I’m glad I haven’t experienced
Physical intimacy with another
Because now
With the knowledge I have
All of my experiences
Will be with someone who reveres me
Teenage insecurity no longer influencing my low-standard decisions
Each new sensation
Will not go unnoticed
I’ll be fully absorbed
And intentional in the moments where
A man tightly grasps my waist
Under my shirt
For the first time

Delicately moves his lips against mine only to spread them open
With his skilled tongue

Moments where a man
Slowly peels off my shirt
In an unhurried lust

Roams his rough palms across my bare chest and focuses his attention on my hardened *******

The moment where a man
kisses my breast softly
For the first time

I did it
I made my move
The ball’s in your court now
Why oh why
Words are powerful
I think I’ll learn my lesson this time
Since I’ve yet again
Placed another above me
I took action
And fate actually led us together
I’m curious
Do you know who I am
Or have you not connected the dots
I hope not
I don’t know what I’m doing
This will lead to no where
So why did I pursue
To confirm I’m desirable
Oh insecurity
You still sink your claws deep
Why do I need another for this purpose?
We shall see where this goes
Whether this will be the beginning
To our story
Or the end of a gym membership
To be continued

I wear your jacket to keep me warm
I wear your jacket to show your love
I wear your jacket on late night coffee trips
I wear your jacket through the arguments
I wear your jacket when I laugh
I wear your jacket when I cry
I wear your jacket when I scream the pain away
I wear your jacket as a reminder that you were once mine

Children usually follow example more than any advice...so try and be the example for them.

you look me in the eyes
and tell me that i am selfish
with no remorse or regret in your countenance
that i should be embarrassed
and filled with shame
and yet
when i tell you that you should feel shame
and embarresment
with the way you speak about your issues with my father
in front of your kids
you have no words
and continue rambling about something else
it hurts
doesn't it
to taste what you give out on the daily
i will not apologize
i guess i am different than everyone else in my family
i will not remain quiet
i will not silently endure your verbal abuse
enough is enough
you use your words to inflict emotional wounds
and i will use mine to be more powerful than yours
you created this "monster"
so don't be upset
when your flesh stings when i attack on the defense