Lay here with me
And hold me please
She pleads
And begs
Just five more minutes
She always says
Ripping my white tee
As she pulls me back on the bed
I hate when she gets petty and upset
She always bring up memories I try to forget
Haven’t I always been by your side
She likes to quote
From the times you would get so angry
And tie a belt around your throat
I even kept your demons a secret
Ever since you were a small child
Remember those bruises
He left you
Because you wet the bed
Now resentment and hatred is all the fills your head
You often say
It wouldn’t bother you if your dead beat dad were dead
And you can’t say you aren’t happy
That your mom and alcoholic ex have parted ways
Or you might still be waking up to fighting and screaming
Between the two
That’s why you were always out so late
You weren’t really much use
I guess that’s why liquor never touches your hands
From your first heart break
Which you never really seemed to recover
It’s been years
And you still haven’t fully healed
But it’s ok
You know I’m always here
I’ll never leave your side
Not even after you die
Because I love you
And I know you love me

I shoved her into the closet
Shh don’t make a sound
My mom is home
And I don’t want her to know you’re around
I’m not ashamed of you
Even though
I keep you hidden like a ******* magazine
It’s just I’m not use to this
So for now you can’t be seen

Ok the cost is clear
I’m sorry I had to hide you
But you know the routine
It’s been drilled in me to show no emotions
No love
No fear
I hear footsteps coming up the stairs
Quick
Under the bed
Don’t talk and hide your head
It’s not that I’m afraid
But I’m just a broken person
It might be to late for me to be saved

I have to go to work now
So you’re free to roam around
Just don’t let anyone know you’re involved with me
I’ve already brag to the guys
Me and you will never be

I came home today
You were no where to be found
I checked underneath the bed
Even between the sheets
You weren’t in the closet
I threw out all the clothes
And in my frantic panic
I exposed who you were
You were the loved I kept a secret
The feelings I denied
The emotions I tried to hide
I tried to keep it on the low low
But now
Everyone knows

I hate to burden you with this
But you’re in everything I do
It’s like you’re my reflection
My eyes are dark brown
But somehow the eyes looking back at me
Are now a burning bright green
My short black hair
That’s curled with waves
Fans out
Past my shoulders
Now it’s a brunettes brown
My Carmel skin
Turns pale
Like it hasn’t seen enough of the suns glow
If I were to raise my arm
So would you
I can no longer look in the mirror and cry
That means you would too
Plus all I feel is happiness whenever I see you
So I smile as much as I can
Because I know you’re smiling too
I’ve always looked in my mirror and felt alone
But now I know your always on the other side
It’s like you’re in my mirror
The reflection looking back at me
You might be the love of my life
I just hope
Whenever you looking in yours
You’re seeing me

I got caught in the rain today
It didn’t pour
But just enough that everyone wanted to get out of its way
But not me
I didn’t run or flee
I walked as it painted the pavement grey
With each step
The water droplets latched themselves on my clothes and onto my hands
They laid down the hairs on my arms
And darkened my pants
And even though my clothes were starting to get soak
I still walked as it continued to rain
Because it’s the one few times
That I feel at peace

They
        
               Say
    
                          Good

                                      Man

                         Are

                 Hard

                             To

                                     Find

                                              I
    
                                Say
  
                      Maybe

      Perhaps
      
         We’re
                
                Just
          
                       Very

                            Good

                                 At

             Playing

                           Hide

                                   And

                                            Seek.

I’ll never forget how this started
A simple compliment
Nothing fantastic
Or dramatic
A didn’t swoop in fast
With some sort of smooth line
I wasn’t trying to sweep you off you’re feet
I just couldn’t keep my words to myself
Contemplation in the way
But I’m going to say it anyway
This all started
Because I said you had pretty eyes

Am I special enough to always be on your mind
Or was I just a good dream
That you couldn’t remember once you were awake
Have you finally forgotten me
Are does thoughts of me run through your mind

The heart wants what it wants..

Someone once said..

And my heart wants..
Y
O
U

Does that make me fool..

Because I never thought I’d feel this way again

Here I am again on a writing tear
But it isn’t helping
Because what I’m feeling isn’t going anywhere
It’s stuck
Deep down inside
I can’t find it
It crawled in some deep dark corner
Trying to hide
So I write
Trying to exposed it with poetry
Because it’s my blinding flash light
I keep in my hand
But lately I can’t tell if it’s fixing anything