Everything going on in my life
Doesn't feel like
My life.
I feel like I'm constantly
Pretending
Acting like someone else
Someone kind
Someone caring
Not that I'm not
But it all feels fake
Somehow

I'm falling away.
Someone catch me

Please

The chill seeps in
Freezing my bones
Slurring my speech
Extinguishing the heat that fills
My body
Slowly removing me
From it

The cold is always reaching for
An embrace
But it only may embrace anything
Anyone
For a little while
Until clinging to something
Pushes the one being clung on to
Away
Forever.

This music
The drums
The beat
So much faster than anything
And my heart races to catch up
Left in the wake

Why is it that
When someone says my name
It almost always sounds foreign?
Not from another country
No, it's like it's someone else.
But then who
Am I?

I just thought you should know
I dream of you day and night.

Why is it
That I feel different around you
In school?
I suppose the distance we've gone
Struggles we've had
They weren't in school
They were separate
And now I feel odd
Not in a bad way
When I see you in school.

I see you in the hallway
Our eyes meet
And I'm happy for an hour or two.