Worried so much about making mistakes
Holding back don't want to be judged
Or talked about made a fool of
Give to others do good deeds never enough
Accused of being a cheater been nothing but loyal
Make in the world fear of failure
Not be held back over come obstacle
Doing what matters over wasting time
Dream big but not going too far
Gave up drinking sober living
So much contradiction from others
Dealing with hipocrites being noble and honest
Staying home write stay out trouble Friday night
So hard to be normal
living on a bubble walking egg shells

I love this venue
that cobble stone alley
I've found needles there before
So perfectly filthy
and the place smells
like ****, *****, and sweat
And we tear it apart with every show
Me and Martin and Jake
drinking beers with one of the bands
before they went on stage
The manager came out
"What the hell are you doing?
I don't want a bunch of drunk kids in my club!
Get your ***** back inside."

Buzzing we made our way inside
God this music is loud
****** fingers shredding guitars
and rapid fire growls
like a hungry stomach
I like this?
I don't even understand it
The pit was going insane
and I was just drunk enough
were I was too
So we jumped in
punching and slamming our bodies
into complete strangers
A thirty year old man
punched me in the face
so I punched him back
and he high fived me

The crowd demanded blood
Jake was hoisted off the ground
crowd surfing a tsunami
they drunkenly neglected
that it was a bad idea
to drop into a hurricane
of stomping studded boots
But they did
and we dragged him out
blood overflowing from his mouth
we had to leave early
and missed the headliner
Jake received five stitches
and wore it like a medal
I didn't go to many shows after that

what were we?
an epic love
full of emotion
heartbreak
trust, broken, then repaired
then broken again

we were four years spent on my tan couch
popcorn and kisses
cuddling for warmth in the winter
sticky from sweat in the summer
that stupid couch, it's too hot
but that's okay, i want you near me anyway

we were the short short walk to each others house
meet halfway
we were the loving gaze, the soft touch
you holding me, safe
we were the phone calls every night before bed
we were in your car outside my house
and you, reluctant to let me go home
one more kiss

but we were also the phone being thrown across the room
the disappointment on every birthday, christmas, valentines day
the other girls
you should have known
from day one
that i was too much for you
too stupid, too sad, too much
i'm crazy, depressed, you hated that about me
but why did you stay for so long
four years
why did you stay

maybe if you had left sooner
i could have left too