My life has changed since you've been gone
I have no will to but I must move on
All that I do reminds me of you
You are a part of me this is true
I sit and wonder why this happened to us
Then I know deep in my heart
If in fact we were meant to be
fate will put us where we belong
but we dont know what our future holds
The moon is full and the stars they shine
I do still wish you were mine
If the sun forgets to shine
Always remember it was a sign
And if our souls soon shall meet
The thrill of it all will sure taste sweet
And if we end up far apart
Please remember you are always in my heart
.....I never wanted any of these changes .....but maybe it was supposed to happen so we would gain strength
I just know you will never be beyond arms length......

Tonight I slipped into my longest dream......floating I was above the ground.......nobody not even a soul was even around....it was very strange...and eery........I was kinda dazed and feeling weary......being in this dream state I was in.....all of a sudden I was outside.....I saw water and sand trees and rocks....I think I saw the beach......I think it was winter island....but everything was so out of reach.....in the distance I saw a bench...it was dark and cold ....and on that bench a shadowy figure.....its too far away so I could not make out who it was.......as I approached it was you sitting there all alone ..tears falling from your eyes ......I stared at your beautiful face.......but at me you were looking right through and into the skies....
I started to whisper just your name......your mouth it moved but out no sounds came
I keeled down in front of the bench
The smell from the water I couldn't stand the stench
I told you how wrong for all that I have done
For I loved you so much and no longer would I run
Suddenly words came from your lips
It was something I had longed to here
She told me she loved me ...And always she did care
So I rose to my feet and sat on the bench wrapped my arms around her and looked in her eyes
Said from my mouth you would hear no more lies
I had to ask her how she drove here so late and alone
She said for my love........so now let's go home
See on this same bench....... we sat on the fourth of july..... we fell in love again that day
This bench we will remember for the rest of our days..........and we always keep proving our love in so many ways.

I had told you this was one of my longest dreams ....I have when I sleep....not only was it long but it was very deep
I was reading just the other day .....and it was about dreams..it said in the month of November pay attention to them...because a message they would send
May be it means our love together will never end

Life....at this point in time.....I feel the need to have the love of my life back but there is no need to ryhme
From the tip of my toes ..to the top of  my head ..I still feel the pain....for the love I still hold for her it really is insane
Time has passed and seasons they change.....but deep in my heart I know that getting her back is not out of range
Soulmate....twinflame is there such a thing ?....you know there is and she is mine......there are things you just know and feel...And I do...she always said to believe...and you know what...it is true
The sleepless nights..staring at the phone that never rings.......but then again who knows what tomorrow brings
I sit on the bench looking up at the starry skies......and slip into a dream that I am staring into her beautiful eyes
As the nights and days pass......I must ask myself why I am not doing anything and still sit on my ***
Patience as I better myself and look deep within my soul.....
I think I finally realize this is my destiny that i do control.

i can still hear the sound of your voice and smell the scent of your skin....i can tell you more of what i remember but where do i begin...
even though i am not right beside you..i am always with you believe it because it is true
forever you will be in my heart and make it beat.....for the rest of my life the love i have for you will never take a back seat.

Time is precious we all know
We must get closer so our love will grow
There are some things that hold us back
We must put them aside and get on track
There are some things we never will tell
We will put it in a book that we can sell
But these poems that I write are straight from the heart
And I told you how I felt right from the start
No matter what problems we might have
I will always be there till the end of time
Because loving you will never be a crime
I just want to hold you through the night
So I can know first hand that you are alright
I want to tell you right now  and I say it on my own
As long as I live you will never be alone

My life is on hold.......I am trying to do all that I am told
People think I am losing my mind......the things they say are so unkind
This love that I have deep inside of me....these people they can't even see
All they say is that this woman is no good for me.........they don't even know this partnership that we had......but all they heard was everything bad
I feel her love flowing through my veins.......being with my sweet love has me soaring side by side with the planes
The story we have is not all sweet.......but our life together can not be beat
Right now we are miles apart......soon the time will be right for a brand new start
Just to hold her close  again.......I will take your hand....... look you in the eyes..... then it shall ease all of your pain....hopefully when the time is right.....take to one knee and ask as I might.........to have and to hold ....each and every night
So now I sit with my eyes closed tight.....and I pray to the lord that you and I never again fight
So tonight pretty baby you do the same......And for all this I will take all of the blame

At this point in time I am lost in space.....standing here in front of you without a face
How many miles must I walk in my lifetime now..........it is all for the love of a woman and this shall show me how
Spinning in circles is my mind.....none of this was supposed to be so unkind
Legs are weary arms like lead.....I can't believe I am not dead
From the light above I gain strength......for this love I shall go to any length
The stronger I get from the light.......it will surely help me in this fight
As my eyes stare out at the moonlit skies.......I look beyond where the spirit flies
If there is a guiding light to the path I seek....I must have strength and not be weak
It may take all the powers that be and much more........for it is this love I must secure
At the end of this path there is light it's fading fast........so I must find the door leading to this light........or forever I will live in darkness and bow out and lose this fight
So I will call on my twin.......we will join forces and together her heart We will win

The sparkle in her eye was heightened by the glare of the summer moon.......the smile on her face was never gone too soon
Her body swayed...... to every beat from the music that played.......
Like a ballerina she danced through the night...........For me her beauty was never far from my sight
These teardrops that still fall from my eyes........fall to the ground like a thousand raindrops from the summer skies
As l lay in a pool of a thousand teardrops and try to keep my head above water.......forgive me if my hands become weak and I sink to the bottom for without her....why should I bother

I woke lastnight from a terrible dream
All of a sudden I heard you scream
I sat up I was soaked with sweat
It was cold and dark and the sun has set
I saw you in alot of pain
When I see you hurt I go insane
I can't remember most of it
But I saw you sitting on the bed
All alone and holding your head
Please baby do not cry
For I'm the reason and that's no lie
I'm coming home to you
No more tears I will be true
I will hold you oh so tight
No more nightmares through the night

It's raining in my head again
All these emotions when will it end
It's all bottled up inside
Just like the one with the message that washed in with the tide
The feelings that are trapped in my mind
The emotions of hearing one of our songs
And just stopping and sitting nowhere and wondering where one belongs

What...is she thinking
   Is she thinking of me
What ..is she feeling
Am I still in her heart
  I just hate being apart
Should I  push a little harder
I would never want to hurt her
Does she know how I feel
It's her heart I must steal
What...in the world was I thinking
When the ship started sinking
  I walked right out the door
Because my heart hit the floor
I really must make amends
Before the feeling in her heart really ends
My life was full of love
I saw the signs from above
Now the signs are still there
And I know that she really cares look in my heart and you will see
That she is the only woman for me

She was a butterfly caught in my net......and the most beautiful one I would ever get
The way she moved was slow and smooth.......and the sound of her voice was there to soothe
The transformation for I went through...for her love did this for me this is true
She spread her wings and I watched her fly.......I was always so happy it even made me cry
When we first met she was in a cocoon.....but also she transformed into the beautiful butterfly under a starlit moon
The partnership that we enjoyed.......it was the best in my life and I was overjoyed
The net was cut and she was set free......maybe in time she will find her way back to me
This period in time for I will never let die.......the memories always return under the moonlit sky

Her lips so soft ....sweet like candy
When she kissed me my temperature started to rise .......so the towel came in handy
102 and still on the rise.....she made me feel .....like I was her biggest prize
When I would come home from a long day......she'd meet me at the door with the sweetest kiss....it's something I would always miss ......even if she sat in the other room I'd miss it anyway
That kiss would make my whole week complete.....just one kiss....she would wrapp her hands around my waist and smack it on me I could hardly wait..... for the taste.....wondering what flavor of....
chapstick she had on....
Her kiss made my temp rise so high......I took the batteries out of the fire detector..... I am sure you don't have to ask why
I miss that kiss so very much....and also miss her velvet touch
So when the time is right .....And on a special night....I will make my move to win her back......and I must make  sure I can take that next kiss......and don't have a heart attack....in my dreams tonight and every night ......oooh that kiss it just felt so right.....after each one ....it took many hours for them to cool......to let her go......I would be a fool

Shhhhh did you hear me scream
Shhhhh it's in your dreams
Shhhhh did hear me cry
Shhhhh can you tell me why
Why am I screaming and crying
Why do I feel like I am dying
Shhhhh why do I look so sad
Shhhhh why is she so mad
Tell me why we didn't just talk
Why did I just get up and walk
Shhhhh do you know how you make me feel
Shhhhh why is this so unreal
I know this love is in my heart
I think it just needs a kick-start
Shhhhh why do I stare at the phone
Shhhhh why do i feel so alone.

As I sit on the train and stare into space.......I look at the girl across from me and all I see is your face
Its true you are in my head and my heart to stay....and I know that down the line it's all gonna be ok
I get to my destination and my mind is weary so much on my plate.......and you know what here I am at the starting gate
All the things I think about my job my home, money, food, etc...and there is one thing that sticks out and that is you
The reason being is you are the only one that really matters everything else goes to the back burner this is true
People say that time is running out but the thing is the hour glass is still full
So is the love that I hold in my heart for you and that's no bull
If mountains and the castles crumble and turn into sand my love for you still burns in my heart and I will always be reaching for your hand
As the rain comes down and hits the street
You will be back by my side and only then my life will be complete
If the train slips from tracks for any amount of time
My life I will fix without any tricks or crime
So as I walk round in circles with my head full of clouds and questions
I am waiting for the higher power to make suggestions
So my body it hurts and my life a mess ....when it will change its anyone's guess
So no I kneel and I pray ...that someday soon it will be ok

At night I close my eyes and dream of you...the love of my life yes it was true
We left each other and I don't really know why ....my love for you it will never die
Each and every night the time goes by... .how I wish we could give it another try
The love of my life you will always be....open your eyes and you will surely see.

I sit I watch I wait I hope....that she will finally realize that we were meant for one another
Like a puzzle our bodies we fit
My mind is gone because of all of it
The bus it stops at the house but I never get off....I was never on it
Its all in my mind
I must stop this I have to unwind
Woman show interest in me and start talking to me
I try to listen but I don't hear a thing....just her voice
I try to erase all the memories was it really her choice
These voices in my head....the pictures of her and I......sometimes I just wanna die
The day turns into night...turns into day...the clock it never ticks...my love for her and all the tricks......
Was her love ever real......from not what I feel
I want to hit rewind and start from the beginning
My heart it aches because of my love for you
I must really stop doing this to myself this much is true
But this promise I make to you for your love is what keeps me sane
So listen to my words so I do not do this in vane
I promise I will always be true for your love is the only one I ever knew