Inside:

They're all idiots
You're an idiot

Then why do I feel
So stupid?

If only

Outside:
They're not worth it
They're worthless

Then why do I feel
So lonely?

I don't know your name

I want to make you cry

I want to make the inside of your head like a hurricane

Oh my god I just realised
Why

You are the constellations
In my eyes

You are the world
Beyond the sky

At this moment

The total lack of a fight
Left in my mind

The absence of anything to see
In my eyes

I have so many petty problems
To take up my time

I'm a stupid lonely
Melodramatic teenager

Just like every single
Other one

I have so much to live for
So many things

Until I die
And it's all gone

Did you know
I'm not afraid anymore

Of dying?
I'm not afraid anymore

Of crying
If I could only do it

If I let myself
I could say only you can save me

But I won't embarrass you
With that stupid *******

I don't believe that
You don't believe that

I don't want this anymore
I don't want to be on the floor anymore

I don't want this life
I just want to be nowhere at all

Here or at my house
Curled up in a ball

Or kicking the ******* wall
I need a way out of my head

But don't worry

I can still get out of bed
I can still get up and get dressed

I can still say hello
And good morning

Or shake your hand
If you want me to

All these trivial things
I can do

And who ******* cares
About the rest

About anything
Really
Not me

And not you

To whomever's eyes now trace these words
They were made for you and you only
I am reaching through time to touch you
Isn't that so cool?

Who is out there in the dark?**
A small child peers in from the yellow
The train chatter ceases now

Their station is a world apart

Overflowing and transparent
The muted water in my ears
Like a suffocating viscous fog

Something is in here with me

The people are not real
The ghosts who haunt the streets
To hide from the dark

Afraid to know they're dead

But the boy out there, he sees me
He can see and feel the dark too
And I am so very scared

Of those dark inhuman eyes