I feel lost..lost in my head......alone in my room alone in my bed
I regain my strength and eat normal again ...............then it starts all over again........ just like on that  that night when
I know how I feel my legs grow weak and my mind it starts....it starts to wonder.....I think of the love ....the love for her  I have grown fonder
I am falling ......falling to pieces....people the ones who say they care .......like my family...do I even care...they say to forget ..there are more woman than the eye can see......but they don't even know ....none like her and just not for me
I stay up nights.....I can't even sleep
You see I am older and I have been around...I am a Gemini for I should walk away smiling with not even a sound
Cupid shot his arrow and boy did it hit me.....I am still So in love with her I can't even see
So to all of you haters and my family .....I will go for it all just wait and see....I will get her back......because she is the only woman.......the only one for me.

I sit and wait as she clears her mind
I don't think it's unkind
I am standing up but fading fast
Without her love to see me through
I don't know how long I will last
I know what I did was wrong
I heard it today in a song
I am hurting just as much
I am missing her magic touch
She touched my heart
With her smile
She reached my soul all the while
She does have a heart of gold
I want to be with her until I am old
What I tell you is all true
She has the heart of a chosen few
I tell her I love you a million times
I also told her I saw the signs
I will wait till the end of time
For once again she'll be all mine

The devil of addiction is an infliction...... alcohol is an addiction with great power and will......it will take you in a minute if you stand still
Just be brave admit to be powerless  to the beast  and not let him win......for that would be a sin
It will get better day by day if you walk with God and you are strong ......you can prove them all wrong


Just start to think stay away from the drink
Get that monkey off your back.......and get your precious life back on track.

If I take this ring from my hand.......for she and the world Will know how I stand
Now I pry it from my finger......it's been months but this love it does still linger
These tears like a water fall they flow from my eyes.......to let these feelings go ........all I see are dark and stormy skies
I don't think that I can do this...........I am really trying but I miss her kiss......
Is it just me cause I hate this part.........it's like she just grabbed a knife and stabbed me right through my heart
So what does happen when the final light goes out.......how long does it take.
   or will I just sit here forever with my mind full of doubt
Or will I see the beautiful light.....that was always just in front of me
One thing I know and this is true
I must be happy with whatever I do
No matter what  I choose I must follow my heart
There is a rainbow and it's  waiting for me
And with it a wish of  happiness and a brand new start.

As I stand here staring into space
How the hell do I get out of this place
There are are no doors or walls
The phone keeps ringing
But there are never any calls
I walk around these endless nights
Yelling and screaming these fruitless fights
There is no one here I fight myself I am alone here
Yes that's right just me it's all my fear
I see you in my  dreams
Are you there it is real or so it seems
I hear a sound then I wake
Was I asleep or was it real
Feelings so strong where do I belong.

I have been on earth for fifty years
And in that time I have shed lots of tears
Then along came a woman and much to my surprise she stole my heart and touched me like no other
With the love of April the birth month of my mother
She is the most wonderful and beautiful woman that I have ever met
But leave it to me I ***** things up every chance I get
But one day soon when all my work is done I will drop to just one knee
And whisper sweet and softly will you marry me
This I know and I know in my heart I love this woman with all of my heart
So with all of my will and some of my skill
I shall show this woman just who I am
And prove once and for all that I give a ****.

These words that slip from my lips....they come from my heart....I have put them to paper from the very start
These poems that I write of the love of my life........the words that I say  are true.......from deep inside this body.....out of my mouth they just flew
I also write about the moon and stars.......and about true love and all of the scars
So baby listen real close to these words that come from lips.....your beauty to me is beyond what I can ever say......but I will love you tomorrow as I do today
So as you sleep tonight maybe you will dream of me .....And look up at the stars....and it is not them but it is me that you see
My love for you will never grow old....together our story will be the greatest one ever told.

The days are getting very short and the nights are way too long
I miss my baby too much for me to prolong
This is a must it is so in God I trust
I miss her voice I miss her touch
I just miss her way too much
The gentle way she treated me
If she could open up her heart and give our love a brand new start
I'll make a promise that I will keep
To always be a soul so true
To be the man she always knew
Baby with your eyes so brown
Let's turn that frown upside down
To make a smile That's beautiful on your face
The worries will be gone and leave no trace

When you first come in it is dark and cold....once you blend in that stuff gets old
Being in detox it's not an easy way ....but it is far better than a prison stay
I just walk the line and keep to myself... but I am not a closed book to be put on a shelf
As I hear the stories of the people here....it gets in my head and I feel their fear
So I am going  forward and not looking back ... Straight and narrow to finally get my good life back.

To be happy again that is my deepest desire.......it is with her which sets my heart on fire
For it is written let the truth be told......we will be back together before we get too old
I have lived without her for much too long..........and it all comes rushing back when I hear that famous song
To find true happiness for me it is by your side.......not to shelter myself and run and hide
To listen to my heart and the song it plays ....as it cries out for your love
I shall wait a lifetime if I must....and pray to the lord above
The emptiness in my heart can only be filled by you.........

Our lives were so tattered and torn
The world on its axis was a little worn
Life as we knew it started to change
Every thing we wanted was just out of range
All of a sudden we were apart
But now it's time to make a brand new start
Never again will I make a mistake
I made promises that I will never break
Our love is much too strong
In my arms is where she belongs
There is no end to this story
Because there is so much time for all loves glory
TNT is dynamite
And it has our names you got that right
I will leave with just this
It all started with just one kiss

As the snow begins to fall
And the wonder of it all
Its so beautiful on the trees
And dark clouds above the seas
The beauty and the love of all things small and big
Love is the greatest gift of all
But be careful one slip its bound to fall
As I learn this great lesson it makes me wonder
How could it be gone like a crack of thunder
All of my love and the heart that beats so fondly for one
Hopefully I can pull it together before it's truly over and done
I realized all the damage I have done
But I don't even know a man could ever have this much love for just one

Don't you see I can't move on
I have been so miserable since you've been gone
My lifes been turned upside down
I need your love to be me again
The man I was way back when
When you are in my life I am whole
Without you I have no soul
You brought me to life as I did you
A feeling that we both had
I need you now because I am so sad
I know you feel it too
We need each other so we will be no longer blue

As the leaves fall to the ground
I look but you cannot be found
The trees are bare and it gets so Erie when you are not around
It's getting so cold and the warmth is gone
It's getting so bad I am afraid I can't go on
Hopefully  she'll find me before I fall
if I can't walk I will crawl
The sun will always shine when she is with me
For it was written and meant to be

I am in love ...but she is so far away from me......so far I can't even see
How could I have made such a mess........for she is my world so it is anyone's guess
It goes over and over in my head......I keep feeling I must get her back before I am dead
I know that her and I were set in the stars.....why did I create all these scars
I try to sleep and I mean all through the night.......she is the love of my life and I couldn't do anything right
I hear our song its in my dreams.......I wonder every night if she hears my screams
I wake at night soaked in sweat....not all of the time but this is as bad as it gets
For she is the one I want to spend the rest of my days.........I think of us...when the music plays
We had songs that described all of our time......I love her so much and I committed no crime
For now my mouth stays shut and not a word from my lips......I must get her back before my whole life slips
I pick myself up and get back on my game.....I would find another woman but it just would not be the same
The love that I hold deep in my heart.....for she is my Angel...we should never be apart
So I sit on the beach wall late into the night........calm is the water..and the moon shining bright
I think of my baby and how things used to be
These nightmares must end.....and she holds the key

The woman I love won't even talk to me
I feel the pain can't she see
I hope and pray that someday soon
She will reach out and say
Please please come over today
As I sit and patiently wait
Night turns into day say  what is my fate
I know this deep in my heart
My love for her it will always be there
I don't even know do you think she cares

The depression grows more each day
Everyone they think I am ok
The smile I wear on my face
Is just a mask that I wear so Noone knows
Behind closed doors is where the tear flows
I do not think I can go on
Playing this game and the feelings I have because she's gone
Please believe me when I say
I think of her each and every day
Writing these poems is keeping me sane
And getting me through all of this pain
My heart it aches for my love
Each and every day I pray to the lord above
That she will call me or reach out in some way
For now I sit and I wait
Hopefully soon but it's never too late
As long as we breathe we can get back together
Like we both said we will be forever

Our weary souls are ready......you and me is here and now...just keep it steady...
Patience I have plenty......I don't care if it takes twenty....our souls are ready....just show me a sign ....And forever you will be mine.

Its crazy I know but it haunts me
Just like your love that taunts me
Everywhere I turn there it is
On the highway..the street corner in my dreams I can't take this
As I turn to run to the car it turns out it's not you
I am going nuts this much is true
My subconscious is playing games in my head
Maybe three four...five times a day
Maybe more I couldn't say
See my love for you has got me seeing things and saying things I would have never in the past
This is why I think our love should last
Someday soon all the darkness will turn to light
And our hands and lips will surely reunite
I think all in all the message is clear
Until we find each other once more the vision will never disappear
The car represents a subliminal message that's being sent
I know it but in my thick head it barely makes a dent
I must finish up all of my chores
And the I can turn this around and go for what I really want and that is her
That's exactly what I am after
The woman that I love and I know that she still loves but I must make it quick
Our future depends on me doing every thing right
And I will not fail this or any other night
If I play all these cards right
Our future together will be bright.

Her looks like a sweet but dangerous princess
Her words like the most  beautiful poetry you have ever heard
Her love like a sharpened dagger
Coming straight for your heart
Her walk like the finesse of a gazelles run
With the eyes of an Angel
I just melted like warm putty in her hands
My heart and soul was hers forever

It feels so cold in this place
Where do I go what will I face
Without you I can't go on
I can't believe that your really gone
I can't forget I must hold on
To get you back this a must
Talk to you and regain your trust
I never ever felt like this
So I am asking God for one last wish
For this I must be so true
Or forever and a day I will be blue
I am making this wish today
Here and now on the bed I lay