the winter is my  advantage cause i'm living threw your battle you have planed you crazy jellies ****'s your plan is over when the snow shows you my war with no bullets or fire power just mind bending tricks that will slowly make you sink into insanity or make you lose every thing.

my war only has mind mental power not blood shed that you would bring to wipe out every thing to gain permanent power. every one in your path has been killed or piling up bleeding to death with your head making this world suffer with blood filling the snow covered woods that your forces have made. your only fear is being mind read your life is over when your paranoia starts tearing you down like a tree taking your power i'm going to end your life mentally with you driving your self to death.

my war has no fear no blood shed but a plan to follow my own orders to end this **** that lays between both of us.

i work behind the enemy lines planting my attacks on life your life.

i fight with no violence just like one time we were friends brothers. but that night i told you betrayed me you took off all night planing your own revenge that will drive you to your own grave.

you were my brother allies family my betrayer.
my trust has lost but you keep trying to get to me with your lies of **** you keep putting on your life.

snow is my life i survived in Russia in the winter but i got a chance to tell my stories the stories is where i have survived this world that hits me every witch way it can. i might have found a way to describe how i'm still alive.

you can make me suffer you could start a war that will destroy my life but i won't let my grip let go to fall to the ground and let go till it give up all my secrets.

i have the gift of blending into the winter since my body only adapts to the cold.i might be insane or crazy but nothing can stop me or knock me down even bullets or war will never bring me down. you can tourcher me  break me but ill never break.

my secret i never will smile i'm Russian and i don't smile but when i do youl wish you never wasted your time trying to break me till the end of time.

do i need blind love or do i stay away from your lies you have told me. your life is almost over when i pull the covers over my head leaving me to feel free from the agony that will never leave till the end of time

i think love is a dangerous road to go down. its blind it will take your mind driving you you t your own insanity. you cant swim away you drown. its all lies that surround you like old memories that make me want to punch you in the face. i have been caught trap'd for internetey. no room to breath just lost of hope to be let free .
love is a blind identity that stabs you in the back. i see no reason for love to bite me like a vampire needing to feed then you are trapped till you dye. your life has been erased your don't know how to release the anger. your voice is only hollow  your mind cant say letters or even say any words. you have been trapped in a parallel universes that collapse killing every body. the love is a blind danger that no one will survive from you life is over taken away by the love that wasn't meant to become.


love is a dangerous blind road to your own soul that will be taken away only the suffocation you'l   get is no way to  escape no freedom will ever come all your friends and family just don't want anything left to care about you cause the blind dangerous night you have lost your real mind only insanity will bring this house of cards down to the floor.

we first meet under the pink cheery blossom tree your beauty has stolen my own mind controlling me like your hypnotizing ways. your looks have made me go blind but it turns out i really wasn't love just your manipulative eyes. i have lost my soul because of you i'm now losing my mind in insanity that will make me crash down like a plane diving out of the highest part of the earths suffocating lies. i had a feeling this wasn't meant to be. this feels like a dream but is it real or all just a ******* up lie. is there any way to find to escape or is this life going to explode with war and fire fight that will never end. how did it come down like this when we meet i thought you were just a normal girl but my fear has taken it all out. i don't know how  to look away cause your eyes have locked on and controls my brain blinded by a fake image that will never fade. this love has brought all my fear up for you to play on me. i might lose my mind you took my life and tour it up till i lose it into psychotically insanity.. i wish i could have made that mistake and kept flowing  down the road so i wouldn't have this happen to me at all. i wish i could grab the change to really believe that you weren't to good to be true. you are the biggest mistake you have taken my blind identity that i just want to scream at all of you *** hols. your lies have taken all my breath and drowned  me to death.


that hot cool summer day i thought this was going to be true but what i wasn't able to do was tell you that i will bring all the ******* down on your lies.


i knew it wasn't meant to be but i let my guard slip. so theirs nothing anything more to say when i have to bring this house down stopping your beauty that tricks people into love when its all your mind games. it was never meant to bee.


this was the mistake of a fake identity that blinds the ones who fall in your trap.

i knew it was never meant to be just a suffocating mistake no one could ever escape from.

i have take my time just to make u feel loved. but you have turned your back on me betraying all the information i have slipped beside both of us. i spent my time making sure no one would hurt you. but i don't think i'm emotionally strong enough to keep going. i have gave you my trust but all you have said is words of ******* that only leaves the gashes deep into my skin. i made your life free but i feel like i cant look at my self when my tears start to flow down my tormented mind set. this is what will be a choice that will erase you from my mind and my society that only makes the truth bleed when u stabbed me in the hand with a rose. my tears have never been seen but i think this time is and acceptation we all have to live with. but i'm about to lose my mind when i just need to start to run so i can escape your words that have just made life a game. this life is crazy but i will make my new identity that will make a master of despise. no one will ever know when i take my **** and just disappear on the run. no more tears no more fear of lies that will turn my personal life psychotically insane no one could escape your not even worth my time any more so good bye

On this earth I walk alone hoping to escape this burning hell that has taken every thing from me. You an take every thing from me even my loved ones but you cant break me I wont go let my grip go. This life is filled with fear and blood shed but you can take my hopes and **** them with all your forces that brings **** joys as well, but every time I try new ways I have to move threw the obstacles that I have to move threw.
I have ideas that hopes for life to change, but this is only the start of your hellish ways. there is nothing I have left to say, but I know my next move. I'll flip the script and open a door way to hell and push you deep into the endless ******* life brings. i'm  tired of being silenced all you have done was trap me down in a prism of suffocation. your words have scared like boiling water the scolded the skin.  i could a empty soul witch has been true. i might be dead inside but i still have a heart beat. i might swear when i escape your power that you have taken over the world will end with your voice be silenced when i take the chance to make a present that will take down your over turn of this world opening up the doors letting the souls free.
this war now will be come just down to me and you. i have nothing left to fear i am not afraid to die when i have already have died. i have nothing left to lose hen your war has taken it all ready. i don't have any smile to show when you have drained my life away with all my life including my pure soul. you have left my life shattered in burning piles of dread. you can take away every thing but i wont let this go on any longer. you only bring death and destruction leaving nothing left. but i wont be trap'd for ever when i end this path of stubborn childish ****. only one shot it takes to end this game . i have a plane to end the book of hell when u only gain your power by demonic hate.
i have the power to end this even if it mean ending your life so there wont be any screaming souls left to be heard.

nothing left to hold me down my time to rise up and fight threw all your childish games. no more suffocating no more pain or hate i had enough listening i'm going to spread infection that will end the (rain of terror)

i cant be silence once you let go of your grip.  until then i hope you like a pool of your own drain mind i hope you like the feeling of burning pain.

you didn't just taped me you have no idea i have groups of malicious that have the power to set this world a blaze.

i can't take seeing your power take lives that tried changing to save this world of corrupt ******* like your own kind. just wait till you know what your death will end like like Lego's falling down when you kick them down. this world inst big enough for me or you but suffocating silence wont stand any more no more i have saved this life.

what is this i'm going to speak my mind. but this **** your society has done was just hold me down. i don't care any more i am going to show every one what i mean when i had enough. i have picked and chose but it all came down so close like a plane that breaks the speed of sound. when u just want to let lose your dark entitys letting lose hell imprisoning all the ones who have made your life snap like a branch that was full of life.this is my present to this world i run this game so just tell me if you can escape my tricks of all your wasted hate that sticks with out glue or tape. i will invade and show what unseen force that wait your fait. the last friend or person who led the group into the trap? well its my time to show you what i have in me to run the entire place in destruction. i don't care what you say i have listen and been hit by every wave you sent. but this time im going to walk threw and levae this town with no smile but turned into my dark orces of what you have done..



i have been held down  getting crushed by all the lies.

so here's my gift a path of destrution that will make every thing i had to the destruction of venting

what is it even worth to have friends when its like a scale that is a weight on both hands.
it seems like you have to have the morals of pure ideas that make your every choice.
when u get ****** into a life where all you have lost. when u chose to go out with your friends you have thrown away your family losing conections that throw away the love you never wanted to throw away.  

the choices i have fallen victim to has changed me down deep in side.
there are so many regrets i wish i could take back.

friends have made life fun but it takes away tho heart of love.

have you just wanted to just disconect and erase your identity and just start over.

my life is so insane that i am so worn out that i dont know how i can keep going or i should quit trying and drift with the crowd to see where i end up.

the friends that are good leave behind a positive impact but the ones who **** up your time your life leave the negitivity that spinns out of control like a vinal record that skips endlessly.


can you escape or drown and lose your self in all the ******* ******* of self hate.


its a weight that spinns out of control when u lose your grip and end up some where u cant escape like a closet that  just leaves the huanted image of who you really became when u gave into a new group of friends.

My foot steps only leave my impression in this world that i play a danger's game. i want to prov this world wrong from my ideas. foot steps been left for ages but what have u wanted to do.

i want to escape all this ******* in this ******* **** face society that only leaves anger and betray. My ideas i want to prove that life would be better when every one could just speak there mind. life with fear is no match for me cause i can bee taken.

i could have every thing taken from me but i will never go down even if you take my soul but my voice will blow your mind.

my words will change your mind but will change the world when i make my point

worn out like rag doll. being thrown all around from the little kid who has been your entire life.

being in so many adventures i hope my stuffed arms hold for the breath taking rides we will endure. my heart has watched u all of u grow up.

years and years of love made me want to say i know life gets hard but that's not a reasone to give up or love your dreams.


when i have looked in your eyes i knew that you were going to do and become along the way.

but i'm always hear if u just need me to hold something soft to cuddle when u'r ready to cry im just your stuffed doggy you have been given to you.

life will get harder but ill still be here when u need to hold to feel better about the problem in life shows  


remember :) im the rage doll u loved

when you have had it all all you want to do is escape from what grips may pull you down to your own memories you want to erase out of your mind. when it rains it washes off the words that sticks deep down in you. but what ideas that have saved your life in the past calming you down.

but when i walk this earth in the rain all the punches and blows only leave bruses but that won't let me speak my mind whit my calm soft spoken words.

my voice is soft in a tone nor threat. but when your word lie i may lose control but the cold rain cools off my paciants.

the cold rain drops make steam off my skin when  i have no idea.


but in this worl my one friend is rain cause it makes life all around us live breath.

i have one walking path to make my path to show every one who needs to find away to survive. even if it mean running threw hell taking the chance to stand up and run till we have found all of our own safe haven.

i have no fear wit what comes next cause its just how this unforgiving world that it shows from its darkest secrets. but what should bee said only when your pushed away from society that you have betrayed from.


your shadows grow long when your eyes turn pure red as evil consums your telling you theres nothing to feel hurt my societ'es sufficating grips that has no end to..


but i have ran threw all the stages and here i have is me writing my own stories of my life that passes by with hope no regrets.


nothing can hold me back or catch me to imprison me.

i have let go of my grips my life is open to those who have the wrong ideas.

my free fall has let go all my stress and fears or what a mistake u have made when i let go when your try'ed to pull me to freedom  when the ****** games when they become a danger to this life. i have taken to this world a thrill of my own free falling like following your mind. my free fall is nothing you can stop i'm insane and filled with the energy to bounce off the walls. thrill seeking danger's have made my life so exiting that feels like this world has no fair game to catch me. follow me and ill show you a world of thrills and shakes so watch this take you phone and video tape me in the act of insanity. this world is so unfair but living life with no limits is what we have to fight for to follow our true dreams. your bullets may fly but your words only leave marks and lies all over your mouth. i have fallen the wrong way but your own things have catch'ed me in the nets of hell .

this world i walk is a free fall but i live in this insanity with life with no limits. dont let people prove you wrong. risks have the memories. only the chills you get when you see people who are pulling danger. but i'm just stuck in day dream shutting out all the society's voices out of line.

life with out thrill or danger is not fair to live life only if you live in the pitch dark not knowing what this world has to show you.


i'm not crazy but i'm kinda insane psychotic and i have no fear what choice will come at me


but i live a life with no boundr's or limits. cause im not going to let things stop me till i make my path to reach sky high.


im not going to let any thing stop me no untile i do all my ideas to prove them all wrong.

this world is so nasty with people who think they can prove you wrong.

i will rip people's souls out along my ride but i have my idea to prove this ******* world wrong. even if it takes me to set a blaze of unknown ideas that will wipe out the ones who just hold the world down treating ideas like a threat but i still have ideas to change this worlds prospective. cause my ideas are bullet proof to all your words and hate you spread..


so if you want to know well take my hand and lets run threw the night making mistrife   till we just let go and let out all our fears. untile you have cleaned our all your darkest regrets out. so follow me and will finally have the free free fall to end all the regrets behind and let out all your anger then you just have to let your life most disires drive your fears unleash.

just follow me cause life with no limits the laws of psychics is when you have your free falling when you get the magical feeling of death defying chills.

i live with no fear or hills but my ideas have played the game of what i truly have acheeved.


free fallen is my life of insane **** that will end all rules of lies i will prove this world wrong of every thing

free falling is a choice so it wont break gental but it will make life even more fun to explor your own limits.

In  this world you have all these fun and games. The one we find to fall in love making crazy stupid love stories that only make part of our dreams.  Memories will be made.
what is the line you fall on to stop this madness that takes away all the trust you make threw new people you make.  Have life endured the lies it only brings.  All this world brings is broken trust.

The angel can lay asleep but watch the world for a while then tell me the truth of what do you really see.

You can spend all you life time making memories but you have no idea what mass attack will rip you and your life all apart.

This world is so unforgiving but I have the key to take every blow.


You could take my and just destroy me every thing! but you know I wont fight back.


My secret weapon is my words and my observations.


Every one has the choice to not fear the reality but what is the truth

Blood shed fighting and die.


I'm not letting any one cage me in . I have been in  the shadows hiding till I could say my report and not be the one who stepped up in the counsel of choice,


but I have nothing to lose or fear any any more. The only thing I fear is losing the ones I love dearly.



For any one I love I would take my life to shield you from  braze of bullets...


You can take every thing away from me but the truth will always stand tall,

but you can take my life away or every thing but I don't have any thing to lose.

i have been with you my life. but what i have said some day u will see me again.

you have been my life but my road never ends of journies and stories of the untold.
i promised you i would find you. when your cryes have reached the full moon and water rivers. your crys have benn there to my promise

we have drifted to long and when i see the roses in your hair i dont even know what t say.

we both have words we havent even spoke of exept your arms around me

your wisper i have found my savior

your words has just went around saying your life away.  just say nothing cause when the ******* have taken every thing? all that left was my trust of your. your life is nothing but worthless lies that only make my anger stair right threw you.
your lies are just shatter'd lies

your voice is sollum by your voice says nothing but your own truth you dig your own grave.


i have been told lies have only took lives to there own death.


my friend you have tryed to guid me well but the ******* lies when you leave this town.


i thought you could trust but i have vanished into the deepest part of the shadows.


your words have only hurt me but my voice says i have healed and i dont have to care.

the path is dark my light is gone the shadows jump start the way to the water.

my lost shining star has been out like a burt out light bulb.
the path is steep and sketchy but my confides is strong .
i have no voice but a hig heart and strong mind to follow my dreams.
my lost shining star was the light to fin the way out if the internal heavy mist that creeps threw the cracks of time.

you have been gone for to long and my shining stare was my good luck to find my safe haven to escape from the grips of society that brain washes your life with drama and stupide lies

Every day is new sunrises so do you. even if you feel like you have nothing to say nice.
day by day new challenges fly bye hitting you with out warning. when it rains i rather walk  in the rain so no one can see my eyes . have the time of your life. but it only last only a few min light when your high. when night comes the only thing to escape reality.
the music you listens to carry you along the way with all the wounds that riddle your body.
every thought you think twice but your own ideas have the weight like a ton. your friends have been there for you and so you both have each others backs no matter what.
even if your tired and have little patients all you have to say is ill just keep walking.
the emotions you drown in with every thing the day dreads and loses you in the mix.

but dad by day you have to face your fears even if it means passing you own boundries.

love that emotion is just a ord love is just something that means nothing.

for me i was told when i was little you should never sit down and cry cause youl never have the strong image in you.
emotions walk behind you but your shadow is the thing that has to fight your own evil side to push the demonic eyes away.

life is filled with lies and pathetic people that wast your time.

emotions are the whole thing that human society has to stand therer ground.

day night is the same except that's the way it is night people currl up and let the dreams slumber.

but night is a nother when people only come out when theres no light to hit them.


the thins you said the night before what do u really know what happened to your promises and trust.


my life i walk this earth trying to show my ideas to this world. but this world is afraid of ideas that will change society and every ones time to the good of it.


the emotions have so many things that will bring out in your words.


but i have no regrets or fear what happens to me. cause people fear me and are scared of me for my smarts. but i have nothing negitive to express in my words.


but the sun rises bring the sweet calm breez that flowls threw my long hair but what do u really hear when you listen close. just the music you have never heard of the beauty that will make tears stream down your face.

in my own words you cant fix every thing or every ones problems. all you can be is ears for listening and to suport them untille the end.


i have a life that is full of trapes and surprizes.

im not scared or threaten  by people but why do my ideas scare and threaten society.

but night falls my music plays sun rise comes and my music is still playing but thats the only way for me to deal with life and all its (****)

i walk this world creating my ideas writing away that will spell your name telling you im always listening.

but in this world i can only escape from societys gripps with my music playing loud and drowning people out so i can feel things. in my life as we keep going along.

my life is full of words but my voice will never be heard cause im tired of trying to talk over your voies.


have any emotions like your own appearance ******* you down ******* your strength away wearing you down.

have you just felt your life is and endless ride that leaves burns and blood stains.

my voice has the calming tone's that bring peace to your life.

in my life there's no such thing is war only the rules i have if you show any threat or threaten me i will do the same to you.


every emotion i have been able to control by using my music to drown out every one blaring it away tuning any scream or voice in my way that is only sufficating.


in my own words i have no fears /regrets but i walk this barren world just living and surving any thing hits or breakes me.


but in life/society/emotions. we wont be human if we didn't have any emotions that we have to live with.


i you want folow me  cause youl never have to be alone i am listening to our voice ill say just follow your foot steps and dont let go

all the feelings of night wasting away from parting and waking up the next morning with some one who you don't actually remember what the **** happened.

you memorie is erases so you cant even find out what happen last night.

all your friends lok like **** even your life is filled with regrets.
doing things making the night glow and grow more intense with insanity with no limits.

no one wants to say any thing when one of us has to speak with the person who took our souls along with us.

every night being away parting lifting spirets away with good times and giggels that haunt us forever.


there isnt any were to turn exept trying t know what actually happened to me.

life is full of mistory and questions of what the **** happened to all of us no memorie of what happened no idea who the hell where i have ended up

i walk threw the night with my Russian blue eyes the night lights up when the full moon glears. the world is turning as my life turns. every night my blue eyes light up like safiers and fire flys. the delicat nature holds my mind as the wild call out for the first time.
my heart skips a beat when the tables turn same as the demonic elements that linger around my safe haven. the night sky is like a canvas that i can aline the stars above to lead my path to survive.
no candel lights aloud nor fire cause my blue eyes glow like a safire lit up in the mist of the moon  light.

every night i follow new paths but when day breaks i'm vanished from sight. the night sky has so many tricks only the beauty never breaks the cold weather comes around but my blue eyes will never freez or lose the dreams of my life.

when my blue eyes glow i can call to the wild my calls to the wolfs bring happiness deep down with exitment and freeom.

i cant be held back for im nor threat only the wind and moon light can passes my soul.

when winter is hear so do i my blue eyes light the way to my next place of joy

i finally have escaped the werched and divine but my voice will never be heard untill summer and spring arrive.

my russian blue eyes can lead me to love hope and the freedom to fly but the night sky calls my blue eyes traping me drawing me life bye

this world i walk alone i have no fear but people in society see the chance to rip into the skin of a person s mind and fills it with lies you cant get away from.

this world is filled with the fire in the eyes of a lire that knows the tricks and card games played write but the eyes filled with fire are the lies they have choses to hide there own identity. behind.  
but the eyes of a lire have no inisents but the grave they started to dig.

i hide my eyes behind a deep blue sea full of mistery and vanished questions my blue eyes are the image of you reflectin back on me .

my eyes have no lies only the cold steair down your spin.

my blue eyes are the cold feids of snow that has no face to be herd..

my russian blue eyes tell a storie of how i have servied. but my russian blue eyeshave never ran with a identity that become a lie on it own.

i might be crazy but in this life i have goals to set me free

i cant keep up with all theses faces in my eyes. i cant keep up when all i want to rip my hair out and scream my lungs out.
all the papers in life you might as well just signe  your soul away with out reading the following dangers. what would i say when i have finally snaped and went crazy.
my life is quiet and tranquill. but my mind is screaming in hell like i plane that has lost contole and is spiralling out of control.
i dont show any emotion but my mind is screaming from the new waves of hell that has unleashed a dark enity over me that will sufficat any one in its path..

every exam in my way makes me want to go insane and lose controll just being low means you cant rise but i cant keep up with the pase but theres nothing tat lies a head just a black obiss that never ends of hell.


my mind is breaking and all i want to is to tear apart any one whoe will slow me down.

i know i am crazy insane psychotic and thrill seeking.

all i kn0w is my mind is screaming with no regret so **** the rest im going to set this world on fire even if my mind is screming to make the point of your own demize.

you may call me crazy but im not parenoid butv ill show you my free time and fun side of me .

we could be togather fight to the end but i only live by this rule if your nice or ind ill show you a life of fun but if you turn on me my alliy my brother my friend my family if you turn ill turn showing you a life of riots and set a blaz of fire into the eyes of me!
your lies spread killing you and any one who follows in your path.
if you lies spread ill have no choice to flip the switches along the path of me.

your threat hits like wild fire but you know this world should know you should all be afraid of me. for what price youl have to pay to gain trust agai.
in this world i run freely threw the woods in felids like wind. but one little white life has lit the fuse of totl destruction.

you cant put me in a cade and hold me to go ape **** on your ******* face.

you hant imprison me you cant hold me down you cant tell me what i am .

your lies have set fuse on fire as all your words that come out of your mouth lead my anger that will make you fuse exploed.


your my life if you show me kindness and love all show you a life full of exitmen and joy. ill take you by thehand a lead you to a undder world life on none stop exitment that will change your opinion on dull life.

the only thing is you show me threat ill show you a life of hell and my eyes will set your mind on a down world spire .


you cant take a force as strong as me and my life down only kindness and love you have a life of endlesss joy and thrills..but kindwill grant you acseesto life of free thrill no night mars

when you saw me all alone. have you realized that i am like a loaded gun that will fire with out a saft'y. have you seen the world behind me. have you realized my life has set the world in a slow spirle. do you know who i really am.

i am a dangerious elemental that can reek havicke that will rip souls out in its path.
u dont want me cause im a dangerious force that will **** you all if you try to harness my demonic power.

what you have seen is what your own mind has seen for you. do you want to see my gift or do u just want to watch me set my ideas lead this world in to flames.

do you want to know me or do u just want to follow my path of hell.

my leaded ideas have set this world free of hell and fire and a world of unleashed demons.


my life is a demonic power .

this world has been set on fire threw the eyes of a dictator.

do you want to see what i have hiden the plane to take down the corrupt ******* that have stabed me in  the back left me to live in the dark but my life has set the plan to unleash my creations to destroy and set the evils of them all..


every one who has been taken and never see again will be seen.

but my idea is to free the souls who have suffered the hand of hell.

your questions ask me well but in this world this world earth should  be afraid of me cause i have a heavy force that is armed and deadly. so people who need the hand to free them will bee saved from the heavl'y armed force working and planing to destroy  
all your fuckking corrupt ******* that has made a huge mistakes.

i see your following but am i now even ensane for you..


my identity has hidden my surprize for all you ******* **'s

cause my secret identity is going to say this bold state ment (IM A PSYCHOTIC RUSSIAN SO ILL RIP YOUR LIES YOU SPRED)