Valeria Ariza

Valeria Ariza Nov 2017

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Corazon, your sweet silver lips haunt me.
I dream of us, eyes wide open.
Your laughter booming grips my diaphragm,
My breath becomes a ghost.
Your smile, a fist in the air, a victory.

Querido, nothing about you is bittersweet
The pain I carry is a privilege
A reminder you were mine.
Moon shaped scars, proof I had peace, I was the owner of a silent heart with a steady beat.

Happiness was you in my arms, chest lingering underneath my fingertips.
Sweet jazz notes fill my head when you speak,
Tu voz, maravillosa.
Cariño, lo siento,

My Darling,
I am a **** fool.

Valeria Ariza Sep 2017

The point of no return

Your origin tastes sour trickling down your throat,
your present filled with self-doubt and resentment.
asking why we’ve reached this place
How? in the first place.

A palace filled with all your nightmares painted ivory white,
the walls made of marble begin to crumble.
your bed soft as feathers, flat as every lie you ever dry swallowed
Damnation carved into the headboard rendering the dream catcher suspended above you, useless.

You do not matter, not in this cosmic plane.
Look at the mountains on their tip toes like the black swan ballerina.
The ocean vast, mysterious, endless.
the leaves so green with envy that they are not the ones breathing in.
The dirt like your own mother giving you, (a selfish fiend) every piece of them until there's nothing left.

The hyenas laughing at your ignorance.
Ignorance is bliss.
so much better than this.
So much ******* better than this.

Looks like you’ve given up.
have you had enough?
Ashes to ashes dust to dust.
maybe it's simple maybe, like dying...

It’s just that simple,
It’s just that time.

#mental #illness

Valeria Ariza Sep 2017

Ferverous Walzing Into late june

There are flowers blooming in a long forgotten garden with dead soil and skeletons 6 ft under.
There is a thunder in a still air where time has long been frozen.
There is a dark red flow in a dry riverbed, thumping, thumping, keeping my heart thumping.
There is a breath of fresh air in a toxic toxic atmosphere and it smells of you.
There is finally laughter in a dead silent room, it is raining down my cheeks and I am the one laughing.

Valeria Ariza Sep 2017

I can't bear the sound of my own heartbeat

Soft golden rays dance off of your lips,
With Fervor you smile, in a world dull and gray,
Leaving me nothing in sight but you,
A rainbow, gleaming through the mist,
an illusion of magic all too real,

Que Lindo eres

I wish to bear witness to your unendurable insignificance,
to how you mean so little,
to how you mean so ******* Much,
The way, like a ghost, warmth haunts me,
lingering from your touch
I Fear my dear, I’ll never have enough.

I fear amor,
I never will be.

Valeria Ariza Sep 2017

Conflagration

Ruby red flames Illuminate your eyes,
Ember glow stealing my last breathes
I am rendered speechless, in a world where words are all I have,

Soft lips and a cool smile,
allow me to survive the warmth surrounding you,
How becoming.

Once I saw you like really saw you,
my heart blushed a shade any rose would be jealous of.
My soul awoke to take a second glance
My eyes couldn't believe what they'd been granted.
A mind trick? A demon in disguise?
My mind distorts your beauty in attempt to keep me safe,
but *******
you are beautiful.
*******.

#beautiful #conflagration #inferno

Valeria Ariza Sep 2017

A hell I don’t believe in; Home. A seesaw of hot and cold, a cauldron of delusion, seas of nightmares too paranoid for my comfort, dreams too high to fall from, lots, of falling. -Bipolar Disorder.

A waltz with broken legs and a wailing heart.
A constant state of fear, of the inevitable darkness this way comes.

Where every thought sings to me “Do it.”
She sounds like me, and I’m afraid.
I’m afraid I’ll do it.

My blood would run a crimson red,
My heart would cry me a river.

Tongue tied ******* looking to escape a body, not mine;
a mind out to **** me.

A living broken record.

Without skipping a beat I'm floating again.
What a high! My, oh my!
The whirlwinds calm,
for a moment.
I come back to life.
I go home.

Only For a moment.

A moment..
You see? darling,
If you wait long enough, dear,
I will have plummeted again, and again; Forever, again.

Valeria Ariza Jul 2017

Space Cadet (Owl)

So out of reach;
Your feathers soft, peach.
Sapphire heart beating in front of me,
You an astronaut meant free.

O tell me dear, can you see?

A crystal clear reflection in your glacial blue eyes
My downfall, my slowly approaching demise.
I see my pain in a different suit,
Your strawberry blonde lashes hiding your burning truth,

O tell me dear, tell me you see!!

Whilst soaring amongst stars,
May your past scars fade to Black
as you travel through different galaxies,
Leave behind old fallacies

Tell me you've found peace; in the pitch black majesty,

Miamor, Dime que me ves a mi.

#owl