An abundance of 
pain, turmoil, regrets and 
mental health issues 

Serial killers 
made from same ingredients 
not one victim yet 

Except for myself 
I keep killing who I am 
over and over 

So I guess I'm one
each death brings hope for new life 
I'll keep murdering 

Until Im reborn 
again with a better mind 
absent from voices 

Reminding myself 
of the past decisions made 
over and over 

The same voices said
from youth I would amount to
nOtHiNg WiThOuT tHeM

Geo-fencing
invisible cage 
detecting 
signals 
messaging 
the brain
Marketing 
decisions
with
persuasion 
Defense-mechanisms
fa­de
to 
emotions
collecting 
particles of trauma
rewinding 
your minds thoughts
back in time 
to a bitter reality 
you vowed 
to leave behind 
but moving forward 
you cannot prevent them 
from coming to life 
Brain-washed 
through lies 
false conclusions 
formed from 
mistrust
Issues pile up 
will this continue 
well into adult years 
Adult fears 
still stemming back 
to CHILDHOOD years
Are we just plants 
our internal roots 
with time just grow 
Can we not escape 
the unwanted birth 
with wanted growth 
or are we just 
STUCK
with the 
Aftermath 
Enraged, engaged 
to a life we are 
enslaved 
until the grave 
forever a mind 
trapped in a cage 
host to past thoughts 
that cannot be lost 
all fenced in 
since day 1

Temporary fun with irresponsible decisions 
their repercussions are 
always right around the 
corner, Im all about longterm,
forget the instant gratification
I refuse to let a part-time fun 
create a full-time problem 
moving forward or atleast not on purpose, opportunities for bad decisions will always surface but it doesnt mean we have to let them rise 
STAY FOCUSED 
its not magic,
no hocus-pocus 
just a lot of tough-love 
The older I get 
the more I realize 
Im worth it 
The more I grow 
the more I realize 
I deserve it 
Self-observations 
leads to 
Self-reflection 
leads to 
Self-acceptance 
leads to 
Self-understanding 
leads to 
Self-respect
leads to 
Self-improvement 
leads to
SELF-CHANGE
Equals 
SELF-GROWTH 
Heres a real life 
mathematical equation 
they didnt teach us 
in school, Lifes one BIG
MATH PROBLEM 
everything your facing 
can be fixed 
with addition 
or subtraction 
its really that simple 
solve for 1( you )
Once you are the product
then you can produce 
but to think 
someone else 
can do the math for you 
is ridiculous 
its quite obvious 
that theory 
will always end 
WRONG

Its just another day 
the weatherman
is calling for SuNsHiNe
but Im still feeling 
teardrops of rain
its just another day 
the weatherman
is calling for clear skies 
but Im still feeling 
shades of gray
DEPRESSED
STRESSED
Sadness replaces 
happiness 
Emotions drown
blending together 
NUMB the background
Silence sounds 
all love is lost
the cost 
paid in FULL
time gone 
Never to be replaced 
faced with 
traces of 
past trauma
building up
to much to overcome 
Easier to just 
GIVE-UP 
Yeah the weatherman 
called this day wrong 
for people like
you and me

Among the many remedies  to fight stress and release anger
I have custom tailored my own cures for my mental-health 

Like tearing through my firebirds 4 speed as I take off like a bat out of hell and watch the rpms climb to redline 

Like hopping in my truck and burning out while cruising down backroads listening to the radio all the way turned up 

Like taking my dog Buster for a hike and watching him enjoy some one on one time with me out in the woods by where we live 

Like writing poetry just as quickly as the words try to weigh heavy on my mind, each line wrote prevents the bottling up 

These are my most popular ones among some more but most importantly require no dependancy on drugs prescribed by a doctor 

Gas, tires, oil changes and dog food is much cheaper than hurt feelings, broken relationships, criminal record or attorney fees 

Plan for the worse, hope for the best and if **** could hit the fan then eventually it probably will....... So have a plan

Wakeup 
while your awake 
lately on the feet 
seems like 
sleeping 
concrete jungles 
glass lined beaches 
but hey 
they look nice
fake 
feels 
real
faded reality 
now 
truth
hold on
gravity keeping us all
GrOuNdEd
NO TIME 
for timeouts
seconds dissolve 
minutes disappear 
hours we grasp on
         !02:00!
Off goes the alarm 
while i was awake                 L
SL33PING                             L
       FOLLOWING THE     U
             GrAvItAtIoNaL P
Pounding this 
    Quicksand 
planned 
out
with 
the 
E
X
A
C
TIME
         V      
       S  O  L  V   E
              L  
                 E

LOVE 
 behold we hold  theeeee
air 
Whether
 WARM OR cold
    TAKE THE STEPS 
    necessary 
              to take less steps 
and quit getting 
    STEPPED-ON
earn the learn 
and LIVE     ----------------
                            ON
                             ⬆️
                             ⬆️
                             ⬆️
                            ON
                      ----------------
AND CREATE 
an OFF'LESS
Switch
but not a 
LIFELESS
Switch
    DiTcH tHe PrEdEtErMiNeD
        PATHS
     Take steps of
                 YOUR OWN

I'm the main character 
of this horrible book
Titled: LIFE 
I deny every single word 
of this horrible book
About my life 

LIES LIES LIES 

I'm the main character 
of this horrible life 
Documented by myself 
Titled: LIFE
I wrote every single word 
of this horrible book 

TRUE TRUE TRUE 

Non-fictional 
THE TRUTH HURTS