Just kidding
No, I won't falter
Falter my guard
Guarding myself
From harm

Just kidding
No, I won't let
Anyone near
Won't let my 
Chilled heart
Be warm

Just kidding,
No more flowers
Happy-feely thoughts
That cloud up
My mind

Just kidding,
No, I won't play
Won't push next
But would rather,
Pause and rewind

Just morphing
Back into having
A chilled heart
That's uncapable
Of feeling anything

Numb
'Til the flowers
Grow back