I gave my heart, my soul, my all
Sacrificed, feed, and nurtured and loved
I held it deep when life made it crawl
I did my best to give it wings to soar like a dove.

But when I hurt, when I cried.
It didnt care, all it did was run and hide
When I beared my deepest thoughts and pain
All it would say its just rain

I tried to share dreams and hopes
She in her heart just said nope
I thought we were making a life
We were sharing the strives

Though I loved her with all that I am
She lied, hurt and then ran
I was unloved and never knew it
for years I was alone and never saw it

Ever feel like your not enough
That you fall short of the prize
No matter how hard you tried
The brass ring is unattainable

That the gods have held you back
Fought till there is only the attack
And when you think you've won
Watch all you've done come undone

Know that though you do right
It wont matter in the end
You were never ment to win
Life tries hard to extinguish my light

One day I may say it all
Let the chips go
See where they fall
Whether they be happy or bring woe

Stand up and shout it loud
Release the warrior, sword in hand
Lay waste to all, take off my shroud
Not just light fires, but be the fan

I've lived in your peace to long
Holding my tongue and light
Never allowed to sing my song
I became gray, losing my bright

Now the skies are turning red
I'm tired of feeling dead
Soon my voice will be heard
And I'll let it out word for word

I've always been called a hero
The soldiers life full of woe
Duty bound to a belief
That my life is sacrifice
For others to achieve paradise

Putting their needs before mine
The weight of the world on my spine
Back straight and strong
Giving my strength and my all
Praying that I will stand tall

When the time comes
and I lay my troubles down
They will come and shed a tear
Not for me, but out of fear
That another soldier wont be found

So much of her is inside
The trueself we hide
A heart might break
Our soul to fragile to take

There is lock, but no key
Emotions we will never see
If hidden they remain
Your life stays the same

Along comes a ray
To light the way
Its carress tender and warm
The darkness is transformed

It shows you the key
All along it was in me
The choice is now mine
To let all my beauty shine

Should i let it out
It safety i doubt
Inside it will wither and die
Outside it glory will blind

Love and life is a choice
They are given equal a voice
Hearts should be unbound
So they may leave the ground

Have you ever picked a flower
There it stood in the field
Lonely but strong,
alone in a green world
nothing seemed wrong.

When you pull it to you
separate it from the root
It looks so pretty
and smells so sweet
Its beauty no one can dispute

Then the pedals start to sag
Color begans to fade away
It not strong enough alone,
to stand in the cold light of day

You could have had it longer
If you had let it stay,
In the field of clover
Happy and gay

Where do you go
Your in my arms
Then they're empty

You come closer
I feel your warmth
Next i'm cold and alone

Drowning deep in your eyes
Then they become still pools
There meaning lost to me

Your body responds
But your soul is gone
I want the warmth the sun
you live in the shadows
and just graze the light

one day you feel the sun
and learn not to run
to open to the world
what i behold

Would you die
or fall away
maybe it would help you fly
if what you feel you"d say

There is alot of fear
Afraid to be let out
That no one wants to see you bare
to share them gives you doubt

Naked, soul exposed to all
Showing the scars from your falls
Most will turn not truly wanting to see
But you'd be true free

Am I not stronger
Able to take what is mine
I fight through the tears
Words sway my mind

Why do I not stand up
Take what is mine
Will I be weak
Not being smart

Do I let this keep happening
A bad dream that is repeating
Never learning from the past
Not truly knowing who I am

One day I'll be strong
Stand on my own
Learn from the past
Find myself on a new path
(A reverse poem)

The weight is terrible to bear
So much pain and fear
Loneliness, emptiness and despair
knowing that there's noone to share

My heart aches from it all
Like I been beat against a wall
What I knew left me burn and raw
no life line, and no one to call

I just want to have the sun once more
To laugh, love feel it in the core
Just to see the end the shore
One day it will finish, I end the war

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Strong and hard ****
Warm and willing wet mouth
Building, stroking and pressure relief
Bliss kiss

Warrior and Poet

When you have a warriors might
But have a poets light
Your life is eternal struggle
Most of the time your befuddled

To be hard and soft
dream of love and loss
breath fire and spite
Leads to restless nights

To relish in the blood you spill
Charge up every hill
Remorse the feelings you hide
Pain you feel deep inside

The Warrior and the Poet
Inside him, you wouldn't know it