juno: Poems

117 · Aug 2019

2:26pm, Sydney Australia

juno Aug 2019

2:26pm, Sydney Australia

Why can't I ever stop them?

116 · Nov 2019

9:46PM

juno Nov 2019

9:46PM

whERE THE hell am i

w H

115 · Jul 2020

heidi

juno Jul 2020

heidi

rest in peace pupper,

though i never met you,

you made her so happy and thank you for that.

god i wish i met you but, i love you.

watching her little videos of you made me happy. rip heidi :(

115 · Jul 2019

come to the land of the lost and lonely.

juno Jul 2019

come to the land of the lost and lonely.

freaks by jordan clarke

114 · Sep 2019

4:00am, Paris France

juno Sep 2019

4:00am, Paris France

turns out

attempting suicide in a hospital isnt the smartest thing to do

yeah i tried again

still alive though ://

just **** me already ****

113 · Mar 2020

overused and reused.

juno Mar 2020

overused and reused.

overused, ive been overused

and reused.

to your personal benefit.

you run me dry of my happiness.

you had me to benefit your own well being.

and now im broken, too reused to be used again.

i need someone to fix me,

not so i can be overused again,

not so i can be reused again,

i need someone to fix me,

so i can

be me.

ex girlfriend of 3 months. you happy now? you ruined my life

113 · Nov 2019

8:52pm

juno Nov 2019

8:52pm

*******.

113 · May 2021

unspoken feelings.

juno May 2021

unspoken feelings.

perhaps,

somethings are better off unsaid,

i almost went to the er today.

i want to **** myself.

113 · Aug 2019

11:49am, Sydney Australia

juno Aug 2019

11:49am, Sydney Australia

i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you

just-

leave me be?????

112 · Aug 2019

6:20am, Sydney Australia

juno Aug 2019

6:20am, Sydney Australia

he came home early today.

then

he kept yelling at me.

i gotta get him his coffee and breakfast.

then i’ll have to take care of my friends.

get myself food n go on a run.

then i’ll go volunteer at the orphanage

112 · May 2021

family

juno May 2021

family

chosen family or birth family?

abuse

or

people who will leave you?

who am i kidding?

everyone is going to leave me.

112 · Aug 2019

“you’ll find someone!!”

juno Aug 2019

“you’ll find someone!!”

funny how you think someone would actually love me.

112 · Jan 2021

FUCK.

juno Jan 2021

****.

i
will
not
wake
up
tomorrow.

goodbye

forever
and
ever

dearest,
jasper.

i’m
too
tired
to
live.

i
will
be
leaving
now.

111 · Nov 2023

Untitled

juno Nov 2023

Untitled

with every word
you shatter my heart
and again
i feel like i am nothing.

you were my father
now you are just a man who i live with.

111 · Aug 2019

broken.

juno Aug 2019

broken.

you can’t fix anything that’s broken.
therefore
you can’t fix me

do you need love?
or do you need someone to hold?
you tell me.
i’m here for you.

inspired by the song “Broken” by Marina Lin! <3

111 · Jul 2019

*laughs*

juno Jul 2019

*laughs*

No.

111 · Aug 2019

therapy.

juno Aug 2019

therapy.

you told her i was suicidal.

111 · Jan 2021

"i love you."

juno Jan 2021

"i love you."

oh,

how
it hurts.

to say
those three (3)
words.

are you sure?
are you lying to me?

am i just a toy to you?

should i believe you?

i don't.

believe you,

because i dont want to love you back.

but i do,

so.

i
love
you
and
i
will
forever.

111 · Mar 2021

look at me.

juno Mar 2021

look at me.

tell me im a joke to my face
tell me im a **** up to my face

do it.

stop running your mouth behind my back.

i already know you're doing it

so just

please.

stop.

you
are
the
worst.

110 · Aug 2019

7:24am, Moscow Russia

juno Aug 2019

7:24am, Moscow Russia

"No."

109 · Jul 2019

suicide?

juno Jul 2019

suicide?

maybe

maybe

maybe

i

maybe i

should just

d i s a p p e a r

wouldnt it be easier for you?

108 · Nov 2019

Finland

juno Nov 2019

Finland

I'm here now. Liz what's the address

107 · Jul 2019

hey.

juno Jul 2019

hey.

you said i looked nice.
you said i always look aesthetic.

aw.
thanks.

i think i look like ****.
cause nothing matches

its ****** clothing

i think i look like ****.

:>

107 · May 2024

Untitled

juno May 2024

Untitled

everything is a battle with you

you are supposed to love me and cares for me and talk to me and give me flowers and

i don’t know.

the bare minimum.

i am jealous of others because their partners show their love for them and talk to them and everything.

i feel like just a friend.

a waste of your time.

just someone to call your partner just because

107 · Jul 2019

what if i gave up?

juno Jul 2019

what if i gave up?

you wouldn't care!

who am i kidding?

you wouldn't.

haha

107 · Aug 2019

liz

juno Aug 2019

liz

"AYE YE WEE BRIT'S GET OFF ME ****** LAWN"

106 · Aug 2019

-

juno Aug 2019

-

i want it back

i want my happiness back

my happy family back

my loving family.

where no one would touch me

where no one would call me names

where no one would blame me for everything

where no one would shout profanities at me.

where i had my perfect little family.

where everyone loves each other

where everyone was there for each other.

my safe spot.

is gone.

106 · Aug 2019

8:51am, Sydney Australia

juno Aug 2019

8:51am, Sydney Australia

“still not home”

dads not home yet.
he probably passed out at some ***** house again.

i should start cooking for lunch.

yep.

i’ll go get groceries first,

then i’ll cook food

and hopefully he’s back by then..

105 · Aug 2019

"i'm in love"

juno Aug 2019

"i'm in love"

i've always known that i wasnt good enough for you.

i just didnt know that it was this bad.

104 · Apr 2020

she told me

juno Apr 2020

she told me

that you talked **** about me

NINE YEARS. AND IM USING YOU? OH *******. YOUR SECOND FAMILY. YOUR “FATHER FIGURE.” AN EXTRA PLACE TO STAY. ALL THAG FROM ME

AND IM USINF YOU?? ******* IM KILLING MUSELF **** UOU **** EVERYTHING THERES NO ******* OOINT ANYMORE GOOD ******* BYE I ******* HATE YOU *******

103 · Feb 2024

I WISH I WISH I WISH

juno Feb 2024

I WISH I WISH I WISH

for you

to

at least
pretend

that you

love

me.

102 · Sep 2019

5:50pm, Paris France

juno Sep 2019

5:50pm, Paris France

im bored.
nothing to do.
-
honestly,
dad keeps messaging me.
-
-
i need money
-
paypal me some money
-
i need money
-
get a job
-
disappointment
-
-
why doesnt he leave me alone
-
i dont have a job
-
im not even fluent in french
-
i cant really get a job if i can barely speak and understand the language.
-
maybe he should get job
-
yknow,
-
instead of having his *** broke from buying so much alcohol and drugs,
-

love you dad

102 · Feb 2024

.

juno Feb 2024

.

every day is a struggle and i no longer want to wake up. it is truly over.

102 · Aug 2019

give up.

juno Aug 2019

give up.

you can’t do anything right
you can’t do it
just give up

you’re not worth it

just **** yourself

no one wants you

honestly

you’re not even getting on the team

who’d want you on the team anyway

you’ll just drag them down

no one wants you

you’re just a *****

just give up

just give up

just give up

please just give up

no one ******* wants you

it’s not worth it!

****

bye

102 · Jul 2019

crying.

juno Jul 2019

crying.

its okay to cry.

but sometimes i cant,
sometimes you put me under so much pressure

and i skip the crying.
i skip to the panic attacks.

sometimes i skip the panic attacks.

i skip to the mental breakdowns.

and then i pass out.

101 · Jul 2019

t-shirts

juno Jul 2019

t-shirts

i can wear them now.

i dont need to hide my scars.

i just have bracelets.

but sometimes they move up too much

and you see them.

101 · Dec 2023

id do anything for you

juno Dec 2023

id do anything for you

i wish you would do the same.

100 · Aug 2019

ah. so you blocked me again.

juno Aug 2019

ah. so you blocked me again.

100 · Jul 2019

"i think you're fucking stupid"

juno Jul 2019

"i think you're ******* stupid"

awh. thanks dad.

i know right?

98 · Jul 2019

cold.

juno Jul 2019

cold.

just breathe.

it'll all be okay, love.

98 · May 2019

11:32pm- Saturday, May 18, 2019

juno May 2019

11:32pm- Saturday, May 18, 2019

i wonder why i've done this
i've labeled my poem as the time and date.
is this weird?
i'm running out of ideas.

i'm assuming that
you guys don't wanna read
depressing ****
whenever you stumble onto this account.

98 · Dec 2019

Robin Soleil Wilds.

juno Dec 2019

Robin Soleil Wilds.

98 · Nov 2019

5:21am

juno Nov 2019

5:21am

What the hell did I do-

I woke up on the floor of the hotel bathroom.

It reeks of alcohol and *****.

Did I really drink that much?

At least I didn't throw up on the floor!

It made it into the toilet.

97 · Sep 2023

desperately.

juno Sep 2023

desperately.

oh how i love you,
want you,
desire you.

what if
i **** it
all up
again?

only god knows
you are
already
starting to
hate me.

i get it.
i
hate
me
too.

97 · Dec 2019

Alcohol.

juno Dec 2019

Alcohol.

Chugging beers like it's no one's business.

I'm feeling great.

I'm down to the last pack.

96 · Apr 16

15042025

juno Apr 16

15042025

the day you started to lay hands on your family

96 · Jul 2019

Sleep.

juno Jul 2019

Sleep.

2 minutes before midnight.
I can't seem to fall asleep.
Maybe it's the jet lag,
Maybe it's the stress.

Or maybe it's because I want to see her.

I'll see you soon Lizzie :)

95 · Feb 2020

these love poems

juno Feb 2020

these love poems

i don’t know if they’re true or not.

it’s judt$ making me feel better because everyone’s taken except for me

WHY WONT SOMEONE JUST LOVE ME JIST FUVKING-

94 · Dec 2020

“over quarantine you became an asshole”

juno Dec 2020

“over quarantine you became an *******”