My heart is still heavy...this weighs on me a lot.......this love I  must give it a shot
It has been a long while.........Yes since I wore that famous smile
Time had no bearing on what I speak.......I don't care if I must climb pikes peak
There are things in life that you must do.......if there is still a chance I haven't a clue
All I know is that my spirit is strong.......and I know that my heart is not steering me wrong
This love it is the one for me........my eyes are wide open and this I can clearly see
Her love the only one that was true.......in my life the only one I knew
Just because time has passed .........this love I know this feeling it will last
This tingling in my heart never have I felt........but unlike snow it will never melt
As I look in my crystal ball......I will drop everything else and go for it all

To talk to her to comfort her.....to hold....and to communicate with her
To explain how I feel And how hard I will try to do all that I have to ..to work with her And do what she needs me to do......and what she needs from me.......and I will lay it all out there for the whole world to see
I will get down on one knee.....and we will be as God wanted us to be .....together forever
But for now I will sit on the beach.....look at the stars that shine so bright
I hope and I pray.......and I may start to preach......and I know everything will be alright
Our love shines as bright as the moon and the stars........maybe even as bright as golden bars
Our fairytale will never end......and all the rules of romance we do bend
One thing is true and clear........our love you can feel from far and near
Yes it is like a supernova that's how our love can be described from here on out......for I will never sit and pout
I have written about the sun, moon and the gravity ...you know it is off the hook....as for our love you can read about it in my book.....our love it flows like lava from a volcano.....and the sound of the music from the piano
So as the sun sets on another day.......I wouldn't want it any other way.

As I sit here and get ready for the big game
For me it's all in the name
The Superbowl the biggest game of the year
Her and I will watch the game together and may even shed a tear
I get to hold her all night long
Even after the last ball is thrown
Life is good and if you look real close you will see how much I have grown
Just to be with my favorite ******* this day
What more can a happy man say
Here is to a wonderful day
We will watch the patriots play
Now I just leave with this
I want to give her just one kiss.

This is so unreal
I just don't know what to do
I am thinking but haven't a clue
My mind is blank body running on empty
All the time thinking your love is the key
Walking down that same highway
It's dark and cold but I have faith that I will be with you any day
The road is long and the ground is cold
We must get back together before we get old
It won't be easy but if you believe like I do
It will be better this time around It's true
As I try to clear my head
I better do something or I'll end up dead
My life is in your hands I hope you understand
Nothing that happened was ever planned

The magic will return......this was tragic and there was a lot that I did learn........in all this you were my biggest concern
Through all of this I never gave up.......very soon we shall drink from the same cup
The fire in me burns out of control.....it is my love for you in burns within my soul
The moon is full as my heart is of my love for you........deep down you know it's true
My love for you has survived it all.....
So please baby pick up the phone and call........
Lets give this love of ours another try.....why must we both sit and cry
We are soul mates you know it's true......there are things we know about each other that no one knows ....that's why while we are apart our love still grows
You Think of of me when the stars light the sky......I know from that sparkle in your eye.....and I think of you when the moon is full......we both love each other and that is no bull
So soon we will make this real....because we both know that's how we feel
Me for you and you for me.....this is so true love so lets open up our hearts and just let it be

Yesterday my sister joined the angels ...my mom and my dad and the mother of the love of my life ......no more pain and suffering and no more strife she is  happy and with the sweetest company she could ever be with......he took her too young but a good reason there must have been.....
With her wings she shall fly ......high above me in the sky
To watch us and guide us when ever we are in need.......that's what she is known best for just doing the good deed
She will be missed by those close and far and loved by all ......because if you needed to talk all you had to do is call
She will always be in my heart and in my soul.....And my promise to her is to live my life as it should be lived and to not lose control
Her love and kindness for all living souls ......that was my sister and that's how she rolls
When we all said our goodbyes....as she rose to the skies
I will love her forever and miss her so....she will watch over me this I know
I have grown a lot because of what I have seen.......and got a little wiser if you know what I mean
I will cherish every moment I have on this earth and pray everyday so god gives me strength.......to live a life without any pain is everyone's wish ......but without any no lessons are learned..now I have gone through so much in my life but the lessons I have learned gives me so much to gain.

The day it begins and the light starts to fade....the memories flash through our minds just like the decisions we have made
When the light starts to flicker and finally goes out ......you can't just sit there you must be strong and stand up and shout
The people we have loved and the family we have had.....when the light goes down I know you all will be sad
I want you to remember when one light goes out another will shine.....be happy you have lived a full life and hope it was as good as mine.

I loved you more than any man could ever love or will ever love you
But I made too many mistakes this much is true
This feeling inside I just don't like
If I told all my secrets and didn't hold back
My whole life wouldn't be so out of whack
There were a few things that I held inside
If I had told the truth instead of lied
Now I must live my life without my only true love
I will only be able to do this with the help from the lord above
So please forgive me for the words I never said
And believe the words that I do
For my love was always true and complete
No other woman could ever compete
Baby when it came to you i had tunnel vision
I was always happy with you and it was my decision

As the first snow hits the ground and our winter does start
There is an overwhelming feeling in my heart
Christmas is here and my tears I try to hold back
This time of year when my love gets on track
When your eyes glisten off the sun drenched snow
There is only one thing I want you to know
There is no woman on the planet earth
That makes my body shiver
With that perfect smile and the love you deliver
I only ask Santa for just one gift
Is your spirits that I may lift
I will get down on one knee
Give you this ring  and tell you how I love thee

I read my horoscope today and it said to connect with loved ones .....who made you feel like home......there was only one and she is gone.....the tears they fell like rain onto my pillow.and as it was soaked with tears......once again I layed my head upon my pillow and relived all my fears....
To love again ...I would never forget
The only woman that made me feel like home......and to have or have not this woman I would never regret.

Baby I know it's been a long road
But I have been doing all that I have been told
Life is bigger than both of us
And there is much more to discuss
We are destined to be together
Every day it becomes clearer
The clock is ticking but for us it stops
Waiting till we rejoin our love
Another positive sign from the lord above
The music that plays on the radio always one of our songs
Proving that our love still belongs
I will play my cards as they lay
I love you and you love me there is no more we need to say
These things that may hold us back
We must put aside until we get our fairy tale romance back on track
The signs are all around
We can't wait till they put us in the ground

As I travel down this long and winding road....I still try to keep doing as I am told
It's dark and cold on this path ... sometimes feels like I am on a sinking raft
If it sinks I will swim for I am strong so let the demon bring it on......the days of hurting myself inside will be gone
With some help of life long friends and God's hand....never alone shall I stand.

As I stand by the side of the road
And my mind ready to explode
All I  must do is think of my love
With a little help from the man above
I thought I was so fragile right at the time
Its more important to me than making words rhyme
I do think I am in a special place
With this love that I thought that was gone without a trace
As I work my way back into her heart
I know fixing myself was the perfect way to start

We are the perfect couple in everyway
The fourth of July was every day
Fireworks went off everyday we were together
It should have been forever
It still will be this I know
For my love for her I will show
Nothing in the days I was with you ever fake or staged
For just you thinking that I am outraged
I know you love me but you try to hide it by trying convince yourself I am a bad man because of my mistakes
Being without you on this day or any other is the worst feeling I have ever had
So to fix all my wrongs and show you I am not that bad
I will finally break this mold of what I created
And prove to you my love for you is not outdated

If you have any problems or just need to talk .......my ears are wide open from you I would never turn away and walk
If you feel the need to cry......my shoulder will always be here and I will never question why
My love for you goes far beyond words so it doesn't matter it all comes in a flurry......I will never be far from you so there are no reason to worry
Until the day I die I will always be here.......just because my little princess I really care.
So late at night and you can't sleep and you need to shed some light or just need to say a little ........I am always here and will never get in the middle....just.....listen..
My shoulders broad and ears will be wide ......so is its anything there is no reason to hide.
From now till the day I breathe no more I will always be there so don't hesitate......because if it is in your head you must not keep it in so there is no reason to wait.

As this holiday comes our bellies will be full of turkey and minds on football
Friends and family will gather round
In the corner alone I will be found
Sitting by myself with a heart of grief
And a mind full of disbelief
On Thanksgiving day I would be with my baby
Laughing and joking with a heart full of joy
With all her family and her baby boy
This holiday season must be the worst
All my feelings will come out first
I feel like crawling in the corner to cry
And stay there all day until I am ready to die
I do not know how she will feel
On this day  me I can't deal
On thursday I wish her the best
While I curl in bed and get some rest
Please baby the times that we had never forget
I know I will never I have no regret

The Air The Sun...Depression and The Darkness
The Blue Sky and The Pain
How does it all Fit ....and where do we

How can I do it without you.....I don't think I can this much I know is true
How can I look at my face in the mirror when I was even thinking of giving up on us......I couldn't my love for you is like the sun fighting through the clouds .......at least 98% of the time the sun will win....so until I feel your warm body next to mine....I will never give up.....and so as it rises and it sets I will keep on fighting no matter how tough it gets....this love I have for you
To me is worth more than gold I think this yes I do......
Before the first snowflake shall touch the ground......the flame will be rekindled within our hearts...yes before the first storm starts.....for this is a romance which from books are written......I will make you purr like that little kitten
So I will sleep tonight with dreams of you........I know I will wake before it's through
With a smile on my face I will kneel and pray .......I will be coming home sweetheart and there I will stay
For in my dreams we are always together.....reality it will be .....and in my arms that's where you will be.......forever

To say goodbye is the hardest thing
With sadness my heart sings
Did she find someone new
To take my place I have no clue
The tears will fall from my eyes
Like the rain from the skies
I will never love again
My heart has been shattered
For the first and only time
This was my only love
I know she came from the lord above
I say goodbye to you my sweet
Forever my heart will never beat
My beautiful princess you made me whole
Now I am left with no soul
Now I leave you with these words
You will find me soaring with the birds
If you want to find me look to the skies
For you will be looking in my eyes

I have all the pictures that we have ever taken
All the memories never mistaken
For our love will live forever and the times that we had are in there too
We must make more but first we
deal
We sit down and talk and then we start to heal
We must be strong
Together we belong
It is hard for both of us
So we need to hold on to each other
There are things we must discuss
It will not end on this day
Because we love each other in every way
I love you and you love me
After we talk together we'll be
I want you in my life
Being away from you cuts like a knife

Why did I fall in love with you
Because me with a girl like you it's to good to be true
You took my heart and ran away
When I knew everything would be ok
You said I was to blame
But did you ever feel the same
If you can't see my love for you
I guess then we are really through
If in time you want this love
Just look up at the sky above
My love was strong and true
I gave all my love to you
The last words I will say
My love for you is here to stay

The nights are getting colder.....and when I look in the mirror my face looking older
I realize that the piece of my heart that I have lost.....it cannot be replaced ..and I must get her back ...but at what cost
The tears they still fall night after night......it's this feeling inside I must make it right
It took my whole life and it comes down to just this.....only the lord knows what I will do just for that kiss

As the struggles grip my life
And a woman which was to be my wife
  These inner demons will not win
        It's been too long living in sin
        It's not me and it's in my head
I had to fix it fast or I would be dead
My inner demons had this grip on me
With her love as a guide it shall set me free
    All the struggles that I have had
           A part of life and not all bad
       These are lessons I must learn
The power of love and my inner strength
             My baby's heart I will earn

It's so hard to deal with things
I can hardly wait to see what tomorrow brings
Doesn't matter how hard I try
i hope to smile but it makes me cry
My heart is big as big as they come
I think in my head where am I from
It hurts from my head to my toes
How to get over it nobody knows
I guess I will sit and wait
I just hope it's before they open the pearly gate.

Here i stand a broken man
My heart ripped and torn from my chest
My mind will not stop why can't I rest
If it was and i am sure that it is one of life's greatest test
It's a four letter word that makes you feel great
But when it goes wrong it is the worst
It does not matter if you were the last
Or maybe the first
Whatever the case I must say this
There is nothing like that very first kiss
This word that I spoke of
Comes from my heart
That has been completely ripped in two.
Why this happens I have no clue.

Today I saw a major sign
I know now that in time she will be mine
My love for her never faded
For the heart of mine was never jaded
I saw that sparkle in her eyes
It was there because of me
It's true love that's plain to see
Then she whispers in my ear
And all my fear seems to disappear
In my arms again she will be
Our souls are one and so it shall be
This song is far from over
The lyrics are as sweet as she
This is a story about you and me.

I must say these words
If I am to get back the one I love
First I must love the one within
Shed my sadness for just a bit
So I can gain inner strength to begin
I must look inside myself
Before I end up on the shelf
I have been talking about life and death
I will always love her till my last breath
I hope she sees into my soul
Before this stress takes its toll
My life is in my hand
I will not let this make it my last Stand

Her smile so bright voice so sweet
So angelic when we meet
Body petite hair that glows
Small but mighty as we all know
This woman of mine
She will be this way till the end of time
When we first met my eyes were wide
I am not sure but I think we were outside
So many years we have known
My oh my how our love has grown
She is a princess this much I know
I just think of her
And my face glows.
She is so precious more than she knows
The more I think of her my love still grows.

I miss your voice I miss your touch
I am missing you very much
I miss what we did
I miss when you bid
I miss all the notes
I miss those quotes
I miss your hair in my face
I miss when we really fixed the place
I miss the things that we would discuss
And one thing I really miss is us