Pain to Painful 
Trouble to Troubled
A Life to A Life Sentence 
Fumbled to Humbled 
Children to Child run 
Far to Not Far enough 
Your not guilty
to
You are guilty 
Of these Patterns 
You didnt start 
to 
Finished 
another Life 
GONE

Nightmares scare you 
but do they men
that sleep during the day 
working third shifts 
might just be 
the real nightmare 
Knowing your loved ones
are at home asleep 
by themselves 
thats no way to live 
to give or take 
the darkest hours 
from the ones 
that deserve 
your piece of mind 
for protection 
But what do i know 
i spent nights asleep 
in the backseat 
of cars 
traveling backroads 
as a kid 
with strange men 
who partied with 
my mom 
Truckstops
hotels
motels 
holiday inn 
blankets from a single bed 
make great cots 
for little kids 
more like tents 
did i pretend 
to stay hid 
from the evil sin 
If only it couldve been 
imagined at night 
when in deep sleep 
but these arent 
nightmares 
but rather 
childhood memories 
I stare in the eyes 
having to accept 
when i look my eyes
in my face 
My least favorite 
REFLECTION 
I HAVE EVER RELIVED 
I ******* hate 
the devils comfort 
I rather freeze 
to death 
than be warm 
from his flames

Its not your fault 
you did nothing wrong 
my heart  beats now 
to a different song 
than yours
I know itll hurt 
but its not my fault 
all Im doing 
is just being who I am 
I didnt mean 
to break your heart 
but i cant help 
you didnt make me feel 
as relevant, as she does 
my biggest fear 
isnt losing her 
but its losing myself 
to someone that doesnt love 
ME FOR WHO I AM 
no one can tell that 
it may take years 
in order to find out 
I fear no one or nothing 
If i continue to lead
with the tune 
my heart beats too
Im sorry for 
the change of heart 
you did nothing wrong
I cannot help 
how this girl 
MAKES ME FEEL

Listen ..... Do you hear that voice of concern ?
I didnt think so...... I could careless, if I'm being honest 
BITTER TRUTH

A mentally unhealthy family 
is hard to deal with 
WHEN 
You know its not their fault 
they are the way they are 
WHEN 
You are forced to be a part of their life, forever you will hurt 
WHEN 
You know they need help but you cant save them all 

PS: Its equivalent to being in a house thats on fire and everyone you love is burning to death and you can only save yourself 

HARD

Abused 
confused 
with 
WHO I AM 
Words
heard 
from 
words 
spoke
from 
words 
wrote 
My roots formed 
from a poem 
but 
which
type 
FrEeStYle?
I am to confused 
my reflection uncertain 
must we have labels 
hAiKu?
I ASK MYSELF ?
of course my voices 
have no response 
They only speak up 
when they benefit 
THEMSELVES 
My identity is in many 
because these words 
have many meanings 
Who i am ?
is up for debate 
until I know
I guess ill always remain
GeNre-CoNfUsEd 
NaRrAtIvE?
WHO KNOWS ?

Evil does exist 
We all cross paths with evil 
some of us host it 

Evil does exist 
Should we try to avoid it?
some of us try to 

Evil does exist 
How can we conquer evil?
if we are afraid 

Evil does exist 
But im not afraid of it 
I used to host it 

Evil does exist
But not inside of me now 
because I chose love 

Love will overcome 
All evil and conquer it 
evil does exist

But so does love too 
Evil is a choice you make 
but so is love too 

What will you decide? 
What side do you belong to ?
Evil versus Love