So this is what it feels like
To actually think
you have a chance
with a guy
who is so far out of your league
that it is ridiculous
he has even noticed
your minor existence
I like it
So this is what it feels like
To start falling for a poet
to find someone attractive
for their soul
so this is what talking
to a "popular guy" feels like
when you
have always been
are still
and will always be
an "unpopular girl"
so this is what it feels like
to find a writer
and realize
there is so much potential
it is almost
impossible to believe
it is really happening
and you are really
feeling this happy
I like it
So this is what it feels like
To text a guy
everyday after school
send him pictures
of your face
not your body
and that
is all he asked you for
to have a guy call you pretty
everyday
to be titled a broad variety
of pretty things
by a truly hot boy
because he writes
he has a wide vocabulary
and a beautiful mind
so this is what it feels like
to feel wanted
by a boy
I like it
So this is what it feels like
To go on a trip
and come back
to the boy
who you
have been talking to
for months now
who has told you
he thinks
his mother
would like you
who has told you
he is going to
make your days together
special
who has told you
he wants
to take you
on a picnic
the boy
you thought about
everyday
while you were away
so this is what it feels like
to have him text you:
So, remember how I liked you?
In pastense
you notice the tense
right away
so this is what it feels like
to deal with
him telling you
he is "in love"
with his ex
he loves her so much
he wants her
so this is what it feels like
to feel used
and unwanted
and worthless
and not enough
and second place
and still like him
even though
it hurts
to still wish
his contact
would light up your screen
with a text message
that says: hey pretty girl
like he used to send
so this is how it feels
to be second best
I don't like it.
well, now I know how it feels