Crimson
Cinnamon
Autumn leaves
In her hair
Angry
Fury
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It’s all mixed in there

Maybe we had all the tools to build a beautiful love together.
But we used those tools to bludgeon each other instead of create.
And now it’s too late.

Is it worth ruining your life for a morsel of love?
Probably.

I should be counting sheep
Trying to get some sleep
I’m just laying here in my bed
You’re running Olympic sized marathons, through my head
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
At the cross roads of the morning and the night
Like the way you do for me, it seems
When I should already be having dreams
I’m dreaming, but I’m not in R.E.M like I should be
I’m dreaming about you and what it’d be like if you were here with me
If it was your arms I was in
If you and I were with each other again
I wonder what you’re doing, if you’re really happy where you are
I wonder if that lady laying next to you, who doesn’t fulfill you, is really what you want
I could give you what she lacks
If that’s respect or if just in the sack
I study you, watch you closely, listen to everything you say
I know you’re feeling unimportant and unneeded by her anyway
Cause she doesn’t “treasure you or worship you the way you thought your woman should.”
I already worship the ground you walk on, I could make you feel so good
I’m laying here wide awake thinking of so many things
Mostly you and you only. You know you’re kind of haunting me
I wish I could just tell you all that I see
I notice you when you’re leaving, you always look back at me
I know what you’re feeling
Your imaginations reeling
I know you’re intrigued by my mystery
You’ve got a fantasy
That I’m more than willing to fulfill
You could build
A new life
With a new wife
That understands
Makes plans
Washes your clothes and holds your hand
So now as I lay me down and go to sleep
And pray the Lord your soul to keep
I wish I was the one laying in your sheets
I hope when you wake up, you’re thinking of me

She was sophisticated,
Girlish, wide eyed and curious
Peculiarly innocent, but wise beyond her years
She had a rambunctious side
It wasn’t beyond her to climb up a tree
Or run through a sprinkler on her daily walk
She was just herself
And that’s the only person she wanted to be

The universe doesn’t yearn for you.
No, I promise you, it doesn’t.
Not one nebula or kaleidoscopic splash of imploded stardust across the black canvas of space cares for you.
Not one fiery ball of gas suspended by gravity cares.
The universe didn’t do anything for you.
The universe didn’t hear you.
The universe doesn’t know your name.
But, it’s Maker on the other hand...

Slowly he steps towards her
Eyes locked across a crowded room
Lingering stares as he walks away from her
Knowing in his heart he wants to stay close by to her
It is a slow tethering of souls
A simmer under the surface
A fire in their eyes for each other
They’d be risking it all for one another
They’d be choosing a whole new life by agreeing to love each other
He hides his wedding band
She smiles from a distance
He asks her friends about her
But never approaches her directly
He’s gauging the possibility before he dives in
She’s daydreaming about him
He’s texting mutual friends “what does she like?”
He savors her name on his lips
Tasting what it would be like to whisper it in her ears
She imagines being folded into his arms
Completely safe in his strength
Their thoughts are intertwined with each other
Their hearts are pulled to the other
They know it’s a dangerous thing they’re playing with
Yet they each pursue it
With gentle eyes and cautious steps towards each other
They can sense it
They are almost ready to dance

The harder the fall
The grander the rise