I lay awake all night watching the ceiling fan spinning around lost deep in my thoughts. my music is playing as i i lose my self in words i can't really know how to say. walking threw the day i have no way of knowing what might hit me next.  this world is unknown that i really don't know what to say. my fan spines around every night but i lay away just thinking what will happen the next day to prepare for the attack that will never be kn own of . summer is hot but i have so many hopes a dreams i needed to get.  social  and society has there fair share. but life has many things i just can't understand with out being scared. normal people scare me I don't know why. but i will never quit trying to stand my ground to speak my mind  when this world should listen to me for a change.
I might be odd or weird or insane or psychotic? but i just want this world to listen to me so i can maybe make a change to society making it easy'er to let the ones  who have been hidden in the shadows to let there voices be herd. all day i ether sleep or meditate with my thoughts of the black magic voodoo i will play on your life flipping your mind out of controls. I lose my hope but that doesn't mean i'm crazy. but my one side is a voodoo black magic. practice. i have power to flip this world up side down. i cover my self in protection with the darkness i can play or lay releasing out all my demons reeking  hayrick on all my enemies who have cross my path. every night i lay awake with my girlfriend cuddling  till we both fall asleep. my love has never forgotten. But i have been dead with dreams that will never show up when all hopes break away.

The only thing of really point is i have a girl in my life that we will set the world with new ****** ideas that people are so scared of like innovative to change the world from what has been already been tested.

All hopes will die when i have already tourn apart broken with so many trust.

I might be out of my mind but i want the world to listen to my voice to change the places that will end to fall

i take my time to ask all my insane questions. walking threw the cemetery in winter brings the most beauty out with the glistening of the tomb stones. whit snow turning red from the roses i break turning blood staining.  my foot prints left in the snow turn me into a ghost that never left a real true mark on those who have slipped tripping over there mistakes. you might call me crazy but i lay the final day. have you compared the natural beauty that lays silent making it more clear to under stand. i have found a cemetery that has miss guided truth. when night falls my eyes glow pure blue like the wolfs i have been taken till i lost it.  i love to find new cemeteries  to explore where these nothing that can hurt you. only if it was true that the living dead was a real thing. no fear only the blind beauty makes the forgotten Gothic graves  pretty. this world more pretty when it kinda dark but with light with the snow with a black rose with a red ribbon left on my savior who has protected me from every thing that i couldn't fight. now its my Friday nights to finish this stories we haven't finished. now its my time to finish the book so this world can move on to follow in my  writings.

no trust just lies that burn holes in my mind why should i say i actually want to be apart of society. i don't want to be held down the weight of what they say will make me want to strangle all of those who ****** me off. i don't agree to follow social media. theirs nothing healthy of society just you will end up screaming your lungs out like being trap'ed in a box or room wheres theirs no place to get out or any air to breath.
what do you breath is society's lies that will make you want to **** every one of them.

i rebel i don't agree with society i don't want to be forced to live in the land of **** face people who i don't give to ****'es about.


society is nothing but madness and sadness i ******* hate. suffer in silence they say! but isn't that what we all do every day in this world. no forgiveness just broken traders who have no point to try. **** filled rooms you end up having to learn in.

people in your way only leave you angry cause they can't even ******* walk.

i don't agree what society is suppose to give. but what it makes you have is a bad taste in your mouth you have to put up with this **** .

yes no OK yeah promise yeah right society is nothing but air you choke on when i stair right down at you. all your ****** mistakes make you a better person hell no you only suffocat on the ******* that you wait for to make time go faster.

i am venting apon what i have to do all day **** this this theirs only words i can't even wait to say

i'm done listening to the problems that are the same as every one elses.


say something new that's worth listening to

i am a shadow that slips away when light creeps up illuminating for life to live. i leave my foot prints but will never lead you any where. i am a shadow that hiding in the brightest day where there only is shadows that dance around the fire lifting the unrest-ed souls that cant lift up to the sky.  ever mark i have made will only lead you to a false lead. i am a dark demonic entity that should be left alone. if a fire is lit i will show my shadow dancing around what should have never ever been found.  my shadow leaves imprints but no tract of what you actually have been trying to find. you want answers you will never know the danger you seek. me i can touch to ****. this world wants to see and capture a demon that will appear. you wont know the dangers you will risk your life to be taken. i hide threw the darkest shadows hiding from the society. people want to see what i really look like but i can't be captured even with your flash lights and cameras that will never show my pure glowing blue eyes.  you seek me but im a dangerous elemental that should never be wreck en with.

you find your self falling in love with a demonic force you can't ever let go. even when  you lose your mind and end up getting imprisoned in the psych ward where no one will listen to your screams or even notice your voice.


you have found me the dark shadow who appears in-front of you i stand with my one word of demand you can't harness me or capture me when i am a danger. i have let you find me when every one has said you have been mentally insanity but i know your mind your seek ins. i leave you a image so you won't let this world take your voice away. like me ill be your angel of insanity you will never feel scared to let go to escape this game people take on you. i won't let the words of a and angel who has been locked away.  


you have seen me where i have been said to hide. i have let you seek me when you are the angel with the broken wings. you have see me away from society.


this is where i linger hide be tucked away watching society collapse with only death.

you have found me when your were called and dragged away in to your own voice that said the truth not any more..

your insanity has brought you to me a demonic entity.  you have found me now its my turn to teach you to escape out of society's  lies that only leave wounds.  

insanity is my place i hide away the ones who seek dark entity's will never find the leads prints to discover it. the ones who lead to the psych ward will find me to show you i'm real your visions weren't fake or your visions.

where you are now in the mental hospital is where i show me presents and take you along a way your not crazy. you will be heard when i show you the way out of your own insanity ways you sufficient on constantly. i will let you be with me but i will he harm'd by the light you can call apon me when you can't keep the fight up to survive.

you have found my trail but you will never find society so nice when yuo say you have found the dark entity

the days grow faster as time seems to just play on a loop like your iPod playing that song on repeat i see how long i could keep my head up before i snap and lose control till every one in front of me will wonder where to run to i will never let my tear break me showing you my opening weakness. the days seems to never end with only one demonic smile taking your mind losing your own chance to gain power and destroy what i has said to be. i show no fear for the note book of evil. i might  just let lose my own creations when you get to me with my tears but nothing couldn't ever leave a scare on me when i am nothing but a scare. i am broken but i'm not afraid to fight back to show you i mean what darkness i can harness till i can rip your heart apart spilling my demons i warned you about. i may be shattered broken but my tears will never break me or tear me apart.

Society has take it fair share weakening me tormenting me till i could barely even stand up to fight back. what will happen to me every single day that the force is unknown the force that just seems to be blinding me till i have my down fall. this day could get better or the day could beat me till i fall and start to bleed. dose this fight have to make me realize that i'm stronger that the real identity i refuse to be or just being part of reality. life is showing the test of weakening me till i fall or rise to the challenges that ill arrive every trial in my life every step of my life.  do i have to show my true identity or do i have the choice of my hidden identity of of a ghost that will spread life till i feel like showing me self. i have the only thing to show is my voice and presents but i will not show my presents only my voice that will leave misery and wonder.