you're eyes saw a world your mind could understand
while other ignored
you adored

the odd, the very strange
point, shoot
capture

last supper

did you know how important you were?
do you know how important you are?

a memory flooded back to me today
unexpectedly
it was nice
like chicken soup on a chilly day

you know the one

its been fifteen years since we last spoke
our paths just
parted
a shame

was it a shame?

it seems to me our one way street forked at some point
i went left while you, stood, still
you wanted to follow, you told me as much
how long did you stand there?

are you still standing there?

neither of us have much presence online
no way to peak into each others lives
to slide in, to say hello
it must have been for the best

was it?

one day we should meet again
remember the old times
catch up on the the new
as familiar strangers

one day
i wonder how long it will be

become numb
it tingles just before i loose all feeling
embrace
enjoy

i can't believe
you confused my caring tenderness
with selfish lies

the machines
they hold the threads
that pull my puppet strings
make me smoke my cigarettes
and watch me as i waste
and all the time i do survive
i'm dying as i sing
remembering the lies you've fed
i've put them aside to live

i'm worth it more in pieces than i ever was when i was one
a poor excuse for a human being

i turned my forever beauty queen
into a girl of cold and morbid sunsets
i wish i could be as you were
in your only time to shine
congratulations
you grown to becomes my greatest regret
and since you always considered yourself my burden
i'm not surprised you turned your back
and while you tune me out of your life
moving on will seem to be the hardest part
just realize you once considered me your hope
when you felt your path go dark

this permanent scar you've left on my hear
a reminder of mind playing games i've lost

this all seems familiar
your broken record replays in my mind
as hard as i attempt to turn you off
you keep your light on inside

i see you crawl, take the same fall
as you admit that i'm always wrong
remain my muse, for all my tunes
i thank you for breaking my heart

i'm afraid to admit
i've become addicted to the pain
try shattering this mundane routine
that i've become too afraid to change