"how do I show him? I can't just use my words. My words are empty only delivering disappointment in horrendous pain. Not proud of myself not even in the slightest. He is my universe the only universe that has seen my world and felt the emotions coming from it. Never breaking down my protected walls. Only making the Rope longer and stronger for him to climb over to join me, to join me on my side my lonely protected side. He became my universe bringing in the light exposing me to the open. He always protected me kept me safe. How do I show my universe that I don't want him to be destroyed? I don't hate him, I love him I miss him, I need him, I want him oh, and I chose him not for hurt but for our true love to shine in our world even when the sun refuses, in every space and time I am his beautiful disaster and he is my everything."