Amused with his own actions
Holding on to each of his own words
He foolishly conducts the circus
With ignorant precision
As the crowd looks on
And laughs

Promise to everyone
No more war
Promise to everyone
No more poor
Promise to everyone
No more torture
Promise to everyone
No more corruption
Then turn a blind eye
To bombs and shells
Then turn a blind eye
On the collusion on shales
Turn a blind eye
On secret centers
Turn a blind eye
On homeless shelters

I bought a fish
And watched it swim for days
Put in a little bowl
Swimming its life away
I wondered what it was like
To be so incomplete
Alone in a bowl
No world at your feet
Consumed I became
In this solitary way of life
One hand to feed you
The other to give you light
It wasn’t before long
I started to grow gills
Locked up my door
And said goodbye to the world

The air is crisp
Cold
Sending a lonesome chill
Down my back
The air is wet
Millions of raindrops
Falling
Tilting my head back
Opening my mouth
One drop
Finds my tongue

Hated dads
Playing the
Authoritative cliche
Like
*****
Be the man
Become the man

These relationships
Hold no weight
They sink like rafts
Carrying stone
Where are my friends
If I run home
Maybe they remained
True as stone

Falling numbers
Breathing airwaves
Signals change
Clouds remain
The light it flickers
Through the door
Heavy breathing
Anchored floors

What happened

Friends fallen off
Relationships uncommitted
Family moved away

I guess it's so

In fall leaves come off
In winter things turn to ice
In summer hibernation ends

So I guess
That I have
To miss
Things
Like you
I wish
The best

No
Nose
Knows
That
Toes
Know
But
Toes
Know
That
Nose
Knows
No?

I know those reefs go real deep
Real cliche like a bad metaphor in Hawaii
Let it all bleed all over me
Thoughts like blood that won't crust
Just breath and believe?
Seems nice and easy
Simple pleasures for simple people
No, let's make this real confusing instead
Thoughts of death, even on paradise island
"Paradise" say that to the broken and exploited
Paradise at the expense of everyone else
Happy ******* birthday
**** everything and run
Fear the best thing I've ever done
When do you stop running?
When your ankle gives?
Or the bottle
**** it like a baby and cry when it's gone
What makes it feel better
Hearing trauma ****
Yes, please, please more
Tell me how **** up you are
I'm intimately interested
I don't care how strong you are
Let me see your guts bleed from your lips
Makes me feel a little more human
I guess it's a little too humid
Everyone on this island a little too
And it's little too
The worst things
The ones that **** me
Are what really can bring me back
So choke me out
Throw me on my back
But no head after that
Just punches to it
Just frontin too
I'm soft as ****
And you can't handle it
Either can I
You like music
But didn't want to know how I make it
Well guess what
Not much to do with you naked
I eat lunch off thoughts
And throw up the rest
The best sleep I get
Is with a numbed out head
Then it's finally lights out
Alcoholics like it better with nights out
Nights in
Party alone and **** alone and be alone
I'd much rather prefer
Don't really care
About your needs wants or desires
If I can just light my own fire
I don't care to make amends
I'd rather make end plans
Jump off the ship
And cook in the fire
Let it burn all night
Until I choke

A silent emptiness
To rock us to sleep
The phone holds meaning
Only to which it is given
Popping up
Randomly like in bloom
It's hard to pin you down
I want you to see
Painted like a picture
I've kept smudge free

Who is the crazy
One
The person screaming
On the street
For help
Or
The person walking
Calmly by

The problem is power
When it is concentrated
It becomes explosive like a bomb

The parent directing the child
With absolute authority
To behave as told

A rigidly enforced chain of respect
For elders in a family
With no questions asked

No matter what the form
Power concentrated
Is dangerous

Left in a barrel
Thrown out to sea
Forgotten and lonely
Life’s misery
Is now their company

She say you love
To smoke **** with girls
Is that really my problem
All the Os and curls

All the smoke blown
Back into the air
Melts down my shoulders
And hardened glare

That some cutie
Is there with me
Splittin the pie
Is a plus in my eyes

If she wanna hate
On me blowin trees
Then please step aside
MJ only girl for me

LA and SD
Are the body
What you see
On the outside

SF and the Bay
Are the heart
What beats
On the inside

Slinking over the
Mountain
Slow breath
A slow step
Thick fur mats
Hunched shoulders
Moonlight catches
The back
Of the
Beast

Taking steps
Step by step
Taking hours
Minutes by seconds
Taking grief
Piece by piece
Losing sleep
Dream by dream

As my hand ran down her leg
She blushed and turned her face
So many times we've been here
But after a few too many bars
A few too many lies
We're strangers again
Blushing at the touch
Of one another

If family is the most important thing
Then why do you mock me
Why do you give life to obnoxious attitudes
Shutting down what little life I have
Where is the fire that I saw
What happened to all the pills they gave you
To shut you up and calm you down
What happened behind those white curtains
Were your dreams really to settle
To enter the same deal you had rejected
Running away to liquor
At least you breathed fire

If family is the most important thing
Then why did you leave yours
To live on an island with no bridge
To start a new life like the other didn’t exist

The things you love
You’re taught to hate
The person you adore
They say “not him, not her”
The poison you down
They all cheer
Societal constraints
Inner fear

Why is
This
Box
Shouting at my
Face

As this instant
Melts to time
I am wondering where I am
Before
After
I am taken above the clouds
Then dropped back to the mud
I thought I could hold you forever in this memory
But you are fading with me

Do we lose our friends
Or lose ourselves
Do friends lose their path
While we don't stray
Who gets eaten
Who comes out the other side
Who makes these decisions
To live our lives

What's the point of these shoes
When you won't run the track
I signed up for the marathon
But I doubt I'll be back

Bad poetry
Is what it's all about
That bad poetry
It is
Undeniably
Raw
Gotta write it
We've all done it
Get it out
Sometimes
The bad poetry
Is what it is

I must have leaded shoes
Gravity is turned up around me
I sink into the ground
When it's time to get out
I'm nowhere to be found

Going round for round
With the demons below
The heavy weight champ

On fire when I rise

Let us run
Like cars in the street
Let us fly
Like planes in the sky
Let us go
From the reigns of complacency
Let us forget
Who we are

So that we may one day find ourselves again

Where is
The time to do nothing?
Not the time to do errands
Not the time to catch up
Not the time to think about what you should be doing
Not the relaxation at end of a long day
The time to do
Nothing

We all have ideas
About ourselves and others
Until we become
Ourselves and others

Waves rock
Back and forth
Time takes me
Back to sleep
Moonlight pools
Travelers steps
Curled up
I'm falling back

I guess time is never wasted
I hope
Regretted days
Days wasted away
Even if a whole life felt wasted
The time mattered
It was important
It couldn't of happened any other way
It ripples further than us

We used to have drunken ***
Until you moved out west
Decided to blame me

Sending music from afar
Wondering if it matters to you

Feeling empty
Like I’m missing
Jet fuel
Rushing through my veins
Feel like I’m missing a flame
That burned deep inside
Kept alive
By drunken nights
I feel dry
Like someone left out to die
Deeply empty inside
Wondering where’s my fire

I danced in the sun
So long I got burned
I slunk into the shade
As night overtook day
My features blurred
Obscured by the dark
I crawled to the switch
And pulled out the wires

Jaded moms
Blaming ****
For all their kids
Problems
And where is the
Dad
Again?

My #1 dropped off
Was getting too topped off
Running around my house
Until my face fell off

My #2 became 1
Burning like the sun
Killing all my thoughts
But still wanting to run

My #3 took its place
The city by the Bay
I live and die for the people
SFC no other equal

My #4 moved away
She hated the ******* Yay
I still love her to this day
But it’s better off this way

My #5 fell from the sky
An angel in disguise
She’s my ******* Queen
#1 one day she’ll be

Desire acceptance
Give a strong front
Dig a little deeper
It's not as much fun

The fear of the unknown
Let it sow
Let it grow
Hiding like the monster
You have consumed
Cast in doom
The light it swirls
All in your head
Wrapped in bed
We hold on for dear life
Cast in strife

I don't care
What you do
Stitch it
Sew it
Staple it
Just please fix it
Put it back
Together
Because it has all
Fallen
Apart
Mind
Heart
Body
Soul
Everything breaks
Everything needs repairs

Happy New Year
Red red
Everything

Where did we
Come from
Our mothers
And our fathers
Why do we censor
Our discontent
With women
And men
What's wrong
Being positive
What's wrong
WITH ***

How rare
Love really
Is

I guess
I never
Realized

Consuming it
Like a
Joke

The joke
Is on
Me

But I
Still need
It

Weird **** happens
When I close my eyes
My body gets taken
Engulfed by night
Waking up in tears
Just after I tried
To get some sleep
And piece of mind
My chest is expanding
Anxiety running high
The world is upside down
Trying to hold on for the ride

Through the city streets I fly
Cutting in and out of buildings
Alley ways and one way streets
The fog thin blankets the city silver
I am masked in this concrete visage
If not careful the city streets will blind you
But I work to peel back this mystery
Of myself and where I came from