i'm afraid to admit
i've become addicted to the pain
try shattering this mundane routine
that i've become too afraid to change

in motion, ideas always look good at first hand
in practice, decisions made are all written in sand

i've never felt hate like this before
id rather be unconscious than all alone
my life is ruled by powers i cannot control
decisions filtered through the minds
that will never know
its painful

intelligence visits those
with the patience to lend their ears

so this is hate
this is what i've become because of you
provocative entertainment
feeds the mouths that never close
enters minds
severs connections
decisions made based on lies fed
spewing out younger ******
enough to feed all your intentions

i don't know who pushed me in
i don't know where to begin
i've been silent till this day
and there's so much i have to say

but its time to fade away

wake me when my time has come
i cannot breath anymore
to take my place
among the rest of the thorns

wake me when my time has come
i cannot bare this anymore
this life i've been dealt holds more pain
than has ever before