I am
decorating.
Renovating.
I slide my lone box over
a few centimeters to the right,
all the snakes pile out, all the
crocodiles cry in the new light,
all the bugs
call me mother
or
something
of the like.
There is a draw string
that I never pull.
There is an empty corner and another
and
another and
oh, well
too many to count
And a memory of
my father
gesturing in silhouette
something I
can’t make out,
but he looks like
a womb, and
he looks like
my husband
and I have to clean
this
room.
I use my
little fingers to trace
the paths of echoes
long silenced
just to taste
a familiar kind of quiet
because it makes
more sense than this
gnawing,
idle
knowing
come upon me as I age,
I must
clean this room
But
I
return
with dust.
There must have been,
I think
Something brilliant here,
once.
My
lone little box, housing my
lone little feather
Underneath my
lone little light
with its drawstring untouched,
because
it flickers
as it likes
All the crawling things beneath
This paltry foil
to my utter
desolation
The snakes,
the bugs,
all plaintiff
I don’t do things
I don’t put things
places,
I don’t
make the room full
I just
wander away.
But I am
decorating.
Renovating.
I slide my lone box over
a few centimeters to the right,
all the snakes pile out, all the
crocodiles cry
in the new light,
all the bugs
call me fat.