tell me im a joke to my face
tell me im a **** up to my face

do it.

stop running your mouth behind my back.


i already know you're doing it

so just

please.


stop.

"No."

i
will
not
wake
up
tomorrow.



goodbye

forever
and
ever


deare­st,
jasper.

oh,

how
it hurts.


to say
those three (3)
words.


are you sure?
are you lying to me?

am i just a toy to you?

should i believe you?

i don't.

believe you,

because i dont want to love you back.

but i do,

so.

i want it back

i want my happiness back

my happy family back

my loving family.

where no one would touch me

where no one would call me names

where no one would blame me for everything

where no one would shout profanities at me.

where i had my perfect little family.

where everyone loves each other

where everyone was there for each other.

my safe spot.

is gone.

chosen family or birth family?

abuse

or

people who will leave you?


who am i kidding?

everyone is going to leave me.

“still not home”

dads not home yet.
he probably passed out at some ***** house again.

i should start cooking for lunch.

yep.

i’ll go get groceries first,

then i’ll cook food


and hopefully he’s back by then..

im bored.
nothing to do.
-
honestly,
dad keeps messaging me.
-
-
i need money
-
paypal me some money
-
i need money
-
get a job
-
disappointment
-
-
why doesnt he leave me alone
-
i dont have a job
-
im not even fluent in french
-
i cant really get a job if i can barely speak and understand the language.
-
maybe he should get  job
-
yknow,
-
instead of having his *** broke from buying so much alcohol and drugs,
-

love you dad

but,

i guess i dont anymore

i gave up

on you.