Everyday
waking up
to a
delusional belief
of something
we call
FREEDOM

They say
I'm a hypocrite
for wanting
more money
I ask them,
"What can I do?"
I live
in a world
where money
can bend
all the rules

All these thoughts
are killing me
What should I do?
I have been living
for a long time
but it seems
that my life
is going nowhere
Sometimes, I think
that bullet
wasn't such a bad idea
after all

I love you
because
you loved me
when
the rest of the world
didn't
including myself

Tired, lying in my bed
and yet I couldn't sleep
Thinking of the thousand
moments in my life
when I could've made
a better decision,
a better choice
My life may have ended up
in a better place
These thoughts
keep me up all night
They haunt me
but it's too late
and what hurts most is
I have to live with
those decisions
for the rest of my life

Where you are
right now
is a culmination
of all the decisions
you've made
in the past

I cried
so much
in the past
that
no tear
is falling
from my eyes
anymore
even when
the pain
is unbearable

The emptiness
is killing me
day by day
Until now
I don't know
how to fill up
that void

I fell for the stars
but the thing about stars is
they're so far away

I am in my 30s
and life passed me by
I watch all these feel good movies
but they don't make me
feel good at all
They make me feel like
I missed a lot
and there is no turning back
There's nothing I can do
but to look
straight ahead

Those
who actually
contribute
to society
are the ones
being left out

It's 2:00 AM
but I am wide awake
Thinking of
the right colors
to paint
on my empty canvas
Poetry
has been my refuge
It has been
my outlet for creativity,
my outlet for happiness
and my outlet for sadness
It gives me great pleasure
to look for
the right words to say
It is
the manifestation
of my artistry

Tired in endlessness
Infinite cycle of work
just to pay the rent

Never
have I thought
that I will belong
to someone else
until I
belonged to you

It is night time
Darkness has devoured
the blue skies
Stars glisten
like silver glitters
City lights shining
like diamonds from afar
The moon boasting
its gorgeous craters
One can't help but bask
under its cold light
Silence lingering
the once busy streets
People slumber,
awaiting the promise
of another tomorrow
A fitting end
for the fulfillment
of another day

An empty canvass
A mind full of ideas
How do I begin?

You called out my name
I smiled and opened my eyes
It was just a dream

I am done with her
I'm not thinking about her
Those were all just lies

When things don't go well
Pray to our Almighty God
Things will be just fine

I saw it happen
I gave you all the warning
You said it's not true

I am not a fighter
I am not that kind of person
I don't resort to violence
I want peace for myself
I want peace for other people
I am soft but
I can't let them see it
I might be taken as a weak person
I am a friend
I am a lover
I am a son
I am a human being
I am not a fighter

Others wait
for the promise
of a new day

I wait
for the promise
of a good night sleep

Rain drops
are falling
Pouring down
on unlit houses
Its droplets
trickling down
the window pane
Trees swayed
by the strong wind
Moving them
for its own amusement
Thunder roars
at the surprise
of those who slumber
Lightning flashes
brightly on the dark skies
Capturing a photograph
of the gloomy evening
A memory
of what will soon be
just another storm
in history

I love you because it's Monday
I love you because it's Tuesday
I love you because it's Wednesday
I love you because it's Thursday
I love you because it's Friday
I love you because it's Saturday
I love you because it's Sunday

I love you because you make my day

I am all alone
thinking about you and me
and what could've been

I fear
the day
I lose
the passion
to write

I had a dream
You were alive
I knew
it'll be
your last day
on the day of Judas
I told you
but you
didn't believe me
I woke up
and I slept again
hoping
to have
the same dream
Only that time
I hoped
you would
believe me

This pandemic has taken a lot of lives
People from around the world
are affected
It does not choose
It affects everyone
regardless of
the color of their skin,
the country they're from,
their status in life,
their age,
their ****** orientation
or their religion
But maybe
this is what the world needs
to remind
each and everyone of us
that we are all human
and that
we need each other
This may be
what will unite all of us
Something
that does not select its victim
Something
that is not seen by the naked eye
Something
that does not care
We are all in this together
fighting as a unit
in the face of adversity

I asked how she was
She said she is doing fine
I said I missed her

Let us leave this world
Escape the toxicity
Never to return

Eight hours
of almost everyday
to make
the corporate machine
richer by the second
while we sacrifice
our dreams,
our families
and our passion
to put food on our plates,
to put a roof on our heads
and to provide education
for our children,
the hope of our future
when in fact,
it is our right
as people
to have them
in the first place

I grew tirelessly
listening to same old lies
I have to move on

Let us remember
Sugar and salt look the same
Trust the right people