The faith
What is it?
And why should I keep it?
Maybe it's the collective faith
That I should keep?
Because my own,
Well,
It's fairly solid.
It has a strong foundation.
Thick walls.
Earthquakes come occasionally
It's fallen
Been rebuilt
Again and again
Stronger each time.
i must work on the
Collective faith.
Not everyone has
Strong faith.
No person alive
Is always built tall.
We all have cracks in our walls.
Leaks in our ceilings.
Loose doors.
And we are never alone in out
Faith-house.
There are friends inside
But more often than not
The majority is enemies.
To me
"Keep the faith"
Means to hold up each others' walls.
To patch their roof.
To bring housewarming gifts.
And to be the friend among enemies.

Run, run away
Away from the fires
Run, run away
Away from the liars

Run from the obvious fakes
Run from the poisonous snakes
Go, now, on ahead.
I'd rather be caught
Than see you dead

Keep running, running
Your feet are like lead
Keep running, running
Just don't end up dead

This isn't the end
A thousand miles to go
But keep a fast pace
They'll catch you if you're slow

Constantly
You are forgiving me
You are showing me
The full extent of your love
You are so big
The universe is in your hand
And you care
For me.
My problems.
My relationships.
My love.
Me.
Among this huge space
It continually baffles me
That you want me to be saved.
You want all of us
Individually
To be saved.
You want to save
The person reading this.
They have unsurpassed worth
That you recognize.
Thousands of second chances
Daily.
I am humbled.

She was crying
She had before
I'm sure she will again.
She says she wasn't going to anymore.

Hypocrite!

What about what you told me?
You say "I'm ok"
When you're obviously not
You're lying to yourself
And me
You know that!

I was disgusted.
Lying to yourself.
To me.
Don't you know how much I care?!
How much I love you?!
Why would you lie to me then...?
I told you not to say it again.
I told you to promise.
And I will always be here for you.
Even if something somehow changes between us
If you stop loving me
If we fade in some way
I will always love you
My shoulder is for you to cry on
After all,
I don't use it.
I welcome tears
If they come.
But it's not easy for me.
Even if I try

But you have cried around me...
Is it three times now?
I hope I'm not causing it
Somehow
Because I would hate that.
You kept asking me
Before you cried
Why I was looking at you.

Well.
I didn't know what to do.
What to say.
It's tremendously difficult for me
To reach out
Say the things I did.
I don't do well with those things.
But for you
I will always
Always
Always
Try.

Nothing major hurts
Not right now
A couple scratches here and there
Bumps and bruises
Physical and mental
But overall
I'm okay.
And that's okay.
See, that's when I'm at my best.
I can relax
And let my soul pour out.
I feel at peace
So I can have new ideas.
Gain new confidence.
Love more freely.
Embrace more openly.
Stop and think before I move.
See, I will always have minor pains
Aches
Scars even.
But they aren't what is on
My mind.
So I can have free reign
Over my thoughts
Emotions
Body
Impulses.
I am in control.
I am at peace.

Am I a pushover?
Maybe
But
If other people get their way
I experience something new.
And that's okay.

So much excitement
Adrenaline makes it feel
Good
I'm learning so much
So fast
Hopefully the pain goes away
So that I may continue
My training.
Running is fine.
Jumping is pretty OK.
But landing...
Ow.
Maybe I'll rest a bit.