I hate you for what you put me through
For not being sorry
For pushing me away
For making me feel guilty that I wasn’t there
For not fighting harder for me
For making me feel like you didn’t care.
But most days I forget
I forget what you put me through
I forget that I’m not supposed to miss you
I forget to get you out of my head
That we’re never going to have it as good as we did at first
That things were never going to change
Why I left

Still I love you everyday.

Lately I’ve been in my feelings.
Thinking about us and trust got me reeling.

Trust, not even in the infidelity type but in the ‘will you have my back and keep me safe’ type.

Safe, not only the physical type but more so spiritually, mentally and emotional type.

I’m wondering if you’ll keep me safe how my father and my brother do. I’m wondering if you’ll keep me safe how you do your sisters too.

I wonder if you think of me like family. Respect, honor and love me like we’re family.

Lately I’ve been in my feelings. Help me clear my thoughts, tell me everything you’ve been concealing.