I’m scared of my mind
Scared of spiraling depravity
The way I ache isn’t normal
Scared of dark capability
The monster most terrifying
Is the monster that’s me

He lit his cigar
And held it thoughtfully in his lips
The tip blazed
His eyes glowed amber red
The dark room
Filled with hazy smoke
He’s a dragon
Guarding his gold coins

I can’t be bought
Can’t be bribed
Keep your cash
Give me your life
I don’t want your power
Keep your empire too
I don’t want your money
I just want you

Take me under
Take me down
Baptize me
Beneath the ground
Where there are no others
No material or wealth
Let me die
Die to myself
For as I go under
Dripping with sin
Life will flood my being
And I shall live again
Live new
Live fresh
New life attained
Through this death

All talk
Just a yapper
Fake friend
Back stabber
So it’s long term
Long game
Big picture
Such a shame
Icy vengeance
Shall unfold
Revenge, I hear
Is best served cold

Black suits
Predator eyes
Black hearts
With valuable ties
Connections
From the underworld
In a sky rise
Cigar smoke
Thick as their lies

Say my name and taste it on your tongue
Like whiskey burning on your lips
I trace your neck with my mouth
You stare at me like a sailor caught in a storm
Adrenaline pounds in your chest
You shake and pray and realize
You’re about to relapse
Hooked on the girl who smells of flowers and gunpowder