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Mar 2019 · 102
a tip (from a 15 year old)
Gyuwon Mar 2019
From all of my 15 years of experience in life
I can confidently tell everyone that life is like a blanket thats too short for you

Cover your shoulders and your toes will be freezing
Cover your toes your shoulders will be shaking

So dont try to cover every aspect, make a compromise and cover one thing well
Mar 2019 · 91
i lack feelings
Gyuwon Mar 2019
Celebrate the dying of my feelings
Pay respect to my shell

Joy got diagnosed with depression
Sadness went to commit suicide
Anger is in a mental asylum
Disgust felt disgusted
Fear got scared of me

---

I feel nothing
Nothing is what i feel

When you hurt me
I feel nothing
Nothing is what i feel

Stab me, Slash me, Chain me and Torture me
I feel nothing
Nothing is what i feel

Dismiss me, Devalue me, Discard me
I feel nothing
Nothing is what I feel
Mar 2019 · 200
15
Gyuwon Mar 2019
15
You dont cry because youre sad
You cry because you regret
You cry because you refuse to accept
Mar 2019 · 96
14
Gyuwon Mar 2019
14
"Im gonna **** myself"

I posted on Instagram

People liked it
Feb 2019 · 70
battery
Gyuwon Feb 2019
I charged myself up
Just for you to drain me
You seemed to ignore my sincerity
And dismissed my efforts
You walked all over my dignity
I felt pain in every ******* step

There were times when I used to spark your light
Now that the room is dark, it must mean that its time to let me go
You drank up all of my energy
Now I feel so powerless
Feb 2019 · 186
13
Gyuwon Feb 2019
13
A chaotic mix of flesh and consiousness is what I am
A well balanced routine of procrastination and stressing out later is my life
A mixture of sob and snoring is my sleep
Painful and barely bareable is the pressure
And insecure but narcissistic is my personality
Thats me, ig? What about you
Feb 2019 · 234
12
Gyuwon Feb 2019
12
The only warmth i feel is from my blanket
Feb 2019 · 161
supernova
Gyuwon Feb 2019
Be a star in the night sky

Ill watch you shine

Glowing ever so brilliantly

Even better with some time

Light up the empty canvas

(You in the air tonight★)
Supernova in the sky
Feb 2019 · 73
negative words
Gyuwon Feb 2019
untouchable i stand
uncontrollable i live
unforgettable is the memory
unforgivable is you

impossible is forgiveness
improper is your attitude
inappropriate is your actions
insane is gonna be me

decomposing is my soul
Feb 2019 · 234
10
Gyuwon Feb 2019
10
i seek the pleasure in pain
?
society gives me a shot of morphine

i cant even feel pain?

~

(
cant feel life

hurt me if it makes you happy
i feel nothing
)
Feb 2019 · 227
9
Gyuwon Feb 2019
9
why is life worth living
why does everyone scramble to keep alive
i feel like a leftover
maybe thats why ive discarded myself
refusing to live is a disorder apparently
help me find order in the chaos

ill never be good enough for the life given to me
Feb 2019 · 246
8
Gyuwon Feb 2019
8
You dont hesitate when you hurt me
But why am I so hesitant to fight back
Feb 2019 · 284
Depressed
Gyuwon Feb 2019
Im alright, dont worry
Feb 2019 · 107
Survivor
Gyuwon Feb 2019
****** battle
A survivor
Exit wounds
Still he moves on
Bruised skin
Armored up
Cracked bones
More room for him to heal

Dont stop believing
A tribute to Journey
Jan 2019 · 171
Scarepeople
Gyuwon Jan 2019
one with a leaking heart
i scare people away
with my skin of lifeless twigs
and my traumatizing sillouette
i scare people away
no colour in my eyes, no
only silence from my mouth

feet fixed to the ground
cant do nothing for myself
i inhabit this lonely field
and scare people away

only birds befriend me,
i scare people away
Gyuwon Jan 2019
When I become passive and unenthusiastic
And my already blackened soul darkens to an even darker shade of black;

When the unknown tears misrepresent my sorrows and my cold sweat is no longer a medal of effort and triumph

When my nails are basically non-existent from my fears eating them away and my hand gets the shake

When people start to have “sympathy” in me and try to understand my tears

When all forms of mental sanity has been terminated, my noggin inside my head but my mind outside my body

People will come and pay tribute to my empty shell, maybe shed a few meaningless tears,
Oh well, its too late now
Gyuwon Jan 2019
There are two ways of remembering
Some get written down in pencil
While others get written in pen

The memories written in pen matters to you
It might be a fun trip
Or an embarrassing messup

You write down your most valued memories in pen
They last for ages for you to look back at them

The memories written in pencil doesnt matter to you as much
Might be just another day at work
Or a fantastic dream that you only seem to remember for a split second

You can erase pencil memories at will
But pen memories last

They come back to give you a valuable lesson
And make the person that you are today
This is a rewrite of a poem i did two years ago, thought it had a nice plot but waa written badly. So i redid it
Gyuwon Jan 2019
My confidence rolls off my cheek
One drop at a time
Into my nightly coffee
Bitter taste of defeat

Fear overwhelming my sorrows
My only will is keeping alive

Cut me up into little pieces

Shallow cuts
Deep cuts
They all hurt the same

But I dont hurt myself
So what else could be

My confidence rolls down my cheek
Made a stream along my neck
Itll grow into a river
And wash my fears away
Jan 2019 · 95
7
Gyuwon Jan 2019
7
When Im down
And fading like a flower withering away
Someone will shed tear for me
This was a poem originally written in my native language, Korean. However, HePo doesnt seem to accept work in Korean, so this is a translated version
Jan 2019 · 192
Shots in our Tears
Gyuwon Jan 2019
Two shots of tequila
A sprinkle of my tears

Pain in the glass
Like a shattered pane of glass

Bland taste
Blended heart

A candle inside an empty fireplace

Drown in my tears
And burn down my years

Was it my tears in tequila
Or tequila in my tears
Jan 2019 · 81
6
Gyuwon Jan 2019
6
Lightning bolts in your hair
Flames out your mouth
Shooting star in your eyes

You look great
Whoever it is you are

You look great in my mirror
You look great in my eyes
Jan 2019 · 163
5
Gyuwon Jan 2019
5
Raindrops are falling
But my eyes are dry as my throat
The next time you drain me dear
Leave me a few raindrops to cry

Touche, tears confront fear
But fear makes the rain drop
Oct 2018 · 189
4
Gyuwon Oct 2018
4
im here for a good time
but im not having a good time
oh well
i guess ill just stay here for a long time
Aug 2018 · 154
3
Gyuwon Aug 2018
3
So take out your pills
and face your final burden
30 should be enough
to get you to heaven
Jun 2018 · 128
Let me go
Gyuwon Jun 2018
**** me
Burn me from the inside
Torture me till I let out a scream
Strangle me until I collapse, powerless
Whats the point of keeping me here
When Ive no will to stay
Mar 2018 · 127
Every Day
Gyuwon Mar 2018
The light drains from people's faces,
Like the emptying bottles of alcohol.
They've flushed their dreams down the toilet,
And chose to face reality.
Feel their fear in every breath they take,
See their hands shake in the cold.
Imagine the pressure on their shoulders
Pushing on with their lives,
Fighting through every day.
Feb 2018 · 208
Moving Day
Gyuwon Feb 2018
Let's go somewhere we can feel safe
Somewhere hidden behind the walls
Where we are guaranteed at least a meal a day
And a blanket to fight the cold
We wont have to run away from anything
We will call this place home
I can get a job and you can go to school
You wont have to worry about nothing;
Its a great country I hear
Lets leave behind the terror and fear
And move on to our beautiful future
A Message to @realDonaldTrump presented to you by Gyuwon Roh
Dec 2017 · 643
Lights Out.
Gyuwon Dec 2017
Whats the point of having a phone if noone ever calls you?
Whats the point of living a life you dont even appreciate anymore?
My brain is taken hostage by the pressure on me
And my body by my insecurities.
Why would anyone care that Im gone?
They dont even know I exist.
So if its gonna end anyways,
Just end me quickly.
Lights out, goodbye.
Dec 2017 · 3.5k
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Gyuwon Dec 2017
2
Im not a poet,
Im just a depressed teenger.
Ill run around the circuit
Until my sweat becomes my armor.

Dont expect much from me,
Im just a socially awkward wreck
The worst card in the deck
Only be remembered as a speck

My ideas are so cliché
That theyve become irrelevant
I always give up midway
And leave myself less confident

But until I find my purpose,
Im just a depressed teenager,
A voiceless individual,
A worthless entity.
Dec 2017 · 213
Remember me
Gyuwon Dec 2017
Just the idea of being forgotten haunts me every night

So when I’m gone,
Remember me, Okay?
Nov 2017 · 194
Christmas Eve
Gyuwon Nov 2017
The sun washes the sky red
And smiles sneak onto everyone's faces

The trees get coated in rainbow lights
And the sound of laughter won't stop

The skies turn grey
And throws snowballs at you-
Just like how you used to play,
back in your younger years.

The sound of overused carols,
The sound of singing choir,
The sound of happy families-
The sounds of Christmas.

Soon the ground has turned white,
And the fireplaces get lit
Smoke starts to puff out of chimneys,
And the chestnut starts roasting

The sky is now dark
And the wind has left me cold
Still, all these people
Are willing to share their hearts
Nov 2017 · 170
Farewell
Gyuwon Nov 2017
My heart hesitates to beat
As the blood drains from my lifeless body.
The little bit of soul that was left
Is now gone;
And my flesh will sit here and rot
Until its washed its sins.
And the lively person that I was
Is no more-
The world darkens,
And my eyelids Close
The sun will rise-  eventually,
But I won’t be here to see tomorrow
Oct 2017 · 291
Lost, Wondering.
Gyuwon Oct 2017
As the sun starts to flicker,
And the glasses get filled with liquor.
As the street lights shine bright,
And the couples hold tight.
As the moon climbs into the somber and starless skies,
And the lost and drunk wonder around like fireflies-
With empty bottles in their hands,
But still filled with hope and enthusiasm in their hearts.

Just lost,
Wondering around,
Alone,
Together-

Wondering,

Just Wondering.
Oct 2017 · 174
Top
Gyuwon Oct 2017
Top
When you fall down,
get back on your feet.
and when you get to the top
just look down at the ones who doubted you.
Oct 2017 · 218
(don't)remember
Gyuwon Oct 2017
there are two types of memories;
ones written with pencil
and ones written with pen

the nothing memories get written in pencil.
they eventually fade away,
get rubbed out with erasers,
get overwritten
or just simply forgotten.

then there are the important memories
written in various colored ink
they can't simply be rubbed out
and they can't just be forgotten

the pencil memories
don't matter to you so much,
if at all.

the pen memories,
hurt you when you think about them
or reminds you of the good days

they leave a scuff
a dent
a mark on your soul
and they remind you of what you live for.
this one just popped into my head. I had to write it down.
Oct 2017 · 157
The Seasons of Love
Gyuwon Oct 2017
We met in the spring
When the flowers bloomed.
I fell in love with you,
And so it started.

Then came summer,
With the blazing sun.
We fell in love deeper,
As we were lying in the sun.

Then came autumn,
And the leaves started to fall.
We were fighting more,
We were waging a war.

Then came winter,
With the freezing of hearts.
Our feelings have already died,
And so has our relationship.

So when it starts to snow,
Come and kiss me goodbye.
Oct 2017 · 215
Fragile Hearts at War
Gyuwon Oct 2017
Like an engine, driving the shafts in an armoured car,
There are little hearts, powering the soldiers at war.
Listen to the bullets fly above your head,
As the civilians mourn the dead.

Duck down in your trenches for you might get shot,
As you watch the piles of lifeless bodies rot.
When you see a dense cloud of smoke coming,
Pull out your mask quickly, or you’d already be suffocating.

Have your weapon always ready,
And as you aim, keep your hands steady.
You want to make sure every shot counts,
and As minutes pass, the tension mounts.

On the whistle, run out of your tunnel,
And make a run for it, pointing the barrel-
Towards the enemy, or the young men with little hearts,
Too fragile to handle the terror of fire any war starts.
Just in case you don't know, this poem is about WW1 and trench warfare.
Oct 2017 · 165
down
Gyuwon Oct 2017
Whenever you are down,
Just remember-

If you are trying your hardest to comfort yourself,
The person you are leaning onto is trying twice as hard to make you you again.
Oct 2017 · 349
The full stop to your life.
Gyuwon Oct 2017
A boy, with a tangled mind,
A boy, with just his purpose to find.
A man, with no emotion,
A man, who just wants promotion.
An elderly, whose face has turned grim,
An elderly, with no life left in him.


My body feels empty,
And my soul is almost dried out.
My heart, engulfed in guilt,
Continues to beat, washing off its filth.


With every beat of my heart,
That moment is getting closer,
And closer.
Oct 2017 · 194
Try
Gyuwon Oct 2017
Try
Cracking under pressure,
I’m about to lose it all.

Pushed to the edge,
I’m about to take a fall.

Flying high up in the sky,
I’m about to stall.



Trying my best,
I still hit a wall.
this is one of my favorites
Oct 2017 · 160
Jump
Gyuwon Oct 2017
Standing on the roof,
He can feel the cold air hitting his face.
The snowflakes poke straight into his skin
As he clears his mind.


He hums a song, in a low voice.
He closes his eyes, and takes a big breath.
He spreads his arms
then moves himself towards the edge.


Without any hesitation,
He jumps off.
Please don't commit suicide guys
Oct 2017 · 218
Question
Gyuwon Oct 2017
Like a spear,
A question aimed straight at my heart,
A question which instantly makes you guilty-
Sharp and Pointy,
Yet so cliché.

Are you living your life to the fullest?

A question that doubts your routines
A question which shows your insecurity.

Like a spear,
It penetrated my soul-
Questioning all of my achievements,
Questioning my entire life.
Ugh I feel like I **** at writing these.
thanks guys for taking your time to read this

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