daddy
i am sorry
i want to come home
get out of the cold
sit by the fire
be forgiven
loved & cherished  

i never stopped
loving you
even though
i turned away

i was a fool
to have doubted you
your wisdom
was wise

my teenage arrogance
obscene
insane
thinking you were
old & stupid

i’ve grown
matured
become a woman
realized
you’re my hero
and guiding star

you sacrificed it all
your dreams & desires
so i could have chance
to hope & dream

you worked
long
hard hours
like a mule
in a job
you hated

you were absent
from my life
when i needed you most
coming of age
girl child to woman

i didn’t understand
you were being a man
providing
protecting
putting food on the table
presents under the tree
buying me
a barbie

you’re a hero
unsung
unseen
taken for granted

i see it now
your glory
unfolding
like a sun
rising

without you
i couldn’t be
you are the shoulders
i stand on

how blind i was
as a child & teen

daddy
pappa
honored father

how do i express
the gratitude
for all
that you have done

how do i tell you
the love
i have and feel
for you

daddy
thank you for being there

love
your little girl forever

i’m the prize
try your hand
audition for me
like a dancing monkey
do stupid things
to impress me
see if i’ll pick you
to **** me

you were 15
i was 40
you were *****
i was lonely
you kissed
penetrated
consumed me

**** me
harder
like a real man
pump it deep
pound my *****
make it hurt
punish me
i’ve been a bad girl
daddy

alone again
at closing
walking home
at 2 AM
on a saturday night
craving ***
******* a *****
screaming in a pillow
wanting touch
emotional connection
love and affection

touch me
hold me
**** me
so i feel worthy
of your love
and affection

filthy ****
worthless *****
you sicken me
on your knees
do as you’re told
look at me
as i yank your collar
are you wet
turned on
touch yourself
play with that ****
i want to hear you moan
surrender
to me
your master

which one are you
        dark blue
        blood red
        dom
        sub
        inflicting
        suffering
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which do you like
         vanilla
         exotic
         perverted
         once a month
         several times a day

which one is you
         quiet desperate
         loud proud
         suppress repressed
         are you going to settle
         the hourglass is low running low

which is true
         do you want
         got to have
         don’t look away
         its ok
         man or woman
         you're human