how am I supposed to be gentle with myself
when all I know and am familiar with
is how to be destructive and cruel
in the most abusive way possible
is there a guide I can use
because I have nothing
and when the voices are this loud and dark
the hope within diminishes
day by day
I can honestly say that I am in the lowest point of my life. I am so fragmented and worn out. My friend mentioned how I deserve a break from all the pain and abuse, but it is as if they have become synonymous with my name. My therapist tells me to be gentle but how do I do that when I am so unfamiliar with the concept and am barely learning how to.