It's always in the background

Can you hear it?

"It's part of life"

The heaviness that's always pulling you slowly back

Not allowing your smile to reach your eyes

Making you drift off from time to time

Can you feel it?

Weighing you down?

Letting you sink slowly lower?

Until you reach the bottom

And it all comes out

Full force

Then afterwards you feel lighter

But the smile still doesnt reach your eyes

Because it's still there
In the back of your mind

A never ending cycle

And if it had a color
It would be

vantablack

Seemingly impossible to

Quit

       Staring

At

    
It never leaves

"Its part of life"


Then how do you get rid of it?

You dont

Dont worry about the monster behind her

With its claws sunk into her skin

That's how the demon controls her

That's how she let's it win

Dont look into its eyes

You cant let it know you see

Please dont leave her alone

Because then it wont set her free

When she smiles, know she fakes it

When she laughs, its filled with pain

The monster is like a leech

It makes her happiness drain

You see how it towers above her

Shadowing her every motion

Its eyes are red and hypnotizing

And you watch her drink its potion

Its biggest fear is love
So love her

The monster will shrink down

I cant say it will go away

But she doesnt have to drown

Throw my glass against the wall
Watch it shatter, watch it fall
I've figured out now when you lie
I feel it on the inside

Can't glue the pieces back together
Lies keep coming, like bad weather
Say what you want, feel how you feel
But you and I, we used to be real

Pick up the shards so they'll stick in your skin
You cant take them out, you cant keep them in
Bleed for me baby because that's what it means
Take the pain baby, it hurts worse than it seems

Whisper whisper, hide the shine
Take back whats yours that once was mine
My heart, see through, so heavy, so hard
You've thrown, you've crushed, you've hurt, you gaurd

So sweep it all up, throw it away
Or try, just try, to make it the same
Mold my heart new through fire and heat
Because I still need you to make me complete

Tell me I'm pretty
I know I'm not
Tell me I'm special
Because I forgot
Tell me I'm wanted
Cuz I feel so alone
Tell me I'm needed
But I already know
That I am not special
Or pretty or fun
Or smart or happy
I'm easily outdone
I am not worth it
In so many ways
I am not wanted
At the end of the day
Tell me I'm wonderful
But what makes that true
Tell me I'm loved
Then tell me by who
Tell me I'm someone
Because I'm no one at all
Tell me what I'm missing
That makes me feel so small
The words that you say
Will never affect
The way that I think
Or my own self respect
I know I'm not great
When I look in your eyes
So please stop, It's a waste
To tell me more lies

Angel's singing
Brought me here
Amongst my dreams
Replaced my fears
The more I search
The less I find
I'm scared that I've
Been left behind

Angel's singing
brought me here
To my knees
My life, so clear
But when they stopped
The haze remained
And so
And so
Did the pain

Angel's singing
brought me here
The place where I
beg to hear
The voices again
And it's been years
Since I have heard
With my own ears
The Angels sing
The Angels sing

Just one time
Just once more
Would give me the strength
I've been waiting for
Please don't tell me
It was all in my head
I want to know just what they said

Angel's sing me to sleep
Angel's sing me to sleep

She dug a grave
A giant hole
Condemned herself
And sold her soul
Slit her wrists
And bled her sins
This is where
The mercy ends
She peeled the mask
From off her face
But that's what held
The skin in place
She tried so hard
To cover up
The monster she felt
She had become