Just a heart
That wants to love
Time will take the want away
I feel like eyes
No longer know night
Even when the words and sun have gone
If the mercy is leaving
But the drinks are cold
I'll blink three times
And fall into this truth
Sweet songs soft wings
And hard ghost
Tonight I write a song for you
And hold you in my dreams

I don't want it to be this way
I don't want to be this way

The fire we use as light
Becomes the thing that burns us

I don't want it to feel this way
I don't want to feel this way

The fruits of the spring
Left rotting in the shadows

And the loving man
Becomes a ghost
Because he could love the most
he would suffer through this life
And the next one

I don't want it to be this way
I don't want to be this way

Where the tears that I cry
Became an ocean you can drown in

Sometimes I'm only crushed
The reality of it all
These scars as a reminder
These stars that guide our future
This word that is mine
That I carry each and everyday

Sometimes I'm only broken
Because I have to be strong
This light I carry with me
The darkness that's surrounding
These stars in my eyes
That I carry each and everyday

Sometimes I'm plastered
Because I choose to be
This poison in my blood
This ever rising flood
This impossible love
That I carry
Each and every
Day

His eyes would close, his empty coat
His pockets full with only holes
His mind filled with only hope
Not a sight his eyes have seen

He says he's looking for the queen
He wants to hear the princess sing
Bow to the king and kiss his ring
With the jester he will dance

And if you care to take a chance
Defy prevailing circumstance
And believe in his romance
His eyes would close, his empty coat

Abraham Lincoln could only say
"Go as you propose"

You were a part
Of Sherman's march to the sea
The unforgiving destruction of total war
Behind you lay Atlanta
Smouldering and in ruins
The black smoke rising high in air
And hanging like a pall over the ruined city.
You set your sights on Savannah

The duke of Wellington said it best
"Nothing except a battle lost can be half so melancholy as a battle won"

You too were a part
Of the bloodshed at Waterloo
When the strength wasn't there
But the pride said fight on
The seventh coalition
Letting the waterlogged ground dry
Was your ultimate demise
It is said Napoleon left the battle field in tears

And Scipio went on to say
"It is the part of the fool to say I shouldn't have fought"

You were there too
Hannibal in Iberia
Somewhere south of Zaragoza
When his father was assassinated
And his fate and hatred pushed him on
He crossed the Alps with elephants
And seventy-thousand men
The Romans never saw you coming

Light hurts my eyes
What a metaphorical statement
But I find it hard to focus
Looking at the brightness
Of my telephone
Trying to type something meaningful

I can't fall asleep
I've worked forty-five hours
In the last three days
And with all my pain
I've decided that sleep couldn't heal me
But the ***** can destroy me

So I'm talking out of my ***
Writing whatever thought comes to mind
A drunken fool
Who just got off of work

A drunken fool
With love in my heart
But pain in my soul
And I'm reaching out
To whoever is there to
And reaching back

Could it be you?
If your the lucky one
If I'm lucky
There would be someone

I enjoy darkness
I need light

I'm here and there
I'm everywhere
I can see the light of god
In the fires of hell
I'm up and down
I'm all around
I laugh at demons
And cry for angels

All I ever really wanted to be
Is free
I'm chained in my own mind
A slave to space and time

I'm good and bad
A darkened light
You loved me
When you didn't know how
I'm sin and salvation
A holy book
Distorted
By the wicked minds of men

All I ever really wanted
Is something too much
That you understand me
When I can't

All I know is that
Right now
Is
Forever
I'll be forever stuck outside
Wondering what it feels like
To be love
The way that I love you

How many times
Will I be the murderer?
The heartless, soulless
You thought you could trust this

Invite me in
Invite your doom
I am a friendly
Smile

I only want to hurt you
I only want to be happy
And I know my happiness
Is your demise

And I don't care
Never really did
Once I tried to
But it was all pretend

And no
I don't give a ****
I've got
My pistol
And your are out of luck
I've got
My hatred
Festering inside
All the times
I've been hurt
I'll hurt you more

How many times
Will you play victim
I take a life
I am god

Love me
When I can't love
My lust
Is homicide

I've got
A sickness
You play
With my weakness
I need
Nothing more
Than cold hearted revenge
I live in sin
I bring you in
Be a victim
To my disease

He has the hands the could build a world
He has the words that can speak sense in wiser ways
It's all potential
He only lives for today
And every move he ever made
Inconsequential
And as the years go by
He's watching clouds
But if the rain would never fall
He watched the rivers run dry

Don't haunt me
I'll be a ghost just like you
But only if you want me to
Don't haunt me
Don't haunt me
Doubts hurt me
Days empty

She was just a lonely girl
He felt all she was
She only felt sadness
He felt it too
Until there's nothing he can do
He was given everything to lose
Until he lost it
With the happiness that could have been
He saw the sun when it was rising
Now the same sun sets
The sun sets
The sun sets

Don't haunt me
I don't want it to be this way
I don't want to be this way
Don't haunt me
Don't haunt me
Don't haunt me
Im begging

And right now is forever
She is gone
She was always leaving
Never was she here
Because she didn't deal without excuses
She couldn't live without the pain
Another's abuses
And as the day dies so  does he
No tears to cry
He dies to be reborn

Don't haunt me
I leave the ghost in the past
The future is here
And she's smiling
She's smiling
She loves me
She loves me

We were lost
Caught in the blowing wind
And putting your head in the clouds
Feet no longer on the ground
I couldn't hold your hand
I didn't want to hold on
I lost my nerve
We were lost
Me plodding my way
One foot and then the next
On a dark and lonely road
And right now is all that is
Everyday is forever
Forever without

We were lost
But we will meet again later

We were lost
And your clouds turned to grey
But the rain never came
Just anticipation
And you can't be patient
You can't be blamed
I can't be there
We were lost
Me alone in a crowd
Finding lodgings every night
Just someplace to sleep
Never to be known
And not sleeping to dream
Not waking to be

We were lost
But we will meet again later

Talk to me
We were lost
When we shouldn't have let it go so far
Let me know
We were lost
And it was the last thing I ever wanted
We were lost
But we will meet again later

We were lost
You falling down as rain
From the clouds you use to hold
And upside down
As a face I try to forget
It's your face
I remember
We were lost
But I know that I journey
Not for fortune
And certainly not for fame
I journey endless roads
To find a place
To call my home

We were lost
But we can't be
Because we know
What we have found
We were lost
But we will meet again later

Talk to me
I'll let you know
We were lost
But we will meet again later

I have no world
Only emptiness
I know how to pick up broken glass
And keep the scars for life
I enjoy dancing with fire
Because I always get burned

I don't expect it to get better
Just that I'll push it to the furthest point

I have no crystal ball
Only an image in my mind
Of a sad eyed lady
Dancing on souls
And I know she's going to dance
When we never had a chance

I expect I'll keep moving forward
There are cliffs and oceans in front of me

How can I ever explain my self?
I was always searching for souls
I don't want you  to look in my eyes
Unless your ready to fall in

I fall asleep with a brush
Hoping to paint my dreams
When it's my nightmare
That will be my masterpiece

Acrylic idealist
Oil and water
Pastel mystery
Empty canvas

How can I ever explain myself?
I was always wanting to feel
I don't want you to look into my eyes
Unless I'm looking into you

I was born on destruction
And raised in rage
And saved
When I feel creation with you

Hopeless romantic
Fire and ice
Beautiful monster
Lost soul

I have an option
To fall into darkness
A black so deep
It stains a mind
I have a hope
My words can touch you more
Than any pair of hands
Ever could

I have no reassurance

I have a fear
I'll fall down
To fall though the ground
And be buried alive
I have a light
I follow through the night
The inky bitter purple
The sour blues in revolution

I have no expectations

I barely have control

How did you fly to me?
Did you ride a rain cloud?
Or did you float on rivers of tears
Just to cross the distance?

Femme fatale
Lost angel
Featherless wings
And plastic halo

How did you reach me?
I was sitting in silent cities
Watching the rivers rise
When you arrived

I was only waiting on the flood
Waiting on the blood
Waiting on the end
When I found you

Gloria
With plastic halo
Gloria
Victoria

How can I
Repair
A shattered
Stained-glass window?

All I have are band aids
Trying to cure cancer

The strength
Of a thousand horses
And me
Who cannot whisper

just a midnight rider
Without a saddle

i could solve
This jig-saw puzzle soul

But I need time
*i never had

I am just a tear drop
In the storm
That wanted nothing more
Than to fall on her skin
And be felt

just a tear drop
Lost in all the rain
That the wind drives sideways

she could never know it was me

I am just a tear drop
In the storm
It rained all morning
It rained all afternoon
And night is coming soon

just a tear drop
That fell outside her door
Because she didn't want to feel the rain

**right now I'm getting lost in the ocean

Deeply embedded in the mire of thought
In the war prisons of the enemies
In the night that separates and unites
Our disparate cities
I hold you inwardly
Everything I ever do
Is shrouded in a black and white painting
A still shot of what we thought we would be
And is the color I see
The color of my fingertips
Touching the clouds
And other things I can't hold onto to
We plant a seed together
But without water it never grows

What do we have?

I haven't cried in years
My cheekbones are aching
Trying to fight back tears
My eyes are stinging
I hate to cry
It's painful
I cry because you cry

I've dealt with pain my whole life
I've grown accustomed to it
I'm beginning to think maybe
It is meant to always be a part of me
Even if you become
Yet another source of pain
I deal with
It's who I am.
And it's what I must do
You know I'll always love you

Still it's strange
I had a sinking feeling
I knew something that I couldn't know
And I really don't know what to say

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever helps you sleep in peace
Whatever disassembles your nightmares
And  using the parts they are made from
Creates dreams
It's always in your head
And in your heart

My sweet angel
I wish I was holding you now
I wish that I was happy
You know I'll always love you

Please don't cry

Love
Must
When I never want to
But the truth is the reality
So much bigger
A face

Love, must you always be so painful?
Must you always be a test
I'm only going to fail?
A star that was mine
I couldn't hold
So someone else does

Love
Must
Learn to let go
As I've done before
Again and again
A heart

Love must

I suppose
I should write more prose
Because it's three o'clock in the morning
And it's best I say something
Before I turn in
For the night

Because it's three o'clock in the morning
And all that I am wanting
Is to let you know I think you're beautiful
I tell you all the time your amazing
I hope it doesn't mean less to you
Because I am drunk

I should probably go to sleep
But I wanted to make sure
The last words that I speak
Are I love you

I'm not afraid
Of idiots
Because I fear only that
Which I can never understand
And idiots
For the most part
Are pretty simple

I only fear
The idiots
Because they outnumber me
And my kind
And I'll never understand
Or find a reason
Why

Let my words go over your head
And fear me
You were never meant to understand anyways

My favorite season
Is the one I feel warmest in
100 degree days in July
Or when it snowing and I'm next to a fire
The first season
Was the one
I was asking
"Would you be there in the slaughter
Would you be there when I'm caught up
Being arrested by the mind cops"
But love springs eternally
And love is something you fall into
And love is the heat of summer
Love is the death in winter
My favorite season

Ms. Doubtfire
Says her hearts too cold
To ever be unfrozen
And I can only laugh
Because she thinks he looks like a woman
Ms. Doubtfire
I was never convinced
Still thank you for cleaning my house
You have a check for all your work
Signed Mr. Fire

Don't doubt me
I've seen Peter Pan

Just one look
Is all it takes
And I'll go
Up
In flames
Just one word
I'll die for

And my soul mate
Joan d'arc at the stake
*******
While hands from the sky
Rip me open

And maybe it hurts
But I never felt before
And I never felt more
Never was I really sure
The way that I know now

It took dying
To help me know I was alive

Just one dream
Is all I need
And you can
Shoot me through my
Heart
Just one thought
I'll die for

My brother in ages
Nathaniel Hale you still live on
The war you fought still wages
My greatest regret
Is that I have but one life
To give
For my love

And maybe it hurts
But it feels like heaven
To know my pain
Gives the one I love
Pleasure

The way that I know now

I wouldn't teach you how to swim
I would
Show you how
To breathe underwater

I wouldn't teach you how to fly
I would
Show you how
You've always had wings

You've always been a dream
A dreamers delight
The rhythm of a drum
I a drummer

As a star at the center of a universe
You should know better
Than to believe the clouds
Can hide your light

I couldn't show you how to love
                           I would
                      Only be someone
                            You could

I would love you

Just love
Long eyes like good heart
Know life
Make time tell
Fingers want soul
Soft body

Dust comes
Sun weight lady burning
Care wings
Twisted limbs poetry
Hard legs and fragile arms
Flesh dreams

Do the math
Math is the one language
In the universe
That doesn't have a way to lie

We are men
We force statistics
We misuse numbers
We lie about the math
Knowing no one else will take the time
To solve equations

Just do the math
The answers you will find
Were always in your heart
And in your mind

My body becomes water looking at the world and knowing the greatest way forward is the path of least resistance

So I'm ready to become the light I always held in my soul while I was vacationing in darkness

And I could fight to fill a spot which is contested by many with little to offer, but who fight with a belief I could never have

It much easier for me to be the light that is swallowed by darkness and recycled as are bones and carbon

I find the place my shattered soul , bringing a prism and a rainbow fits in best is in the abyss

I was born to fill the void

I like to know how you feel
Set my eyes on your heart
You love my words
I love your night
Make the day your hope
A soul trying not to hurt
A soul lost in pain

It's just rain

Think the way of light
Remember my song
People's minds make bodies cold
A reason why I drink
Smile a little darkness
Sleep in the arms of the sun
Broken I suppose
Tears are gonna fall

It's only rain

Tortured captain
The shadow learns of the queen
Angry says the road
Sorrow is the soil

Loving inner killing
Turning points
The river rolls strange
History's lucky ashes in the wind

Misunderstood unnoticed
Death shines on the seed
Stranger beneath the rose
A darkened crow the ultimate example

Expression rainbows
Black lines and edges
And in this stupid hour
Strangers recognize

The tortured captain

I sit
Under a very old tree
In a new world
I've had my grapes
Turned into wine
I've had my fill
I sit
In the shaded grove
Of the persimmon tree
And I eat
The fruit of the gods
Zeus's wheat

Of course I want to come inside you
But I want something more
Something you'll never understand
When I wish you did
I can show you I love you
But can you show me the same?

I'm ready to die and become a ghost
Not your love could ever save me
Not any love
Not myself
When my insides were always constricted by razor wire
And sharpened knives live close to my heart
And poison is my answer
And unhappy endings

I've had my moment of joy
And it's all over now
I can look forward
But I see not much but darkness

I'm ready to become a ghost
As I always feared I would
A lost soul, misunderstood
A broken heart
When my fingers were always lightning bolts
And I am nothing but a hurricane
The brutal squalls of water
Longing for peace

I was always a hand to hold
Reaching out
When no one reaches back
She tells me that she misses me

I'm ready to die
And roam forever
Haunting those who are haunted by memory
She tells me that's she'll miss me
I know she won't
And however can my soul
Rest in peace?

I've regressed so tired
That even the blood in my veins
Can't find the strength
To bleed
It's all the wars I always fought
Battles lost
Like the love I found

I've devolved so quickly
My weapons became sticks and rocks
Prodding at a giant
Imagining I'm doing harm
When I hurt only myself
Only my love

And I live in caves
I'm afraid of fire
It won't be long
Until I'm in the trees again
Forgetting
What I once was

Cover up the moon and the stars
A hurtful veil over my widening sky
A vengeful malicious intent
A never reason

It should be raining

Listen to the murmur in the crowd
The way the thunder grows louder
And the skies grow dimmer
As we await the storm

Cover up the sun
The clouds grow gray in anger
And the atmosphere becomes thick
And the land becomes dark

It should be raining

A ****** shroud
All that dream are disavowed
The thunder claps grow loud
The clouds are angry

Because they never could be the sun

It should be raining........

This tree has stood for
One hundred and forty years
Weather beaten oak
It's roots go so deep
Not even the wild winds
Of hurricanes
Can uproot it

A symbol of strength
Endurance
It has conquered all it has seen
With it's shimmering leaves
It's sturdy limbs
It's rugged bark

This tree is a testament to nature
Then along comes the man with an axe

Too much the darkness
A haunting bitter trial of smoke in my eyes
Where nights grow so long they swallow days
I'll be afraid of light
That it would expose my many scars

I'm only waiting to hear that voice once again
My sweet and sullen love
My only friend
In a world where we sit on corners under street lights
And believe in everything they say

lead me not astray.....

I'm standing in the light
With my scars exposed
The only thing I've ever known to be real
My years all leading to
My tears becoming stone

My greatest fears
I show to you

I wish music was always playing
Spirits speaking love through mellifluous and dulcet tones
Meaningful tunes
I want for music to play
With the stars and the hearts and the minds of men
A cosmic celebration

Move my obdurate soul
Let the music play forever
Let it be the purest way
The angels can touch me

I wish music was always playing
Soothing, gentle, peaceful, and full of feeling
Making us know we are alive
I want music always playing
If I am headed into battle, if the storm is coming
If I am making love

Reach me unreachable
Let the music play
Let it be the most beautiful way
The angels can touch me

I wake up after three hours of sleep
Right foot, left foot
Eat something quick and
Brush my teeth
Put on my clothes
My socks and shoes
Right foot left foot
Fifteen minutes to myself
Right foot

I drive to work on busy streets
Right foot left foot
I make a left and a left then go straight
Then I make a right
A parking lot
My parking spot
Right foot left foot
I walk in and clock in
Left foot

And I busily slave away
Right foot left foot
Make a mess then clean it up
The garbage out the back door
The product out the side dock
All day long
Right foot left foot
I'll have lunch and a few smoke breaks
Right foot

And then I'll go home
Right foot left foot
And tomorrow do it all again

Left foot

You turn into a wall
Fields and valleys
Divided when we arrive
And reaching to the sky
You turn the sink off
But I am drowning still
These holiest of symbols
And everything is flooded

And everything is muddy
Even memories
The morning covered fog
The night without the stars

You turn into a saint
In your own eyes
Blind to what you are
And what it really was
You turn the car around
Cliffs and oceans
Once we've driven off the edge
And falling to the earth

And now
For truth
It's not a game we play
It's not a virus, not a plague
It's healing and understanding
And it is love

And now
For peace
I'm tired of bullets
Im weary of falling bombs
It's diplomacy and trust
And it is love

And now
For something
Completely different
I'll train a cat to use a toilet
Using only silly putty and onion rings
And it is love

Either the drunken response will be wrong
Or
It
will contain a truth you can't confront

Genius will always see the the world in different ways
Spiritual will always see the truth
And if you want proof
I have 18%
Eleven deep
And if I care about you
You care about me

The most beautiful thing
About being a revolutionary
Is understanding
No one else sees the way you do
The weight is on you
The fate of the future

And the weight is on you
Yours to carry
Yours to share
If only you can
Show someone else the truth

If only they'll follow you
Instead of following what they're told to
If only
I hate when I expect too much
I'll learn to stop expecting

Eventually

I'm afraid I'll turn into a wall
The land that the walls
Are made from
I know you're in pain

Fall into love again
Fall into me

I'm afraid that the walls are speaking
They call your name
Louder than I can
I know your in pain

Fall into something new
Greater than you
And me

Get this golden wisdom off my mind
I only want to be a fool
If that is what will make me happy

I was born into a storm I could never calm,
When wind shaken shutters rattle against the time warped windows,
And the growl of thunder reaches even your very bones, fragile and broken,
Where there is no light, only lightning, only darkened skies, and tears we cry,

I was born on a battle field as blood was flowing,
The angry rage of war, the soldiers last lament, would be the first thing that I hear,
The iron clank of swords, the deafening   blast, the cannon *****
It's a war I fear will wage long after I am gone, and I'm dust again,

I was born into the storm, the tornadoes, the hurricanes
The spin that was the first thing my innocent eyes would see
The flood which inundates and makes most of the world suffocate,
And I learned to breath

I was born into the storm
I was born to love the storm

Joseph K
Who had done nothing
nothing he was aware of
Nothing really anything at all
His only crime
That of being human

Poor Joseph K
Unable to defend his position
His lot in life
Now stands on trial

Joseph K
Who was innocent
as innocent as a man can be
In a world where drudgery makes a man go mad
He was only trying to live his life
The only way he could

Poor Joseph K
Has been found guilty
By a judge with unknown authority
And his sentence ends his life

Poor Joseph K
Poor you and me

The king is dead
Long live the king
In colorful courtyards
With maidens fair
Wearing flowers in their hair

The king is dead
Long live the king
May his castle hold his memory
May his ghost long roam the corridors
May his army still fight in his name

The king is dead
Long live the king
Ruling by divine order
And loyal subjects see beneficence
Reverent remembrance

The king is dead
Long live the king
That his royal decrees
The rule of the land
Be forever upheld

In honor
In his image
In his name
The king is dead
Long live the king!

So what if snakes will bite you
Cancer eats you
Spiders creep and crawl
Poison kills you slowly
I love it all
I love it all
As a part of everything
A part of me

Mosquitos would drain my blood
Pain can stop my heart
As a demon would have my soul
This poison seeps into me
I love it all
I love it all
As a part of everything
A part of me

And I decide the ice age is coming
The ice melts I'll be destroyed
By the fires of hell
Accept me as I am in heaven
Accept my battered soul, my god

So what if kinetic tongues isolate skeletons,
when shamanic answers eat fields of source,
codes double dig n dug out hellox