maybe,

you should think of

smarter words,


father.

Good morning!
Lizzie’s staring at her phone, sitting in the corner.
I jumped on her!
She got mad and now I’m not allowed in her room.

please,
**** me.


i cant take it anymore.

why cant i ever be there for them
why am i never there to stop them
she started cutting and i couldnt.. stop her..
my other friend started too
"i just wanted to fit in"
i had a long panic attack on my birthday
fake smiles
i just have to fake it n theyll believe me
"oh im fine"
"im just a bit tired"
"im fine"
it hurts
it hurts so much to know that theyre doing this to themselves
i ******* love them
i love them so much
but i can never... ever... save them..
i couldnt even stop them if i tried
im so stupid..
im such an idiot...
i cant do anything right..
i can never do anything right..
theyd all be happy if i were just.. gone
none of this would happen
none of it
its all because of me..
my fault..
everythings my fault..
i cant cut myself im 4 days clean already..!
my moms coming to visit...
school starts monday
my grandfather might have cancer again...
and- i cant do anything..
i cant help..
i cant take care of them
i cant do ****
im worthless.
why love me anyway?

oh how i love you,
want you,
desire you.

what if
i **** it
all up
again?



only god knows
you are
already
starting to
hate me.

I've landed.
A few minutes ago, actually.
My other friend, Matt is here.

We're taking another trip together.

Hopefully, we can go to Australia soon!

i love you.

you make me feel so many things that i thought i lost

only today, did i realise how much i ******* love you.

i felt it.

i knew it was there,

i just didn't know i loved you so much.

i didn't know that id end up like this

****.


you're so far away,

i cant touch you.

i cant see you.

i cant kiss you

i cant hug you.


but at least i can talk to you



im so grateful for you

"cause i'm just a silly girl in a stupid dumb old world
i'm just a silly girl in my stupid dumb old world
and he was perfect
he was supposed to be
i made him perfect
cause I wanted him to be"
-
SILLY GIRL, CHLOE MORIONDO

why is she messaging you

why is he messaging you

i want to trust you,

i trust you.


maybe i'm not the one.

that's alright.

i guess.

so i tried to **** myself.

i’m in the hospital now.

wish i kinda died.

i guess it’s not my time yet

destroyed friendships,
destroyed life,

nothing was okay.


but maybe that’s what you wanted.

maybe us doing this was all part of your stupid game.


a stupid trap.


that we all fell into.