Year and years
pass like days
Its been so long since Ive
seen your face

It doesn't get any easier,
just a matured tolerance with
the passing time
that I had to learn to accept
that there was a greater plan in mind

I see things much more clearly now
I can proudly say that I have kept my vow
Of the promise we made
the day your life began to fade

Promising to have good judgement
respect, love, trust,
honesty and loyalty

For these values
no matter how small
You would feel like royalty

You would be so proud
that I have such a
great understanding
of this journey
I am on

Its a beautiful canvas
of this picture being drawn.

A lost ship out to sea
that's been adrift for so long
wandering aimlessly

No destination of certainty
ever came to be
where she could call home

Tossed and thrown
by the waves that could have devoured
this magnificent ship
that possessed a special power
She would always withstand
the forces that mother nature would form
through hurricanes, tornadoes,
through the hellish of storms

Surviving one after one
she sailed on a journey
that taught her
how strong she could be

For it was all for a reason
no matter her destination
her home was the sea

I remember all the times,
you use to cry in pain
I'd curl up in my bed,
crying just the same

I was confused all the time,
not knowing you were ill
Not for a temporary time,
eventually it would ****

More than anyone could imagine
It was not only my mother
My world would soon, die inside
It would crumble like no other

It scattered it's poison throughout my soul
to continue it's destruction,
Of not only her life, that was cut too short
and my ability to function

Becoming socially awkward,
Severely emotionally damaged
Dysfunctional ways of interacting
How the hell did I ever manage?

Anxiety and depression
has been present the entire time
I can't recall a single moment
when I can say I was feeling fine

She was the one I was suppose to lean on
when the world seemed unforgiving
She was suppose to convince me
this life was still worth living

She was suppose to answer
all the unanswered questions I had
To teach me how to live in this world
and be thankful for what you have

This terrible monster
in an instant took my soul
Took my mother's very last breath
And left my heart so cold

With craters inside
and cavities in my heart
My soul is now lost at sea
"Mom I never thought we'd be apart"

There is no way I can emphasize
the exact emotional pain
I see it written on paper
but it doesn't hit that vein

So alone I sit in silence
Some days are used to reflect
Searching for a way back to my soul
Desperate to reconnect

Then I realized one day
When I felt this gentle breeze
My soul wasn't lost at sea at all
Because my mother lives in me

Lost my mind spinning in circles
No where to turn to

All I see is purple

I'm gazing out
searching for the answers
to get life back right

            All I see is purple

I'm wishing you would,
get me,
with everything in me,
see me,
feel me,
take a breath,

                    All I see is purple

Dream my dreams,
walk in the clouds
Feel my love
Surrounding you

                                All I see is purple

Drift away with me
under the stars
Hold on tight
Close your eyes
and tell me

                                                  All you see is purple

You look with sorrow
in your eyes
That pain is acknowledged
by your angel who cries

---------along side you with understanding,
and helps you back to sanity
without reprimanding,
it's those who are demanding

you have pain for-----
They are quick to judge
and don't hesitate to take more- - - - - - -

from hands that are callused and tired
That blat-en disregard
seems like an uncomfortable attire

Have mercy on you
you give more energy
than your body can generate
that perpetual call for
more and more
your soul can't fabricate ---------

anymore from empty hearts that
don't have eyes to see
what selfish arrogant individuals
they can be

Yet your heart is still carried
with your own callused hands
Held in front of you
Already knowing
your loyal and forgiving heart
will continue to please the demands.

Joining together
in our embrace
Lips that my destiny
calls for

In my dreams
my soul aches
for the serenity
your touch
electrifies in me

A mirage of the world
in your eyes,
with painted colors of the seas,
ever so vibrant
in contrast of a dawning sky

The memory of your physique
that fits my into my mind
ever so perfectly,
that I could sculpt your body from memory
into an exquisite masterpiece

Until I see you again,
in flesh,
one to one,
face to face,
you scatter traces of you
throughout my soul,
like stars in the sky
It will captivate my mind
until your return to me

I will walk in your footprints throughout
my heart gathering your stars,
to build the universe for you,
that you have built in me.

When you see me smile
what do you feel?
How do you know
what we have is real?

Could you bring yourself if the need arose,
to sincerely apologize?
When your being stubborn and combative,
unwilling to compromise

Do you contemplate your thoughts,
against what your heart is saying?
Maybe you would see things different
if you did a little praying

Have you had the thought
that you deserve better than me?
If it came down to it would your heart and soul
allow you to fearlessly see?

The endless possibilities
that only you can bring
If you and I work together
We could finally use our wings

To count on each other
when all seems lost
Without a hesitation
I turn to you at all costs.