been standing by myself for so long
i cannot take it
and all my deepest dreams are all gone
forever and ever

when we're young
we look up
and find idols
they shape us
the lift us up
inspire us
anything is possible

but there comes a time
when we realize the fragileness of life
a family member, a friend
a distant life ends
and then one day
all our heroes die
and we morn them as a friend

(cheers to the ones who master chess while we learn to play checkers)

this is not a pome
this is not some randomness
this is not meant to be seen
but i have to put it somewhere

public private
its all the same to me
this is not meant to be seen
but i want to put it somewhere

i've been scribbling more and more
a **** that's overflowed
this is not meant to be seen
but i need to put it somewhere

the stars, each an idea
a lesson to be learned
this is not meant to be seen
but at least i put it somewhere

hello poetry

ive made so many plans
made so many goals
so many good intentions
many mornings ready to go

so many false stars
so many excuses
so many maybe tomorrows
so many lies to myself

bills pile up
accounts are dry
streets keep calling
tents, the new real estate

the sun is out today
a chill october tuesday
breath it in
and for a second i am still
for a second i'm a feather
breath it in
the world can disappears
calm
even in the darkness
the colors are as vibrant as i remember

it stops for a minute
i can see again
i can breath
let me breath
shallow breaths
sixty seconds a day
im counting
shallow breaths
sixty seconds
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