Nothing is impossible
Nothing
Emptiness
Alone
Absence of life
Absence of thought
This is nothing
And it is
Impossible
Because we are humans
Living
Breathing
Being
We are the complete opposite of nothing

I knew when I came in
We looked each other in the eyes
At the same time you broke down crying

Somehow we made a mistake
Let things slip up
Now it's getting late

But we both knew where we wanted to go
You had your path
I had a path of my own

A mistake or reality
I'm not really sure these days
These are just things I never would say

Do we lose our friends
Or lose ourselves
Do friends lose their path
While we don't stray
Who gets eaten
Who comes out the other side
Who makes these decisions
To live our lives

Bad poetry
Is what it's all about
That bad poetry
It is
Undeniably
Raw
Gotta write it
We've all done it
Get it out
Sometimes
The bad poetry
Is what it is

Stumbled through
People making
Superficial relationships
That crack like ships
Under the pressure of time
Forget who you are
Forget what it means
A dot in the past
Built on this foundation of quicksand

People do grow
Apart
But try
And keep
Those who you love
Close to your heart
Do not let them stray
Too far
Or one day
You may forget
Why
You love them

Two men
Once boys
Now pass each other
Silently on the street
Eyes linger
Sparking distant memories
The body changes
The eyes don't
Eyes then torn apart
Thrown back into their destined paths
Two friends
Once so close together
Thrown in separate directions
Carrying down their own paths
Where did the past go?
It seems to still be so fresh in our memory

Actually trying
Is much much much
Harder

Actively lying
Won't get you much
Further

Please stop
******* with
All my friends
Trying to be
Cool with me
I only
Hit you up
To *****
You over
Getting all offended
Trying to hangout
There's only
One thing left
When you
Burn all your bridges
Me and the bed

Little stupid
Little play around
Giving no *****
About anyone
Except yourself
Think you're hot
Till you're not

Graduated college
Worry bout retirement
Planning how to waste
The time in this life of his

How many ppl
My age would rather
Jump than swim
How many ppl
How many backdoor deals
Does it take
To rip apart the fabric
Of your society
How many ppl my age
Are fiscally waterboarded
Would rather be boarded up
Than on the outside
Watching everyone get bled dry

The City of San Francisco
The wealthy playground
For those with enough to
Kick someone else out
Gentrification
Letting capital flow
As it will
"It's all good"
If you have money
If not visit Oakland and push
Someone else out
What happened to a city
For the people
What happened to life for life itself
Not life to make dollar signs appear
When it all ends
Will you be in a place surrounded by love
Or debts owed to petty thieves
The city is dying
Don't just sit and watch it bleed

Walk outside
There are holes in the ground
Many say white only
Some say Black only
Others say Chinese only
And we jump into them
It's time
To pave the streets anew

Feeling full of life
Until I trip on your wire
Set in the underground subway
My third eye goes blind
The sight of your gaze
Leaves me quesy for days
I came down here alive
But leave hollowed out

working don’t know why
working on the fly
working for the time
working for the dime
working for a mime
working for a crime
working with a cry
working for a lie
working till you die

Would he hate me
Knowing who I am
This time in my life
Trying to open up
Throw a bomb
Down castro street
He said
As I listened on
Too young to know
Exactly why
You would want to ******
Happy people
What would you think of me
Knowing who I really am
Would you still love me
And change your mind
Would you accept me
Would you disown me
Would you ignore what I say
Or would you stay
Right by my side
Hand on my shoulder
Love me regardless
What would you do
Grandpa?

It means a lot to me
The days we used to spend
Sitting back in your car
The radio on 10
What is the count
You always used to say
3-2 two outs
Means only one pitch away
I recline stretched out
Laying down on the seats
You reach back and smile
Handing fruit and sweets
We're on our way now
The trees are passing by
Here come the bumps
Count them 1,2,3,4,5
Now the memory
Starts to fade away
But I can still so clearly
See the wrinkles in your face
Your rough and soft hands
The smile on your face
The kindness in your heart
The warmth of your embrace
I remember you told us
My sister and me
If you're out late at night
And need a place to sleep
Call a cab
Send it my way
Ring the bell
I won't ask I'll just pay
You cared for us
With all your heart
Unconditional love
Is all you taught
I hold you close
Every day
In my heart
You will always stay

Through the city streets I fly
Cutting in and out of buildings
Alley ways and one way streets
The fog thin blankets the city silver
I am masked in this concrete visage
If not careful the city streets will blind you
But I work to peel back this mystery
Of myself and where I came from

Like war
Marching on
In and endless trudge
Towards an abstract end goal
Persevering through
Battling the insults and abuses
Stuck in the trenches
Fighting until you make it
To the end
And you retire from the life of war
Left with a fractured mind
Only able to take commands
Swift with knee-**** reactions
Contemplating a life sacrificed for another
Was it worth it?

We all have ideas
About ourselves and others
Until we become
Ourselves and others

As I open the window
Smoke floats out
Into the moon
I turn on the radio
And look back out
The moon is gone
Dancing away

Taking time to think over
These thoughts
What do i really
Wanna do
A little too much
Sometimes not enough
I guess that  I just give
What I can
And see
What you do

Love is
Socially
Constructed

Sorry
Construction paper
Hearts

Waking up
Stumbling through a dream
In someone else's head

If given the power
What would you do with it
Hold it close
Reign it over those around you
Abuse to your advantage
Or would you give it up
Cash out and disperse
Spread it out

Do you desire power
To hoard it
Or give it up

Shuffled in
Moved like cattle
Numbers on the forehead
Making money off of death
Gotta keep it white
Like sanitary
To clean up all the *******

Night folding into day
I barely feel awake
Turning one page
Revealing another

"The opposite of love is not hate, it is indifference"
- Elie Wiesel

Sometimes people cannot help
The hate that is in their heart
They have carried it with them
For as long as they can remember
But know that alongside it
Exists boundless love
For these two insanities
Are equal in strength
Believe in yourself
And who you are
The energy inside is what lights the fire
And the fire burns strong
To be overtaken by hate
Does not mean you lack love
It means there is a void
That needs to be filled
Fight indifference
Care about the things you love
Care about the things you hate
Give yourself fully

I must have leaded shoes
Gravity is turned up around me
I sink into the ground
When it's time to get out
I'm nowhere to be found

Going round for round
With the demons below
The heavy weight champ

On fire when I rise

The further down this path I get
The more lonesome I feel
Friends begin to get stripped away
Slipping through cracks in our lives
Family is dwindling
Either departed or moved away
My body even turns on itself
Breaking down healing slowly
To find space in this world some turn to jobs
But even those are few and far between
Though the road is lined with beautiful flowers
The concrete I walk on is cold hard
In my mind I do take refuge
But imagination can only get you so far

Thoughts in my head
All swirling and spinning
Just when I left her bed
I thought I could understand
What it means to not possess
Not care about excess
Wanting to hold on till the end
Control someone with ***
Be ok with our own impulses
Kissing more boys
You said kissing more girls
That's when thoughts start to spill
You said "see more vaginas"
I didn't know what that meant
Do you like guys?
I couldn't lie and said yes
Not knowing what it meant
I was honest and sincere
Scared about holding on
And being tied down
Scared of hurting someone else
Scared of not being myself
Scared of regretting
Scared of forgetting
Who am I
I still don't know
But I like your bed
And thoughts in your head
Pulling a warm blanket over me
You said it's ok just to be
Don't get lost in the future
Be here in the moment
Don't hold on too tight
Or you'll never let go
Strangle yourself with ego
Or release your chains

I know what you feel
I have felt it too
I try to be there for you
There is an uneasiness in me as well
But I try and clear the fog
Because I can't lose you
I will be there for you
When you runaway
I'll come find you
You are my best friend
And I love you

What kind of democracy
Leaves people stranded on the street
Holes in their feet
Holes in their wings
What kind of democracy
Turns the sick away from the doctor
Bleeding on the sidewalk
Told not to come back
What kind of democracy
Sends people off to die
Loading them in wagons
Spewing callous lies
What kind of democracy
Takes away the right to vote
Hold elections as a hoax
Hoping no one sees their nose

In the dead of night
What do you find
When you slip outside
Your regular mind
Instead of drifting
Off to sleep
Take a walk
On down the street
What you find
May be a surprise
A whole family huddled
Under the nearest highrise
People just like
You and me
Except with no home
Stuck on the street
The politicians pass over
The firefighters scream by
The business execs don’t see
But the child asks why
Why is the house empty
With a man outside
Why is he a ghost
If he is alive

I have fallen
In love
With the sun
Keeps me warm
After everyone
Has left
Never leaving
Me as long as
I run backwards
But I'd do
Somersaults
For that love
My lovers
On this earth
Can't compare
To that celestial
Beauty

How often do you
Ask yourself how
Much you are
Worth

How can this or
That about me
Be used to
Sell myself professionally

Forget kindness
Forgiveness
Etc
For the sake of life

We sell ourselves
Over and over
Until we are
Dead or expired

You skate on by
I'm lucky to catch
A glimpse

I try and get near you
I doubt that
I'll win

So many nets in the air
But you float
With the wind

And that's what I love
A little thick
A little thin

A good heart?
A kind smile?
Gentle words?
The ability to sympathize
The ability to empathize
The ability to see outside yourself

A heavy hand?
A sharp bite?
A cold tongue?
The ability to distort
The ability to overpower
The ability to be indifferent

What are you trying to achieve?
What success are you looking for?

The things we used
To say to each other
We would tear
Each other apart
The words that
Came out of my mouth
The words that
Came from my fingers
Cutting you with
My tongue
Just to watch
You bleed
And you would ask
Why are you saying that
Is that what you really
Think of me
Jealousy and hate
All inside of me
I added you too
But you always stayed
My words came from
Resentment and anger
Upset with the way
You were living your life
The only person to blame
For being with you
Is me
In the end
I should have known better
Then to believe
That what you said
Was true
But we ended up
Intertwined
I loved you
You loved me too
So why did we commit
To one another
Moving in
When so far away
You hated being here
Right when I was ready to change
You wanted to go back home
You wanted me to feel your pain
Then came the drinking
The angry drinking
The sloppy fights
Even sloppier nights
Then came the sorrys
The I didn't mean its
The I love yous
The dont leave mes
And that's how we did it
Push and pull
Give and tug
Until the string snapped
You used your fists
To decide how it ends
The next morning
Kicked you out of our bed

Is it necessary
How do we shake off
What is not ours
Things that we inherited
Trying to let go of some things
But not others
It seems almost impossible sometimes

I cut my teeth
In the back rooms of therapists
Learning what abuse is
Learning about forgiveness

Preparing for roofs
Or notes to parents
For the after life
And my last breath

Sickness and distress
A scream from hell
Grab my heart
And never let go

Find comfort in death
I’m still learning how to live
I try to live my truths
But just as often fail

Remember that with life
These things are what it’s worth
I’ll kick and scream
I can’t stand to be me

I can't take
The waight
Of a heavy heart
To escape

The feeling
Of ecstasy
Where you race
In place

I can't stand
The face
I have to make
These days

Just to get
A smile
From some fake
*** snake