in motion, ideas always look good at first hand
in practice, decisions made are all written in sand

i've never felt hate like this before
id rather be unconscious than all alone
my life is ruled by powers i cannot control
decisions filtered through the minds
that will never know
its painful

intelligence visits those
with the patience to lend their ears

so this is hate
this is what i've become because of you
provocative entertainment
feeds the mouths that never close
enters minds
severs connections
decisions made based on lies fed
spewing out younger ******
enough to feed all your intentions

i don't know who pushed me in
i don't know where to begin
i've been silent till this day
and there's so much i have to say

but its time to fade away

wake me when my time has come
i cannot breath anymore
to take my place
among the rest of the thorns

wake me when my time has come
i cannot bare this anymore
this life i've been dealt holds more pain
than has ever before

been standing by myself for so long
i cannot take it
and all my deepest dreams are all gone
forever and ever

when we're young
we look up
and find idols
they shape us
the lift us up
inspire us
anything is possible

but there comes a time
when we realize the fragileness of life
a family member, a friend
a distant life ends
and then one day
all our heroes die
and we morn them as a friend

(cheers to the ones who master chess while we learn to play checkers)

this is not a pome
this is not some randomness
this is not meant to be seen
but i have to put it somewhere

public private
its all the same to me
this is not meant to be seen
but i want to put it somewhere

i've been scribbling more and more
a **** that's overflowed
this is not meant to be seen
but i need to put it somewhere

the stars, each an idea
a lesson to be learned
this is not meant to be seen
but at least i put it somewhere

hello poetry

ive made so many plans
made so many goals
so many good intentions
many mornings ready to go

so many false stars
so many excuses
so many maybe tomorrows
so many lies to myself