I hate every second of hopes and waiting for an illusion that is never existing.

Why am I in this?

A Man that is messing up my life who never remember me and.....hmmm... Who seems to never remember I ever lived... All I got is his brutal lies and gbam I forgive and let in but all to see him slip away cowardly.

Smile... I am just a fool...
Remembering everything and still can't see the reason why my life is entangled In this ******* lies.

I hate myself,I hate the time I spent with you.
I hate you with all my heart and being.

I am fun to be with.
Everyone fights to be with me but whenever I see the commitment, boom 💥 I blow it up for no reason. And if I couldn't get them off I blocked them and try to change my location.

What a demon in me!!!
What a wasted time I have been since I know you.

Waking up today and feeling so ***** like never before.
Tried all I could to be myself throughout the day in service.
Gotten home quickly to work on cooling my body that is on fire of fantasy.
Which has been an ages I have felt like this.
I told the lion that woken up the ghost In me
And he tried to help but has to go.

I slept off while trying to cool the fire in me
And when I woke up,I got a message that you need to go out. Which was so ok for me.
But alas despite the wait to hear your voice which I thought will cool my ache one way or the other,
Then... Boom 💥💥💥..... You have to go!

And the feeling got so hot 🔥🔥🔥 and painful.

Wow.... When I felt nothing we used to be for an hour or more now that I feel so ***** thinking hearing your voice will help then boom 💥💥💥 you're off...
Why love is always hurt?
Why others don't feel the pain?
Why am I always fall into these?

I think I always get it wrong.
And I need to choose me.
Bye!!!

Seen your hi, I can't understand the feeling.
Reading from you make me feel butterflies swinging.
I don't know when I start telling you the truth about me
I talked to you as if I have known you for ages.

You make feel like a woman even without seen you
You feel like home while chatting with you.
You make see through me without seen me.

I bless the day you choose to say hi to me
I thank the Universe for this connection.
I believe this is my new beginnings I have been waiting for.

I wish this feelings become something tangible.
I will love you with all my might

Lately,I got this feelings,
Even if I can't understand it's meaning
But I know it's strong
And it's about you
Because all I want it to be with you
For living without you is nothing.

Most nights, different city with brighter light and melodious music
Which should be pretty
But they can't be compared
To your rhythm and the light from you

Can't wait till you come back home
I know it's late,hold you above the phone.
It's so hard getting on by myself
So call me, leave me messages
At the tone I know.
I know we can make it work
Only for us to communicate

I'm waiting... So hurry back home!!!
Bring the shiny boy,
The confident chap I know.
You better follow the path,
Board the car,bus,train,or go and get a cab or just fly here,jet park
Just ensure you are right here with me.

For I am your puzzle piece,
That you need to solve
So come and solve me.
Our future I see so clear

The Moon,the Star and The Sun
Shine each day telling me it our time
To be happy and rest
So come and take your space,my love.
For I wish you are here
To make the music better
Light more brighter.
For I just wish you are here right now.

When the love is right,there is no clause.
When it's wrong, excuses will be plenty
When love is real, you'll love to wait eternity.
When not real, you'll be eager to move on even without a clause.

No matter the distance or no- contact
The spirit and the soul will only see you so close
For you are what I call a home
Even in your absence I always feel at home 🏡🏡🏡 in your memory.

Whenever I think of losing up,
I always remember your cool eyes
That always reminds me of the shock you are battling with.

This kind of feelings that makes you unsure of your emotions
This look that truly shows your fears and insecurities

This look that makes you feel like running all the time.
This feelings that is killing you gradually that you lost your confidence for.
This feelings that makes you so dump that you can't truly express your true feelings.

I sure recall it all and I got no choice than to succumb to the flow.
I pray 🙏 it worth the wait eventually.
For I realized I can't love any other person the way I love you

Even if I can't see you, I can feel you.
Even if I can't see you,I know you are okay
Being silence doesn't mean I don't think of you, it just means I respect your space and your will.
That's why I succumb to ensure I am happy in whatever I am experiencing.

For you are my heart.
The only one my heart calls his name
The only one that made me loose control of myself.
You are my then,my now and my ever be.
My love for you can't fail. But it will surely wait for you my one and only love.