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48 · Aug 2023
FEELING HIGH (10-31-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Baby, I want your hands all over me
Get a hold of me
Your love is my drug
Your love is my drug

I am drunk in love
I’m never going to be sober
This moment is forever
We had each other

Oh, love me then, till we’re feeling high
High in love
High, high, high, I feel high
High, high, high in love

I hope to remember this night
Until it’s over, it’s over
Let us live in slumber
And please get it on right

Love me then till we’re feeling high
Oh, baby I’d rather fly
I just want to see you try
High, high, high in love


High, high, high, feeling high
High, high, high in love
Love me then till we’re feeling high
Oh, high in love

Will you love me after we make love
Will you love me now after we feel so high
Now love me then till we’re feeling high
I get so high in your love
47 · Aug 2023
Me. (3-28-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
My mind is occupied lately
Of ******* that **** me up,
My inner demons are controlling me
They can’t shut up;

All the words you said
Keeps on running through my head
All the things we did
Cannot seem to leave my head

All the places we’ve plan of going to
Now I go visit them all alone
All my friends I talk to
Keeps on asking why you’re gone

Now I realize what you did to me
I know I’m no longer that fool
That will be easily fooled
Because baby, you cannot fool me

I am not a puppet on your strings
For you to manipulate me,
I am not a magnet
For me to stick around.

I have a pair of wings
But you cut it and stole from me,
I chose to live in regret
Now I came back without a sound,

The blood in my veins
It stains, remains and I’m in pain
It came from the blood of a sinner
He was once my lover,

Our relationship should be a two-way street
Cause we should take what we both give
And give back what we took
Oh, it is a two-way street.

Life’s not always well like this
Don’t just live in a world like this,
Don’t just give and give
You also have to take and take.

You don’t have to live in a cruel life
It gives you bitter strife,
Just don’t give and give
You also have to take and take;

He told me I was his everything
I was his happiness,
I treated him like a king
But I was only his temporary happiness.

I am trying to pick up the fragments of myself
That’s been shattered also by myself
And bringing back the pieces together
Now I don’t believe in forever

If what we had is already over
I just had the chance to remember
Oh, I’m already back to my old self
I built you up, you tore me down

I don’t want to give up, I ain’t going down

You can’t fix me
cause only I can fix myself
You can’t complete me
Only I will be responsible for myself

You no longer love me
Only I can love myself
If you can’t choose me
I will choose myself

If you can’t make me your priority
Only I can prioritize myself

I don’t need you
I don’t want you
I only need myself with me
I only want peace within me
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Time will only tell
When I will be okay
Time will only tell
When I will be able to forget you?

It took me time to understand why we have to let each other go
It took me time to move on, it took me time to let you go
It took me time to hold on, it took me time to forgive you,
It took me time to accept the fact that you’re no longer mine to keep
It might take me a lot of sleepless nights counting sheep
It took me time to be happy

It took me time to accept and move forward
It took me time to stay in one location
It took me time to slow down
It took me time to resent you

It took me time to think it through
It took me time to ignore you
It took me time to decide
It took me time to let things go

It took me time to master everything
It took me time to rest on love
It took me time to smile
Until it was now my turn to smile
To laugh, to be happy and everything

It took me time to socialize
It took me time to adjust
It took me time to smile back at you
Until I learned to smile back at me too

It always took me time to love myself first
And never entertain any suitors yet
Before forgetting you
It took me time to talk to you
And ask for closure

It took me time to heal, it took me time to feel
All the pain first before moving forward
No more walking backwards

I’m not going that way, I’m moving forward this way
47 · Aug 2023
CRZY (8-27-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Been staring at you for a while now
Been imagining positions in the back of my mind
How to ******* in different positions now
This is the holy grail you will ever find

I know you want this
How badly you need this
You deserve so much more
I know you want more

Come here and *** for me
I want you to *** inside me
Make me ***** baby
Make me drive you crazy

You always keep coming back for more
I know you want more
Let me be there for you
Satisfy you, gratify you

Make your rocket alive
Let me drive
Let me be the one to break you
With my bare hands and **** body
Moan you, urge you, want you
Keep it steady
46 · Aug 2023
bad habits. (10-25-2022)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I didn’t know why you got me so addicted to you
Your presence is all I ever yearned for
I’m not like this before
I was so in love with you

You made me feel like this
Crazier with you
You made me love you like this
Head over heels for you

You are my bad habit to break
You are both good and bad for my health
Your love is my wealth
You’re the best choice I make

You got me drunk in your love
It got me so in love
You got me intoxicated in your presence
It made me sad feeling your absence

It made me never wanna leave your side
Please make me your bride
I’d do anything to keep you mine forever
At least we’d be together

Got me addicted to you like a drug
Baby, your love is like a drug
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Your absence left a hole in my heart
I hate the feeling that my heart was tearing apart
How I miss your presence being next to me
But why, I don't understand you, leaving me

Why didn't you wait for me
Now you're there lying cold six feet below the ground
I know your presence is still around
But now I'm drowning in my own misery

I miss the way you call my name
How you laugh and you smile
It made me happy too even just for a while
How I fix you in my gaze
I miss your pretty, angelic face
But when you left, I'm no longer the same

I still feel you here, here with me
Although I already felt lost
Dancing on my own with your ghost
I still need you here with me

Where were you when I need you most
I still can't believe it
I can't seem to get over it
Now that you're gone
I'm left here all alone
Wish you were here with me, I need you most

The sky is gloomy, I am moody
The weather is so cold
Yes I've been told

The wind flies away south
Gotta forget what this is all about

Now that you're gone
You're no longer here
When everything is said and done
I still want you here
46 · Aug 2023
Angel of mine (2-22-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I was meant to be yours before we met
It's your face I don't want to forget
I have felt your presence everywhere
As I have looked for you in everything

It's your voice I long to hear
There's nothing left to fear
And you never left me cause you're always there
And this is such an unexpected meeting

The butterflies I have felt inside my stomach
Oh, I have loved you from the moon to the stars and back
From the time I wake up, it's you I always think of
Up to the time I go to sleep, you're the last person I'm praying for

It's you I always dream of
To be with forevermore
No matter what I do
No matter where I go

There's a smile drawn on my face
There's a constant happiness painted in my gaze

You are and will always be my angel
You are and will always be my only love
You are and will always be my priority
You are and will always be my only choice

How you loved to see me in the best angle
I can see it in your eyes, love
That I am more than a fantasy
That explains why I became your first choice

Angel of mine, Angel of mine
I love you; I miss you
Angel of mine, Angel of mine

Distance is just a matter of challenge we face
But always remember that my heart only belongs to you
From the time I met you up to the time that you're already mine
Cause I knew this feeling is real the second I saw you

And everything fell in its place
The way our souls intertwine
I can't promise to solve all your problems
But you won't have to face them all alone

Even if your life has hit rock bottom
You'll never be alone

I can't wait to wake up next to you every day
Be with you every single day
Please don't forget how much I love you so
I just had to let you know

Even if I never let it show
I hate to see you go
I was meant to be yours even before we met
And you were an angel of mine I’ll never forget
46 · Aug 2023
Rebel
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Can’t keep up on my level
You created a monster out of me
That makes me a dauntless rebel
Soothing affairs and comforting lies, they got me

You told me what to do, though I never asked,
Said it’s just advice, but it feels like a mask.
You don’t see the pain that I silently bear,
Unrequited love, but you don’t seem to care.

Ready whenever I like to buzzkill
Don’t be such a bitter pill
I’m one to talk, I thought it would give me a rain check
Fooled me once or twice

But I once returned to 2021
Back to where and when you first met me
It caught me reminiscing on something that was already gone
Though everything has been said and done

It was treacherous and killing me
A global pandemic arises
I regretted every moment slowly fading
Slowly turning into a reality of memories

Heard different sides of the stories
It seems tempting, too unrealistic to believe in
It took me back to when you first loved me
It was heaven, but it felt hellish too

You were kept on love-bombing me
I highly doubted it though
Told me comforting lies and unbelievable truths
Yet you made me rot in hell, like my dignity and worth

But now, you keep coming back
You keep wanting me back
How do you sleep at night?
Do you still think of me?

Do you have any right to keep me?
I think not, I want you out of my sight
(3-22-21)
45 · Aug 2023
Verity (8-3-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I hid everything from my friends
They told about how our relationship ends
I lie low and lived a peaceful life
Away from everyone just to forget this bitter strife

Back to when you first met me
Everything runs smoothly
I was once the apple of your eyes
Now you’ve contaminated my life with white lies

Maybe I needed an anesthesia for this pain to numb
I hope you would think where this was coming from
I’ve had enough of everything
Am I not suitable to your liking?

I am not totally healed yet
I am not yet finished loving you
When you left me, I can’t forget
Those footprints of you

It was tormenting to watch
I throw any bullet for you to dodge
It felt like that, you see
How you walk away from me

I called your name, yet you never looked back
You did not mind coming back on your own track
You left a fragment of you deep within my heart
I was in pain, bruised and hurt

I felt it deep within my heart
When you told me, “I want you to be happier”
But you regretted seeing me happier
It breaks your heart
44 · Aug 2023
Friends (11-01-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Led by fate
I hope it’s not yet too late
I hope we can try it
There’s no wrong in trying it

I just stood next to you
I cannot hear you that much
Until you got my attention
Oh, I know it is too much

If I could tell you
Beg to you
To love me instead
Oh, you keep running in my head

Aren’t you tired of wandering off in my head?
But loving you is red
This feeling is sincere and real
This is truly how I feel

You look at me straight in my eyes
And call out my name
I know it’s not the same
The way you look into her eyes

And the way you look into mine
But I’ll be fine
Rocks and stones may break my bones
But offering something on behalf will help me atone
44 · Aug 2023
Angel Pt. II (4-24-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I’ve always been yours
And I cannot find another this heart will beat for
You walk in and my heart beats different
I can still remember how our first conversation went

First you made my heart beat and then you beat my heart
It won’t stop beating right from the start
But when it breaks and heals again
Due to the pain, it remains

My heart will always beat for you
And my heart will still beat for you

I lost my way all the way to you
And it’s you I found all the way back to me
Maybe we were meant for each other
Maybe the heaven wants us to be together

I lost my way upon going to meet you
But you led the way just to see me

It’s here in my thoughts that you’re perfect
I always thought that you’re worth it
You’re worth the wait
And it’s here in my mind that your mine
And I think about you all the time

There will always be room for your hand in mine
But I see the way we shine
Because I love you for all that you are, for all that you have been and for all that you will be
I love you just the way you are, for all that I have witnessed and seen and for all that you wanted to be.
44 · Dec 5
Smoke and f*ck
yndnmncnll Dec 5
Dusk to dawn, you keep draining me,
Chug me up till I’m the whiskey you need.  
I don’t smoke, but I crave cigarettes after ***,  
Smoke then ****—what’s coming next? 
 
But darling, keep it just between us—because secrets are sweeter when I don't kiss and tell.
Baby, you know I can't control this feeling, but I just want to keep it to myself instead.

**** my soul the way you lick my body,
Kiss the **** out of me, I miss your fire.  
The smell of your sweater fuels my desire.  
When I wear oversized tees, I feel your trace,  
Like your touch still lingers, leaving its place.  

It is making you cry every time
You give your love to me this way.  
Saying you’d wait for me to stay,  
I know it hurts you, but it tastes like pleasure in pain.  

And I’m kissing you, lying in my room,
Holding you until you fall asleep.  
And it’s just as good as I knew it would be,  
Stay with me—I don’t want you to leave.  

You intoxicated me with your love so true,
I fall deep into the rabbit hole with you.  
I fall upside down, not on my knees,  
But begging silently for moments like these.  

I might like it oversized on me, 
But underneath, it’s your hands I need.  
Come and be my pillow, soft and true,  
You look so tired, let me baby you.  

In this vanilla twilight beneath pale skies,
Drop-dead gorgeous, you ignite my highs.  
So hot, I needed an espresso shot,  
You’re my craving—are you feeling what I’ve got?    

I’ll touch myself, but no, it’s not the same, 
I love when your arms play their claiming game.  
You’re **** in person, but do you miss me too?  
Does my body haunt the best of you?  

Are you happy? Or does longing remain?
I’ll hold you close, let’s burn in this flame.

Whispered something softly in your ear,  
A daring thought, yet sincere.  
It made you smile, your gaze astray,  
But I said it—it felt right that way.  

Sunsets glow as we roam this foreign town,  
Quiet streets with no one around.  
You laugh, so free, as your dress falls low,  
By the old swings where secrets grow.  

And when you go, I still see you,  
Sunlight painting your face in my rearview.  

Your voice echoes, a melody of choice,  
A love that no force could destroy.  
Snapshots like Brautigan's cherished covers,  
Memories we share as secret lovers.  

And when you're gone, you're still near,  
Sunlight on your face, memories clear.  

Watching the video where water cascades,  
Hair dripping, shadows softly swayed.  
Your body’s grace has me ensnared,  
But it’s your smile—pure, unprepared.  

It’s so sweet, knowing you love me,  
Words unspoken, yet heavenly.  
So sweet, as I run my fingers through your hair,  
A simple joy, beyond compare.  

Now I see you from afar,  
Wonder who you truly are.  
Dreams pull me closer to your light,  
Certain now—you’re just my type.  

Wanting your love to seep into me,  
A tender dream of eternity.  
Touch me with a kiss, soft and slow,  
Tell me it’s real, let the love grow.  

This is where I’m meant to be,  
So sweet, so close, so heavenly.  
Giving you all my love, my entirety,  
Every moment, for eternity.

You make me tremble, lost in your touch,
Moments so vivid, too much is never enough.
But these photos, these glimpses we’ve shared,
Are secrets I wonder if your friends would dare.

Would they see what we’ve captured in light,
Whispered desires born in the night?
Or is this just ours—a truth unspoken,
A bond unbroken, yet daring, yet open?
Would they see our truth, so raw, so deep,  
The love we’ve sown and secrets we keep?  
Or would they judge what they cannot feel,  
A bond so fierce, so vividly real?  

In shadows we meet, where whispers stay,  
A dance of desire till night turns to day.  
Their eyes may wander, their tongues may speak,  
But only we know the love we seek.  

Hold me closer, don’t let this fade,  
In your arms is where I’m made.  
No judgment matters, no words, no shame,  
For we burn brighter than any flame.  

So let them wonder, let rumors fly,  
We’ll rise together, just you and I.  
For in your gaze, I find my truth,  
A love eternal, untouched by youth.  

Let them see what they’ll never know,  
A fire that burns, a love that glows.  
Our secrets safe, our hearts aligned,  
Forever yours, forever mine.
43 · Aug 2023
Closure Pt. I (7-28-23)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You saw me once when we parted ways
You saw me once again as I look away
I wore my blue shirt and black jeans that time
I saw you coming towards me, one time

You asked me to forgive you, I already did
Hey, it’s an all or nothing at all, right?
All my life, I’m like a deer in the headlights
Shouting for help, running for my life, I forbid

I know you’re not the one
Everything is all too well and done
You made me believe in your empty promises
Wearing thy masks as disguises

You’ve been so unfaithful in a different corner
We were never meant to be together
But I’ve been missing your beautiful soul
It felt like falling on a bottomless pit or in a rabbit hole

Waiting patiently for someone’s wings
No attached strings
I don’t kiss and tell
But does it ring a bell?

I guess my pretty boy is no longer available
When everything is unthinkable
I hate it when my heart bleeds out of love
Is there anything else to prove?
43 · Aug 2023
Give up. (7-621)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I already gave up
I know it's not easy giving up
I am now letting you go
Now I am losing you

Feel free to go
Please never come back
I am already losing track
Maybe we will see each other again

Maybe we will meet once again
Don't ever come with me and look back
43 · Aug 2023
With you (2-22-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Come with me and close the door
Let's celebrate and live our life
I just want to have a private life
With you, I'll never ask for more

Let’s just keep it low-key
Though these setups never made easy
My whole world revolves again
My whole life started again

What I had with you, with you
I don't want to share it with everyone, pray tell
It’s a secret I’ll never tell
Oh, I just want and need you

What I had with you, with you
I just want to keep it to myself
Let’s keep them guessing
Baby, this feeling ain’t fleeting

No more, no less
I want you all to myself
I don't share you with everyone else
No more, no less

I'm bedbound with you
I ain't going to leave you
I'm never going to leave this bed
Just like the way you never leave my head

We'll make love as if it's always our honeymoon
What I had with you was over the moon
I'll never get tired of loving you
And discovering you

What I had with you is timeless
Whenever I think of You
I smile all the time
You are all I want and need all the time

No more, no less
My love, I love you

Let me take you away
Somewhere far away
Where no one sees us
In a place, where it's just us

Come and hold me closer to you
I just want you all over me
Whisper in all your intentions to me
I promise to never let you go
42 · Aug 2023
Angel pt. I (4-24-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Boy, you keep me sane all the time
How you made me feel relaxed and calm all the time
Your voice sounds like a symphony in my ears
That I always yearn and long to hear

Your voice is like an angel
It sounds so sweet and beautiful
Rest assured, you are my one and only angel, baby
All rights reserved, you’re mine and I’m yours only

Forever I am yours
For all eternity
Together, we will be as one
This love and moment are ours
Since I know you’re the right one
You are mine faithfully

No one in this world is all I could ever compare
You stand alone, you are rare
There’s a couple billion people in this planet
But you are all I ever wanted

Started giving up on the word “forever”
Always holding back with commitment
But to me, you are Heaven-sent
That’s why I wanted us to be together

We deserve each other
So don’t worry, there’s no other
It’s you, the only one I adore
I never felt this way before

There’s no heart for me like yours
But I was convinced that my heart knew
It belonged to you long before I met you
Yet, I was always yours

Whenever I hear your name, I start smiling
Whenever I remember you, I start thinking
Do you miss me too the way I missed you?
Do I ever cross your mind all the time?

A part of my soul has loved you since the beginning of everything
How you walked into my life like you had always lived there
Oh, I would do everything, love you, give you my time, my attention, my everything
So just stay there, stay there

Like my heart was a home built just for you
You can treat me like a home
Where you can come and go home
Rest your worries and fears to me

I would do anything just to keep you
No need to worry about me
42 · Aug 2023
CTRL. (11-14-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You stare like you wanna taste me
Lick me, eat me, bite me, **** me
You stare at me like you badly want me
Plead for me, beg for me
I know you wanted this
How you need this

Take your shirt off baby
And take off mine next
Or we help each other take-off each other's clothes
Take off my clothes
Then turn the lights off baby
This is more than just ***

We, make love, make love
We make love, make love
Can't control it any longer
Gotta do it with you forever

Drop my clothes on the bedroom floor
Make me want you more

Your warmth embrace, they still stayed in my skin
Your touch, your kiss took me to places I haven't been
Why you gotta be so keen?
This is more than just whisky and gin

You got me so drunk in you
Got me so drugged up in you
Your eyes looked at me like you wanted me forever
You ****** me up to own me forever

Serve you different positions
Give you all my attention
Praise you like a master
I both want it slower or faster

You marked me with how you taste, saying "this is my property"
So, no one could already take me away from you
I was always your consistent priority
That makes me special especially for you

There is something about you
That makes me say yes to whatever you say
It makes me say yes to whatever you want me to do

But baby, I keep telling myself to control what I feel
But it is so real that it makes me want to feel you
Smell you, touch you, be there for you, moan for you

I want you to feel the way I want you to feel
I want you to be crazy for me, chase me, want me, need me

I want to spoil you with whatever I have
Give you what I have
Give you the love and care you deserve
The sanity and peace of mind you deserve
41 · Aug 2023
Wild side (7-20-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Ohh, I love the way you **** me
It made me crazy
Tease me until I beg for it
Tease me until I want it

I want you in my bed
Can’t get you out my head
Been imagining things lately
Your seduction consumes me

The hornier I get
I still wanna *******
The more I crave for you
What I see is what I get

I’m that drug you’ll forever take
Until you get so high
Until you overdose
I’m that history you would forever remake

Your addiction in me will make you fly
Until you overdose

I want you to **** me baby
Come closer to me
And be a good boy baby
Now come to me

Gotta press play and hit rewind again
Let’s do the foreplay once again
You are insisting in doing so much more
We both crave so much more

I gotta let you know
I’m so addicted to you
Crazy for you
I just wanna love you

Only you got my wild side
Only you got me this wild
You let my inner me expose
You let my outer me impose
41 · Aug 2023
Inlove (10-23-2022)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Red orange sunset skies
Deep blue sea
Barefoot walking on the sand
With my slippers on my hand

Hold hands as we walk by
Never thought of loving you could be this high
I felt so free, when you're with me
I felt so safe and secured, your love's so pure

I wanna hug you tight, love you right
Be with you day and night
Like the stars we shine bright

I wanna try it all, try it all with you
I wanna try it all, try it all with you
Kiss under the rain
You take away the pain

Road trip, sound trip
Camping, hiking
Sleep in the tent with you
Cooking, grilling with you

Sitting by the fire next to you
Swim in the deep sea of blankets with you
Make love with you
Cuddle with you

You, I wanna try it all with you
I’ve been the best version of me because of you
You, you loved me with all of you
I wanna try it all with you

When you call my name
I'm no longer the same
When you loved me now
I wanna keep you now

I've never been more sure before
I've never felt this before

You've been my favorite since then
But now I couldn't remember when
Why is the sky blue?
You've always been my best view

You gave me everything, gave me the world
The universe, the love I deserve
I’m not asking for anything, without a word
But you gave me things not everyone could afford to give me

You loved me more than anything
Crowned and praised me at my best
Corrected and comforted me at my worst
Baby, I’ll always be your queen, so be my forever king
41 · Aug 2023
Doubts. (03-05-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You only loved me when it's convenient for you
Need me when I'm always there for you
Call me when I'm always available for you
Because you benefit so much of what I gave to you

Now you take me for granted
I ain't the one you wanted

Aren’t you tired yet?
Now I hate the player
And the game too
But baby, not what you see is what you get

I’m already a man-hater
Been deceived by a player so

Now I am questioning my worth
We go back in forth
Round in circles, round in circles
We go round in circles

I have been living in my misery
Not in my best life so far
Everything seems to be an untold story
I’ve had enough living like a star

Can’t get out, can’t leave you yet
I’ve had enough but you
Still keep lingering on me
I want out

I wanna bury you underneath yet
Yet you can’t blame me for not wanting you
You still like me
I still want out

I healed you yet you broke me
Loved you when no one else loved you
Understood and accepted you at your worst
Crowned and praised you at your best

Trusted you even when I doubted
Made you happy when you feel blue
I never knew the moment you
Feel empty and in doubt

You only want me because I am always there for you
Yet you never saw me
I gave myself the benefit of the doubt
Oh, I don't comprehend what this love is all about

You cannot give me the bare minimum
You only give me lesser than the minimum

Trust issues, betrayal
Like a broken mirror, cannot be fixed
I got my emotions mixed
Oh, I was like a mirror broken by trust issues and betrayal

I trust so much
And gave them all too much
Love until there's none left in me
Trust until there's none left in me

I crave so much for attention
Love was both my habit and addiction
They said "How can you love when you're afraid to fall"
Oh, said she, I gave them my all

Until there's nothing left to take
Until there's no more left to give
You got a habit to break
As long as you live

But karma doesn’t need maps
It does not base on the address
Time will come this mess
Will be a trap

Karma knows no date
Cause it attacks on its own, mate
So, say your last words
Before he disregards your worth
40 · Aug 2023
Powerful. (8-30-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I’ll try to wipe away my tears
And conquer all of my fears
No matter how many times I fall down
Stand tall and wear thy crown

Stand tall and proud
In front of the huge crowd
Chin up and smile
This nervousness will only take just for a while

I am not a toy for you to play and own
Cause I am born royalty to sit in my own throne
I am not a puppet on your strings
For you to do your ***** things

Since I am she
And she is Queen
Since she is me
And I deserve to be my own Queen

You cannot control me
I am my own Queen
I don’t need a King
Cause baby I can do anything

I have everything
I am everything
That you are not
That you are not

You cannot manipulate me
I am hidden and cannot be seen
Cause I am one in a million
One, one of a kind

Yeah, I don’t mind
Leaving you in oblivion

I can just watch you fall
Like a domino tile
It’s a wakeup call
But keep running for a mile

Cause Karma is going to chase you
Guilt is going to make you regret it
Arrogance is what makes you not worth it
Don’t wait for the day that I’m going to end you


I still stand on solid ground
And I am hell-bound
Cause a Queen like me does not need a King like you
So, it means Goodbye cause we’re through

I got my own name
I know I will never be the same
I never play games
Cause I know I can never be tamed

Oh, pick up the cross you carry
Even though it’s too heavy
But start walking again
Even though it stings and you’re in pain

One day I will rise up
And let all the crowd shut up
I didn’t need a pair of wings to fly higher
Cause I was born a fighter

I just need to raise my heads up to the sky
And let them hear my battle cry
No matter how hard we try
I still believe in You and I

You let me rise up
Just to drag me down
You stack me up
Just to let me down

How come you build me now
And destroy me once and for all
And let me fall
But I’m unbeatable, unbreakable now

Bury me alive
I will be back before you know it
Please let me be alive
I will behave like you know it

Curse me on my coffin
Say your prayers to my grave
I’m six feet below my grave
I despise you deep within

Go and run away
Hide where your guilt feelings haunt you
Escape where your conscience bothers you
Go and hide away

Sleep and let your nightmares seek you
Let them visit you
Go and vanish away
Go and stay away
40 · Aug 2023
Broken promises (6-10-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You said you loved me
And I was a fool to believe it
The world is what you promised to give me
And I fell for it

It was a promise I thought you would forever hold
But you lied to me
Yet, I’ve been told
That you were unfaithful to me

You said I’m the only one you loved (the one you loved)
You said I’m the one for you, destined for you
But why is it there’s two of us?
Or are you thirsty for lust?

I thought you love me
You said it so, yourself
But how come you fooled me?
Is that your way of loving me?

By fooling me, lying to me
Being unfaithful to me

Asking unanswered questions to myself
Am I not enough?
It makes me think I’m never enough
Did I not give you everything you wanted?
Provide you what you needed?

Were you never satisfied with the love I make you feel?
Were you not contented of the love I give?
My love for you was so real
Why would you ever want to leave?

You still hurt me, cheated on me
Despite of the way I treated you (You, oh)
Do I deserve this kind of pain?
I think I’ll never love this way ever again

Your love drains me
******* up all the energy within me
Which makes me tired already
And no amount of sleep or rest will make it go away
40 · Aug 2023
You (2-10-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You gave me limited time
They gave me unlimited time
You gave me love
They gave me lust

You gave me affection
They gave me attention
You showed me love
They broke my trust

But none of those matters
Because you matter most to me

Cause you are my cure
You are my pain
You’re the only reason why I remain
Because your love is so pure

You are my happiness
And my sadness

You are the love of my life
In every feeling of bitter strife
That is what you are to me
For you are everything to me

You are my hope when I had none
You are my strength because you are the one
Now, who strengthens me, who consoles me
Now, who loves me and supports me

And that is you
There’s no one like you

Let God be our foundation
And let’s be each other’s motivation
In my black and white world
You are my color

And days have passed as I have loved you
It has grown so much stronger
You are my world
I hope you feel the same way too

Let’s be lost in our own world
With your hand I’d always hold
And in your arms is where I belong
Even if this is all wrong
40 · Aug 2023
Common melody (7-14-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
They say common melody hits different
I’m already here in the present
Why is my mind stuck in the past?
This feeling never seems to last

We just gotta let it go
No need to let it show
I'm no longer afraid
I'm not scared 'cause I've been there

It was like an old tune keeps playing on and on nonstop
Feels like my mind is flying somewhere non-stop
You might hear it, remember it out of nowhere
I'm already lost, my life seems lost

Now where were you when I needed you most
No matter how much it costs
We gotta let it go, we need to let it go
It hurts to know

To my almost, you keep bringing me back to my past
You take me back to where I truly belong
Is it too soon or a little too late
Now, this must be my fate

I don't know where I belong
That's why I wrote this song
Dedicated especially for you
Now that I already lost you

Our history was long gone
Out chapter is closed and done
I knew I was never enough
Though we parted ways

This tune is old school
This melody is on-repeat
Why am I such a fool?
I’m in defeat

History repeats itself
The moment I hear our song
Played in unison
Played in unison
39 · Aug 2023
9-13-22 (9-13-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I didn't expect for you to arrive so soon
What I felt was so over the moon
When I met you, it was something special
This love was rather emotional or sentimental

Seeing you smile and happy made my day complete
While holding my hand or hugging me made my heart beat
Our blissful nights are for *******
And our glory mornings are for *******

What would life be without you?
Would life be worth living without you?

All my better days are the ones spent with you
I would never finish falling in love with you
And in the middle of my mess and chaos, there was you
Baby, your arms felt like home

With you, it will always feel like coming home
Then and now, my heart made its choice and it chose you

When I'm with you, I always forget my problems and sorrows
Only you can make me smile even in my lowest of lows
And only you is proud enough to love and accept me
Right before we became lovers

I knew that we were meant to be together
That you belong with me

I just wanna give the love you never had
I just wanna see you being glad
No more room for loneliness
I hope with me is where you would find your long lost happiness
39 · Aug 2023
Two-faced bitch (8-29-23)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
There is always a different side to every story
But this one's an interesting history
This story was no allegory
But a fact-based tell-tale to tell up until century

It was made up by these maritesses
Feeling inspectors, judges and witnesses
As if, they saw the scene of the crime
Blabbering about nonsense things at that time

Just like the issues fade, people fade
It might take us all in a decade
But they revealed everything
And it gets interesting

We go round in circles blaming everyone
Some scattered hearsays and hoaxes are on the run
Trying to please everyone
That ***** sure had a lot of fun

Who among these people are deserving to be blamed?
Yet, we can't even point fingers or name names
How about a rain check on the situation
Let's ask her for her true intentions

Now you try to walk around losing your head
I heard, the devil is off with your head
But have you seen your head in that silver platter
There's no need to flatter

Now you're everyone's talk of the town
All of the rumors were spread in your town
You let everyone down
In your sorrows, you drown

Well, let me tell you the story of the couple from *
I know you were either interested or intrigued to hear it too

Little did everyone know
She felt guilty, went to his grave and pleaded to him to forgive her
The deceased's kin were too angry to face her
Vengeance will be served, and so is justice too
Karma is already on the upper hand's menu

Moments are capsulized that turned into memory
A congratulatory address turned into an unforgettable eulogy
Beauty sleeps turned into "in the loving memory"

Even my wounds that cut so deep can’t be healed by a band-aid
**** up and forget the promenade
Let me take you somewhere to juggernaut down memory lane
Every grain, every salt, you’re no saint

You’re the mastermind of everything
Every time the pendulum swings
Karma is already knocking on your door
I hope you rot in hell, down to the core

Time flies by so fast, the moment you broke his wings
He can no longer fly away with his broken wings
Sometimes clock ticks’ life away
Whenever we were unaware, it goes to waste or fly away
38 · Aug 15
Broken
yndnmncnll Aug 15
This year I met the most broken version of my self

The most pitiful version of my soul

And at the same time the bravest, strongest version of my well being
38 · Aug 2023
Gossips. (10-24-2022)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
It was not your side of the story to tell
You thought you knew me well
Well, you’re wrong
You’re wrong

It was not your side of the story to tell
Your ears are like bells
It rings and you gossip
You chill and take a sip

You don’t know what happened to me
You don’t have the right to judge me
You only know my story, not the whole me
So stop concluding what never happened to me

Don’t assume, never expect
Not everything I say is all about you
Never consume so much of what you wanna accept
Not everything is all about you

Do not disclose any confidential information about yours
Or they would use it against you
He tells stories from one another like he was on tours
It might break or ruin you

They are a two-faced *****
Trying to tear you down
But what they didn’t know is that I am indestructible
Wherein, their mouth itchy that needs to be scratched or ditch
I am not gullible
I’m just an observant ***** trying to tear you all down
37 · Aug 2023
Ex. (6-5-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I remember the days we spent together
The memories we both shared
And what happened between us was already over
And there’s nothing that I have contrasted or compared

When I felt your touch on my skin
Feels like a venial sin
It was a mistake and I regret it
It was a mistake and not worth it

I can still feel your body next to mine
The way you look into my eyes
Baby, you so fine
This love is accurate and precise

I can still smell your scent
I still yearn for your presence
Maybe it was for you that I was meant
Life is such an essence

Your lies, I admit it
They’re deceptive, I’m gullible
But I have learned a lot about it
It’s intuitive, infallible

You think you can fool me
You just don’t know it yet
You cannot easily fool me
I hope you deserve what you get

I can still feel your body
When I touch my skin
With you, I go crazy
Please stay with me through thick and thin
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
It’s hard to let go
When you’re at a crossroad dilemma
It’s hard to decide
You would ever go or never go

When you’re at a crossroad dilemma
I just wanna let you know

There’s no battle to compete
Nor a topic to be argued
Your presence can only be felt once in a blue moon
Oh, there is more to be told soon

No need to compensate
If it is what you have viewed

I don’t know which way to go
Or where I have been to
I don’t know why I am here
Sometimes I just wish I would disappear

Nobody loves me anyway
So, I’ll just go my own way
Where nobody sees or recognizes me
Cause no one is meant for me

Lost and jaded in the middle of the road
Got so depressed like my mind was gonna explode
I may be quiet but my mind argues a lot
So, what’s the plot?

You told me you love me
How come you left me unattended
You said you missed me
But you took me for granted.
37 · Aug 2023
Favorite Love (2-14-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I know I have said it before
I know I’ve said it today
I won’t ask for more
I just want to say

My love, I love you
My love, I love you
Mi amor, Je’t aime
Mi amor, Je’t aime

I know I’ve said it over a thousand times
But I think about you all the time
I just want to let you know
That I love you, I love you

I had a lot of reasons to go
But I chose to stay
I had a lot of reasons to leave
But I remained by your side

There is no need to leave
Cause you made my day
I swore to be always by your side
There is no need for me to go

I’m yours and you’re mine
From today and until the end of time
You’re my hubby and I am your wifey
From today and until the end of time

Time has brought you closer to me
The moment I first saw you
I knew you were the right one for me
And I promise to love you

Till death we part
Till death we part

You run around like crazy in my mind
And I smile like crazy all the time
But do you know you’re impossible to find
But I find you all the time

You’re the reason why I could be this happy
Cause you always make me happy
I may have said it over a thousand times
You’re still the one I’d love to love all the time

Cause you will always be my favorite love
And you will always be my only love
Your love will always be my favorite love
And your love will only be my only love
37 · Aug 2023
Guilty Pleasure
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Kiss me baby, hold me, hug me
I’m all yours to keep
From nine up to five, no sleep
Come love me, love me

You were both good and bad for my health
And your love is my wealth

I long for your touch
I miss you so much
I crave for your taste
Come and be with me

Come and be with me
Never hesitate
Come, my new guilty pleasure
My guilty pleasure

I just want to be your favorite hello
And your hardest goodbye
Out of curiosity baby, I want to try
I want to know how you taste

I don’t want to see you go
And leave this bed
Just stay here with me, stay with me
And never hesitate

You are my sugar rush
My ******* blisses
My legal and illegal high
I just want to fly

My perfect kisses
You’re my ecstasy
Just please me
But honey, there’s no need to rush

You know I have a sweet tooth
And you are like a forbidden fruit
Provide me all the ways
I can take you away

I don’t know what it is that makes me want you badly
Even the way you stare drives me crazy
Cause every inch of your skin
Traces me back to where we want to begin

Let me worship you
A holy grail that’s hard to find
Let me be your daily grind
Let me take care of you

I just want you here with me
Please stay with me
You have loved me unconditionally
And I have loved you faithfully
Please be with me till the end
Until the end
37 · Aug 2023
Ocean of Love (94-24-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I have crossed the ocean of time just tryna find you
Yet, here you are, unbothered and unaffected by the things you always hear
“Still single?” “When will you be getting married?”
My apologies for not arriving in your life sooner than you expected
Since I travelled for miles, swam in the vast oceans of experiences before I got here
Not knowing you’d be my destiny
Since now, I already met you, I wish you would not leave me
Please stay, if you wish to leave
Then leave, if you wish to stay
Hence, if your will is never to leave me, I expect you to be together.
36 · Aug 2023
Seizeeee. (10-23-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Got me blinded by the probe lights
It got me nauseous
But I’ve been cautious
Got my mind static to see bright flashing lights

I’m so depressed
Stressed
I intake medicine to relieve the pain
But I’m no longer numb enough
To not feel the pain
I know life is tough

Can’t control my mind
My mind controls me
Can’t control my thoughts
I overthink nonsense thoughts
36 · Aug 2023
I want you. (1-21-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Eye to eye we meet
Life’s getting discreet
As we keep things private
And being strangers in public

No need for me to panic
If you are a little too late
You know I could understand
But I can barely stand

We keep behind closed doors
And our clothes fallen on the floor
You know baby I want you
I wanted you all alone

You know baby I yearn for you
I never want to make things done
I want you all mine to myself
I just want you for myself

24/7 baby, I just want you here next to me
12 to 24 hours, non-stop, just stay with me
Ooh, I want to swim in a deep sea of blankets with you
And I want to wake up in the morning with you

Baby, just love me then until we feel a little high
Be with me until we both get high
I just want to drunk in your love
Oh, baby I feel high in your love

Ride with me, swim in my veins
Baby, if there is no pain
Then there is no gain
I want to let the pain remain

Oh, get it on right and keep it steady
Until we were both ready
Anywhere with you
It’s okay as long as I am in a different position with you

Baby whisper in your intentions to me
Let me clear my schedules for you
I want you to call me whenever you need me
I just want to make you happy too

I want to your favorite hello and your hardest goodbye
I just want to scream in pain and cry
Even if every time you leave me
You will always come back to me

Baby, I got what you need
Gotta gives it all without greed
Oh, baby I want you more than anything else
No more no less
35 · Aug 2023
My view (11-24-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
That feeling of longing for something
Or for anything
In which you never know what it is
I hope to know what it is

That feeling of searching for something
That feeling I know that something is lacking
But never knew what it was
I hope I knew what it was
35 · Aug 2023
Repeat.
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Shattered dreams, wasted life
Life is such a messy but beautiful rhyme scheme
Tucked in with a bullet or knife

Cracked door, wounded fists
Black and white tilted tiles on the floor
Our existence is a gift

Stop the urge to commit felo-de-se in a feverish haste
Life is too precious for you to waste
Hoping if there is a switch to turn off or on
Depressed mode, traumatized all alone

I’ve been in therapy for too long now
Talking to myself somehow
I find glee and sorrows in medications and IV
Been astonishingly reminiscing of enchanting poison ivy

In my deep sleep, I lie in my deathbed
Don’t ever weep
I will forever be in your head

Praying for my soul to depart
I’m not in my right mentality
Been experiencing aching heart, irrational personality

I’ve got swollen eyes
Due to your intoxicating lies
My whole life seems to crash
I’ve had a painful and traumatic past

Later then I realized, arson comforts me
The smell of the black smoke soothes me
Counting sheep no longer persuades my sleep
I cry myself to sleep

My soul agonizes and burns
In the scorching heat of Hell
I hope they wish me well
It is indeed a twisted fate of takes and turns

I once remember when I was still alive and breathing
You were glad of my existence, of my undying presence
Those memories we spent together, thinking

Remember when I took you the river
It made you shiver
But you gently flowed me down the stream
I was glowing, shining bright like the moonbeam

I treated you like a king
But you only treated me like a fool
And you only used me as a tool
For you to get everything

I’m so immune already with your unkind lies
Hence, I don’t know how many more turns do I have to twist
But why am I facing this bitter strife?
I wish It would no longer last

I hope this does not last forever
Yet it melts me right through my core
Oh, is it required for me to feel this every day
It still feels like a daydream

I’m still facing this unpredictable pain
No need for me to repeat it
I know I’ll never get over with it

You line me up like domino tiles
If I’m fragile as ****, I’ll know I’m fragile
Then stacks me up like a deck of cards

As I slowly sink from the depths of my despair
And realize that it’s not fair, it ain’t fair

As soon as you let me fall in one place as planned
Like a domino effect
I haven’t realized about its cause and effect
You didn’t even care enough

But for you, there is so many things
That I cannot condone or disregard

Hope you remember the note I wrote in capital letters
“I’LL COME BACK FOR YOU” haunting you alive
While karma seems to knock on your door
Masterpieces and evidence were all laid on the floor
35 · Aug 2023
FICKLE HEART (1-20-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I hate to break it to you
I hate to see you go
I hate the games I’m playing
And this feeling is fleeting

I always put your love on the line
I often cross the line
One more touch move and now were checkmate
I better tell you, I don’t believe in soulmates

Oh, I never loved you right from the start
And I never want to play with your heart
Nor your feelings
Just because of how unsure I was of my own

I never meant to break your heart
I never want to hurt your feelings
Just because of how undecided I was of my own

I tried countless times
Loving the opponent but not the game
But you say, you love the player and not the game
In the blink of an eye, I keep telling myself all the time

I never want to show any motives anymore
But I’m quite dumb, I felt numb
I already got used to it
But it feels like a habit
35 · Aug 2023
Midnight love (11-02-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
My midnight feels better when you're here with me
Midnight hits different when you're sleeping next to me
Watching you close and kiss your cheeks goodnight
I always loved this kind of midnight

When we never fight but made-love
The way we make-love

Seems like heaven is on our side
The touch is remarkable, unforgettable
It felt like I'm on top of the cloud nine
I was always fine
Because baby, you are mine
Then make me your bride
I’d always abide, confide

**** me how you want it to be
**** me the way I loved how you touch me
All the sweat, moans and gasping for air
Can’t you feel how I care?
I plead more of you, longs for you

I wanna hug you on cold days
Cuddle with you everyday
35 · Aug 2023
Breakthrough (8-25-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Silver and Gold, that's what you are to me
Black and white, seems like hell inside of me
Red and Blue, peace and war are built in my mind
Oh, I guess I was rare enough to find

You need a target for you to pull the trigger
One bullet is all it takes
Whatever it takes
It makes me shiver

Make it rain
Let it rain bullets now
My life is miserable somehow
I am in so much pain

I am who I am (Fearless)
If I think I am (dauntless)
Then therefore I am (Oblivious)
And I am what I am (Dangerous)

It runs in my flesh, in my blood
Might wanna have a flash flood
My feelings, they are already dried
Like my eyes, they are already tired

I smile like a terror
I scare filled with horror
I grin like Nanno
I just have to let you know

Might wanna see me in the best angle
But you said you wanna see me in every angle
Everyone looks at me
And meets me in the eye

Oh, I cry, I cry, I cry
The way you pity me
The way you work hard to try
To insult me
35 · Aug 2023
Thank God (12-27-20)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You are my favorite feeling
That feeling I'm longing to find
You're that feeling I'm missing
That feeling I'll never leave behind

I have come a long way just to find you
I have gone too far cause you're always on my mind
I hope you'll meet me halfway
And I'll wait for you along the way

I'll never want to forsake you
Cause you're impossible to find

If fate and time will only be by our side
My love for you will never be denied
If you'd only let me love you
Baby, I won't let go of you

You are all the thoughts in my head
And all the love in my heart
Baby, I'm yours for eternity
And you're mine for infinity

Ooh, you're always in my head
And you have forever owned my heart

Thank God, I have already found you
Thank God, you’re already mine to keep
Oh, you’re that man I’d always wanted to keep
Cause you are my answered prayer

Thank God, I already found you
And finally, I already have you
I already had someone to call my own
And I will never be forever alone

Come with me where dreams are born
And time is never planned
Come with me where our love is born
And our future is long planned

Take my hand
Yes, I'll take you to Wonderland
Take my hand
Since you're here with me in Neverland

Baby, you may not know it yet
But I have already loved you
Ooh, I already did the first time we met
Yeah, I do love you, love you, oh

We can make it through the test of time
You and me against all odds
As long as you’re here with me
Our future is secured and long planned

For more moments and years to come
You are the one I want to share my life with
For more ups and downs to come
You’re the one I want to build my home with

You will always be my favorite feeling
That feeling I'm always missing
34 · Aug 2023
DANGEROUS LOVE (1-20-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Ooh, they say you were bad for my health
But baby your love is my wealth
They say I need a diagnosis
Truly needing a psychoanalysis

Yeah, I been imagining things on my mind
But they say love is blind
You are my daily dose of energy
Got to have that synergy

Yet this is both fun and love
Oh, I will always give enough
I need your love
Your dangerous love

Ooh, gotta roll the dice for that
Gotta put ice dripping all over your body
Gotta bet on that
I’ll go crazy on your body

I crave so much for you
I go crazy about it
Your silence is amazing
When we are both moving

You are my vitamins from A to Z
You are my favorite remedy
You are my sanity
You are my expectations and reality

Oh, I am both wild and calm at the moment
Oh, let’s just enjoy this moment
I want to stay in this moment with you forever
As long as we’re both happy together

You are my five course meals
My all you can eat
Buffet style
As long as we never go out of style

It’s not a big deal
Oh, because you knock me off of my feet
33 · Aug 2023
Ghost of you (12-18-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
They say you cannot be a prisoner of your own past
But mine became a habit that last
I remember when you called me mine
Asked me if I was doing fine?

I bought a couple ring for us
I remember those times we had, I missed us
I still hope one day you will remember me
You will talk to me and apologize to me

I was handcuffed by your presence
You seem tormenting me
It all made no sense
You keep haunting me

But you lied to me, you used me
Fooled me many times
You have committed a crime
You broke my heart

You broke my heart apart
You tore us apart
But I still am hoping for you to come back
To come back home to me, to come back

Now I am still here, here, waiting for you
Dancing on my own with the ghost of you
Reminiscing of our glorious past
Leaving me all alone miserable in the past

I still am, caught in the glimpse of us
Thought I’d die for you, for us
32 · Aug 2023
Waiting (2-4-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Why does it always pay to wait?
If I get all impatient, would I be too late?
I can't understand myself lately
It seems like I want to stay

Fell in love with a man who has it all
Loving me perhaps was his call
Ooh, I would love to let him know I'll wait
No matter how long I would always wait

You are all I ever needed
And all I ever wanted
In this world filled with lies
You’re the only thing that’s right

So, I’ll love you with all of my might
Every time I look him in the eyes
It feels like I love to stay
Every time you look and come my way

You are my lover and my everything
You are my forever king
You are mine and I am yours to keep
That’s why I fell in love too deep

You’re the reason why I keep smiling all the time
You’re the reason why I always cry when I miss you
You’re the reason why I could laugh all the time
You’re the reason why I became so happy every day

Because you’re the one I love
You’re the reason why I believed in love
You’re the reason why I chose to stay
You’re the reason why I chose you

My heartbeat is a melody I always hear when I miss you every day
My mind was always filled with thoughts of you every day
I hope you would still love me the same
I hope you'll never change

Because my love for you never ages
And I will always call your name

I will be waiting patiently for you
I will still love you
And right by your side is where I’ll stay
No matter how long or short the days
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Baby you deserve all of me
My treatment, my love, my care
I just wanna be fair
Giving your needs and wants

I just wanna stay with you
From morning until midnight
Because baby, midnight hits different
We vibe and felt different

I just hope you will get it on right
Be patient with me
Satisfy me and go crazy for you

Let your imagination run wild
I ain't a savage for me to be this wild
But you made me wild
You made me want you

Go crazy about you
Chase you, own you
Make you mine, cross that line

You're the hunter and I'm the prey
It's your vibe that made me stay

I miss ******* you
The way you miss ******* me
I get so crazy about you
The way you feel so ***** of me

I just waited for you to come home
Waiting for you to come home
32 · Aug 2023
Fucking mine (6-26-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You’re mine, mine alone
You’re ******* mine, mine all alone

Come here and kiss me
Longer than what I needed
Ride with me and satisfy me
More than what I wanted

You own me now
I’m all yours to keep
Come and **** me now
24 hours no sleep

Undress me all you want
Satisfy me with different positions you want
Make me go crazy, craving for you
Make me want more of you

Baby, I see red
Can’t get you of my head
Now you want to end up in my bed
And you hope to make love with me instead

I’m yours, yours alone
I’m ******* yours, yours all alone

Tie me, eat me raw
Like you want to eat all you can
Come and be my man
Love me harder and **** me raw
31 · Aug 2023
I miss you (2-15-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I wish you were here by my side
So that you can hug me closer
Cuddle with me and let us stay in bed
Oh, darling I will never leave your side

I hope we will stay like this forever
Cause I can’t seem to get you off my head
Cause, I miss you love
Oh, I miss you love

I miss your eyes, the way they stare at me
I miss your lips, the way they smile back at me
I miss your voice, the way it calms me
I miss your face, the way it relaxes me

I miss your hands, the way I used to touch them
I miss your hug, the way it keeps me sane
I miss you, please stay, remain
And never listen to them

And how I miss your presence, it feels like home to me
And I miss you, the way I fell in love with you
The way I am crazy in love with you
I know you always think of me

All I ever dreamt of was to be right next to you
How I wish I could be this close to you
We’ll talk and plan of things we could ever do
And go to places we love to go


With you, right next to me
There is nothing more I could ever guarantee

Your smile is all I wanted to see
The way it bright up my day
For you are enough to me
And right by your side is where I will stay

Through the good times and the bad
I’ll remain right by your side
I swore to never leave your side
Even if I am both mad or glad.

Because I dated you to marry you
I vowed for Commitment
I vowed to be your lifetime partner
I want to be yours

Because I do cherish you
I want to be your fulfillment
You have also vowed to be my lifetime partner
I want to be yours

I miss you
You want to be mine
I miss you
I want to be yours
31 · Aug 2023
Paradise (2-4-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
What I see is my lifetime paradise
That's what I'm sure of
What I have now is my blessing in disguise
And he's one thing I'm sure of

What we had was a rollercoaster ride
You and I collide through the good times and the bad
I just could not take for granted what we had
You're my groom and I'll be your bride

Baby, you're the only one I want to spend the rest of my life with
You're the one I want to be with
I might not give what you wanted
But I got what you needed

Baby, hold my hand and we'll make it through
Cause I still love to love you

I know what we had was meant to be
And our relationship was tested through time
But the moment I saw you, I knew that you're the one for me
I hope it's your hand I'd end up holding till the end of time

I may not be a perfect lover for you
Although I make mistakes, I promise to never break your heart
With or without my presence, I will always be here for you
But I hope we never part

Your voice calms me like the sea
After a long and tiring day
Your angelic face is all I needed to see
And I can rest my worries with you

In your arms is where I wanted to stay
Cause I never want to let you go
You're that guy I never expected to have now
Now, who is willing to have me now.

Baby, you are my best view
I cannot take my eyes off of you
Ooh, you know how I loved you so
Hey, I got my focus on you
31 · Aug 2023
Questions (01-02-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Why do I keep running away from the truth?
That all I need is you
Why do I keep myself being blinded by the truth?
That all I see is you

Why do I keep myself being numb from the truth?
That all I have loved is you
Why do I keep hesitating to know the truth?
That all I want is you

Why do I keep denying the truth?
That all I am missing was you
And why do I keep hiding the truth
That all I want to be with is you
31 · Aug 2023
To see you (8-26-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You lift me up the way I lift you
Together we help each other out
Figuring our way out
Into this problematic world of ours

You know I always care for you
What we had, what we own was ours
No one else would ever come in between
Here we are, through thick and thin

You always had me at our best and worst
I have always found you when you’re lost
Baby, don’t worry, I will always be here
Loving you, even if I’m far or near

You will always have my heart
To have and to hold
Your worth for me was gold
Your worth is more than a 24 karat

I would always want to hold your hand
Never want to let it go
This love may be sweet, salty, bitter or bland
I would always love to have you

This is the best love I have so far
It got me wishing on a shooting star
I may never have anything
But I can give you everything.
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