I remember the games we used
To play
It was funny because if you couldn't beat me you would find a way
I loved your smile at the castle
You were hurting but it was never a hassle
You smiled through all your pain
As you stood beside me in the rain
As I am writing i am crying
And inside my body my heart is dying
I will never forget the day at winter island
Walking on the rocks felt like it was broken glass
We didn't care cause we were
Together
I will carry these memories with me forever

I sit here all alone
A man without a place to call home
There is this feeling in my heart
What I have left it's being torn apart
My love is never ending
The letter that's put aside for sending
I am trying to keep myself together
Even in this change of weather
My life with you is all that matters
So as I pick up the pieces of what I call my life
All I do is think of the woman that should be my wife
I am stuck in a world that I don't belong
So while I am I must be strong

My tears they fall like rain
But why I cry is because of all my pain
This is a different kinda pain
I hurt because the girl I love
Is still mad at me
If only i could make her see
She is the only reason why I live
For it is my heart I will give
Just for another chance
One  more midnight dance
This heart of mine is held just for her
I am a one woman man
And if I must I will die alone
So the Sun will never shine on me
Unless the girl I love will read and see

I woke lastnight from a terrible dream
All of a sudden I heard you scream
I sat up I was soaked with sweat
It was cold and dark and the sun has set
I saw you in alot of pain
When I see you hurt I go insane
I can't remember most of it
But I saw you sitting on the bed
All alone and holding your head
Please baby do not cry
For I'm the reason and that's no lie
I'm coming home to you
No more tears I will be true
I will hold you oh so tight
No more nightmares through the night

Let me send this message to the love of my life
I wanted you for my wife
I loved you then and I love you now
Even when I don't know how
You are so beautiful and so sweet
From your head to your feet
You gave me all and I ******* it up
Won't you give me one more cup
Of your love my little Angel
Believe it or not I have been sad
Please be still my princess and don't be mad
For i will be the man for you
And I think inside you know it's true
Try to listen to your heart
We both knew from the start
I learned a lesson from what I did
I want you to know I am not a kid
My heart aches for your love
Because you were sent from the lord above

Her looks like a sweet but dangerous princess
Her words like the most  beautiful poetry you have ever heard
Her love like a sharpened dagger
Coming straight for your heart
Her walk like the finesse of a gazelles run
With the eyes of an Angel
I just melted like warm putty in her hands
My heart and soul was hers forever

This anger it is starting to grow
The look on my face it's starting to show
The pain inside is overwhelming
The thought of suicide has crossed my mind
If only my lost love I could find
Before the anger turns to madness
It will take away all the sadness
My head is reeling
I can't shake the feeling

I am living in a place I don't want to be
It's not a home can't you see
No laughing and no fun
If it were not for thoughts of you I would run
I sit in this room and stare at the walls
Thinking of you and my mind stalls
It's so scary to be all alone
Sometimes I feel just like a drone
To think of what I had
It makes me so frigging mad
These thoughts in my head will not stop
Too much stress I'm afraid I'll drop
Back to the room once again
The clock is ticking
And the the light that won't stop flickering
All I see is darkness and I am scared of what I will do
If this love in my heart could shine so I could see way
I may live to see another day
I want to go back to the place I called home
A place where I was never alone

My heart has been sent adrift
My soul has been locked away
My mind has been a  blur
For my eyes cannot see
My heart no longer beats
My hands no longer feel
I walk through people like  no one is there
I talk to people with a blank stare
I live but I am not alive
I smile but I am no longer happy

I sit and wait as she clears her mind
I don't think it's unkind
I am standing up but fading fast
Without her love to see me through
I don't know how long I will last
I know what I did was wrong
I heard it today in a song
I am hurting just as much
I am missing her magic touch
She touched my heart
With her smile
She reached my soul all the while
She does have a heart of gold
I want to be with her until I am old
What I tell you is all true
She has the heart of a chosen few
I tell her I love you a million times
I also told her I saw the signs
I will wait till the end of time
For once again she'll be all mine

I have been staring at the clock on the wall
It hasn't been moving not at all
Time stands still or so it seems
It never stops only in your dreams
It is ticking like a bomb
I must do something and do it fast
Life is short on time so make it last
if you have the love of  your life
You must make her see
You will do what you must so she won't flee
When the clock stops ticking we will be gone
Keep love in your heart until you move on

I have never been at a crossroad
When everythings  in my head and feels like it could explode
The pain and stress of knowing
That the love of your life is afraid of showing
These days of my life are so bad
These days of my life are  so sad
I made an error in my ways
It's up to me to make a change
And up to you to take me back
I know it's all been out of whack
I will tell you here and now
That I was and always will be
The man I was and you will see
I always loved you and I still do
I will try to prove this before I am through

Dreams are big dreams are small
Do you ever dream at all
Black and white dreams and in color
Having dreams like no other
I believe that dreams come true
I like dreams cause I can go back in time
To a day when you were all mine
I like dreams it makes me forget
That awful day I will always regret
Thank God for dreams for they do come true
Together again me and you

I miss your voice I miss your touch
I am missing you very much
I miss what we did
I miss when you bid
I miss all the notes
I miss those quotes
I miss your hair in my face
I miss when we really fixed the place
I miss the things that we would discuss
And one thing I really miss is us

It feels so cold in this place
Where do I go what will I face
Without you I can't go on
I can't believe that your really gone
I can't forget I must hold on
To get you back this a must
Talk to you and regain your trust
I never ever felt like this
So I am asking God for one last wish
For this I must be so true
Or forever and a day I will be blue
I am making this wish today
Here and now on the bed I lay

I try to talk and Noone hears
I tell the truth but Noone cares
It's hard to fight this battle on your own
It's hard to fight all alone
But fight I will..... till I win
No more will I live in sin
My best friend left me to do it myself
I feel like I have been put on the shelf
Try as I must to be so strong
Why must it take so freaking long
This battle I fight will take alot from me
If I win lets wait and see
I want what it took back with me
So I can stand on my own two feet
I must work on my own to show I am strong
I just hope nothing goes wrong
My heart is broken which I'll try to fix
To get back my love
The only one
I will need some help from the Lord above

I walking and nobody sees me
I am talking but nobody hears me
I run but I go nowhere
I jump but I don't even move
I think but I never remember
I love but  never loved
Sometimes I cry and never shed a tear
I hurt and always feel that pain
I hear people laugh and there's no one around
I try real hard and never gain
What's going on in my..... head
It's the worst kind of pain
I always lose and never win when will
It end

Please please come and get me
Please please I am drowning in my tears can't you see
I can't take this feeling I am falling apart
I will explain all of this but where do I start
I need you with me till the end of time
I miss you so much it's just making me rhyme
Being like this it's not right
Let's get together and end this fight
Once our eyes and lips meet
All of our fears and our needs will be gone it will be sweet
Please baby please come and get me and end this
Then we will seal it with just a kiss

Standing in the store just the other day
Talking and thinking about you
In every way
Tears start rolling down my face
Where are you how are you
I can't find you not a trace
We left each other all alone
Why can't we find a common ground
Together we will be safe and sound
The tears they keep falling from a man that didn't know how to cry
Don't you know you are the reason why
The love I have for you is so strong
Don't you feel it ..it's been here for for so long
You are not with me right now
The tears keep falling
Hopefully sooner and not later you will pick up that phone and start calling
For now I will be alone so alone just me and my pocket full of tears

I am sorry for what I have done
I think I  suffered more than I should
I will stay and take it like man
Stand on my own as long as I can
I am sorry if I don't understand
I am sorry things didn't go as we planned
I am the reason you are shedding a tear
Fear not my love cause I really care
I am sorry for showing weakness when you needed me strong
That is why everything went terribly wrong
But I gained knowledge  from
All of my pain
It is your love that's kept Me totally sane
I am so sorry for all that I have done
But I will never turn and run

I have fallen into a big hole
Trying to get out I have not told a soul
I see the light it's fingers away
I should get there in one day
The closer I get the deeper I fall
If you see it looks so small
As I move and I crawl is there any end at all
As I slip farther down I scrape and claw to the light
I can barely see it is so bright
I am down but I am not out
Fear is strength so I will not pout
Nothing can keep me here
All that matters is crystal clear
She is the one that keeps me strong
Believe in me I am not wrong
If it were not for her strong will
I would be down there still..

If there is a God above
Listen and deliver these words to the woman I love
I know I told a lie
I never meant to make you cry
But if you take me in your arms again
I will promise to cherish and nurture our love
And take care of you
I get no sleep and hardly eat
I don't go out I stay in a room
Just me and a bed and a brand new broom
I swear to you it feels like jail
It's hard to believe but this is real
I go to work and that's it
Noone thinks I even exist
I think what I am trying to say
I love this woman in so many ways
Without her I am not half a man
To get her I'll do whatever I can
But if I must give up this fight
Just remember one thing before you turn off the light
She is my world I won't deny
I am truly  sorry for what I did
I didn't realize this I know
The extent and where it would go
Please I need just one more kiss
It's your lips that I miss

I would run to her but I have no legs
I would hold her but I have no arms
I would kiss her but I have no lips I would look at her but I have no  eyes
I would write her but I have no hands
Tell me what should I do
I would talk to her but I have no voice
I would smile for her but I have no mouth
Even if I have none of these things I would still love that baby of mine
No one could ever take my heart
I pray to God for a brand new start.

Shhhhh did you hear me scream
Shhhhh it's in your dreams
Shhhhh did hear me cry
Shhhhh can you tell me why
Why am I screaming and crying
Why do I feel like I am dying
Shhhhh why do I look so sad
Shhhhh why is she so mad
Tell me why we didn't just talk
Why did I just get up and walk
Shhhhh do you know how you make me feel
Shhhhh why is this so unreal
I know this love is in my heart
I think it just needs a kick-start
Shhhhh why do I stare at the phone
Shhhhh why do i feel so alone.

I want to reach out to my love
Because I know you were truly  sent from above
I want be there when she cries
I want to be with her under stormy skies
I want to be there if she is hurt
I want to be there in a spurt
I want to be with her and just talk
I want to be there and just walk
Just to hold her and never let go
Like before when I told her so
Hear me baby when I speak
Without you I feel so weak
Together again we shall be
I love you so much can't you see
I will tell you once again I love you now and I loved you then
I want to be with you when
Just look up in the sky
You will see my face and hear me cry.

There is this place where we did go
You and I we loved it so
It was the place where we had planned
To get married one day in the sand
It was our place that we could sit in the sun
It was the place where we could run
Remember that date on the day in July
When we watched fireworks up in the sky
We held each other oh so tight
Just the look on your face made everything right
On the way home stuck in traffic for hours
I fell in love again like you had magical powers
I will never forget our happy place
Even if our love vanishes without a trace
It will always be close to my heart
This place was beautiful right from the start
I want you to remember that day in the sand
And it all will work out as we planned

On the train late at night
I got this feeling I will be in a fight
No one around seats are bare
It's so quiet
a little scared it feels like there will be a riot
Why I have these feelings right now I will never know
My hands are shaking and my knees weak
My head is spinning I can't even speak
All alone wind blowing through the tunnel like a Kansas twister
I look and I see her face
Then all of a sudden it's gone without a trace
It's my mind playing tricks on me
Nobody should ever go through this pain
Put me in a rubber room  I am going insane
Why did this happen I don't know
But time is at a standstill
The clock is ticking but oh so slow
Is a nightmare waiting for me
Or will love rescue my soul
I will wait and see.

As I sit and I watch the game
In my mind it's always the same
Because beside me you did sit
I yell and scream when they make a play you and I would act the same way
We sat and we ate as we watched the Pats play
It was like that at home every Sunday
I wish that I could turn back the clock
To that long day in which I walked
All of the memories that are in my head
They will always be there until I am dead
Winter Island was our favorite place that we did go
It's so special to you and I
We used to go and watch the birds fly
That fourth of July when we sent the balloon into the sky
We laughed and joked
As we watched it go so high
So many things that we did
These thoughts that are on my mind
I think of time after time as I unwind
I will never forget my time with you
For my princess what ever you do
Please remember the two of us because together we were the best
That in itself we can't discuss
There are so many things that I could write because my time with you was out of sight.

As I sit here all alone
I stare at the walls and gaze at the phone
Although it never rings
I wait and wait with hopes she will call
Who am I kidding my mind tells me
I'm all alone can't you see
My life turned around I  shut everyone out
Now that it's gone I sit and I pout
The phone never rings not a knock on the door
I am so pathetic that's for sure
She was my life can't you see
Now I'm alone alone as can be

I am so sorry that I cry
Maybe tomorrow I will die
Remember the story of Romeo and juliet that is how my feelings so strong
I don't know if it is wrong
It feels like a knife through my chest
maybe it is good and I will get some rest
It's not her fault it's all mine
Maybe come morning  I will be just fine
But there always that chance
Be what it will
It might happen if I don't get my fill
This is story I will tell
If and when my love fell
I love her so much
As you can see
I know what you think
It's about me
That's not it i am sorry to say
Shes in my hear there
She will stay
I will be gone
just not today

The woman I love won't even talk to me
I feel the pain can't she see
I hope and pray that someday soon
She will reach out and say
Please please come over today
As I sit and patiently wait
Night turns into day say  what is my fate
I know this deep in my heart
My love for her it will always be there
I don't even know do you think she cares

It's so hard to deal with things
I can hardly wait to see what tomorrow brings
Doesn't matter how hard I try
i hope to smile but it makes me cry
My heart is big as big as they come
I think in my head where am I from
It hurts from my head to my toes
How to get over it nobody knows
I guess I will sit and wait
I just hope it's before they open the pearly gate.

Follow me as I run follow me to the sun
Follow me as you see follow me to the sea
Follow me as you will follow me up the hill
I m as funny as can be just try to follow and you will see

She is and will always be
The only woman I will ever see
I alone from this day
It didn't have to be this way
This is the only words I will speak
My heart will always be here
Just for her let's try to make this clear
I will wait till the end of time
For again someday she'll be mine.
For now I cry on the beach
My baby's love is so hard to reach.

Oh my sweet how do I go back
Erase it all before I crack
Yes I did tell a lie
Baby why in the world did I make you cry
It's so hard to  say I don't care
When I look around and all I see is your  tears
Try to drown myself in a few beers
I could not live without your love
Because my princess you were sent from above
As I try to clean up my act
You and  i will stand the test of time
It's just a bump and that's a fact
As we pick up the pieces and put our lives back together
We must realize you and I are the best ever.

I see your face but you are not there
I call your name you do not hear
You are in my head and not in my bed
I try to run but I go nowhere
I reach for you but I cannot feel
I am thinking is this even real
I must stand before I fall
I can't get up then I must crawl
I look in the mirror and see right through
Not even an image can I see
How can this be.

As I stand here staring into space
How the hell do I get out of this place
There are are no doors or walls
The phone keeps ringing
But there are never any calls
I walk around these endless nights
Yelling and screaming these fruitless fights
There is no one here I fight myself I am alone here
Yes that's right just me it's all my fear
I see you in my  dreams
Are you there it is real or so it seems
I hear a sound then I wake
Was I asleep or was it real
Feelings so strong where do I belong.

Here i stand a broken man
My heart ripped and torn from my chest
My mind will not stop why can't I rest
If it was and i am sure that it is one of life's greatest test
It's a four letter word that makes you feel great
But when it goes wrong it is the worst
It does not matter if you were the last
Or maybe the first
Whatever the case I must say this
There is nothing like that very first kiss
This word that I spoke of
Comes from my heart
That has been completely ripped in two.
Why this happens I have no clue.

Once in a lifetime you get a chance
To find the one to do the dance
If you find her you must hold on
One mistake it could all be gone
This one promise that I will make
I am sure that I will not break
If she will give me back her hand
I will make my final stand
For my heart it really aches
I will do whatever it takes.

As I lay and watch the game
My body and mind seem so lame
There are a lot of things that cloud my head
Just similar to the book I just read
I think I am so strong
In this life of mine I am weak
I am past that age where I should peak
Life and love are just two things
If I start thinking about it my head it rings
I guess what I am trying to say
That life is a game that you must learn how to play
There is a lesson to all this
And it all started with just one kiss.

Her smile so bright voice so sweet
So angelic when we meet
Body petite hair that glows
Small but mighty as we all know
This woman of mine
She will be this way till the end of time
When we first met my eyes were wide
I am not sure but I think we were outside
So many years we have known
My oh my how our love has grown
She is a princess this much I know
I just think of her
And my face glows.
She is so precious more than she knows
The more I think of her my love still grows.

The sun does not shine on me today
I wish these feelings would go away
The days and nights seem so long
I know in my mind I was not wrong
For awhile I have been so alone
Walking in silence as if I were a clone
Very soon it will shine on me again
It's getting warmer where has she been
My dreams are as bright as the sun
I am afraid but I will never run.

Today I saw a major sign
I know now that in time she will be mine
My love for her never faded
For the heart of mine was never jaded
I saw that sparkle in her eyes
It was there because of me
It's true love that's plain to see
Then she whispers in my ear
And all my fear seems to disappear
In my arms again she will be
Our souls are one and so it shall be
This song is far from over
The lyrics are as sweet as she
This is a story about you and me.