Theia: Poems

only you

Theia Jun 2020

only you

tonight
only you
will
do

our story

Theia May 2019

my love
i know
we will meet in another life
as we have in the past
we will live out this love story
to its magnificent heights

i just wish
it had happened
in this life

our table

Theia Mar 2020

our table

i like flipping tables
and
i know you do, too

but
do me a favor
and don't flip ours

out of darkness

Theia Aug 2019

out of darkness

a lone hand
outstretched
pulling me back up
from my darkness
the only one
who could

overflowing love

Theia Jun 2020

overflowing love

today
i am full
of love

i can feel
it
overflowing

let me
share
with you

passion grows

Theia Oct 2021

passion grows

love born
in fire

burns away
all doubt

patience

Theia Jun 2022

patience

when does
patience
become
self-sabotage?

paused

Theia Oct 2019

paused

i'm watching you
from over here
perched on the highest peak

leaning
straining
for a glimpse of you

i'm tired
of moving these mountains around
trying to be near you

but i still feel you
love you
even from afar

peeking

Theia Dec 2019

peeking

i know what you look like
when you’re kissing me
with your eyes closed tight
because
I peeked

pints

Theia Feb 2020

pints

my feelings
of despair
muted
pint after pint

power

Theia Jun 2019

power

you have
no power
over me now
or ever

#mantra

price

Theia Oct 2022

price

compromise
has a price
that i have
overpaid

pull me

Theia Aug 2019

pull me

pull me into you
cover me
in your touches
smooth me out
make me purr

quiet universe

Theia Jun 2019

quiet universe

this calm
this quiet universe
we created
together

it can only be ours
it's only for us

realizing the fear

Theia Mar 2020

realizing the fear

i've now
realized the fear
of every newlywed

because

now i know
i married
the wrong person

receding

Theia Mar 2020

receding

and i know
tomorrow
my anger
will recede
leaving only regret

and
it's really
the worst

regret

Theia Aug 2019

regret

does a dying mind
have worries of the past?

will regret
follow me
into the next life?

and if so
will it be
because i did
or did not?

release me

Theia Jun 2020

release me

begging
for a release

when

all i have to do
is
take the first step

return

Theia Jun 2019

return

how many times
did i push you away
(but i didn't mean it)
and how many times
did you come back anyway

rightsizing

Theia Aug 2019

rightsizing

i don't think
my emotions are fair
to you
but
i don't plan on
rightsizing

ruined

Theia Oct 2019

ruined

you ruined me
now i know what i'm missing

you ruined me
now i know real love

you ruined me
because i can't have you

but you're all that i want

running

Theia Jun 2019

running

am i always
running away
or
towards
something?

rush

Theia Jun 2019

rush

what's the rush, baby?
i was here before
i will
be here always

sabotage

Theia Aug 2019

sabotage

sabotage
sabotage
my favorite
self-infliction

sad soul

Theia Apr 2023

sad soul

the sadness
of your soul
still
haunts me

savored moments

Theia Feb 2020

savored moments

getting to know you in pieces
little glimpses
through your windows

these savored moments
the seeds
of the future

searching

Theia Mar 2020

searching

i'm searching
aimlessly
even though
i know where
to find
you

seed

Theia Oct 2021

seed

i grew you
in my
heart
but
i had to
let you
go

seeing you

Theia Aug 2019

seeing you

why does it feel
like i can see you better
with my eyes closed?

separation

Theia Mar 2020

separation

your insult
today
stoked my core

evoking
anger
guilt
indignation

sadness

separation

shake it

Theia Jul 2019

shake it

i need to shake this hate
so my children don't see it
in my eyes

shaky ground

Theia Jun 2019

shaky ground

give me more
change
uncertainty

push me
to make something
beautiful
out of
my sorrow

shame on me

Theia Jan 2020

shame on me

i think about you
shamefully
when
most likely
you're not
thinking about
me

shattered

Theia Jan 2020

shattered

devastation
doesn’t quite say how deep
this shattering
of my life
is

she

Theia Apr 2021

she

and one day
she will realize

her magic

and then
her power
will be

limitless

shh

Theia Feb 2019

shh

i'm a secret
hiding in plain sight

you probably feel me
or hear me sneaking at night

i can give you a hint
if you really want to know

but most of the time
it's better to let me go