i want to write about the way my lover makes me feel
and the way we fit together like the teeth of the zipper on my favorite jacket
but i am loveless
and unlovable
and it's for the best
because i was never
patient or forgiving
enough
to love
anyway.

The hardest thing to do
I've discovered
Is try and cover up
A sad face
An exhausted face
For the past 5 or so months
I've been walking aimlessly
Carrying around a heavy weight
That has emotionally ruined me
I'm out of whack
I'll never be the same
Parents and friends
They've noticed a difference
And not a small one
I've grown more disrespectful
And less patient
As if I wasn't a hermit before
Now all one can find me doing
Is sleeping
In my bedroom
I try and tell those close to me
That I'm fine
Nothing is wrong
I'm just tired
Only one of those is true
I'm tired
And I'm sick
Of feeling like this