avery

avery May 2018

I saw one Star in the sky tonight
And I thought it looked lonely
Where were its friends?
Where were the other stars who cared for it?
Where were the stars who were supposed to stop it from doing bad things?
Why was it stranded, and not at home with its star family
Why was it alone, not even hanging with the other stars
Why was it looking as though someone had abandoned it
After a while of staring at this Star
I realized I identified with it
I was alone in my mind.
Stranded.
Abandoned.
Then the Star started to move
That's when I realized it was not a star but a plane, escaping the lonely night
Not even my mind can stay and care
Even my mind abandoned me.
My Star left me all alone, to fend for myself
My Star who related, who understood
My Star who was alone in his mind

avery May 2018

I Never Knew You Until You Were Gone

"I Dare You To Call Rachel A Butthead"
"Won't I Get Into Trouble?"
"Nah"
.
.
.
That summer day was one of that last times I saw you,
my cousin's sister, I was never too close to you
Parents afraid of me ending up like you
you never knew better
I could hear the fighting from next door
I never put two and two together
I should have known,
when you were arrested
and Sentenced
I should have known whenever you got high and told me stories
Of high school
But I didn't think,
when I wrote a letter
when I got the news
you never said it would hurt this bad
I Never Knew You Until You Were Gone

my cousin who I was never incredibly close too but I loved her with all my heart, died of an overdose yesterday

avery Mar 2018

Unstable

This world of ours
Is going to break
Our sores
Are more fragile than we thought
The sorrow that we have cause to ourselves
Is our own fault
****
It's all so corrupt
The way we all think
How are we supposed to succeed
When we have to take all this crap from the peers of us
No more
Done
Stop
Stop acting like children
Like immature middle schoolers
Respect eachother

avery Mar 2018

in my mind

In my mind
There are many thoughts
I have a headache
In my mind
There are many things to get done
I think I will learn Swahili at 11:30pm
In my mind
There are doubts
There are questions
Oops
In my mind
I have a more confident person
Someone who can get all the work done
And not crash and burn
My mind
Is overwhelmed
My mind
Could use a break
But no
I have to get that A
I had to complete this assignment
I have to finish that season
Must
Stay
Busy
In my mind
I love busy
But the flu
And that headache
Sickness
Disagrees
In my mind

I am too busy and now I have the flu, I may work myself to death

avery Feb 2018

Whelp

well i am done
i am done with you
the way you talk
the way you don't care
about me
you *******
go die in a hole
                       l
                       am
                       done
                       with
                       you

avery Feb 2018

Fly

A Fly
that's what you are
pesky little irritating low-life
if you were a fly
you would die
in less than a day
less than 24 hours I would be rid of you
with your disease, you spread pain and suffering
that kills
you have infected me
and I have a Fly Swatter
so rid me of your presence
before I rid myself
of you

#meaphor #hate #annoying #disease

avery Feb 2018

2:33 AM

this is when i shine
when my true self
comes out
when you aren't awake
to stop me
this is when
i am alone with my thoughts
and i
cant
take
it

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