A Mothers love should run deep
So where the hell are you
Your absence makes me want to weep
I'm not sure what I should do
I've tried to tell you how bad things are but nothing seems to sink in
I know somewhere in there you care
So where do we begin
All I want is what's best for him
To have him happy and keep him home
But his mothers love is also needed
Please don't make me do this on my own

Please don't hurt me
I don't heal well
Sometimes my heart aches
My mind goes through hell
**** my head is talking
Its voice driving me insane
It's a dull lifeless voice
Just droning in my brain
I close my eyes there's darkness
I don't like being here
I know I'm being stupid
For there's nothing here to fear
I should open my arms and welcome
Not put myself in a cage
Not lock away my anger
For the anger may turn to rage
Great here's that voice again
Drilling into my brain
Please don't drill to deep
For the droning may drive me insane
I close my ears from the world
Stop telling me what to do
I bet if you look at your past
You'll see that you've been here too
Gotta snap out of this sadness
Hee hee here's that voice again
Digging deeper and deeper
Aahh starting to coarse me pain
Gotta get myself together
I wish I knew what to do
Please stop this voice that's in my brain
Much more of this and I'll go insane
Hee hee hee to late

I'm walking behind you
I call your name
My grief so overwhelming
It fills me will pain
Can you hear me
Do you understand
Not so long ago you rocked to the beat of a band
Slowly you turn toward me
Your face a canvas without expression
Your behavior  
Your speech
Filling with indiscretion
Show me laughter
A reaction
So I know how you feel
My life changing so rapidly
It feels surreal
I love you with all my heart
Today
Tomorrow
Forever
This illness that is yours
Is something I Endeavor